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Ye Ming returned home after work, and pasted a worried look on his face.
Xu Xiaoyue saw Ye Ming like this, and thought, her big brother couldn’t have also heard that rumor, ba? Right… there were so many people talking about it now, so it was also very normal for her brother to find out.
But, Ye Ming didn’t bring it up, while Xu Xiaoyue also wouldn’t take the initiative to speak up, and only acted as though nothing had happened at all.
However, Ye Ming was obviously low-spirited, forcing a smile on his face, and even occasionally acting absent-minded.
Ever since Shi Yang had come looking for him that one time, he’d kept on thinking about those words, thinking about how Yang Qian had been thrown out like that by Huo Yi back then, and just how much despair he must’ve felt during that month he spent in the wilderness.
He’d thought he’d betrayed him, and thought that he’d agreed to all of it… while he was waiting for death in that desperate situation, he hadn’t been aware of a single thing, and had just been foolishly expecting that he’d be able to live well.
But, how could that be possible? After experiencing all of these things, how could he still focus on living well, of course he’d hate him.
Then what about this time? Was Yang Qian dead?
Ye Ming knew in his heart that they could no longer go back to how things were before. But, he was unable to act indifferent, just standing by and watching as this person died, as anxiety tormented his heart each and every moment of the day.
One evening, after Ye Ming finished his dinner, he went back to his room early to rest, but he couldn’t fall asleep. At night, he pushed the door open and stood at the doorway, a hesitant expression like he was torn about something flashing across his face.
He wanted to go see Yang Qian. He wasn’t going to do anything else, it’d be enough to just confirm that he was still alive, so that he could come back with peace of mind. But, on what grounds could he go visit him? Their hearts were already riddled with holes, and only scars were left from them hurting each other.
Ye Ming turned, just about to go back, when at this time, Xu Xiaoyue suddenly called out to him, “Ge.”
Xu Xiaoyue had originally gotten up in the middle of the night to go use the restroom. To her surprise, she saw Ye Ming standing at the doorway, so she didn’t do anything, and just watched him quietly from there.
Ye Ming was wearing thin clothing, his complexion pale, a complex look of pain in his dark eyes. This struggle seemed to be tearing at his heart. He stood there for a long, long time. How long he remained standing there was how long Xu Xiaoyue also stood there for.
Xu Xiaoyue was very clear on how affectionate her big brother and Yang Qian had once been. Coming to this point today, being forced to give up on the person he loved, was probably very painful for her big brother, ba.
She’d thought that if she didn’t say anything, it’d be able to make all of this gradually fade away, but actually, how could she not care?
Ye Ming didn’t expect that this scene would be seen by Xu Xiaoyue, and an awkward look flitted across his face, and he looked away before saying, “You, why are you up?”
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Ye Ming felt even more ashamed. He actually still couldn’t let go of Yang Qian, so Xiaoyue would probably get angry, ba. He pursed lips, then said: “I’ll go back to rest.”
Seeing that he was just about to shut the door, Xu Xiaoyue suddenly said softly, “If you’re really worried, then go take a look, ba.”
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Xu Xiaoyue gave him a helpless smile, then said, “I also don’t know what kind of misunderstanding you guys had before… but, if you really can’t let go of him, then go have a look, ba…”
She understood her brother’s state of mind, and it was exactly because of this, that she didn’t want her brother to suffer or be sad. Whether Yang Qian was dead or alive, he’d know as long as he went back to take a look. With this result, her brother would no longer be worried or troubled over Yang Qian again, ba?
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Ye Ming looked at Xu Xiaoyue, a look of surprise finally surfacing in his eyes. He’d never imagined that Xu Xiaoyue would say such a thing. Wasn’t she extremely disgusted with Yang Qian? He’d thought that… Xu Xiaoyue would berate him.
The corners of Xu Xiaoyue’s lips twitched helplessly. Of course, she didn’t like Yang Qian, but she couldn’t just accept Yang Qian’s help while ignoring her conscience, heartless and indifferent regardless of his life or death. The world was just this kind of a contradictory place. You always had to… keep on compromising and compromising with reality.
The person you loved might hurt you, while those who hurt you might also help you. Back and forth like this, with no end.
Ye Ming listened to Xu Xiaoyue’s words, no longer able to keep the worries that’d been suppressed in his heart for a long time now under control. These past few days, as long as he thought of Yang Qian dying, that he might disappear from this world just like that, actually leaving him behind… his heart would ache unbearably… Yang Qian was the source of his deepest love and also his deepest pain.
But whether it’d been love or pain, he’d never once thought of wanting him to die.
Ye Ming was silent for a long time. When he finally opened his mouth, he seemed to have made a very difficult decision, and spoke in a hoarse voice, “I’ll go out for a bit.”
Not only did Xu Xiaoyue not stop him, but she also took out a coat and helped Ye Ming put it on, saying with concern, “The wind is cold at night. Don’t catch a cold. It’s not easy to see a doctor now, and the medicinal supplies keep decreasing.”
Ye Ming couldn’t help but let out a laugh, his gaze seeming that much more gentle under the moonlight.
Xu Xiaoyue looked at him seriously, and just when Ye Ming was about to walk out the door, she suddenly said, “Ge. You will come back, right?”
Ye Ming turned his head back, and met Xu Xiaoyue’s bright and steady gaze. He nodded solemnly, then closed the door and went out.
It was getting late now. Because this was after the apocalypse, there wasn’t much entertainment after dark, because the noises were more likely to attract the zombies’ attention at night. There also wasn’t any TV networks, so everyone closed their doors early, and stayed at home. The streets outside were extremely deserted, and only a few people were on patrol.
Ye Ming walked on the desolate and lonely street, and when he was finally approaching Yang Qian’s villa, he slowed his pace.
This was a place that’d brought him endless pain. It was this place, where he’d been forced to separate from the person he loved, and live next to the person who’d forced him. And, it was also here where… he’d been reunited with the person he loved. But, it hadn’t ushered in a happy ending. Instead, it’d caused them to gradually drift apart, until it was impossible for them to return to the way things were before.
When he’d left this place, he’d thought that he’d never come back here again. But, he’d still come back in the end.
Ye Ming walked up to the entrance of the villa, then finally raised a hand, and knocked on the door.
It wasn’t long before someone inside came to open the door. The guard yawned and said grumpily, “Who the hell came over here in the middle of the night?” As soon as he finished speaking, he realized that it was Ye Ming, and the expression on his face froze, then he said stiffly, “What’re you doing here?”
Ye Ming’s lips moved a bit, and he looked down, then said, “I, I’m here to see Yang Qian.”
Yang Qian had already told everyone here that not a single one of them was permitted to go make trouble for Ye Ming, nor bother Ye Ming for any reason. But, Yang Qian had never instructed them to not let Ye Ming come over here ah? He mostly likely hadn’t thought that Ye Ming would ever come back at all… so he’d forgotten to instruct them on this matter.
The guard hesitated for a long time. He actually really hoped that Ye Ming could go in to see the boss. But, if he let him in, the boss would definitely get angry, so he could only say, “Is the boss someone you can casually see whenever you want, you should leave, ba.”
Seeing him say this, the anxiety in Ye Ming’s eyes grew denser. No one had seen Yang Qian for so long, could something have really happened, then? He said, “I just came here to see him. How about you go in first to ask for further instructions, and I’ll just wait here.”
The guard said impatiently, “I already told you to leave! The boss won’t meet with you. Go, go, go!”
The look on Ye Ming’s face finally changed, and his eyes reddened as he rushed over and asked, “Is he dead?”
The guard snorted, “What nonsense!”
Ye Ming looked at him fixedly, a firm look in his dark eyes, “Then, why won’t you let me go in to see him?”
This was a huge headache for the guard. Right then, another man walked out from the inside. That man was tall and thin, and was none other than Zhao Jin, one of the confidants by Yang Qian’s side. He said, “Let him in, ba.”
The guard hesitated a bit, “Zhao-ge, that wouldn’t be too good, ba? Boss over there… ”
Zhao Jin smiled, “I’m the one letting him in, so it’ll be my responsibility. The boss won’t blame you, so you can relax.”
Because Zhao Jin had personally come forward, Ye Ming managed to successfully enter the villa at last. Zhao Jin turned to take a look at Ye Ming who was beside him. This was the person that Yang Qian loved. If it hadn’t been for such an unlucky coincidence, then the two of them would have never reached such a point. He sighed in his heart, then brought Ye Ming inside.
Zhao Jin turned around and smiled gently, then said, “Wait here for a little while, I’ll go let Yang Qian know you’re here.”
Ye Ming forced a smile, nodding his head without speaking.
Zhao Jin pushed the door open, and went in. He came back out after a while, and smiled at Ye Ming, “Come in, ba.”
Ye Ming walked in. Inside this familiar room, Yang Qian was dressed in a black tracksuit, sitting on a chair behind the table. He lifted his head, and smiled at him, his stern face appearing a little softer in the moonlight, his voice low, “Why did you come?”
Ye Ming was standing across from him, looking at this man.
Yang Qian still looked okay. Besides his face being a bit pale, he didn’t seem to be having much issues otherwise. He was still alive… when Ye Ming realized this, the large stone in his heart abruptly fell back down, but then he started to feel unsettled about his own impulsiveness and uneasiness.
What had he been thinking? He’d actually recklessly come back just like this!
Yang Qian saw Ye Ming’s embarrassed and restless state, and couldn’t help but bite his lip, letting out a soft chuckle.
He hadn’t expected that Ye Ming would still be willing to come visit him. He’d known that recently, there’d been several bad rumors about him floating around. He hadn’t cared. Not only had he not cared about those rumors, but he hadn’t even cared about his own life. None of those things mattered to him anymore.
But tonight, Ye Ming’s appearance made him feel as though it probably wasn’t completely meaningless for him to still be alive… there were still some things he could do for him. Although he couldn’t accompany him and stay by his side, he could still give him a better world, so that even if he were by himself, he’d still be able to live a good life.
He couldn’t make up for the damage and distrust, so these were the only things left that he could do.
He hadn’t imagined that Ye Ming would still be willing to come back.
The person he loved still had such a kind and soft heart. This world had changed him, and had changed many people… but, it hadn’t changed Ye Ming. How fortunate was that?
And he was willing to do anything to keep it that way.
【Ding. Yang Qian’s Blackening Value -2. Current Blackening Value: 2】
“I’m fine, you don’t have to worry,” Yang Qian spoke slowly, his gaze calm and tender, just like how things used to be long, long ago.
Ye Ming looked at that pair of eyes. At this moment, he was finally convinced that Yang Qian had really let things go, had thought things through, and no longer hated him. His short sentence at this very moment was more powerful than any of his previous explanations.
He’d never thought that there’d come a day when they could still have such a calm, face-to-face interaction. After all of that suffering, this appeared to be that much more precious.
Ye Ming was silent for a long time, before he finally just whispered, “Then, that’s good.” It seemed that besides that, he didn’t know what else he could say.
The corners of Yang Qian’s lips were slightly raised. He coughed softly with his fist against his lips. He was wearing black clothes, because he didn’t want Ye Ming to see the blood on his body. He’d finally managed to get up just now, and had reopened his wounds. He was sitting behind the table so it could block his body, because it’d really be rather inconvenient for him to stand up right now, and he didn’t want Ye Ming to see anything wrong with him… but, none of this could be seen on his face.
He endured the pain from the wounds on his body, just as he suppressed the aching in his heart. He already got used to it a long time ago.
Yang Qian looked at Ye Ming deeply, an incomparably affectionate look hidden in the depths of his eyes. What came out of his mouth instead, seemed very distant and polite, by comparison. He said, “You can see now that I’m fine, so you can leave without any worries.”
He ought to be content with Ye Ming being willing to come back and see him.
He didn’t want to use anything to put Ye Ming in a difficult position, continuing to keep someone around who shouldn’t have to stay here. No matter how much he wished he could, he still couldn’t do something like that.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! They’re finally about to get back together!
Thank you for the chapter!
we are finally nearing the grand finale of this arc~ Ye Ming-gege’s pace in this one is… quite erratic
thanks for reading!
Ahhhh nooo Mami ya! Only 2 left! (ᗒᗣᗕ)՞
I wonder how Ye Ming would die this time? 🤔
Thank you for the chapter~💕
phizzzzzlepopppppp thank uuuu for the chappyyy
ughk i wish everyone can just be haeppy now im all depressed againnnnn
i just noticed that the arcs are all abt revenge maybe it has something to do with ye mings real past or dats jwust meee hdgdhhhhgcf
claps hands ok I’m back! Yq this is not how I want you to die. Gosh YM needs more assistants bc taking off YQs blackening is so time consuming. Let’s go crazy tragic end for the scum ML!