A blinding white hurt Shen Shuyun’s eyes as the smell of disinfectant solution surrounded his nose.
Shen Shuyun closed his eyes gain while the hospital’s cold light shone on the snow-white walls shaking his eyes raw.
“Brother Yun.”
Someone called him softly like this.
Shen Shuyun lifted his eyelids and tilted his head to look at the person sitting next to his bed.
Ning Wan’s brow and eyes couldn’t hide his tiredness, they only spent a short day without seeing each other, but he became so haggard even to the naked eye.
Shen Shuyun’s hand slowly moved to his flat belly, he staggered his eyes, staring straight at the ceiling, his voice was as soft as feather brushing water: “…… here, was there ever a child?”
Ning Wan held back a choked sob and said in a dumb voice: “Don’t think so much, you should get well first.”
He remembered that when he received the phone call from the hospital, he stayed still for a long time; a chill against his bones drilled up and seeped straight into his chest.
He thought, “What is this person saying? I don’t understand !”
Is he lying to him? Is today April Fool’s Day?
Hurrying to the hospital, Ning Wan ran to the doctor in a white coat who shook his head and told him with a frown:
“Mr. Shen was eleven weeks pregnant, but I regret to tell you that his pregnancy has stopped ……”
“Why?” Ning Wan grabbed the doctor’s arm like it was the last straw, “Why is that?”
The doctor looked at the checklist, pushed down his glasses, and asked:
“Mr. Shen’s physique is special, his long-term use of type 3 inhibitors has caused his body’s hormone and pheromone secretion to be disordered, and he has not fully recovered for the time being, which means that his current physique is not suitable for pregnancy. May I ask if you had any contraception last time?”
“Yes, he took the emergency contraceptive pills.”
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Two months ago, Shen Shuyun had called him, begging him to come home with a sobbing voice.
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Ning Wan was out of town on business trip, listening to Shen Shuyun’s request, he immediately bought the earliest flight back, and even so, it still took nearly three hours to get home.
As soon as he opened the door, an extremely fragrant jasmine scent floated in the air, and then a soft person pounced in his arms.
Shen Shuyun was only wearing a wide shirt that barely covered his buttocks; the root of his leg was visible showing that little mole that was usually hidden under his shirt…… He opened his wet eyes and tightly wrapped his arms around Ning Wan’s neck, the clear invitation was overwhelming.
Ning Wan couldn’t resist at that moment and pressed Shen Shuyun against the wall for a kiss. They exchanged long, wet kisses as they walked, and Shen Shuyun didn’t even want him to look for lubricants and condoms, his long, snow-white legs wrapped around Ning Wan making it impossible for him to take a single step.
This carnival has been mad and chaotic, the two people have receded to their primitive state, especially Shen Shuyun, he was extremely frivolous, he even agreed to try any posture suggested by Ning Wan.
In the evening, Ning Wan pressed Shen Shuyun on the balcony of the second floor, holding him from behind to watch the moon…… Shen Shuyun could hardly stand; the moon became a puddle of shaking egg yolk in his eyes that night.
Afterwards Shen Shuyun took the contraceptive pill, it is reasonable to say that he should not get pregnant, but……
“Emergency contraceptives are not 100% effective; Mr. Shen’s body is so special that it is possible for contraceptive pills to fail.”
The doctor sighed:
“This baby was already unstable, there were already signs of natural miscarriage, and then by the external force of the violent impact, by the time he came to the hospital we were unable to do anything, we had to stop his bleeding first, to prevent complications such as haemorrhage.”
Ning Wan’s eyes were so dry that they hurt. As he looked out the window at the sky with his eyes open, not a tear could come out, but his heart was bleeding.
Now is not the time for him to be weak, Ning Wan knows that Shen Shuyun is more upset than him, now he should give Shen Shuyun a broad shoulder as a solid support, accompanying his omega through the trauma.
Ning Wan’s avoidance of the heavy topic was almost equivalent to saying yes, the ward was once again quiet, after a long time, Shen Shuyun’s dry voice rang out, “How old was it?”
“…… Eleven weeks.”
This is his and Yun’s first child, only eleven weeks in this world – it did not come out to see the sun and the moon, nor did it experience the spring, summer, autumn and winter of the earth, it just went alone, and even before it went, neither of the two fathers knew it had ever existed.
He wondered if it was a girl or a boy?
If it was a girl, he would have bought her lots of pretty little sarongs, and Shen Shuyun’s clever hands would have braided her lots of nice pigtails.
If it is a boy, then they could take him together to play basketball and practice boxing……
Shen Shuyun closed his eyes and did not know what he was thinking. Ning Wan sat closer, grabbed Shen Shuyun’s hand, put his cold fingertips on the warm palm, forced a smile and said:
“Brother Yun, the past …… let it go, we are still young, there will be an another child.”
Shen Shuyun’s eyelashes trembled and did not reply.
The next morning, a person knocked on the door of the ward.
Ning Wan got up to open the door and saw a short, middle-aged woman, followed by a tall, thin teenager, who pursed his lips and gradually lowered his head.
This was not the first time he had seen these two people, he had already met this mother and son yesterday afternoon, only then Shen Shuyun had not yet woken up, so Ning Wan politely asked them to come back another day.
“Come in.”
Ning Wan’s body was slightly sideways, leaving an empty space for them.
The woman was carrying a lot of fruit in her hand, and the teenager was carrying a carton of milk, they put the things on the floor, Shen Shuyun raised his eyes and met the teenager’s troubled gaze, the memories of yesterday came like a rushing sea, his little belly bump was still cold and vaguely painful, Shen Shuyun seemed to be stung by something suddenly, he cringed and lowered his eyes, forcing down the bitterness in his throat.
“Teacher, I’m sorry, this child has really caused you trouble, I’m really, really sorry.” The woman stood in front of Shen Shuyun’s hospital bed, raised her hand and slapped her son’s back, pushing him forward, “You quickly apologize to the teacher!”
The teenager was slapped unsteadily and stood in front of Shen Shuyun, also red-eyed with fear.
He came to know about Shen Shuyun’s miscarriage yesterday, and realized that he was in a big trouble, also he knew that Shen Shuyun is justified, if he really pursued the matter, the consequences would be so high that his single-parent family simply could not bear.
“Teacher, I’m sorry ……”
Shen Shuyun’s fingers gripped the sheet, the ball of cotton in his palm was wet with cold sweat.
“Teacher Shen, this is all our fault, we are willing to take all the responsibility, including hospital fees and also compensation ……”
“No need,” Shen Shuyun closed his eyes and let out a long sigh, what he lost was not at all what money could get back, “I have received your apologies, please go back.”
The mother and son looked at each other, the mother’s face showed an embarrassed and awkward look, she still wanted to say something but Ning Wan took a step forward, his tall figure blocking Shen Shuyun from her view, he slightly bowed his head, his voice was deep:
“Both of you, please go back, we won’t pursue this anymore.”
Ning Wan was almost explicitly shooing them away, so mother and son could only leave the ward in silence after bowing.
The door was closed with a crunching sound.
Shen Shuyun lost his strength and half sat on the bed, his eyes gradually reddening.
This is the first time he shed tears from yesterday to today.
Ning Wan sat on the edge of the bed and gently hugged him: “Cry if you want to, don’t hold it in.”
“Ning Wan, am I a bad person? Not a good teacher?” Shen Shuyun’s voice was already choked with sobs, “If I was a good teacher, just now I should have comforted the student, I should have said, ‘it’s okay, don’t blame yourself, you didn’t mean to’ …… but I found I couldn’t do it.”
He breathed heavily, as if this would squeeze out all the pain that went deep into his lungs, but his eyes still had unbearable water falling down, cutting his calm pretense to pieces.
Ning Wan embraced Shen Shuyun, gently patting his back, saying word for word very seriously:
“Do not say that …… you are also a human being, do not demand so much of yourself. All people have seven emotions and six desires, and who can do exactly what ‘should be done’? Besides, who can I say what the ‘should be done’ is supposed to be?”
Shen Shuyun grabbed Ning Wan’s shoulders and finally broke down and cried out.
“Just be yourself Brother Yun,” Ning Wan’s voice was as gentle as the evening breeze in the summer sunset:
“Whenever you are tired of walking, just look back …… I will be right there for you.”
You are only a human… What a heart-tearing chapter ｡:ﾟ(;´∩`;)ﾟ:｡ I don’t like the last sentence, it’s a flag for sure!
Thank You for the new chapter (*＾3＾)/～♡
yes. i just thought: and now, the dogblood officially begins.
OMG, I’m so EXCITED Like a Shaking M 🤣
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Oh f**** so it’s the next chapter ? Right? Where Ning meets ***** **** and realizes that ******** ** *** ***************…. Oh my, I think I’m about to faint
FAKKK WE REACHED THE QUOTE IN THE SUMMARY 😭 knowing his words are worth j@ck$h1t rn… 🚬
ty for the chapter
Thanks for the update ❤️
thanks for the chapter <3
I’m not crying!!!!! It’s because of the onions I sliced this afternoon! 😭