Jie Jie: It’s Rioto’s POV this time!
If I say so myself, I’m usually attractive, but I like my face.
I can only thank my mother for giving me a good-looking face.
However, there were times when I felt that my face made my life a little troublesome.
To begin with, I’m not good at expressing my emotions.
I can’t laugh, cry, or get angry.
No, to be more precise, I think I can feel emotions. I can’t compare myself with others, so I don’t know.
But my emotions definitely don’t show on my face or in my attitude.
Even if you ask me, I don’t know.
I’d rather people with expressive faces explain to me why they are that way.
I was often turned away because I had a handsome face but no facial expression.
Amemiya Kai was the one who casually approached me.
Kai is a cute child with silky black hair, round eyes, a modest nose and mouth, and plump cheeks, just like pure Japanese.
Unlike me, he was a model of what a child should be like. He was like an energetic little animal, with a face that showed human emotions.
When I finally learned to dribble at the soccer club, everyone around me said, “You finally got motivated,” as if it was a matter of course that I could do it. But Kai was the only one who said, “Wow, it’s the result of your great practice! You did it, Rioto!” He was as happy as if he was me.
Although I didn’t show any expressions, Kai was happy, sad, and angry in my stead.
Looking back now, I think that Kai saved me a lot.
Not happy, not sad, and not angry.
I almost convinced myself that I was a “human being who doesn’t feel anything” because of the words of those who judged me only by my appearance.
But Kai didn’t judge my feelings and he laughed with me… Well, I couldn’t laugh, but he laughed. He also recognized my efforts.
It might be a normal relationship for ordinary people, but because of my good-looking face, it’s difficult for me to have a normal relationship similar to Kai.
“After all that work just to get such a score. Well, that’s about what we’re capable of.”
“Don’t you think you can do better?”
When I got my test back, my homeroom teacher told me to “Take it seriously” and I didn’t know what to do.
I thought I had no choice but to ask my parents to increase my cram schools, but Kai was so indifferent about it.
“Eh? We did our best, didn’t we? If we hadn’t worked hard, we would have gotten a red mark for sure, but we avoided that.”
“That’s right.”
“I’m satisfied and have no regrets! Rioto also worked very hard. Even if the result is not good, you shouldn’t deny the effort you have put in… or something. Forget it, next time I’ll do my best to raise my score a little more. Although, I don’t know if I can do it.”
“Mn.”
Kai was always positive and cheerful. Even though he had a shy smile on his face, I thought he was kind of dependable and cool.
Because of this, excessive expectations for grades and sports around me like that were troublesome, but girls’ expectations for romance also became more and more troublesome.
They would confess their feelings for me and go out with me, but for some reason, I would always get rejected. I was often told that I was at fault.
I would go out with someone whose name I honestly didn’t even know, and by the time I could finally find them in a crowd, they would break up with me.
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It really didn’t make sense to me that they would deny my personality at that level of relationship.
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At that time, Kai was angry with me and said, “F*ck and chuck!!” He also gave me some consolation that I didn’t understand, saying, “Well, I heard that sexual discrepancies can be a cause of divorce, so don’t worry about it.”
He was angry that they only screwed me but he never said anything derogatory about my ex-girlfriends.
I think Kai’s kindness helped me cleanse my heart, which was beginning to get rough.
Otherwise, I would have distrusted people long ago.
For me, Kai Amemiya was a precious and irreplaceable existence that I couldn’t even compare with my past girlfriends.
I had taken the word “best friend” to describe my relationship with Kai as a matter of course.
It was at our high school graduation ceremony that this was shattered.
“Please give me a button from your uniform as a remembrance!”
I didn’t know what kind of remembrance it was, but I thought I could give it to them since we were juniors in the committee together and I didn’t need the uniform anymore.
As I unbuttoned my jacket, I was called to the bicycle parking lot, and before I knew it, I was surrounded by more than a dozen girls.
To put it bluntly, I was terrified.
“Me too!”
“Me too, please!”
“Hey, wait a minute, you’re a first-year, aren’t you? What are you talking about?”
“You’re the one who’s coming after me and acting all high and mighty, ugly.”
“Oh, no, scary. Rioto-senpai will be scared.”
“Oh my god, he’s so handsome up close.”
I couldn’t understand what they were saying and yelling, but I felt I was in danger.
Hands were reaching out to me from all directions, and I threw everything I was wearing into the distance.
Then I ran away like a rabbit.
I was so glad that I left my bag and other belongings to Kai. If I had kept them, they would have been taken away from me.
I was quite frightened, but no one probably noticed.
No, only one person noticed.
“Hey, did you get… assaulted?”
I went to the meeting place, and when Kai saw me, he came up to me with a pale face.
Kai’s complexion seemed to be much more frightening than mine.
Seeing Kai’s pale face, I felt relieved.
He understood my fear and was kind to me.
He was looking right at me.
Not only in appearance but he could recognize all the emotions I can’t see.
I was grateful for Kai’s existence.
As a high school student, Kai no longer had plump cheeks, but a small face with a smooth outline and a well-balanced overall look. He was healthy, his skin was smooth, and he smelled good.
“Look, I’ll lend you the one I brought as a spare in case you get cold.”
I was deeply moved by the preciousness of Kai, and he lent me his parka.
I couldn’t help but sniff it. I simply wanted to take in more of Kai, but he thought I took action because I suspected he hadn’t washed it.
If it were true, I would have liked to put my face into his neck and sniff him, but that would have been a bad idea, so I refrained from doing so. I think I was so scared and confused that I wanted to act suspicious.
But once I put on the parka I borrowed, I was enveloped by the smell of Kai and became much calmer.
Kai’s appearance has grown up properly, but he still acts like a little animal, stomping his feet in a stupor, expressing his resentment on my behalf.
Kai told me to refuse such a terrible thing, but I replied that I couldn’t.
I was happy to hear that he liked… my appearance, and I was afraid that he’d be weirdly stubborn if I refused.
As I was thinking about this, suddenly a bombshell was dropped on me.
“So, even if I said I want to go out with Rioto, you wouldn’t refuse!”
After saying this, Kai turned pale, then red, and turned his head down.
Go out with Kai?
In other words, does that mean I get the right to sniff, hug, kiss, plunge, and do everything else I want to do with Kai, get priority, and have the right to monopolize everything?
There was no disgust when I imagined it.
Unlike those women who cut me off from my thoughts when I’m thinking.
A kind Kai, waiting for me to gather my thoughts like this, is mine…
“Eh?!!!”
The suggestion was so luscious that it made me raise my voice, sh*t. Kai’s shoulders shook.
Ah, kawaii, kawaii, kawaii.
Realizing this, Kai is definitely cuter than any well-dressed woman.
I’ve never been this excited after being confessed to.
I want to faint with joy. I almost wanted to do the backstroke, flapping on the ground.
It was thanks to my immovable facial muscles and ability to take action that I was able to avoid such eccentricities and show my disheveled face.
As I was dancing around the dance scene of my favorite Indian movie in my head, Kai let out a voice that sounded as if it were squeezed out.
“You see, now you know what I mean. Sometimes you have to say no!”
Then I was snapped back to reality.
Could it be that Kai had made a false confession to teach me a lesson?
Kai showed his satisfaction with his signature polite smile.
No, it’s different.
Kai wouldn’t lie just to make me understand.
Especially when it comes to confession, he told me to be sincere and honest, even more so than my mother and sister.
I’m sure that Kai wants to go out with me. I hope so. Even if it was just a spur-of-the-moment confession, he must have some feelings for me.
If that’s the case, it would be nice if you could like me more.
“… I understand.”
I have made an effort to like you, but I have never made an effort to make you like me.
Even so, I was sure that Kai would appreciate my efforts, even if I didn’t do well.
I reflexively hugged him.
“I’ll go out with you.”
“No, huh?”
He probably thought he would be rejected. Kai, who was surprised and stiff was so cute.
“I don’t want to refuse because I hate it. You don’t want to, Kai?
“Oh, no, eh, huh, eh??”
If he didn’t say no, I was sure the answer would be yes.
I was about to kiss him when it was time for the promised karaoke.
…………
“Kai-kun, you’re just in time! We’re trying on a new outfit!”
I have an older sister, five years older than me. She is a stylist for a fashion magazine, after graduating from a vocational school.
“Oh, really? Lucky! I was just thinking about what to wear for fall.”
Since middle school, we have been hanging out at each other’s houses regularly, and we have become like family.
Today, Kai came to my house again and happened to be caught by my sister who was on vacation.
My sister, who is a bit of a bro-con, was vigorously trying to find clothes that would suit me, and Kai, who is very sociable, got along well with her.
However, when my sister went out into the world and got a job as a stylist, she said things like, “Rio looks good in everything he wears, so it’s difficult.” Then she started making Kai into a dress-up doll.
Kai being Kai said things like, “I want to dress up too, so I won’t be embarrassed standing next to Rioto.” And took an active part being the dress-up doll.
Now that I think about it, this means that Kai was making an effort to be worthy of me.
“Did you have a successful college debut?”
“It went great, thanks to Akari-san!”
“Wait a minute, Rio… what are you burdening Kai-kun with?”
I didn’t want to interrupt Kai’s happy conversation with my sister, but I just stuck with him because I was lonely.
“Eh? W-what..??”
A trembling Kai is also cute.
“But I came here to play.”
“Eh, liar! Rio’s jealousy is easy to understand! Mom! Rio’s jealous. Come and see!”
“Oh, dear, it’s true! I have to make red rice.
“Kai, go to the room.”
“Pfft… hahaha! Shall I buy a cake?”
“Yeah, it’s a celebration.”
My sister and mother joined in, and even Kai got caught up in the moment. We really did have red rice for dinner that night.
I had my favorite karaage, and Kai’s tonkatsu and dumplings.
Sounds delicious
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poor rioto