When Shen Yu opened his eyes, he found himself lying on a small stone platform, fearing he was being sacrificed, but the night sky looming overhead looked too dazzling for being his end, a sheet of stars, galaxies and planets, and there was also a sound of water flowing somewhere below.
Was he in hell? But hell didn’t look so beautiful at night and he wouldn’t know until he went there, which he surely would considering what he planned for his future.
Observing the shadows, he noticed a strange glow around him, a tone of blue and green, shimmering like projections of auroras. At first his mind supplied there was no moon so this must be planetary reflection, but then he felt the hue was reflected from below…
Confused, Shen Yu sat up on the stone platform which was warm and smooth, he felt a little lightheaded, almost losing balance and falling into a pool of water that surrounded the stone platform. He noticed there was a small waterfall not far away, adding water to the pool as the pool water then distributed into several other smaller streams. It was calm and pleasant, soothing even.
What was surprising was the flicker of glow in the pool, as if the pool was lit up in blue and green, which he mused it was, it was probably a bioluminescent water body.
A little dazed, Shen Yu sat on the stone platform for quite some time, his thought process getting back on track when he noticed his long hair curling around his waist.
Elf. He was an elf. He was still alive and well.
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[Barmuda_is_alive: !!!!! He is awake! Got to call back others!]
[galacticserverdroid: Finally, it has been days…]
[999kluck_black: Phew~ he isn’t dead.]
[Welcomedreamers: Guys, his dantian…]
[Jingju: …I had noticed on energy reader]
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The last thing Shen Yu remembered was him running for his life, and Kai greeting him at the border. After that the memories were faded, he couldn’t recall what happened after that.
Frowning he felt for his core, his dantian was useless his entire life, but this time he feared he really messed it up somehow. A dantian if broken, getting it back was very difficult, especially for someone who had nil cultivation for years.
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Hesitating, Shen Yu touched the area around his navel, his heart beating loudly in trepidation. He pressed his fingers into his skin, dreadful of what he may find there.
He started to shake when he couldn’t feel his dantian sea, he could only feel fragments of what one would call an exploded Dantian.
This happened when forced to explode, or when the cultivator Qi Deviated with extreme margin.
Shen Yu felt his body go cold.
“Awake?” came a low voice not far from him, and Shen Yu found himself hurriedly following the direction of the voice, stumbling over the shallow pool, rushing over to Kai. His voice was shrill with emotions, “Kai, I can’t feel my dantian…” He was feeling numb as a sense of great distress ran hot along with the cold.
He kept touching his mid section, and kept trying to feel it in him, but nothing was working he couldn’t help but run for the nearest support.
Kai watched him closely, but before he could say anything, Shen Yu stuttered out a broken, “I can’t- can’t, no…” Shen Yu was obviously not looking for a confirmation.
His chest was heaving madly, his eyes reddening, “…b-broken…” his mouth kept moving after that but he could say anything else.
What could he say… his years of hope broke with his dantian.
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[Shaju_3489: Ai, this is… I feel bad for him. And just when he got a chance]
[Kapuchi: Can’t blame his distress, wonder how his family is right now…]
[Cuzert: Knew this would happen, he got the ticket but for what.]
[Quertze_planetM13: Not to be that person, but his future is bleak]
[Bookishnaivity: His clan should have waited to send him with another gold master, they don’t care for him do they, or was he the one flying high on blind hope…]
[I_sigh__once: Sigh, can he not whine now, it is all his fault for not getting away from there when he thought the elves felt wrong, he might have had a chance to hide somewhere, idk.]
[truthfender_black: I hope Hunter can do something, although it is not possible now, sad.jpg]
[Braindamage: he is a loser, that’s all]
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Shen Yu couldn’t believe it was happening, he felt small and vulnerable, he felt like dying.
Kai stood at the edge of the pool, but made no move to come forward, with his face impassive, he said, “I know, I saw it happening,” he was very calm, his eyes watching Shen Yu’s little movements but not doing anything to assuage his mourning heart.
Shen Yu sobbed in grief, he didn’t care about whether he was being watched or judged, he felt humiliated, he felt disgusted with his own helplessness, always the same helplessness, always the same, never changing, rubbish fate.
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“You don’t cultivate? That’s weird.”
“Doesn’t your clan find you an eyesore? How can you smile when you eat your meals?”
“I… I am sorry Shen Yu, but the others don’t like it when I play with you.”
“My little baby, mother loves you, even if you can’t be an immortal, don’t cry, you shouldn’t cry over it.”
“I am not taking him with me, the other branches laugh at me when they see me coddling a 13 year old, it looks bad in front of outsiders.”
“Shen Yu, you just don’t want to practice hard… just-just try alright? As your master I know your potential.”
“Even if he becomes a demonic cultivator, he has no place among us. Clan Head, don’t waste your resources on a weak seed, there won’t be any good output.”
“He got a golden ticket? I am sure he will fail, can he even handle his weak Qi.”
“I have great hopes in you, my friend, you can do it, fighting!”
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“I… I couldn’t think at that time, it was so difficult to think…” Shen Yu mumbled, so tired of the constant defeat, the judgement, the glaring advices… everything good, everything bad, had came to an end. Even if he tried again, how many years would it take to form a dantian again? Others, unlike him, even after Qi Deviation, still held on to some basic circuit which was easier to remold and work with, but him?
He laughed while crying, his tears rolling down his cheeks and making everything blissfully blurry.
Kai on the other hand sounded very calm, “I know, your dantian sea broke and you had an internal injury. Your coping mechanism kicked a while later, at least you are still alive.”
Alive?
For what?
To see his dead end before dying?
What was there to be alive for?
“Don’t think of stupid things,” Kai was talking in a strange monotone and belatedly Shen Yu realized he was very angry.
Shen Yu had seen Kai getting angry before, during those times, Shen Yu was very well behaved and never gave him trouble, it was easy to fear anger.
Right now, though, Shen Yu couldn’t care less about what he was angry about, him or the tree or his situation.
This wasn’t something he had expected, he thought… he could get away.
But he hadn’t known a Golden Mission was this difficult. It broke his dantian. Broke it to so many pieces, it was difficult to stick it back. Just what would it take to mend it? No pill could bring back a broken dantian.
If Kai hadn’t arrived on time, maybe Shen Yu would have really died. He didn’t want death, not really, but what else awaited him in future? Certainly not praises and envy, if he was correct, all he was left with was pity and mockery.
“Calm down,” Kai sighed, bringing his hand up to massage Shen Yu’s neck, a warm hold digging into his cold shivers, pillaging the fragments of energy and strength which Shen Yu couldn’t grasp on his own, “breathe with me,” Kai’s voice was melodious, and Shen Yu couldn’t help but do what was asked, “it is not really that bad,” Kai said at the end, still massaging Shen Yu’s neck and not letting go.
Shen Yu bit his lips, his fingers trembling as they tried to graze against the warmth that was Kai. He selfishly wanted to keep Kai around, to ask for his help. It wouldn’t be the first time he had taken advantage of Kai. But he was afraid he couldn’t be selfish, he wanted to be strong, show Kai and this world that he could do it, he was a powerful cultivator who didn’t need help… such a funny dream, without his dantian he was finished.
His harsh breathing echoed in the night, the presence of someone he could depend on helping his nerves yet making him hurt even more.
“Breathe slower, calm your emotions and focus,” Kai repeated, his voice very pleasant to hear and managing to bring Shen Yu some semblance of normality. Shen Yu didn’t let go, standing right there as Kai gave him shelter from his dark thoughts.
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[A/N – I caught up with the updates, hehe, the next update would be tomorrow, on Friday as per schedule, bonus chapter would be there once I reach the target goal. Thanks for the first kofi for this story, Black_Cat!! The gift and comment was very encouraging!!!]
Everything will be fine, don’t cry kitten 👍🤧
Thank you for the update ❤️💯
You are welcome! Thanks for the read!
I’m dead – since the chapter where he imitates a cat in front of Y people – BUT NOW, I’M ALSO FUCKING SAD. BRUH, WHAT THE FUCK?!?!?! Seriously who, who came up with this fucking idea that broke my clichés and left me looking forward to the next chapter anxiously? Because congratulations BECAUSE I’M NOT EXPECTING THIS SCENE
Thank you for the comments!! I am looking forward to more comments from you 😀 They are encouraging!
Thank you for the update 🗿
Great chapter! 😍 I feel sad for our boy 😭
Thank you for the update!
I’m literally crying rn
No no no don’t cry! You can turn this around somehow! You came to this place for its opportunities – I’m betting something can be found!!