“Don’t…don’t regret it…please…” Bo Qin never thought that just a short sentence could bring such despair to a person.
“Xiao Mu, I will change…” The man was unable to say anything else, his eyes red and his voice hoarse as he begged.
“Please, please, please…”
Xie Mu shook his head even harder.
“Bo Qin, I beg you. Let me go.” The man’s movements froze in place.
He trembled, gently helping the youth cover himself with the quilt. His hoarse voice belied his efforts to fake his calmness as if he hadn’t heard anything at all. “Xiao Mu, you must be very tired today, hurry and rest…”
The youth’s eyes were full of sadness. “Bo Qin, it hurts a lot.”
“I asked the doctor to prescribe you some medicine. Soon it won’t hurt.”
Clearly knowing that he was not talking about that kind of pain, the handsome man leaned over and pressed a kiss on the pale lips of the youth.
Xie Mu’s tears fell down, and he tasted them.
They were bitter.
Bo Qin covered the quilt, slowly stood up straight, and went outside.
One step, two steps.
Behind him came the voice of the youth, without his usual nativity or gentleness, full of acrid meaning.
“You once told me that if the object you liked was touched by others, you would take back your love.”
“Because you like clean.”
“Bo Qin…” his voice trembled. The pale lips that had once been kissed by the man countless times parted.
“I’m not clean……”
“I know you mind…”
“I don’t care—”
The man jerked back, his eyes full of cold force, and almost roared out, “Xiao Mu, I love you!”
“Let’s forget about those things, and live like we did before, shall we?”
Xie Mu’s face was pale and he slowly shook his head.
“You mind.”
“I also mind.”
He raised his eyes slightly, his bright eyes trained onto the man’s crazy gaze.
Xie Mu whispered, “I felt very disgusted when you kissed me earlier.”
“Just like how you felt disgusted after we did it the other day—”
Bo Qin’s face turned a shade paler.
The young man didn’t seem to notice his ugly expression and continued, “Just now, I even thought that this was all just a nightmare.”
“Bo Qin is such a good person, how could it become like this, this must be fake, it’s just a dream.”
“But…I can’t forget that you looked at me and laughed. You let me leave. Every word you said, every expression on your face…”
“I love you, but you make me feel disgusted.”
“Letting me go will also help you let go…”
Let him go?
Let his Xiao Mu go?
How could he.
He had been stupid enough to let go of the bird he loved before. Just once was enough.
The look on Bo Qin’s face gradually cooled down. His heart felt more and more painful, and the look on his face became colder and colder.
“Xiao Mu, don’t be afraid. If you can’t forget, I’ll help you.”
“Anyways, as long as your memories are erased, it’ll be okay.”
It was very simple, wasn’t it?
He smiled softly. “This way, in your eyes, I will be your perfect lover again.”
The youth closed his eyes painfully. “You can’t do this.”
The man replied tenderly, “I can.”
Xie Mu opened his eyes and his eyes were full of sadness. ” Bo Qin, in the end, what do you take me for?”
“Casually erasing my memory, throwing me to Tan Tao—do you actually like me?”
“I like you.”
Bo Qin’s answer was very standardized.
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He looked at the youth. “Xiao Mu, I love you.”
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The man thought, maybe it would hurt Xiao Mu for now, but as long as those unpleasant memories were forgotten, the Xie Mu who loved him wholeheartedly would come back again.
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“I’ll be right back.”
This time, everything will work out.”
His Xiao Mu would eventually return to him.
[Ding! Bo Qin’s favorability: 99]
The door closed and the sound of footsteps going up the stairs came from outside. Xie Mu nestled in his quilts.
[Bo Qin has been crazy long enough]
The system puzzledly recalled the way the man had just left. [He looks very normal ah.]
[He’s gone crazy.] Xie Mu said with certainty. [Now, the fire has been burning long enough. If my expectations are correct, Tan Tao should be adding firewood.]
Underneath the quilt, the youth slowly quirked the corners of his lips, saying with some joy, [This fire, should be able to burn these people into further insanity.]
***
Bo Qin used all his connections, crazily looking for a doctor who could erase memories through hypnosis.
But when they heard that Xie Mu had already gone through memory-erasing hypnosis twice and had even created a second personality, no psychiatrist, no matter how clever, dared to try.
“At least, let his spirit calm down first.” The last person Bo Qin found told this to him.
The man had to accept the fact that Xie Mu’s memories could not be erased in the short term. He locked him up in their love nest and kept him at home every day, carefully courting the youth.
Xie Mu mentioned once that he wanted to go out. After being gently rejected by Bo Qin, he seemed to accept his fate.
He calmly ate three meals a day. The man did not allow him to go out and he did not seem to want to go out either. Every day after eating, he lay in bed to sleep.
Bo Qin watched as the youth’s figure became thinner bit by bit. He no longer spoke, as if he had poisoned himself.
The man decided that Xie Mu was sick, and he called one doctor after another for his lover.
People told him this was a mental illness; if he continued like this, he would die.
Bo Qin did not believe them.
He drove all the people out and came into the room with red eyes, clinging to the youth like he was clinging to a treasure.
“Xiao Mu, you’re only sick. I know you’re sick, you’re weak, you have to rest well…”The man had not taken care of himself for a long time. His usually meticulous face was covered in stubble and scratched Xie Mu’s face painfully.
The youth was expressionless in his arms. His originally moist and beautiful eyes did not even move.
He seemed to have become a doll with delicate, beautiful facial features and a delicate, tender body. He was devoid of any hints of anger.
Bo Qin began to be unable to fall asleep at night. He slept with Xie Mu, holding the thin, bony body of the youth. The man would close his eyes for less than a few minutes, then open them in fear, carefully stretching his hand out to check the youth’s nose.
When he felt the faint but palpable breath, he would be relieved enough to continue sleeping. But after a few minutes, he would open his eyes in trepidation and repeat it again and again, all night.
He did not even go to the company. Every day he stayed by the youth’s side. Bo Qin personally fed and dressed him.
If it had been the Xie Mu before, he might have been happy all day, but now, he only faced it with numbness as if he were not aware of the outside world in general, letting the man move him as he wished.
Bo Qin knew that he could hear his words. The man thought bitterly, he just didn’t want to talk to him.
Tan Tao was missing.
He had stayed to see Tan Tao knocked out. The man was only focused on taking care of Xie Mu; when he had realized he needed to find him, he couldn’t find him anymore.
Tan Tao had taken away the entire cash assets of the Tan family. The Tan family collapsed overnight. but the court had verified a huge amount of money gone. It should be with the missing Tan Tao.
Almost everyone thought he had fled abroad, but Bo Qin did not let his guard down.
He knew Tan Tao was like a hungry wolf, eyeing them while hidden in the dark, waiting for a time to jump out and bite him.
Today, Bo Qin finished feeding Xie Mu and watched the youth go weakly to the window to stare blankly outside.
There was nothing there, but Xie Mu would look outside all day.
The man had long been accustomed to such actions. He sat at the table and began dealing with company matters. From time to time, he looked up and carefully observed his lover.
“Chirp chirp…” A bird called outside and flew over, stopping on the branch of a big tree in the garden below.
Bo Qin had not rested well during this time and was easily irritable. He was about to raise his head and ask the gardener to drive away the birds, but when he looked up, he found that the youth was tilting his head. For the first time in many days, his eyes were animated.
He seemed to really like the bird. His pair of good-looking eyes did not blink as his cold and pale fingertips stretched out the window as if to reach for the bird.
The man was completely surprised. He got up in a hurry and came to Xie Mu’s side to carefully and gently ask, “Xiao Mu, do you like that bird?”
“I’ll have someone catch it for you to play with, okay?”
Forget about the bird, if Xie Mu asked for the plane in the sky right now, Bo Qin would buy one for him.
He didn’t have to laugh like he used to; as long as there was a little reaction.
The youth did react to Bo Qin’s words.
His eyes continued to stare at the chirping birds. He opened his mouth. His voice, which had not made a sound for a long time, was a little obscure and hoarse.
But fortunately, his words came out smoothly. “It’s so good.”
The man looked at the bird in puzzlement. It was gray, nothing but an ordinary sparrow. How was it good?
But it didn’t matter. As long as his Xiao Mu liked it, he would definitely give it to him.
“I’ll have people catch it now.” Bo Qin went to issue the command, but his hand was caught by a cold finger that didn’t have the slightest bit of heat to it.
The man froze, almost overwhelmed by the unexpected movement, and turned his head.
This was the first time Xie Mu took the initiative to touch him since that last time.
The young man slightly turned his head, looking up. He was too thin; his chin had become very sharp. As he looked up, the image invoked even more pity.
“Don’t catch it.” He spoke softly, his voice a little hoarse. “I just thought…”
“Even a bird, can be free, I’m a little envious…”
Bo Qin’s rejoicing eyes froze. Before he could even open his mouth, Xie Mu smiled with a pale face. As he smiled, a trickle of blood appeared at the corner of his lips.
“Bo Qin.” Although the body was weak, his eyes were bright enough to scare others. He looked straight at the man and spoke with a hint of joy.
“I want to be free too.” As if he were showing off something that could not be achieved, he wiped his fingertips across his lips and showed Bo Qin his blood-stained hand.
The young man smiled happily. “You see, I’m going to die…”
The man’s pupils shrank sharply after seeing the bright red blood. His brain was blank, and he almost lost the ability to think.
The warm liquid dripped down his hand, just like how the youth’s lips were gently falling.
“Free…” The young man smiled brokenly and said, “How nice…”
He slowly closed his eyes—Bo Qin opened his mouth to say something, but found that he could not make a sound at all.
He held the lover who still had blood trickling out the corner of his mouth, and reached out with his hand almost in a loss, trembling as he helped him wipe off the blood.
Xiao Mu…wake up…it’ll be fine, it’ll be fine…
That day, an ambulance went to the Bo family’s garden and took away everything Bo Qin had.
Xie Mu tightly closed his eyes. Someone put him on a stretcher and injected drugs into his body. The best doctor was trying to save him to the point of exhaustion, but the youth did not show a single reaction.
[Do you want the ‘dead beauty’ package?] The system asked.
[Don’t need it. I’ll die after one last push. Collect the payment for the ‘spitting blood’ yourself.]
***
When Xie Mu woke up again, it was a few days later.
He merely moved his finger and didn’t even open his eyes. The man who had been watching him kissed him excitedly.
“Xiao Mu, my Xiao Mu, I knew you’d be okay…” His excitement and joy stiffened on his face after seeing the youth show an expression of disappointment.
Was the fact that he was the first person he saw after opening his eyes so difficult to accept for Xiao Mu?
“I’m not dead yet.” The young man’s voice was hoarse.
After he uttered this sentence, the light in Bo Qin’s eyes faded a little.
“Xiao Mu…” He stared fixedly at Xie Mu in self-torture, his voice hoarse. “I’m setting you free.”
“Please…live well.”
Xie Mu also had a light within his eyes.
He turned his head around, extremely happy. “Really?”
“You won’t have anyone hypnotize me?”
He was so happy because he could finally leave Bo Qin.
The man was tortured by his own thoughts but forced himself to show a gentle smile on his face. “Yes, take care of yourself. I’ll let you leave.” This time, he had really been scared witless.
Bo Qin didn’t want anything else.
As long as his Xiao Mu was okay.
Xie Mu did as the man wished. He restored his health very quickly. Freedom seemed to be hanging in front of him all the time, seducing the youth into actively cooperating with the treatment.
His face grew rosier by the day, and a smile slowly grew on his face.
The more it was like this, the more bitter Bo Qin’s heart became.
He had to admit that Xie Mu could only be healthy if he left him.
How could it be like this?
From a lover who was extremely dependent on him to a stranger who was disgusted with a single glance.
In the days Xie Mu was in a coma, Bo Qin was also extremely haggard. The man who was in his prime, lofty and above all others—even a beggar on the streets had more life than he did at that moment.
The youth did not care about this; he forced himself to not pay attention to Bo Qin, the man with whom he once wanted to stay together for a lifetime.
Freedom. This made him as happy as a bird.
Finally, the doctor said he could be discharged the next day.
That night, Bo Qin received the news that someone had caught Tan Tao. The man left the youth’s side for the first time.
He couldn’t wait to cut the culprit into ten thousand pieces!
No more than an hour after he left, a video spread quickly on the internet.
The video was shot from a higher angle. From this point of view, one could not see the face of the perpetrator, but could clearly see the person being pressed against in the toilet cubicle. It was a teenager with his mouth covered, his clothes being ripped off.
He struggled desperately, but his clothes were still torn off.
In the lens, the teenager wept and shook. His fair skin was exposed, making the throats of many people watching turn dry.
Of course, an even more provocative image did not occur because someone interrupted them.
One could only see the boy sobbing and rushing out, clutching at his clothes, before the perpetrator went out.
Outside, a conversation occurred between two men.
Those words: “If you really wanted to do something, take people outside the school and do whatever you want. Don’t go crazy in school, I’ll have to transfer along with you.”
The meaning was very clear.
The audience merely thought it was an ordinary campus bully. Following a few internet comments, they began discussing how the main characters looked so familiar.
But they did not know that this video was dedicated for a certain person to see.
***
Tan Tao had been caught.
He did not resist at all, letting the people tie him up as he waited for Bo Qin’s arrival.
A black luxury car stopped outside. The man’s slender legs stepped out. Bo Qin’s handsome face was even sharper in the night.
He stopped in front of Tan Tao, expression cold. His heart was brewing over countless ways to torture him.
“You really came.” The man who had been beaten was pressed down in a kneeling position on the ground. He raised his bruised and purple face to look at Bo Qin. He was obviously at a disadvantage, but still smiled.
His smile was full of madness.
Bo Qin’s eyes suddenly turned dark, and his heart quickly skipped with a trace of uneasiness.
Just then, the phone rang.
“Director Bo, Mr. Xie is gone—” The person’s voice came to an abrupt end. Tan Tao saw the man’s face, and he laughed frenziedly as he knelt on the ground.
Bo Qin punched him in the face. “Speak! Where is Xiao Mu!”
Tan Tao smiled and spit out a mouthful of blood onto the ground.
“Speak!”
The fist fell on him. The man laughed and laughed, then suddenly stopped.
He raised his gaze, full of hatred as he looked at Bo Qin, He smiled then asked, “You know, what does Xiao Mu cling onto the most?”
“It’s you.”
“In his eyes, you are upright, kind, gentle, considerate…” He laughed, laughed until tears streamed down. “You relied on this disguise and lied to him for so many years…”
“You hurt him so badly, but he was not willing to hurt you and still loved you…”
“But what if, Xie Mu knew this was all a lie?”
“The person he clung to, held on to, was all fake!!”
“Hahahahahahahaha fake!!”
“You said, our Xiao Mu experienced hypnosis two times. His mental state is weak and you locked up the current Xiao Mu, what will you do…”
“Hahahahahahaha…wu!”
His laughter stopped when Bo Qin suddenly kicked his body. The man was left lying on the ground, squirming like a bug.
He spit out a mouthful of blood, his face stained with dirt. He lifted his gaze with difficulty, full of madness and joy.
“I said before…You caused me to lose the person I love. You better not think of living well either!!”
***
The hospital roof door slammed open. Bo Qin saw Xie Mu’s current position, and all the blood in his body seemed to solidify.
The thin body of the young man sat on the railing as if he would fall as long as the wind gently blew.
He held a phone in his hand, and Bo Qin’s voice was playing from it.
Xie Mu heard the movement and slightly turned his head. His gaze met Bo Qing’s and they looked at each other. He quirked his lips, revealing a touch of sarcasm and what seemed to be a bitter smile. Tears slid down his pale face.
“Turns out…it was fake…”
“From the beginning, it was fake…”
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The dog blood is so intense 😭
Thanks for the chap!
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HAHAAA i feel like the only reason why i enjoy this is bc the “white lotus” isn’t actually such a tormented person, xie mu is having the time of his life laughing at such a stupid gong. what a comrade. do your best mumu!
thanks for the chapter
I have to agree. I usually just get irritated with passive characters, so the fact that this is all a ploy makes it bearable.
It’s the only way I can enjoy this too. If Xie Mu really was feeling all these emotions it’d be too painful for me
Somehow… Aish, getting bad vibes from this. Is he gonna… Oh dear.
sigh
Its coming!!! The ultimate face slap for these scum gongs!!! Can’t wait!!
Thanks for the chapter~♡♡♡
Uwaaaa, serious applause for our main actor! Such cunning~
Thanks for your hard work!
My stomach is anxious.
Thank you for translating!!!
Thanks for the chapter 💕
Just one last point left 🤧 this dogblood act of our MC is affecting me so much (っ˘̩╭╮˘̩)っ
the Scum gong better hand over that last point (〒﹏〒) our Xie My has been working hard
thank you for translating (人´∀｀)｡ﾟ+
this is fine. 🙂
Xie Mu’s acting is superb.
Thanks for the chapter!
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I know MuMu is just acting but I can’t help crying.. UWU
I know this is just an act from Mu Mu but damn this hurts! And I’m so glad karmic retribution bit those two scums’ ass.
What you mean that BQ cuz the 2nd personality to be gone?! You’re really out of your mind TT you wanted the elite , the 1st personality why blaming BQ. And from the moment you start to bully XM he can’t be yours scum. They’re both fvcked up mygoddd anyways BQ saw TT harass XM in the school so shouldn’t he think that XM is dirty from the start? Maybe he forgot and that’s fudge up•́ ‿ ,•̀
I feel bad for OG Xie Mu. In your next life, don’t meet these kinds of people, okay?
Thank you for translating 💕
they be fighting over one person with different personalities 🥲
So angst