Before It ShrivelsChapter 13

Pain.

Endless pain. 7tqgZm

I couldn’t tell how many wounds there were, it had been as if my whole body had been chopped up. It hurts everywhere.

The mere act of opening my eyes took a lot of energy, and I had to squint again after not seeing the light for a long time.

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The ceiling was white. The quilt and bed sheets were also white.

If it wasn’t for the hanging bottle dripping liquid in my hand, it was so white that I had thought I was really in heaven. ZzTwCh

Everything before me was blurry. I turned my head and saw a vague figure on the sofa at the other end of the room.

“Qi Shu…?”

The man got up and walked over. Not Qi Shu.

It was Zhou Chen.

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Did Zhou Chen save me?

I tried to remember what happened that day, but as soon as I used my brain, my head throbbed badly.

“Finally, you’re awake.”

Zhou Chen’s sigh was very soft, but I could hear pity in it. QvFlqY

After that, he called doctors and nurses to film and draw blood. Several people fiddled me around, examining me carefully from the inside out.

When the two of us were left alone in the room again, more than an hour had already passed.

I was much more sober. Just now when my medication was changed, I realized that I had a not-so-shallow wound on my forehead. I had three stitches, which would probably leave a scar.

“It’s okay, you’re still good-looking.” Zhou Chen reassured me at the time. hGvwUu

He didn’t know I hated those two words.

――Those two words belong to those dainty omegas. Once they’re evaluated as beautiful, they seem to become a commodity for sale.

I wasn’t.

But I couldn’t correct him for now. EKIaiZ

After the doctors and nurses left, Zhou Chen sat on the edge of the bed and was silent for a long time, saying softly that he was sorry.

I was confused, why would he apologize?

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“I’m sorry I didn’t get to keep your baby. When I found you, you were lying in a pool of blood, your genital atrium was ruptured, and the baby could no longer be saved…”

What do you mean? I don’t understand. T5GpI6

The child was…. gone? How could it be gone?

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There was only one thought left in my head――Qi Shu and I, together, had killed our child.

“…Don’t do that.” A hand suddenly seized my own.

Only then did I notice that my nails were embedded in my flesh because I was pressing too hard. ShHL27

“You lied to me, didn’t you?” I grabbed Zhou Chen’s hand, like it was my final straw for survival.

All he did was apologize. “I’m sorry, I was late.”

I had thought the moment I was put in the basement by Qi Shu was the darkest moment of my life, but I had never imagined that there was a deeper despair waiting for me.

“Why did you… why did you save me?” Q8rjfN

Why did you save me.

Why did you let me live. 

I should’ve died.

Zhou Chen didn’t answer. His eyes behind the lens were complicated and unclear. ugo6fw

“Cry it out, it’s better to cry it out.” He said.

I didn’t want to cry.

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I had no right to cry.

I wasn’t the one who died. ejUVAc

Despite these thoughts, tears came out uncontrollably and eventually collapsed into a desperate wail.

Zhou Chen put my head in his arms and gently patted my back, saying it’s okay, don’t be afraid, it won’t hurt any more….

“You lied to me, I hurt so much…”

“What did I do wrong, tell me…” TnhQd

“How could he do this to me….”

 

…..

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“You didn’t do anything wrong, it’s his fault.”

Zhou Chen’s voice was deep and slow, like a fire burning quietly on a snowy night.

I cried for a long time, turning his expensive suit into a dirty rag as my tears formed a dark stain on his chest.

In the end, I got tired of crying and was left repeating the same question mechanically. e4jPJY

“Why did you save me…”

“Because I’m a doctor.” He finally answered.

I didn’t accept this reason. But I couldn’t refute it.

“Where’s Qi Shu?” ――When I mentioned those two words again, I felt nothing but pain and despair in my heart. AKtBmw

Zhou Chen frowned and said, “He asked me to take care of you.”

Take care of… how was that possible.

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I felt ironic. “Are those his exact words?”

“You don’t need to know.” dmgcLB

I understood.

It’s nothing more than “I’ll give it to you”, “handle it as you like”, “you can help yourself”, or even ” just find a place to bury it if it’s dead, no need to tell me”. These were all the words Qi Shu surely would say.

 

I lay back, leaned over the bed to look at Zhou Chen and asked, “Did you tell him about the baby?” HIzDd8

“No. If you don’t want him to know, I won’t tell him.” He said.

That’s good.

It’s already gone anyway. It’s useless to tell him.

It was as if I had a short dream. In my dream, I once had a moon. It was cold and hard, but it was the only light I could embrace in the long dark night. 8XrYoa

Now that the moonlight had gone out, the roses that bloomed on that barren planet withered with it.

Yet the moon didn’t know that no rose would suddenly wither.

“Do you want to sleep for a bit?” Zhou Chen asked.

I shook my head and asked him how long I had been in a coma. He replied that a week had just passed today. CbUmox

“Thank you, doc.” I finally remembered to thank Zhou Chen.

“There’s one more thing that I couldn’t decide for you.” He said, “Although the child is gone, your gland is still there. It’s up to you to decide whether to remove or keep it.”

Judging from his appearance, he should’ve already known that I wouldn’t live long. It’s strange that he spent so much effort to bring me back, but didn’t advise me to live well.

I said my thanks once again. YQIRmP

Zhou Chen shook his head, took off his glasses and held them in his hand. I noticed that he had two faint green hues under his eyes.

“How did you find me?” I asked.

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He raised his eyes to me faintly and said, “Would you feel offended if I said that I’d gone to check the surveillance because you disappeared for too long?”

I subconsciously shook my head. c2ClOj

Zhou Chen seemed to be feeling weary. He closed his eyes, and pinched the bridge of his nose. “I should’ve noticed that something was wrong, only I didn’t think Qi Shu could do this.”

I didn’t expect it either.

I still don’t want to admit that I fell in love with a scumbag, but it’s the truth.

“Right, this is for you.” VrFPS7

He took out a small silver pendant from his pocket, the size of a pinky knuckle. It resembled an ancient lantern, but without the wick. The glass cover was lined with some powder.

I suddenly felt something. Before I said anything, tears rolled out first.

“This, this is…”

Zhou Chen’s eyes dropped slightly. “He’s too small, only this little bit was left.” 4ZV2a9

My chest was so heavy that I couldn’t breathe. I took the pendant and clutched it tightly in my hand.

It’s really gone. It turned out to be really gone.

I never even experienced a fetal movement yet. He just left me forever.

The coin given to me by Qi Shu was still hanging around my neck, which was more like a huge irony at the moment. ldEt0q

Look, if you want to pick the moon, you have to bear the price of falling and breaking into pieces.

I was wrong. I won’t pick it anymore.

The coin I had replaced was thrown into the drawer of the bedside table. Zhou Chen took a look and said nothing.

The little lantern took its place and was now hanging properly on my chest, the closest place to my heart. Cgypj6

“…Dr. Zhou,” I said to Zhou Chen, “I want to remove the gland.”


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24 comments

  1. What a poor soul! I’m kinda happy the child is gone so that he/she won’t witness Qi brutality when the beta dies and I’m also sad cause the beta had sacrificed a lot just to keep the baby healthy.

    The beta is worthy to be loved and is good looking.

    I hope Qi believes karma is real.

  2. WTF** Qi Shu how could you do that ??

    He even killed his child ..how could he be soo cruel… does he not have feelings ??? this bastard

    😭😭

    I hope this Qi Shu die in hell , experience all the pain and agony which he has given to our Mc and at last… never ever be happy….

    😡

    Btw Thanks for the update!!!!

  3. Even though I feel so sad right now and I know it’s not even 1/100 th of the pain mc is feeling I just want to say to him that remember this pain so that he can be a better person for himself and for his lost child and don’t let that shit control his life and help him to pursue his dreams

    Thankyou for the update ❤️

  4. i feel like the pain is starting to leave but also feel like its gonna come back and stab me when it hurts 😭😭

    assassination squad lets go 🗡🗡🗡🗡

    thank you for the chapter 🖤

  5. Oh. My. God. I literally am just so shocked, so speechless, so idontevenknowwhattosay. I feel so bad for him😭😭 he deserves so much better!!!

    Thanks for the chapter!!😭❤️

  6. YES XIAO YU!!! FINALLY, LET HIM GO AND START TO THINJ ABOUT YOURSELF!! Although it might take a while, but there’s always hope. Never give up that hope!

    Ty for the chapter, even though it broke me😭💜💜💜

  7. I am happy for the first time since I started reading this novel. Happy that the baby is no more. Sad but true. At least now Xiang Lan can start trying to get rid of QS from his heart, body and soul.

  8. Nooooo the baby! 😭 QS is the one who shouldn’t be alive!

    I’m still crying, I really cried hard when ZC gave that necklace… Broke my heart into pieces 😭

  9. Is it bad that I feel a little happy that the baby was gone? With that he wouldn’t be swayed with the emotional instability caused by pregnancy and his judgement would be more clearer because of it. Not only that but he can now leave Qi Shit because he doesn’t need to be dependent of him because of the pregnancy. Anyways thanks for translating ♥️✨🥺

  10. Am I the only one who is crying for the pain an anger ???? OMG!!!! NEVER have I ever one to kill someone mire than right now and is a fiction character for worse

  11. I will be a cruel person and say that I’m glad that the child wasn’t able to be saved.

    Just imagining what kind of life he would have and there is only one word – hell.

    Just look at his parents for example

    1) His mother died while giving birth to him, thinking about how bad Yu’s health was already at the beginning of pregnancy high chance he wouldn’t have been able to give birth at normal date, mostly likely it would’ve been a premature, which means child will have health problems.

    Considering that his father doesn’t know about him, he will be an orphan. Yu with bad health won’t have enough time to find someone truthworthy and suitable enough for raising his child.

    2) His father is a total scumbag, shit and trash. Someone who abused, beat up and used as a thing his mother.

    3) He was born out of wedlock, by a person whose identity was a plaything for his father, an illegitimate child, his identity would be a bastard. What even worser, his father is from a very wealthy family, and he is a bastard, great, right?

    4) The child will think why Yu even decided to give birth to him after all of this and make him live like that. And what will be the answer? I certainly don’t know, since I still don’t understand why he wanted to do it. My personal opinion Yu selfishly wanted to use this child as a way to die himself, strange method of suicide. Or it was for Qi Shu? But how? Qi Shu doesn’t want children and MC knows it, he also didn’t want to tell him about this child so, not for Qi Shu I assume? Bcs he loves Qi Shu? But he figured alredy that he doesn’t love him anymore, not for this reason either than. So, it was really for dying.

    In my opinion this child was lucky to not be born.