Yan Xiao had just returned to China when he received the news of Ye Fei’s death.
He did not have any extra luggage. He only held a box of local specialties in his arms with great care. Though he had an empty backpack in hand, he refused to let anyone else carry his package for a moment.
At 8:32 p.m. half a month ago, Ye Fei took the initiative to call him.
“Brother Yan,” Ye Fei asked him in a very soft voice, “Are you busy?”
That was the first time Ye Fei called him that.
Yan Xiao immediately ended a very important meeting. Ignoring the surprised eyes of his partners, he got up and left his seat, and said calmly, “No.”
“Ah, that’s it.” Ye Fei sighed and stopped talking. As if he did not know what else to say.
But Yan Xiao didn’t mind either. Being able to talk to Ye Fei was enough to make him happy.
“I’ll go back in half a month,” Yan Xiao stood in front of the huge French windows and watched cars whiz by. His heart continued to jump with joy with every slight breath of Ye Fei on the phone, “I will have two weeks to spare.”
The night had given him courage, the darkness armor for his unrequited love.
“I bought a small island,” Yan Xiao spoke in quick choppy words, afraid of being rejected half-way, “The sea is very clean, and there is a pristine, long beach.”
Ye Fei had once inadvertently mentioned that he was fond of islands while they were making small talk. If he had to choose, he hoped to retire on a tropical island.
“Do you want to take a look?” Yan Xiao asked him, and paused, “You should like it.”
Ye Fei did not say he wanted to go, but neither did he decline. He simply replied with two words, “That so?”
Yan Xiao said “Yes”, and told Ye Fei, “There is no need to rush to answer, you can make a decision after careful consideration.”
Then there was a minute of silence.
It was Ye Fei who spoke first.
“Okay,” he said, his voice was softer than before, like a feather floating in the wind, “If there is a chance.”
Yan Xiao asked him, “Why not?”
“I…” Ye Fei’s throat choked as his eyes fell on the ALS diagnosis report on his coffee table, fingers trembling slightly, “Brother Yan, I…”
We’re sorry for MTLers or people who like using reading mode, but our translations keep getting stolen by aggregators so we’re going to bring back the copy protection. If you need to MTL please retype the gibberish parts.
“I’m listening.”
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After all, they were just strangers living under the same roof. Yan Xiao need not be involved because of him.
Ye Fei closed his eyes and swallowed his words down his throat. “It’s nothing.”
Ye Fei could keenly detect Ye Fei’s negative emotions, even on the other side of the call, and he tentatively asked, “Are you in a bad mood?”
“A little.” Ye Fei supported his forehead with his palm, “I’m sorry.” His eyes reddened.
“Why?”
“Too tired.” Ye Fei leaned back on the sofa, “I’ve been very busy recently.”
“Don’t overwork yourself.” Yan Xiao sounded disapproving, “How about taking a break? Let’s go to the island together.”
He began to describe to Ye Fei how good the island was with clumsy words. “The sand is white and soft. There are many corals around the island, which is very suitable for snorkeling. Don’t you like sea fishing? Then we can sail out to sea. I have a ship driving license.”
The two remained silent. Just as when Yan Xiao had started to feel uneasy, Ye Fei sighed. “That’s so good.”
He tilted his head back, attempting to force his tears back into their ducts. And attempted an air of nonchalance while he was at it. “Then I’ll wait for you to come back.”
His words had made Yan Xiao feel a great happiness that he had never had before. Ye Fei had never told him he was waiting for Yan Xiao to come back before. After ascertaining that he had hallucinated these words, he said, “Okay.”
They chatted a lot that day, no matter how boring Yan Xiao’s topic was, Ye Fei always listened very carefully.
At the end of the call, Yan Xiao asked Ye Fei, “Do you want the local speciality?”
“Why did you ask that?” Ye Fei chuckled, “Just buy what you like. ”
“Okay.” The two fell silent once more. Just as when Yan Xiao thought Ye Fei was about to hang up, Ye Fei suddenly interjected, “Brother Yan, wait!”
“Yes.”
“I…” Ye Fei clutched the case report tightly, opened and closed his mouth for a while, and finally gave up. “It’s nothing. Safe trip.”
“Okay.”
Afterwards, Yan Xiao successfully completed the cooperation project and returned home safely with a curation of local specialties. However, the person who said he would wait for him to go home was gone.
“He left not long ago. ALS.” Cheng Minghao’s voice was close at hand, but seemed far away.
For a while, Yan Xiao’s thought process stuttered to a halt. It was as though he was divided into two; his body had frozen in place, while his soul had wandered out. Yan Xiao stared at Cheng Minghao with his mind buzzing, as though he did not comprehend who he was.
Who left? What ALS? What does it have to do with him? He has to go home, Ye Fei is waiting for him at home.
“Don’t talk nonsense.” Yan Xiao warned Cheng Minghao. Though he had no expression on his face, his forehead started to throb uncontrollably, as if it would explode with a single touch.
“Don’t talk nonsense.” He repeated.
“Brother Xiao, you… go and see him for the last time.”
Yan Xiao could not recall what happened after that. When he had came back to himself, he was already standing at the doorstep of the Ye house.
There were two wreaths crookedly placed in the yard, and when the wind blew, the clusters rustled. The elegiac couplet on the door was not firmly pasted, with a corner had been turned up at the bottom, the words “died young” written on it. In the distance, there were cries coming from the house.
Yan Xiao strode up the doorsteps and walked into the room.
The man he loved was lying on the stretcher, quietly and silently, neither smiling nor moving.
Yan Xiao called him. “Ye Fei.”
No one answered.
“I’m back.”
Still no one answered.
“Get up,” Yan Xiao reached out and touched Ye Fei’s face lightly, before he took the courage to nudge him, “I brought you the local specialty.”
The skin under his fingers was cold, and not soft. This cruelly shattered the last hope in his heart.
His world had fallen apart, dissolving into nothingness.
Yan Xiao knelt down slowly and buried his face in Ye Fei’s neck.
That was the first time he made such an intimate gesture with Ye Fei without permission, and it was also the last time.
They were both still young. There should be a lot of time for them to grow closer. However, death had come suddenly, and there were no ‘what-if’s in the world. He had no choice but to accept this.
In the past, I always thought that there was a lot of time, they were still young, and everything would be in time. However, parting from life and death always comes unexpectedly, and there is no room for redemption. There is no other way but to accept it.
Ye Fei’s funeral was neither big nor small, and those who came to express condolences thought of his age and couldn’t help but pity him in their hearts. How could he be so unlucky as to encounter a rare disease like ALS, which occurred in 1 in 50 000 people.
Only Yan Xiao did not accept the Ye family’s argument, and proceeded to investigate the matter.
Some people said he was crazy, others thought he was putting on a show, and even Cheng Minghao could not understand his actions.
However, his investigation had unveiled a terrifying truth to the rest of the world.
Ye Fei didn’t suffer from ALS either, but was poisoned by Father Ye. Even Ye Fei’s mother had been poisoned in the same fashion.
For a period of time, the words “beast”, “animal”, and “monster of a man” was slung out one after another. Dingyuan went bankrupt, and the Ye family fell apart. Those who deserved to be shot were shot, and those who should be imprisoned were incarcerated. All had received their adequate punishment.
When the dust had settled, Yan Xiao resigned from all positions at Feixiao Technology, and settled on that small island with Ye Fei’s ashes in his arms.
The remote island in the middle of the sea held no name. The one qualified to name that island was no longer around.
Yan Xiao guarded Ye Fei and stayed alone on the island for twelve years. Spring and autumn came and passed, and Yan Xiao watched the sun rise and set for the two of them.
One grave became two.
The two mounds of soil had collapsed on one another, slowly merging into one as time went on.
The waves were an emerald green, and so clear that you could see the tan coral beneath the sea. Occasionally, you could see small fish darting through the reefs. Eventually, the beach had receded; taking all traces of habitation from that shoreline.
As the ripples ebbed and flowed, a whisper of yesteryear could still be heard.
“My name is Yan Xiao.”
“My name is Ye Fei.”
Translator has something to say: DO YOU SEE THESE TEARS!
In any case, this is the final chapter of this novel! Thanks for all the support. Shoutout to my ko-fi supporter for the extra boost!
Tears everywhere!!!
Thank you very much for translating this novel!
2:56 am
I am literally bawling my eyes out.
Man do I hate that scum father from bottom of my heart. I hate him.
Oops I didn’t mean to reply 😅
All good
the first timeline is really too sad TTTwTTT
i bet YF wouldn’t have died like that had he told YX about the “ALS” in the call TTwTT
thank you for translating this novel!! <3 <3<3
Oh my gawd that is hands down the most tragic tear bursting extra ever. Poetic but devastating
The first timeline is so sad 😭💔 Thank goodness they find each other again ♥️
AAAAAAAH?? AHHHHHHHH. 😭
💔❤🥺💪
😭😭😭
QAQ Why is the final extra made out of knives????? We should at least get to see a flash forward of them holidaying on the island ALIVE INSTEAD GAH
Thank you for the chapter, even tho it hurt me
+1 I AGREE
The extra chapter was so heart breaking. I was hoping that yan xiao will wake up remembering the past life. Then fulfill his promise taking ye fei to the island he bought and live life to the fullest. 😢
I wrote a short fanfic in my comment down below as a continuation to this extra, you can check it out if you want, after all, if the author’s giving us knives, we gotta make our own sugar;-;
Thank you so much for all your hard work and kindness sharing this with us. I guess this last extra’s ending made the sweetness of their next life sweeter ❤️
Congrats 🎉 in finishing this story and hope to See you in your next one. Take care. All the best.
So sad😞😞😞😞. But I am happy that even in this life the Ye family got their just rewards🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬. Thanks for the translation. This is not the saddest past life chapter I have read however and thankfully. That title belongs to ‘I became popular after online dating with a big shot’. Whenever I think of that chapter my heart breaks! No one should die like that!
Thanks for the translation 😊
Fuck this had me sobbing grossly. Life can be unfair like that. And realistically we don’t get a second chance after death.. So damn glad this is a fiction and our bubus got their happy ending 😭😭
Wow this chapter caused more tears than the whole novel. Thanks ……😭😭
I mean, it’s so far better than a certain novel I had read (from different author) where the main story left the most important hole and the extras was about the previous life of full of misunderstanding and tragedy. If not because of that novel, I can’t bear this extra. Lol 😂😭🙈
Anyway, gosh… He’s no suicidal but stays with YF’s ash for 12 years… The devotion!!!!! Aaaaaaaa
THANK GOD BOTH PREVIOUS AND PRESENT ML ARE SMART AND DEDICATED AND DEVOTED!!! THE TRUTH REVEALED!!!
I DID NOT EXPECT ALL THIS!!! BUT THANK GOD THERE’S NO ACTUAL TERMINAL ILL!!!
THANK YOU SOOO MUCH FOR THE HARD WORKS IN COMPLETED THIS NOVEL TRANSLATION!!! 🙇♀️🙇♀️🙇♀️🙇♀️🙇♀️🙇♀️🙇♀️🙇♀️🙇♀️🙇♀️
FOREVER ETERNALLY GRATEFUL
Thank you for the update ❤️💯
Gosh! Straight from sweetness to bitterness. Am glad they got another chance and yes i think his mom also transmigrated somewhere better. Thank you for translating this novel
AGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHGGHHH😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
IYAK MALALA HAHAHHAHAHHAH🤣😭🤣😭🤣😭🤣
I didn’t expect the extras to pull this kind of heart wrenching paiiiiiiiiinnnn 😭😭😭😭😭😭
Whhhhyyyyyyyyyy? Huhuhuhuhuhu
Thank you so much for the translation.. huhuhuhuhuhuhu
Thank you so much for translating thid amazing story🥰
Bish, I wanted to see the past life, but now I’m crying. 😭
Hope they still get the island, hope they’re happy for 60 years (they are in their 20’s), and then get another life.
THANK YOU FOR TRANSLATING AND SHARING!
The extra gave me a whiplash 🥲 All the sweetness is gone now 😭😭😭
Thank you so much for translating this incredible novel. I cried a lot, laughed a lot and now i’m very sad to part with it. Thank you for bringing this novel to us!
The extra is so heartbreaking 😭😭
I am glad Ye Fei is the one having his past memories, so he eventually knows the truth. Cause I can’t imagine if it’s Yan Xiao 😭😭😭
Thank you so much for translating this.
When you stick your hand in the bag for the last little crumb of extras and there’s a razor blade at the bottom. I get it, author-sama, I will not in this life continue to be greedy. bleed/bleed
I was hoping for more sugar on the extras but I didn’t know I’ll bawl my eyes pit 😭😭
Out*
I don’t know if the author has a bad taste or just plain sadist to end this beautiful series with this extra……I have nothing left to say but “Ouch”
“my name is yan xiao.”
“my name is ye fei.”
goosebumps,,,,
thank you for translating this!!! i had a marvelous time (crying)
The Ending😭😭😭omg…my heart can’t take it😭😭😭lastly…many thanks to Kuiqe San snd team for translating and sharing this story😘😍😘😍😘😍
NOOO I’M BAWLING SO HARD😭😭 THE CURRENT YAN XIAO NEEDS TO REMEMBER HIS PAST LIFE TOO!! HE CAN’T JUST DIE LIKE THAT
I made a short fanfic in my comment if you want to read an alternate ending, as an avid reader of fanfic, I strongly believe in the act of making sugar for myself as a balm to heal the wounds left behind by canon timeline TT^TT
The whole novel: all fun and games.
This chapter: cry cry cry with a broken heart!!
I know they got their happy ending but eff that poor excuse of a father and rest in peace, guys. 😭💔 I wasn’t expecting this to be the last chapter. I’m gonna try not to cry and take my mind off of it lol ❤️❤️❤️ loved ye fei and yan xiao, they’re so sweet.
Also, thank you very much for the translation!!!
Thank you so much for the translation!!
Thank you so much for translating this!! ❤️😭
Thanks for breaking my heart🥲
I’m bawling!🥹🥹🥹 This novel is really good, have in depth. Gonna search for more! Thanks for the amazing translation, really good!
“one grave become two.” 😭😭😭 my tears… I feel so sad for them. but I’m glad YX got justice for his beloved and was able to live a happy life w YF in the next. :’)
thank you to the translator for this wonderful novel! I love this very much. it was short, sweet and had a nice plot.
FUCK IM CRYING THIS IS SO HEART-WRENCHING I CANT TAKE IT 😭😭
thank you for translating this. nice novel
I was not prepared to cry like this on the last chapter 😭😭
Sorry, I just keep reading, thank you for translate this. It was beautiful
Ahh kalbimm😭
Çok güzel di, mükemmel di
Thank you for translating…tears didn’t stop for so long😭
Now i’m sad, so sad, i cried a lot. I need fluffy romance asap, no, RIGHT NOW
Yan Xiao felt like his heart was breaking as he watched the love of his life slowly waste away helplessly. He didn’t understand what was happening. Didn’t they ended up together? Didn’t they found out the truth in time to avoid Ye Fei’s father’s scheme? So why is this happening?
Why isn’t he here, by Ye Fei’s side? How could he have let this happen?
He had begged, pleaded and yelled but nothing seems to work. He was like a ghost, incorporeal and thus unable to affect anything before him.
He was so angry at the ‘him’ who did not ask more when Ye Fei had called ‘him’. If only…if only ‘he’ had tried more. If only ‘he’ had been there…
What was the use of all the money he accumulated if not for the sake of Ye Fei?
And so time continued to pass by and Ye Fei, his love, his husband finally breathed his last after days of agony.
When the other him finally came back from overseas, it was too late. And Yan Xiao screamed himself hoarse scolding ‘him’. What was the use of breaking down now? Ye Fei was gone. And there was bo getting him back.
By the time his beloved’s body was cremated, Yan Xiao only felt numb and empty.
Yan Xiao listlessly watched his other self tirelessly investigated Ye Fei’s death and finally uncovered the terrible truth of the deaths of both Ye Fei and Ye Fei’s mother.
And despite his ager at his other self, Yan Xiao felt terrible heartache as his other self left all he had built behind and chose to retreat to the island ‘he’ had bought for Ye Fei, taking ‘his’ beloved ashes with him and stayed there until ‘he’ too died.
“It could have been you.”
A voice from behind suddenly commented, startling Yan Xiao. But when he turned around, the sight that greeted him shocked him.
It was the other him in his 50’s. The one that lost Ye Fei.
“What do you mean?” Yan Xiao asked belatedly when what the other man said registered in his mind.
The other him just gave him a melancholic smile. “Treasure him, alright?”
Yan Xiao was about to ask for another explanation when he picked up the faint sound of Ye Fei calling out.
“Yan Xiao? Yan Xiao, what’s wrong?”
Yan Xiao opened his eyes to his husband leaning over him with concern in his eyes. He lifted his hand cup Ye Fei’s cheek, desperately needing assurance that he was fine.
“Yan Xiao? Did you have a nightmare? Why are you crying?” Ye Fei questioned, returning his husband’s tender gesture and cupping Yan Xiao’s cheeks to wipe away his tears.
Yan Xiao kept quiet and simply gazed quietly at Ye Fei, meticulously mapping out his face and memorizing the feel of soft, warm skin under his touch.
Yan Xiao couldn’t quite remember what he dreamt about but he knew he felt very sad in the dream and he had this persistent urge to wrap Ye Fei into his embrace and never let go. To keep him close and protected and treasured.
“Yan Xiao?” After a long period of silence, Ye Fei questioned his lover again.
Yan Xiao felt his heart softened at the sincere concern reflected in his lover’s eyes.
“I had a bad dream. But I can’t remember it anymore.” Yan Xiao said while pulling Ye Fei into his embrace.
“Oh, alright then, we can just cuddle until you feel better. We can explore the island later.” Ye Fei murmured comfortingly while tucking his face into his husband’s neck.
“Okay…I love you…” Yan Xiao murmured back. He felt bad that they had to cancel their plans to explore the island today after all the planning they did yesterday. It took him awhile to acquire this island as a proper wedding gift for Ye Fei while trying to keep it from his husband to make it a surprise.
Yan Xiao had also worked hard to settle as much work as possible so they could go on this trip. And so did Ye Fei, once Yan Xiao had presented his husband with the deed of the island, along with many scenic pictures, saying they could use this island as a retreat for them whenever they wanted to relax.
Ye Fei’s overjoyed face and tears when Yan Xiao told him about the island is a memory that Yan Xiao will treasure forever. Even if Ye Fei looked a little melancholic later in the night after he had too much to drink, but he looked fine the next day so Yan Xiao didn’t ask.
Yan Xiao was snapped out of his line of thinking when Ye Fei tightened his hold on him and snuggling even closer.
“I love you too. Now let’s go back to sleep. If you have another nightmare, I’ll wake you up, okay?” Ye Fei murmured into his neck.
Yan Xiao ran one of his hands through Ye Fei’s fluffy locks and kissed him on the forehead before settling in to go back to sleep.
After all, as long Ye Fei is by his side, he can face anything.
THE END
Whoops sorry, meant to type ‘in his 40’s’ coz in OG timeline Yan Xiao should be in his forties coz in this timeline, he’s 27, and was originally married to Ye Fei for 2 years before Ye Fei’s death and stayed at the island for 12 years, so makes him around 40+, if I calculated that right.
What a place to end on! 😭 I need to go back and read the previous chapter, I want to be happy, damn it!