Edited by Elanor
Ye Yao got up in the morning, and when he saw Lu Xun at the sink, he was startled.
Lu Xun was brushing his teeth with drooping eyelids, his whole face was extremely haggard, and he turned into a disheveled handsome man. Seeing him, Lu Xun, whose mouth was full of foam, forced out a smile.
The smile did not look good.
“…Are you okay?” Ye Yao worriedly asked.
“I’m okay.” Lu Xun spat out the foam in his mouth and replied to Ye Yao, “I watched a ball game last night and didn’t sleep much all night.”
Ye Yao didn’t know whether the reason was true or not, but he played along and said: “You can watch the game during the day, don’t stay up too late, it’s not good for your health.”
Lu Xun nodded.
Seeing that Lu Xun didn’t seem to be paying attention to his words, Ye Yao couldn’t help but add another sentence: “Staying up late will make you ugly… Forget it.”
Anyway Lu Xun had never cared about appearance at all, so whatever he said was useless.
Just as Ye Yao finished thinking this way, he saw Lu Xun’s eyes widened. Lu Xun took a few sips of water to clean up the remaining foam in his mouth, and hurried out of the bathroom.
Ye Yao poked his head out of the bathroom to look, and saw Lu Xun had gone to the dressing mirror in the dormitory, and was scrutinizing his face.
Ye Yao: “…”
Xiao Pang, who was also washing up, was also stunned by Lu Xun’s reaction. He and Ye Yao looked at each other and Xiao Pang said in shock: “What happened, suddenly Brother Lu actually paid attention to whether he is handsome today or not?”
“…I don’t know.” Ye Yao said, “Maybe some players in the game he watched last night were too handsome, arousing his competitive spirit.”
*****
Ye Yao was in class as usual, and when class was over, he took out his phone and wanted to swipe through it casually, when he saw the emoji package that Lu Xun had sent him again.
This was a chubby white duck, with tears in its eyes drawing circles on the ground with its wings, with the words [I know you are very busy, don’t forget to talk to me when you are free].
Ye Yao smiled, and poked the fat duck on the screen.
Even now, Lu Xun was still working hard and was persistently sending him messages to maintain contact between them, which was enough to show that Lu Xun attached great importance to this relationship.
Why was he not doing the same?
Ye Yao felt a little complicated.
Now he no longer needed to walk on tightrope, and he and Lu Xun had become friends keeping a certain distance. On the surface, everything had reached the most ideal state.
But it was also because of their intimacy in the past, and now that the relationship had stepped back some, no matter how rational Ye Yao was, his mood would be more or less depressed.
It would be great if there was an activity to let him relax, such as going mountain climbing on weekends. After a while, he should be able to get used to it.
Ye Yao kept staring at the phone screen, and he saw another message from Lu Xun: [Actually, I didn’t stay up last night because I was watching the football match …]
Ye Yao had just finished reading this sentence, and in less than two seconds, Lu Xun withdrew this sentence for some reason.
Soon, Lu Xun sent another emoji: [Today also let’s do our best!]
After a moment, Ye Yao typed slowly: [En, let’s do our best.]
Ye Yao: [What did you withdraw earlier?]
Lu Xun’s message came back quickly: [Nothing, I accidentally clicked the wrong button and sent you a ugly emoji.]
Lu Xun: [Shall we go to dinner together tonight?]
Ye Yao glanced at the withdrawal prompt, but did not expose Lu Xun: [I want to study tonight.]
Lu Xun replied: [Shall I go with you? I also want to study hard.]
The self-study classroom would be quiet, so Ye Yao didn’t refuse, and replied with half-cast eyes: [Okay.]
After a short break at noon, Lu Xun looked much better. When he and Ye Yao went to the empty classroom for self-study at night, he had recovered and one again became the handsome guy who was dazzling wherever he went.
We’re sorry for MTLers or people who like using reading mode, but our translations keep getting stolen by aggregators so we’re going to bring back the copy protection. If you need to MTL please retype the gibberish parts.
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He held a pen in one hand, and the other hand was on the table, next to the junction of his table and Lu Xun’s table.
Studying calmed people’s minds, and when the study content had various legal provisions, it was easier for people to lose various worldly desires.
Ye Yao didn’t know how long he had been studying, but his hand that was on the table was suddenly touched by something warm.
Ye Yao looked to the side, and saw Lu Xun’s hand now rested next to his.
There was not much contact between the two hands, only a little bit of side contact, and the place where the hands touched seemed to itch.
Ye Yao didn’t speak, moved his hand a little to the side, and continued to read.
Even before he had finished reading half a page of the book, Ye Yao’s hand was touched again.
Lu Xun’s hand crossed the dividing line between their tables, as he pursued the other hand persistently.
Lu Xun’s book’s page had not even turned.
Ye Yao didn’t retreat this time, he frowned slightly, lowered his voice and said in a whisper: “Lu Xun.”
The voice was very soft, so it would not disturb other people who were studying at the other end of the classroom at all, but it was no different than a thunder to Lu Xun, who was buried in his thoughts.
Lu Xun jerked his head back: “Ah? What’s wrong?”
Ye Yao signaled Lu Xun to keep his voice down, then turned his head to look in the direction of his hand.
Lu Xun also looked over, was taken aback, and quickly withdrew his hand.
Lu Xun scratched his face, looking a little uncomfortable.
“I didn’t do it on purpose.” Lu Xun explained in a low voice, “I was thinking about other things, I don’t know why…”
In the absence of instructions from his brain, his hand quietly went against his will and touched Ye Yao secretly.
Damn it.
“So that’s how it is.” Ye Yao said, “Then I’ll sit farther away.”
Ye Yao pulled the chair to the other side, so that his whole body had a certain distance from Lu Xun.
“Continue reading.” Ye Yao said.
Lu Xun seemed hesitant to speak, but he finally said nothing, pursed his lips and nodded.
Ye Yao quietly read two pages of the book, then he suddenly found that there seemed to be something wrong.
Lu Xun’s hands didn’t come over this side again, and his feet were obediently restrained by the desk bars under his desk. Everything seemed to be okay, except…
There used to be a distance between Lu Xun’s upper body and him, but now the distance was only less than two hands away. If Lu Xun continued to lean towards him, it won’t be long before his shoulders touch him.
Ye Yao: “…”
Ye Yao didn’t move the chair, but turned his upper body to the other side. This time, instead of focusing on the book, he focused on Lu Xun who was next to him.
After he turned to the other side, Lu Xun slowly tilted again. His upper body, which was at a right angle to the chair at 90 degrees, slowly bent to 80 degrees, 70 degrees…
What was this, was there a spell that separated the butt from the upper body?
Seeing that he was about to stick to the wall, Ye Yao poked Lu Xun’s shoulder: “I know you have good eyesight, but you don’t have to have such a great distance from the book.”
Lu Xun suddenly came back to his senses. He looked at his posture, then at the place where the book was, and quickly corrected his posture.
“I really didn’t mean it!” Lu Xun explained, “My body seemed to move to you on its own”
Ye Yao looked at Lu Xun flipping through several pages of the book, holding a pen and preparing to study hard again, and sighed softly.
“I’m gay, Lu Xun.” Ye Yao said softly, “Think about it carefully, think about it deeply, when you remember it’s a little disgusting, you won’t subconsciously lean over.”
“I’m thinking…I’m thinking very seriously.” Lu Xun said in a low voice.
Ye Yao believed it, so he continued to study by himself.
Beside him, Lu Xun’s thoughts had completely slipped from the textbook.
Ye Yao asked him to think carefully and deeply.
This was what Ye Yao personally agreed to let him think deeply about it.
As if he had received an Imperial Decree, Lu Xun’s thoughts began to flow out of control. He was not willing to think deeply about things that would be disrespectful to Ye Yao. Under such an Imperial Decree, he now could think deeply about everything.
Ye Yao liked men, so when he expressed his love, he would take the initiative to hold the other person’s hand, hug their waist, and put his head on their shoulder.
If that person wanted to bow his head to ask for a kiss, then Ye Yao would raise his head in cooperation and lift up his pink lips.
The man he was imagining holding Ye Yao was originally vague and faceless, but for some reason, he slowly turned into a familiar silhouette of Lu Xun, calming Lu Xun’s anger.
It was right for such a person to hold Ye Yao.
… his mouth went dry, wanted a lot of water to moisturize.
Nausea? How could it be disgusting? That was the source of life.
… He was probably crazy, wanting to cling to this person for the rest of his life.
*****
After self-study, Ye Yao packed up his books and returned to the dormitory with Lu Xun from the school building.
On the way back, they passed by a milk tea shop, and there was a sign at the door of the shop, advertising the newly launched drink flavors.
Lu Xun didn’t pay attention to the flavors, he was attracted by the milk tea cup above.
On the cup was a person stretching his hand to the side, and when the two cups of milk tea were close together, the two people successfully held hands.
The milk tea shop was across from them, Lu Xun told Ye Yao to wait and ran over to buy it. After a short wait, he got the two cups.
Lu Xun put two cups of milk tea together and saw the two small people on the cup holding hands first, then he turned the cup in one direction so that the two small people’s stomachs and faces touched each other.
“Are you happy hugging me?” Lu Xun asked the cups.
Of course, it was impossible for the Milk Tea cup to answer him, but Lu Xun was quite satisfied. When he walked in front of Ye Yao, he separated the milk tea cups and handed one of the cups to Ye Yao.
As long as Ye Yao took the milk tea, it was equivalent to him holding hands and hugging Ye Yao.
Ye Yao didn’t know anything about what Lu Xun had done, he inserted the straw, and continued walking towards the dormitory with Lu Xun.
Lu Xun bought strawberry-flavored milk tea. He didn’t know what’s been going on with him recently, from knitting a pink sweater to liking pink strawberry milk tea. When he was in high school, he only wore black, white and gray, and only drank lemonade. Not to mention never going back to being the cool brother image, even the aesthetic color cast was getting more and more pink, it looked like falling in love.
A couple walked past, drinking the same milk tea as them. The girl probably noticed this and smiled at them.
“There are so many couples in college, and it’s not like in high school where they would get caught for puppy love.” Lu Xun watched the couple walk away, sighed and then fell silent, and then he lightly bumped Ye Yao’s shoulder.
“What about you, do you want to fall in love? When you went out to meet that girl, you said that you were busy studying and wanted to look for a job during college, so you don’t plan to fall in love. It was just an excuse, right?” Lu Xun asked.
He was happy because Ye Yao said that before, but now in retrospect, it was very likely that he said it casually because it was inconvenient to tell the real reason, after all, he was by Ye Yao’s side at that time.
“…” Ye Yao didn’t want to answer this question, “Why do you ask this, you want to introduce someone to me?”
In the past, saying this would directly make Lu Xun furious, but now he suppressed the annoyance in his eyes, and continued to discuss calmly: “Well, what kind of person is he, who made you realize that you were bent? ”
Halfway through the speech, Lu Xun’s calm voice and appearance had a slight change. This slight change added a bit of hostility to him, but he still smiled: “That person is not with you, even though your orientation has now changed. Why do you still secretly want to keep him in your heart and treasure him?”
Lu Xun’s eyes were fixed on Ye Yao, trying to catch any fluctuations on Ye Yao’s face.
But Ye Yao’s face didn’t fluctuate, and he didn’t seem to have any resentment or dissatisfaction with that person because of his words.
“Don’t ask this question.” Ye Yao replied calmly.
The pain in Lu Xun’s heart was unbearable. His tone seemed to be joking, but his voice was tense: “You really want to protect him and not let anyone know?”
Ye Yao took a look at Lu Xun this time.
It was hard for Lu Xun to say in words what this glance felt like.
“Yes, he’s my first love,” Ye Yao withdrew his gaze, “Of course I have to protect him.”
*****
After this conversation, Lu Xun fell into silence, and Ye Yao didn’t take the initiative to speak, so the two walked back to the dormitory in silence.
Just when Ye Yao thought that Lu Xun probably didn’t want to talk to him anymore right now, Lu Xun suddenly broke the silence.
“Ye Yao,” Lu Xun said, “do you think my behavior is a bit strange sometimes?”
“…” Ye Yao was speechless. Did Lu Xun finally figure out that he often talked too much, so he decided to correct his evil ways and return to the right path. Would it be possible to be a normal person?
“Have you finally realized this?” Ye Yao said, “If your behavior was normal, you wouldn’t have transferred schools back then, and you wouldn’t have known me.”
“…I’m not talking about that.” Lu Xun scratched his hair, glanced at Ye Yao, and said quickly, “What I mean is, do you think that sometimes my behavior is not quite straight?”
Ye Yao didn’t reply, he resumed drinking the milk tea that was almost finished.
Lu Xun clenched the milk tea cup in his hand, the moisture on the milk tea cup made his palm wet. It was not too noisy here, it was not as if Ye Yao had not heard him, right?
Ye Yao sucked up the mochi pearl at the bottom of the milk tea and chewed it. He turned his head to look at Lu Xun, and saw the tension in Lu Xun’s eyes.
Ye Yao chuckled: “What are you thinking, if you are not straight, then there is no straight person in this world.”
“But—” Lu Xun still wanted to speak, but was interrupted by Ye Yao.
“Do you now think that straight men don’t hold hands and hug every time?” Ye Yao shook his head, “This is the performance of a straight man, after having been bent, he will restrain his hands and feet when facing the same sex. The more you hug or hold hands, the more it shows that you are frank and have no evil thoughts.”
Ye Yao freed his hand and patted Lu Xun on the shoulder: “Don’t deceive yourself.”
When they arrived at the dormitory, Ye Yao opened the door first and entered, while Lu Xun watched his back from behind.
……Was it really like this?
*****
Wen Ke and Xiao Pang were talking happily in the dormitory. Seeing Ye Yao come back, Wen Ke hurriedly said to him: “Ye Zi, Ye Zi, do you see there is a class gathering, are you going?”
“Didn’t look, where is the gathering?” Ye Yao asked while pulling out his phone.
Wen Ke quickly answered: “It’s just a casual gathering of friends. People from the two classes go out to play together. It is said that there is no need to pay a fee this time. Some big guy thinks that the calculation of the fees for the two classes is too troublesome, so he pays for it all by himself.”
Xiao Pang rolled around slightly on the single bed with the quilt in his arms, his excitement was beyond words: “I don’t know if I will meet a girl who would be willing to develop a revolutionary friendship with me?”
Ye Yao took out his phone and opened the class group to check, and sure enough, he saw the notification.
The event did not require everyone to participate, but it emphasized that there were many delicious foods that were not for nothing. The class president of their class even sent him a private chat and asked him if he would go.
The activity time was on the weekend, Ye Yao didn’t reply to the class president immediately, but he did have this idea of attending.
Making life more colorful and diverting his attention to other places could also help him get used to the regressive but harmonious relationship with Lu Xun faster.
Ye Yao first asked Ms. Wang if he could take a day off that weekend, and after getting a positive reply, he was ready to answer the class monitor’s private chat.
Before he could reply, a person came up to him and grabbed his wrist.
…a hand he knew quite well.
Ye Yao slowly raised his head and saw Lu Xun whose eyes seemed to be spitting fire.
Lu Xun lowered his voice: “Are you really planning to go?”
“Why not?” Ye Yao asked back. Although he didn’t plan to find a partner at the event, he just wanted to relax, but he still said, “This is just a normal choice for single people.”
Lu Xun’s face suddenly sank.
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Oh LX, LX…
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Thank you for the chapter!
It feels like we are all suffering together 🙂
Hmm. I don’t know if I’m suffering, but I quite like the feeling of LX suffering 😶
YY, could you please not make it hard for our boy, LX? Man’s trying his best.
I can’t wait to see what at the party, hopefully a breakthrough in their relationship.
Thank you so much for the update! 😭❤️
I can’t wait for Lu Xun to finally admit to himself that he likes/loves Ye Yao… just keep contemplating bro, you’ll eventually reach that realization!
They’ve both been drinking the same kool-aid for too long.
Thank you for the update 🗿🌹
Hahaha I bet I’m not the only reader thinking back to the days when we thought Lu Xun was the only idiot 😄. Lu Xun actually opened a few doors to an important conversation and Ye Yao walked right past those doors into the walls instead 🤦.
True!!! Wow, I don’t miss being a student. All the insecurity about not knowing how to proceed with being in love. 🤣 But I enjoy watching my students go through it, though, especially when they end up married years later. (And their classmates go, “OMG, I didn’t even know they were together!)
Is my misery finally going to end in the next chapter?😌
HE FINALLY NOTICED?!
You know, I really feel like like YY doesn’t love LX that much. Like I know the author is telling us he does but none of his actions real show it. Feeling relieved at keeping a distance from LX? Not being slightly heartbroken when LX ran out of the room? Right now it’s pretty much LX carrying this whole ship.
i kinda agree. i know yy is trying to protect himself / his heart, but i wish there’d be more descriptions of his emotions. right now, i feel like lx loves yy way more than yy loves lx, even if lx doesn’t know it himself.
Thanks for the chapter ❤️
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