“Nobody likes an old plaything.”
“It’s not like, it’s love.”
Alternate Title: Before My Withering
Translator’s Summary
Xiao Yu was a beta turned omega, who loved an Alpha named Qu Shi with all his heart and soul, offering his body in exchange for his warmth. This love, however, was exploited by Qu Shi as his greatest weapon to trample him. The moment Xiao Yu lost everything because of this harboured feelings, he broke himself free from the chain that bound him, after all, there was only so much he could take before his entirety slowly shrivelled to dust.
Gentle, and strong black belly gong x sensitive, and sickly with inferiority complex shou
1v1, AB pair, Sadomasochistic
Gongzicp Purchasing Guide by BlackBox TL
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This is a fan translation and is therefore not totally reliable for re-translation. Please do not upload on NU over me.
I am moving this translation to Chrysanthemum Garden for better reading quality. Changes to the text has been made
This sounds angsty as f*ck, I’m guessing the gong is Qu Shi? Damn, will I get out of this in one piece?
Haha you’re quite lucky, it is angst!
Very very angstyIf you ever need a rope, just holler 🎐🎐I’m definitely gonna regret this… still reading it!
No turning back now. 🚫
Is it a HE
It is, don’t worry.
+1
I didn’t even realize I was holding my breath until I sighed with relief. Looking forward to the angst!
Oh! I was really worried.
Now I can start camping here 😊
Oh thank god. I can’t deal with Bad Endings at all😭✋
if you can & ready to angst ending, i recommend Killing Stalking (manhwa). It was a dark story, but very good🙍🏻
Thank you for your suggestion but hell nah😃 i’ve seen a bit of killing stalking and know the story, absolutely not-
Can I get raws or like the og or something lol. Also thank you for translating
Click the RAW Source above, it will direct you to the raws. 😄
This reminds me of Gazing at the Scenes of Debauchery😭 time to cry another ocean….
Here, have a boat. ⛵🛶
I cried myself to sleep when I read that novel, and even now, I can’t seem to move on :’)
That novel really was heartbreaking. If only he let him go :((
Just reading the title breaks my heart all over again. I was so heartbroken for that story I didn’t even finished it 🥲
The ending will either break you or will make you feel relieved. ⚰️⚰️
Inferiority complex? I’m in. I love seeing MC’s depressed, doubting themselves and feeling inferior, that makes us so similar to each other! 😀
Also it seems angsty af and i’m not usually into this, but if it’s HE then why not?Ty to the translator/team for bringing us thus novel!💜💜💜
I’m glad you’re giving this novel a try. Thank you so much for reading 🎐🌸
Hiiii may I ask what 1v1 and AB pair mean? 😂❤️
1v1 means that no third party is involved. So just our ML and MC. And AB pair comes from the ABO universe, meaning we have an Alpha and a Beta.
Hope I could help (灬º‿º灬)♡
Thank you very much 🥰🥰
What Sarana said is right. 🎐
Thank youuu 💕
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😊❤️
F*ckk im crying and i hvent read a single shit yet.. :’D
Here you go 🧻
another scum gong bashing novel 🤤 strap up babes
I got my seatbelt on!!
🚧🎐
Let’s beat up Qi Shit 😃🔪
Is it a HE with the Scum Gong or a New gong or No Gong?
I want to spoil but idk if the translator allows it (︶^︶)
I do not allow spoilers here but there’s a spoiler channel on CG’s discord so you guys can talk there 💚🎐
Can’t wait!!!! This is right up my alley
Angst runs through your veins, eh? 🎐🍷
🍷 🍷 without a doubt!! Was going to wait for at least 5 updates before reading again 😩 clearly I’ve failed!
Lemme have some share summadat blood angst ya guys got cause I’m willing to feel pain pain 🍹🍷
Interesting, does this have the same gong or another gong? (. ❛ ᴗ ❛.)
Only one way to find out 🌸🎐
omg this sounds angsty im in
Finally,a story about ansgt🗿
Angst?? Why would I go around hurtin my heart myself? secretly plans to read at night alone for a bawling session
Thanks for translating!
Hi, I can have your permission to translate novel into Portuguese. I will give proper credit.
Hello, I took liberties in translating this novel and as stated, it isn’t exactly a reliable reference for re-translation. I would suggest translating directly from the raws instead, and giving proper credit to the author would be enough.
Sadomasochism? That’s a first 🤔 You mean just on their sex life?
yes… no… maybe…
I made an account just to comment~ Thank you so much for translating this! I really love angst (≧∇≦)/
Oh, wow that’s touching. Thank you for reading! 🎐🎏
The gong is Qi Shu? From the description, it doesn’t seem like it. I hope it’s someone else… crosses fingers
Dear Abo Dammen…
Can I translate this novel in burmese language
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😭😭😭😭😭😭
I cried too much
i have avoided this novel since the beginning… i have now arrived with a hopefully prepared strong mental to read this amount of angst. wish me luck
Hello, Dear. I’m sorry if I disturb you. But I’m still asking for your permission to re-translate this novel into my language. I hope you would give a permission. <3
After reading all the chapters… I came back here to see the tags … I was praying for it to be happy ending and it is ….. amazing job translator ….
I cried and had a full ride of emotional roller coaster… but I still loved it …❤❤
read it all in one night, broke my heart and mended it all in one, was really super angsty and good at the same time
This is a powerful novel. It is not for the faint hearted but I guarantee you will love the story ….. in the end. Also be prepared to cry, get mad and curse a lot.
Hello, can I have your permission to translate your translation into Indonesian language? I will give the proper credit both from raw and yours. Thank you~
This is a short story, but I cried a lot because of it. i love it tho. the ending sure is good and what i really wanted… but i do have some lingering sadness. anyway what a good read. thanks for this! 😘😊
well this has given me enough sadness for the year😭
This fcking hurts like why? T.T
When i read this maybe my biggest wish was that ZC will be reborn and save XY from surname q**
But the ending is indeed fulfilling, no complaints (though i still wish he was reborn)
Love the translation 🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳
I’ve been avoiding this for idk how many months, but I’m going to face it today! I really really really want to read this yet afraid of the angst tag. Preparation is over. Wish my heart luck
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Very highly recommended.
The translation quality is great.
The story 👍🏼👍🏼👍🏼👍🏼
I want to congratulate the Writer. Loved the Story. I suffered and cried …
Ive read this quite sone time ago but it SCARRED me like whenever im looking for new things to read and see this I SHIVER. Its like a ptsd or something haha
This looks promising!! Although I’d like to clarify if it’s fully AB, fully AO because MC became O at the start of the story, or AB turned AO at the middle since TL mentioned MC being a beta-turned-omega? Thanks in advance!
I’m at ch14 and oh pls qu shi doesn’t even deserve a redemption arc this guy needs to stay the hell away from my boy