Before It ShrivelsChapter 4

Qi Shu didn’t let me go in the end.

Lust had been the umbrella of my tears. I could finally shed tears with abandon, whilst he just thought I was too happy. bVETfA

He always knew how to make me surrender. Today, I didn’t want to act so obedient so I desperately tore the sheets beneath me and told him not to do it here.

Anywhere was fine, as long as it wasn’t here.

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Smelling the residual pheromones and thinking of their intertwined flesh would’ve made me vomit.

I had thought my fierce resistance would be met with an even more rough treatment, but Qi Shu didn’t do anything out of the ordinary. Instead, he carried me to the sofa outside. 6rho3L

Probably because the little omega had served him happily, I also got a touch of light and a little bit of tenderness.

“What else can you do besides crying,” said Qi Shu.

Nothing.

I had no clue how to be coquettish or adress him Qi ge softly. I know nothing on how to please my alpha only through instinct like any other omegas.

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Even my pheromone wasn’t real.

The doctor said that the kind of pheromones I would get after the gland transplant would depend on the original body, so my plan to choose a flavor that would match Qi Shu’s failed.

Wen Yan’s pheromone was lychee-flavored, and the bed partners that Qi Shu had would mostly be sweet and fruity-scented. I couldn’t satisfy him with such a simple thing.

I used to have a delusion that no matter how well I behaved and how much I liked him, one day, Qi Shu would leave me a small place in his heart. mkQD3E

But the closer Wen Yan’s arrival to China was, the colder he became towards me. Only then I knew that delusion was delusion after all, and that having a place in Qi Shu’s heart was only wishful thinking.

There was no way to stay with him even for a short while longer.

Perhaps I should consider the professor’s suggestion.

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Qi Shu had a meeting in the afternoon and asked me to wait for him here. I didn’t want to go back to the bedroom, so I curled up on the couch and wrapped myself under a blanket then drifted off.

During the period, Xiao Wu came in to deliver me coffee and dessert, and carefully advised me not to make trouble with Qi Shu. Every time he got angry, the people underneath would have a hard time.

I’m making trouble with Qi Shu?

I make him angry? jlrP7u

You’ve given me too much credit.

I asked Xiao Wu if he knew who the omega was today. Xiao Wu turned pale and stammered that it was a new intern.

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An 18, almost 19-year old who had just attended university was able to enter Qi Shu’s company as an intern? Only idiots would believe it.

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“There may be something wrong with your gland. Come as soon as possible tomorrow.” The doctor’s tone was serious.

“Okay, thank you.” oB01W5

There’s something wrong with the gland… I touched the back of my neck that was bitten by Qi Shu just now.

The smell of amber remained on my body, and was still evident even after washing.

I didn’t realize he was so much like a dog that liked to mark their territory before.

I remembered a long time ago when I just finished, he sniffed the back of my neck and mumbled, “Why aren’t you an omega?” At that time, I was in a daze and didn’t have the chance to answer. kScLlq

Later, I asked him if he wanted me to be an omega, and he aggressively said, “Don’t think about those useless things,” and never talked about omegas again. He was unhappy until I had the transplant.

If he was unhappy, then he’s unhappy. Every bite was indispensable.

This was probably the instinct of an inferior alpha.

I hung up and fell asleep. I didn’t know how long I slept. I was carried up and moved into the car. Semi-consciously, I heard Qi Shu say, “I have to fuck you to convince you to be obedient.” JcnF78

“I’ve always been obedient…” I retorted instinctively.

“Did you listen to me when I told you to stay away from those messy alphas?” Qi Shu asked.

He didn’t move gently at all and slammed my head against the car window.

This bastard. rYdpG7

What’s so good besides that patch of skin? Why should I like him?

“Only you are the messiest…. You sleep with others… You’re dirty..”

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Oh no, I seem to have said what’s on my mind.

Don’t dare open your eyes. Bk2HI6

When I felt Qi Shu sitting beside me, my whole body’s muscles tensed up. His eyes were so existential that he stared straight through my heart.

“You talk as if you’re so clean.”

After a long time, Qi Shu chuckled.

“How are you going to meet him when you’ve gotten so dirty?” 9B3ld0

Who?

I pricked up my ears and waited for Qi Shu to follow up, but he already stopped.

We didn’t sleep together that night. He was very busy inside his study, I didn’t dare disturb him. When I woke up the next day, there was no trace of anyone lying beside me.

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I listened to the doctor and went to the hospital early.

Private hospitals would always appear like they’re deserted, as if not many people in the world were suffering from illness.

When the doctor saw me, his expression was similar to that of Xu Xingze. When I first came to the surgery by myself, I was unaccompanied before and after, and acted extremely self-reliant. The doctor probably thought that I was a strong person, so I didn’t restrain my expression.

He looked at me as if I was suffering a terminal illness. pIDEy3

Fortunately, it wasn’t a terminal illness.

“….In short, the artificial gland can’t come to terms with your body. The game between the two sides is constantly depleting your vitality…”

The doctor took the CT report as he smacked his lips on top of the other. I listened for a few minutes before I understood what he said.

“…Your heart has already shown symptoms of failure, and all the body indicators aren’t too optimistic. If you go on like this, you may not be able to last long…” Qi51oG

Oh, the little gadget that didn’t belong to me at the back of my neck was going to kill me.

“Then I… What should I do….” I interrupted the doctor.

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Although life was hopeless, I didn’t want to die yet.

“The easiest and most effective method is to have an immediate surgery to remove the glands.” The doctor paused, “But…” DAZq3y

It’s over. There’s a but.

He gave me a profound look and sighed, “But removing the gland could have an unpredictable effect on the fetus. You should know how important the mother’s pheromones are during pregnancy… In other words, your glands and your child are in a coexistence relationship.”

Wait… I didn’t understand again.

What fetus? What child? lUNAmz

“Doc, what are you talking about?”

“You don’t know?” The doctor’s surprised expression didn’t seem fake. “You’re six weeks pregnant.”

Pregnant?!

How was that possible?! upERkh

Beta male childbirth wasn’t fully developed, so the probability of pregnancy was very small. Qi Shu hasn’t worn a condom for so many years.

Before the surgery, the doctor also said that, in general, transplanting omega glands did not increase the possibility of conception.

How could I be pregnant?

My head was buzzing. I grasped the armrest and tried to restrain my shaking body. I confirmed to the doctor, “Am I really…pregnant? Is there no mistake?” AnVNg

“There can be no mistake.” The doctor was adamant, “Your recent weakness is also related to pregnancy.”

So I’m pregnant..with Qi Shu’s child…?

At that moment, I had the urge to cry and laugh simultaneously.

Damned fate. It really won’t let me go for a single second. yQWRJO

“It’s best for the father to come to the hospital,” said the doctor.

“He’s…very busy.” I said with difficulty, “I’ll go back and tell him…”

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Without reluctance, the doctor added, “In addition, I suggest you do some psychological counseling. Emotional outbursts are prone during pregnancy. Your insomnia and anorexia aren’t entirely physical reasons. Oh right, there happen to be two specialists in the Psychiatric and Psychology Department. You can stop by later.”

I had other things on my mind and didn’t really hear what the doctor said. 8b1kIv

The gland and fetus co-exist and would die together.

And the gland, in turn, was in a life-or-death situation with my body.

In other words…

“Doctor, how long can I live if… I don’t remove the gland?” dphOHR

“Mr. Xiao.” The doctor’s shock was tinged with a bit of anger, “A physically healthy beta male’s childbirth still posed a great risk, you…”

“I know. I was just asking…”

The doctor stared at me blankly for a long time, and finally compromised. “…If you take good care of yourself, half a year.”

Half a year… WkNMvS

I suddenly calmed down when I got the answer.

I couldn’t be any more familiar with my morals. As long as Qi Shu said he wanted it, I would give birth to the child even if I fight death itself.

But he probably doesn’t want it. 

Nevertheless, it’s better to find an opportunity to ask. 8Hfi7g

Just in case.


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Translator's Note

Lust had been the umbrella of my tears — In this context, lust served as a protective shield of Xiao Yu’s sorrowful tears. While Qi Shu thought he was crying because he enjoyed it, it was actually the opposite.

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37 comments

  1. I’m so glad there’s someone satisfying my addiction to scum gong novels 😭 also, the recommended song just happens to be be favorite one

  2. Wait a minute! unless it’s different in ABO worlds, don’t pregnancies last 9 months? If he’s going to die in half a year and his body is already in bad shape, the baby would be at a high risk during the pregnancy and then after its birth for being born so early. OMG I’m so concerned😰 Also can I find a way to tie Qi Shu and then sink him in an ocean in all of the nastiest stuff in the world?

    Thanks for the translation!

  3. Translator-sama, please tell me if you’ve read the whole novel, will our baby be confident, healthy and happy at the end? Because i don’t think i can take this much anymore-

    Ty for the chapter..💜💜💜

  4. I don´t want to be disrespectful or rude but this story reminds me to “Kiss me liar”

    it is a manga (I´m not sure if that´s the correct term) but the male alfa is an +ssh+le and the omega is well like the one in this story… now I need to keep reading it…

  5. It’s your child and your body atleast make a decision yourself and stop relying to a dog!