Before It ShrivelsChapter 9

I thought about it. I hadn’t dared to call directly, so I only sent a few messages to Qi Shu.

【Senior】   RY8h6e

【I’m sorry】 

【Can I go back?】 

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He replied quickly this time: 【You can】

I couldn’t help but guess what he was doing and thinking right now, as the two cold words on the screen held no emotion. f9LQ4M

If he’s unhappy, how should I explain to him that I didn’t mean to disturb him yesterday?

Besides, he didn’t seem to like Xu Xingze that much. Would I only make things worse…

Fortunately, he didn’t say that he wouldn’t allow me to go back.

I was still thinking about how to find an excuse to get discharged from the hospital when Xu Xingze answered the phone and reluctantly dealt with it. After a few words, he put down his phone with black lines shrouding his face and said, “Qi Shu’s secretary said he would pick you up in half an hour.”

After that, he mumbled to himself, “It’s strange. How did he know my phone number?”

I also wondered why they didn’t call me directly.

“If you don’t want to go, you can stay in the hospital or go back to school. You don’t have to be afraid, I’m here.”

“I’d like to…” zXd5fB

Xu Xingze choked for a moment, then sighed bitterly. He looked at my belly and said, “I almost forgot that you’re…”

In fact, I didn’t feel much about the little guy in my stomach. After all, it had only been less than two months, so I couldn’t even tell the gender.

I hope it’s a cute beta girl.

The personality shouldn’t be too much like Qi Shu. lITjYF

Well… It wouldn’t be good if she’s like me. I didn’t have my own opinions and I was quite unfamiliar with people.

It would be better for her to be a bit smarter like Qi Shu.

Xiao Wu was constantly on time. If he said half an hour, then it would be half an hour, not a minute too soon. q3RH l

He took me home and said that Qi Shu had to work late today.

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As soon as I entered the door, I saw a pair of goose-yellow plush slippers on the shoe cabinet that I had never seen before. Regarding the size or the style, it didn’t look like Qi Shu’s.

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Sure enough.

“I got it.” I waved my hand, no longer about to continue asking.

After Xiao Wu left, I was suddenly at a loss for words. EvK9tn

When I looked down, I saw those eye-catching slippers again that were placed on the top shelf of the shoe cabinet.

My original mood of expecting to see Qi Shu instantly fell apart.

Strange. Why do people always want to covet things that couldn’t belong to them? Was it really addictive to love someone you couldn’t have?

If there’s more time, maybe I would try my best to win the spot of being his white moonlight that lasted more than ten years and two months of new love. O5jzqM

But now I didn’t have the strength and the heart to fight any more. So what if I win? So what if I get it? It’s nothing more than drinking more soup on the Naihe bridge.

It was nearly midnight when Qi Shu came back. With a group of managers under him, there were few things that required him to work so late.

I was restless as I slept on the living room couch and woke up when I heard the commotion.

When I opened my eyes, I saw him leaning over to put out half a cigarette in the ashtray, giving me a sidelong glance and asking, “What do you think my place is, hm?” lkNnjv

I was still a bit dazed after sitting up.

Qi Shu’s voice was calm. But the calmer he was, the more it gave rise to a bad feeling.

He sat down next to me, picked up my cuff and smelled it. He then frowned and said, “I told you before that I don’t like the smell of another alpha. You’re deaf, aren’t you?”

“No…” I hastily denied. smMFeH

He was impatient. “Go and clean yourself up before you talk to me.”

I had no choice but to take a shower first. I washed carefully for more than half an hour. I thought about it and in the end, I packed my clothes and threw them into the trash.

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When I changed into my pajamas and went out, Qi Shu was still sitting on the sofa. He lit another cigarette, while I wondered what’s on his mind.

There was only one night light in the living room, and it was dim. Qi Shu’s face was a bit fuzzy as smoke surrounded him. CLTuhp

I suddenly felt a strange sense of tranquility, as if there were only two of us left in the world. There’s no natural chasm of class, no suffering of illness, and no other people mixed in between us.

It didn’t matter if he didn’t love me, he only has me now.

Such peace didn’t last long. Qi Shu raised his eyes and said faintly, “You don’t have to go to school tomorrow. Someone will help you with the graduation procedures.”

What do you mean… Why… MwYFlT

“But I promised my teacher that I’ll attend the graduation party…”

“I’m not paying you to go out and show your face off.”

He got up and walked over to me and suddenly pressed the cigarette to my collarbone without warning. Even though the fabric had acted as a cushion, the high temperature still instantly scalded my flesh with a hiss.

The burning pain spread from my collarbone to my whole body; the smell of burning flesh and blood permeated in the air. ceGHiU

I was shaking with pain for a moment, but I also felt a strange sense of pleasure from it.

I could even clearly feel Qi Shu twist the cigarette until the spark was completely extinguished.

“Does it hurt?” His face didn’t change as he threw his cigarette away.

Does it…. hurt? Of course, it hurts. rXWgSi

But this pain was nothing compared to the pain of transplanting the gland.

Whenever I look at Qi Shu, I had accumulated so much disappointment that I couldn’t be that sad anymore.

This bastard. I’m dying, yet he still refused to be nice to me. 

“Don’t renew the contract if it expires this year.” I reluctantly smiled. “Or you can terminate it early. I can just refund you the extra money.” Ur3Wat

Qi Shu’s eyes darkened. He didn’t speak.

“You don’t lack bed partners, and now you have Wen Ziqing, so why waste money on me again? I know myself, I’m not worth that price.” I continued to say, holding back the pain.

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After a long silence, Qi Shu suddenly said, “He’s a bit like you when you were 18 years old, but he’s more sensible than you. It’s really useless to keep you.”

Wen Ziqing was like me…? More like he resembled Wen Yan. qiZdzk

“But I don’t like to take back the money I gave out.”

Qi Shu’s hand was over my collarbone, his posture similar to a lover’s caress. But the next moment, his thumb pressed heavily on my wound.

The pain was so intense that cold sweat gathered my body, and I heard him say, “So you still have to listen to me now.”

…Great, I pissed off Qi Shu again. tWuq1n

I didn’t want to argue.

Qi Shu’s hand was powerful. After enduring for a long time, I finally couldn’t help but grunt in pain. My legs went limp as I fell into his arms, and my forehead accidentally hit his shoulder.

“It hurts…. Qi Shu…”

According to past experience, if I didn’t want to suffer more, it would be better to act soft than hard-mouthed. dvPx5c

“It’s good to know that it hurts.” Qi Shu finally spared me and asked, “What are you doing at the hospital today?”

“Fever…”

“Oh? Do you really have a fever?” He didn’t seem to believe me and tested my forehead with his lips.

It’s like a kiss. iQtO7s

I was long used to Qi Shu’s practice of slapping then giving a sweet date, as I replied, “I’m not burning anymore.”

“What did the doctor say?”

“The doctor said…it’s just a cold. You don’t have to mind it.”

Qi Shu hummed and stopped asking. BnWdl1

He didn’t really care about me, otherwise he wouldn’t be unaware of my abnormal state during this period.

Asking a few questions was already considered charity. I should be satisfied.

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The burn still hurts, but the headache and heart palpitations that have been tormenting me these days were relieved just by being near Qi Shu.

An omega’s biggest disadvantage was that once marked or pregnant, it could never leave its alpha. QXpg J

Now I couldn’t tell whether I was still psychologically attached to Qi Shu or whether it was only my physical instinct that made me have to rely on him.

It didn’t matter. I had been living in a muddle for more than 20 years. What would it matter if I wouldn’t be sober in the last few months?

I wasn’t really smart after all.

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