Editor: Amaris
Shen Jiaze had been waiting outside for almost an hour, yet Gu Xi didn’t come downstairs. He thought for a while, then parked his car and went upstairs.
The instant the sensible Little Wang saw President Shen coming, he immediately approached him and said, “Director Gu has been rather tired in these few days, so he’s resting right now. Shall I wake him up?”
Shen Jiaze said, “It’s alright, please let him sleep for a while.”
Little Wang was extremely considerate. He intentionally led Shen Jiaze to the office door. Shen Jiaze hesitated for a moment, but Little Wang had already taken the initiative to push the door open. He said in a low voice, “President Shen, you should wait inside.”
Then, Shen Jiaze got inside the room.
Little Wang felt that he had done something great! In a sense, he had done a great job!
Shen Jiaze was afraid that he would wake Gu Xi up, so he moved around quietly. He felt anguished to see that Gu Xi had fallen asleep in the chair, but he didn’t dare to move him to a more comfortable position, either…
As Shen Jiaze looked at him, Gu Xi suddenly frowned, then tears started to gather in his eyes and eventually streamed down his face.
Shen Jiaze felt a thump in his heart. He promptly approached Gu Xi.
Gu Xi cried. Why did Gu Xi cry?
When the two were in a tangle for so many years, never once had Shen Jiaze seen Gu Xi cry. He was strong, mature, and always calm in any situation. Let alone crying, he had practically never shown his weak side.
But now…he…had cried. His tears fell in torrents as if he had been extremely wronged that he cried until he became a complete mess even in his dream.
Shen Jiaze was at a loss of what he should do. He felt so distressed that his heart almost became numb due to the heartache. He immediately approached Gu Xi, then hugged him tightly as he said, “Don’t cry, what are you dreaming of? Don’t cry…don’t cry…”
Gu Xi opened his eyes. His voice slightly trembled and he looked haggard and uneasy. Then, he said, “Shen Jiaze, I’m really scared.”
His words were like a heavy stone that smashed Shen Jiaze’s heart. His thoughts and blood felt like they were frozen for a second, and his mouth and nose felt like they were drowned out by a tremendous amount of remorse that surged up like mountain and sea, making him unable to breathe.
“I’m sorry…” Shen Jiaze said these words helplessly.
Since the time Gu Xi told Shen Jiaze that he had never liked Shen Qingxu, Shen Jiaze had always been immersed in deep regret.
If Gu Xi didn’t like Shen Qingxu, then what had Shen Jiaze done all this while?
Gu Xi had always loved him, yet wasn’t Shen Jiaze himself the one who pushed him away?
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As he recalled what he had done, Shen Jiaze really wished he could smash his brain into pieces!
Gu Xi still hadn’t woken up from reminiscing the past. He ‘took off’ his hard shell and completely exposed his softest self. He said, “I’ve never thought about Shen Qingxu at all when I look at you because the one I loved is you. I was fat because I was sick at that time, thus I took a lot of medicines which contained hormones. Later, my body recovered and lost weight as a result after I stopped taking the medicines…”
Gu Xi had never told Ye Chen about this, but now he told Shen Jiaze.
Shen Jiaze felt a buzz in his head. He became totally dumbfounded upon hearing Gu Xi’s words.
Gu Xi continued to babble, “Before I met you, I’ve always wanted to be a director. I want to shoot a movie I like and do what I like; but after I met you, I want to join the Gu Family to be acknowledged by my father and the Shen Family. And that’s because I wanted to be together with you.”
Shen Jiaze had completely stood motionless. He…he…didn’t dare to imagine it at all.
However, Gu Xi seemed like he wouldn’t stop talking anytime soon. He didn’t keep anything hidden anymore and continued to talk, “When you went missing for two days, I looked everywhere for you. At that time, the company was in the middle of discussing a very important project. My absence had made the company suffer heavy losses. My father was extremely enraged and asked me where in the world I had been. I was so anxious at that time because my thoughts were only filled with having to find you, thus I ended up coming out of the closet to him.”
Shen Jiaze tightened the grip of his hands which were holding Gu Xi. His voice was really hoarse when he said, “I’m sorry, Gu Xi… I’m terribly sorry.”
But Gu Xi seemed unable to hear what Shen Jiaze said. He continued, “After that, I was driven out of the company. I didn’t know where I should go. Later, A Chen helped me, he lent me some money, became my lead actor, and encouraged me to become a director. Back then, I kept in mind that you were about to graduate soon, I wouldn’t be able to give you a graduation gift if I didn’t earn any money.”
“Shen Jiaze, that car was ordinary, but that was all I could afford at that time.”
Shen Jiaze tried to open his mouth, but soon noticed that he was unable to say ‘I’m sorry’ anymore.
Gu Xi said again, “You thought that I don’t care about you, but how else should I care about you? Do you even have any idea of how I felt when I saw that scene in the hotel? I went back home by walking for two entire hours. I didn’t know how I got back even after I entered the house. But I trust you, I trusted you! I know that you wouldn’t betray me, I know that you wouldn’t let me down. I requested Brother Xinghai to investigate all the details and eventually found out what was going on… Shen Jiaze, I trusted you, yet why did you not trust me?”
Shen Jiaze’s eye socket had turned completely red and his throat felt like it was choked by a wooden cork that he couldn’t utter even just a syllable.
Gu Xi continued, “During that time, you got drunk, stayed out late, and didn’t answer my call… Do you think I wasn’t angry? I was very angry! But I thought that you’ve come out of the closet and fallen out with your families because of that, which resulted in your behaviors. I understand you, yet why did you not understand anything about me at all?”
“Shen Jiaze.” Gu Xi had cried until his voice turned hoarse, “Do you have any idea how painful it was for me? Do you know how hopeless I felt when I made up my mind to break up with you? Do you know what it meant to me losing you?”
“I’m sorry…” Shen Jiaze hugged Gu Xi tightly, then said awkwardly, “It was my fault, Gu Xi, everything was my fault.”
He kissed Gu Xi as he felt his heart ache. Gu Xi’s cold tears carried a hint of bitterness. Shen Jiaze didn’t dare to imagine further about what he had done all this while and everything Gu Xi had endured alone.
At this moment, he would rather Gu Xi didn’t love him so that at the very least Gu Xi wouldn’t be this heartbroken and aggrieved.
Shen Jiaze couldn’t bear to see Gu Xi being so heartbroken. More than anything, he clearly wanted Gu Xi to be happy, gave him happiness, and willing to give up on everything to wish for his best.
But…but… Shen Jiaze truly wished he could kill himself now!
Gu Xi fell asleep after he got tired of crying. He leaned on Shen Jiaze’s arms, not sleeping too well.
Shen Jiaze carefully lifted Gu Xi and carried him to the lounge inside the room.
Since he fell asleep like this, he would definitely feel unwell when he woke up. Shen Jiaze thought of finding a towel and warming it up, but the instant he got up, Gu Xi was startled and trembled for a moment before he forcefully pulled Shen Jiaze’s clothes.
Shen Jiaze couldn’t exactly explain what he was feeling.
Something like getting his heart smashed into pieces and being gently pieced together again…
Shen Jiaze didn’t move even a little anymore. He simply hugged Gu Xi carefully, then kissed his forehead as he said, “Gu Xi, please give me one more chance.”
For the rest of his life, Shen Jiaze belonged to Gu Xi.
No matter what would happen in the future, he would trust Gu Xi and give him eternal happiness.
Even though they had experienced a lot of things and made a lot of mistakes, the two had matured when they had met again.
Gu Xi no longer had to bear everything by himself and Shen Jiaze had learned how to communicate and trust.
Love wasn’t just those like Ye Chen and Ren Jing’s, there were also those like Gu Xi and Shen Jiaze’s.
No matter who you were, you would definitely be able to find your own version of love.
Two years later.
Gu Xi had finally taken Shen Jiaze along to a friend’s gathering party rather than letting him wait in the car.
Ye Chen felt truly rejoiced, for he knew that Old Shen had made it! This is truly gratifying!
Ye Chen could be considered to have seen the two’s journey all the way, thus he knew more about them than anyone else.
After Gu Xi had ‘died’ once, Shen Jiaze could be said to have let go of Gu Xi for a while. But after he heard the news of his uncle getting engaged and knowing that Gu Xi wasn’t together with Shen Qingxu, Shen Jiaze felt that he could still become a ‘substitute’. But why would Gu Xi need to pay attention to him? He might as well find Ye Chen to put on a ‘play’ and drive Shen Jiaze away completely.
At that time, Shen Jiaze felt as if the sky and earth were spinning. He felt that Gu Xi had hated him at last. He thought that Gu Xi had finally walked out of Shen Qingxu’s shadow and no longer needed Shen Jiaze anymore as a result.
Feeling completely disillusioned, Shen Jiaze left his hometown. But actually, he still hadn’t given up. He always felt that he had to become a better person and be more outstanding so that Gu Xi would look at him again.
But truth to be told…
The Shen Jiaze that Gu Xi loved was the best Shen Jiaze.
Later on, Ye Chen looked for Shen Jiaze to talk about some things.
He hesitated for a long time, but eventually told Shen Jiaze about Gu Xi’s suicide.
He knew that Gu Xi wouldn’t be able to talk about that matter for the rest of his life. The scar on his wrist had long healed, but the ‘scar’ inside Gu Xi’s heart might not heal yet.
Shen Jiaze was the only person who could help Gu Xi take the step to healing his heart.
After Ye Chen knew the reason why Shen Jiaze made such a ruckus, he decided to tell him about this.
This was actually a punishment; the most severe punishment for Shen Jiaze.
—He had nearly caused the death of the person he loved the most.
This was what Shen Jiaze had to shoulder, which he could only make up using the rest of his life.
The author has something to say:
The next side stories will be about Old Yu and SUN.
There would still be more of Gu Xi and Shen Jiaze’s sweetness. After I finish writing Old Yu’s stories, there will be one more side story of a ‘big reunion’ (what the hell).
T/N: Aaaaand that’s it! Their ending isn’t the sweetest but I believe this is the best for the two of them. I trust my children in their future together; I know they could do it! Pls slowly take the steps to the happiness now!!
Also just a tiny bit of my headcanon: After this, I imagine Shen Jiaze to be the one to cry a lot. Them having a heart-to-heart talk? He’d cry. Them warming up to each other again? He’d cry. And finally, when Gu Xi suggested for them to get married, he’d literally cry a river. And I think Shen Jiaze would be the type to not take the initiative after all that happened, since he’s scared he’d do the same mistake again. And after patching things up, Gu Xi would slowly convince Shen Jiaze otherwise and slaps him out of it sdfashgdajsdha… I 101% respect a considerate lover, but being so scared stiff all the time isn’t good hhhhhhhh!!
ALSO ALSO I think Ye Chen and Shen Jiaze have the potential to be good friends! Especially since Shen Jiaze is younger than most of the boys (Ren Jing is the youngest iirc? Cmiiw~), Ye Chen would treat him like a little brother. They would chat sometimes, mostly about their one and only dearest Brother Xi~ It’s like exchanging confidential information LOL!! Yesh I like and support gud fwenship and I could see it from them~~
OK enough of HCs now catch your happy ending pls! Begging on my knees!!
*coughs* Anyway, the next chapter will be Yu Xingzhe’s turn to shine! I hope y’all haven’t forgotten about him yet 😂 He and SUN be stealin’ dem spotlight for the next seven chapters, so I hope you’ll look forward to their story! If you need a one-sentence summary, then this is what I could say to you: YU XINGZHE IS A BIG DUMDUM, so slow!!! Let me be honest, HE’S SLOWER THAN YE CHEN BBY SDSAFDADGHADGSA;;;; BUT don’t worry, he’ll get it sorted out with SUN (with Chen Chen’s help!! He’s the true MVP in the side stories let me tell you!!! Find yourself a bestie like him!!!), they’ll talk it out! HHHHHHH if I go on I’m gonna spoil the entire story so just look forward to it!! It’s very sweet I promise!!! Protecc SUN and Yu Xingzhe bby at all cost I can’t stop crying for them AAAAAAAAA
This may not be the most beautiful ending but this is the best ending for them… // My Chen Chen become a little cupid now~
Thank you for the chapter ❤️
// Yo-ho it’s been awhile since I commented… Pls bear with me owo
Yes!!! It’s their own version of story and love, and I think it’s a very intriguing one mueheh.
Tru! Ye Chen is literally his besties’ cupid at this point… He’s the last to experience love out of the three, but get to be the luckiest one and become their relationship consultant hhhhh!!
Thank you for reading like always too! Much love 💖
Umm hmm 🥰
Sigh.. but I’m still envy them. Even with the scar, they still get their love back, and most likely Gu Xi and Jiaze will stay til grey..
Shen Jiaze had made mistakes, but I don’t think he’s to blame for everything…at least for me? Blaming everything on him is just too harsh. From what I read and understand, he’s not the main reason Gu Xi almost died… But well, that’s what I think, so it’s totally alright if you don’t think so!
Yeah, they’ve finally come to understand each other, so I believe they’d be able to patch things up slowly but surely~ I’m a sucker for HE so I just want them to be happy together, no matter what their future might be!
Now bout suicide, yes Jiaze wasn’t the only reason, but he triggered it. In fact all GX’s plans that time revolves around him and that’s why when he hurts GX (and himself) GX’s world crumbles and he lose hope. I can understand GX coz I’ve been there. Ofc we’re not actually the same. And I’ll just stop my comment now before I’m way out of topic. 😅
Oh i wish i have a Ye Chen in my life too.. 😊
That’s right – what SJZ had done had impacted GX’s life in a lot of ways (SJZ bby if only you could stop ur train of thought that time)… GX was really hurt too because of that, not to mention his shitty father (pls just let me hug u I’ll never let anyone hurt u bby)… If only they actually hear each other out, things would probably turned out better. But well, as long as all is well! I just wish that people would try to understand both of the characters and not blaming on one side so badly and treated that one character like a murderer… That one super harsh comment about SJZ on the raw’s site just left me so baffled. Well, I’m sure the author and characters knew and understand what they’re doing! I’m really sorry if I offended you, please know that I really didn’t mean that way. (And don’t worry, feel free to share ur thoughts and experiences, I don’t mind hearing them!)
And of course!!! Who doesn’t want such a good friend? It’s no wonder that GX took such a good care of him. I wish I could have friendships like theirs~~
I don’t really have any hate to any fictional characters, tho i can be deep in the story and well affecting my emotion. I know the author made them to spice up the story. Ofc occasionally I still leave comments here and there when I feel like to. Tho to some hateful author, i kinda wanna check their brain bcoz I can’t handle some dramatic plot filled with brain-dead characters. You know the hateful white lotus/green tea or scummy one. Maybe coz i always find them almost in every story. 😅
Oh and thank you for translating this story. I meant to say this at the end of the novel coz i rarely comment, since I’m mobile, and typing is rather a work with only 2 fingers. Lol.
Hope you can enjoy your work as much as I enjoy your translations. 🥰
Not at all!! I’m kinda bad with words (one of the reasons I stopped replying for a while) and sometimes my emotions kinda controlled what I said, especially when it concerns what I liked etc, so I understand what you feel! Feel free to leave comments when you feel like it, I don’t always reply but I read them all~
I feel you!! I mean, it might be writer’s block, I guess (talking as someone who used to write)? But yeah, when the green tea binch or white lotus appears in a story I just!! Want to head smash ‘em!!! I much prefer loopholes than unlikeable characters like those. Though, like you said, I don’t really harbor deep hatred or anything towards fictional characters (not even the antagonist of this novel), as long as the characters are…hm, punished, or something like that? Hahaha~~ (totally not sadistic laugh…)
Thank you for reading, too! It always made my day when someone says they enjoy what I do. I don’t really hold my head high, so I really appreciate every encouragements I received!! 💖💖💖
(PS I’m currently on mobile too so we’re on the same boat lolol!! PC gives me too much cramps (?) so I’m sticking with mobile for now~)
Yes YU XINGZHE and SUN MY LONG AWAITED SIDE STORY SJEBSJANNDNSN
THANK. YOU FOR YOUR HARDWORK TRANSLATOR !!
I’m glad you’re excited for these two’s story!! Stay tune okay!!!
Thank you for reading, too 💓
I just want to say FINALLY
I thought author nim forgot about poor Sun and his crush on old YU
Nahhh, rest assured, Mr. SUNshine gonna catch his fish soon (no pun intended)~~ Author is leaving the best for the last muahahahahh, so look forward to it!
I had tears in my eyes reading Shen Jiaze and Gu Xi’s story 😭 Glad to see them finally happy and together again despite all that happened 😭💕
Thanks for the chapter <3
Sameeee, I cried soooo much while translating… I just want them to be happy, pretty please!! 😭😭😭 I’m sure they’ll be fine from now on!!!
Thank you for reading, too! Much lovee 💝💝
(っ˘̩╭╮˘̩)っsobbing uncontrollably
looks like in the future, they’ll often report/ensure anything to each other, especially Jiaze to Xixi, or maybe they become more careful, but at least they’re together now…
and one more thing…
DID SOMEONE ALREADY FLAME CHEN MIAO? NO? JUST ME? OK LEMME WHACK HIM TO DEATH FOR TALKING NONSENSE!!!
ik GuShen trust, insecurity, and communication problem will come up sooner or later, whether that fker Chen Miao talking abt Qingxu and Gu Xi or not, but really!!! if you don’t know anything, don’t talk abt it!! you gossipmonger, hoax spreader!!
the reason I blame Chen Miao is because when he talks abt it, he seems like mocking baby Gu Xi’s orientation and jealous over Qingxu’s success!! ha! ik I said BS but IDC! I hate you Chen Miao!!!
(ok don’t mind me… I just want to blame someone other than our baby… isn’t that all we do as negative human being, blaming someone? obv no, just toxic me acting up…)
really want to read our baby fish You and his brightest star, I mean, SUN 😀 but I want it complete first… see you later all!!
AIYA I’M WITH U, LET’S FREAKING BURN THAT DIMWIT!!! IDK man, this is one of the reasons I don’t want to get involved with gossips or the like: I’d literally spread lies if the gossip turns out to be different! I often hear others gossip, but I’m only like, “Hmmmm, is that so?” and take them with a grain of salt.
pats pats u I understand your feeling… So don’t feel bad about it! We’re humans, after all…
I’m glad you’re looking forward to their story!! It won’t take long I promise… *looks away
In any case, see you later!! (｡･ω･｡)ﾉ♡
i’m quite satisfied with their ending~ but call me a meanie or not but i think i would not accept it if shen jiaze didn’t get a punishment and just continue to be happy together with gu xi… i know shen jiaze truly love gu xi and he’s just a teen at that time but compared to gu xi, he’s much more unstable~ however…
I STILL LIKE THEM TWO CAUSE I WANT GU XI TO BE HAPPY AND THEY’RE SO MUCH IN LOVE 😍🥰
+pluss i’ve read lots of stories in my early years of reading, a novel with ml who is a scum/playboy paired with ‘tolerant’ mc/fl
This side story has a lot more angst than the rest of all Long Qi novels that ive read. The pain QAQ
Yeah baby Ye Chen he really should know that. But damn, the pain level. Just thinking of what happened, Im still crying 😭😭😭😭
Thank you, potats and Amaris as always 😭
Wait lemme just grab my blanket, my tissues ran out 😭😭😭
chen chen the GOAT
I want a friend like Ye Chen. I don’t think it’s a coincidence that he suddenly wanted to be an actor for fun. Felt like he did it as an excuse to make Gu Xi accept his money. They all have great friendship