Transmigrating into the Reborn Male Lead's Ex-BoyfriendCh128 - Eyes Curved into a Smile, Extremely Cute

translator: Eve
editor: kara

After heading back to China, Song Xuanhe had participated in a few banquets. He had gotten together with Zhou Nan and Xiao Shenglin and also had had a meal with Wei Chen. In less than a week’s time, he had already bought a plane ticket to leave China. m3rQH

Song Xuanhe always travelled rather aimlessly. A lot of the time, he would suddenly think of a city. When that would happen, he wouldn’t even plan his itinerary. He would simply buy a plane ticket for the next day and leave. Once, because of his willfulness, he had even wasted five days’ time to change flights while on-route, because he had seen a photo of another city’s scenery.

He had travelled from the Southern Hemisphere to the Northern Hemisphere, from Asia to Europe to North America. He had gone bungee-jumping and parachuting in seek of thrills. Prompted by impulse, he had also run off to a small theatre to play with professionals even though he had only learned acting for five or six years as a child. He had even escaped to the Amazons to take pictures of panthers and look young Marsh Deers in the eye while in slovenly clothes. He had also visited highly rated Michelin-star restaurants in exquisite clothes.

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For the next three months, Song Xuanhe travelled seemingly non-stop.

By the time he had realized that he hadn’t contacted anyone in a really long time, he was already in X Country. Even if he wanted to contact his friends and family, he couldn’t. UjoI8z

【What are you doing here?】The System was confused:【There’s still two more months left until you’re supposed to go home. Brother, you’re not planning to live out these last two months under gunfire, are you?】

Song Xuanhe, who had not heard the System call him “Brother” in a long time, suddenly felt kinship between them. For once, his tone was amicable:【I was telling the truth when I had said that I wanted to find unique materials and dyeing methods. I wasn’t lying to Zhang Chao.】

【But, it’s really dangerous here. This is one of the most dangerous countries in this world.】The System said in a grave tone:【Do you know how many people die here daily? The average number of deaths is 67 people a day! Everyone else wants to escape this place. You’re the only person in the world trying to get in.】

Song Xuanhe knocked on the inn’s door and raised a brow. “This is a safety zone. There’s nothing to fear.”

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【There’s no such thing as a safety zone in a war-torn country.】The System said:【According to what I know, there was a gunfight here two days ago because of a turf war. Three people died, and fifteen were injured. You’re not safe at all.】

The inn’s door opened a crack. Song Xuanhe smiled at the person and spoke in English. He introduced himself and told the person inside that a X Country citizen he had met on his journey had recommended this place to him.

The person on the other side of the door was a middle-aged man wearing a kind of headscarf. When he heard what Song Xuanhe had said, he was shocked. At first, he surveyed the outside surroundings vigilantly. When he discovered that Song Xuanhe was alone, he looked at the smiling young man. He then cracked the door open a bit more, said something in his local language, and let Song Xuanhe in.

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Song Xuanhe thanked the man in the local language. The System was saying in his head: 【I would recommend that you go home.】 Q62dnt

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【Brother, you should really get out of here!】The System said in Song Xuanhe’s mind:【You can buy dyes anywhere! I told you before, this body is now your body. If you were to lose an arm or a leg, it won’t regenerate when you return to your own world!】 1w8lRE

Song Xuanhe simply smiled at the man, “I came to see Mr. Hashemi.”

The man was taken aback. A while later, he furrowed his brows and spoke in a queer tone. “Mr. Hashemi left here with his family two days ago.”

“He left?”

Song Xuanhe was stunned. He really had risked the danger of entering a warzone to come here to learn the local dyeing and weaving techniques. In the past, he had seen pictures of beautiful, splendid carpets from the Middle East. From then on, Song Xuanhe had started to look into the materials used to make those carpets. DgfPjQ

The dyes and beautiful dyeing techniques originated from X Country. X Country didn’t exist in Song Xuanhe’s original world, and it was completely different from any country from his original world, regardless of whether it was in terms of culture or history. Even the local language wasn’t standard Arabic. It was a local dialect which was very difficult to understand. Song Xuanhe had studied Arabic for a few months on his own while researching but still only understood a little bit.

When he had been visiting R Country, he had been fortunate enough to bump into a merchant from X Country. That person had seen that Song Xuanhe had been looking for information regarding X Country. The two of them had hit it off, and Song Xuanhe had learned a lot about X Country that he couldn’t have learned from books or the internet.

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X Country was currently very unstable. It was currently in the midst of a civil war. The situation was similar to a certain war-torn country in Song Xuanhe’s original world. However, it wasn’t really dangerous to other countries since it was a civil war with no outside involvement.

Back then, Song Xuanhe had researched for nearly half a year for the sake of obtaining these dyes. Naturally, he was not the type to give up easily. Actually, he had mulled over whether or not he should take the risk to come throughout his entire journey, from the dangerous plains and forests to the peaceful, luxurious cities. Zkq3K1

Just as the System had said, it wasn’t really worth it to come to a dangerous place for the sake of a dyeing technique that could be found elsewhere.

He had pondered over this issue for a very long time. But a few days ago, as he had stared at a tall clock tower that had struck noon in a plaza  filled with fluttering doves, he had suddenly really wanted to go.

As such, he had contacted the X Country merchant he had met in R Country and found out how to go to X Country. He had also found out who was the maker of the particular carpet he had seen and where he should go to find him.

Afterwards, Song Xuanhe had headed out. 1l9jU3

The entire journey, the System had tried to persuade Song Xuanhe patiently of the dangers. It had tried to persuade him emotionally and rationally. It had even dug up shocking footage of gunfights between the two factions in X Country for the sake of persuading him. The guns and bullets were all real in the video. The humans who died had also once been real, living human beings. It had hoped that Song Xuanhe would shrink back.

What it hadn’t expected was that it would have no way of stopping Song Xuanhe.

The System suddenly realized that, even though it had interacted with Song Xuanhe for almost two years now and had collected a lot of data on him, it still didn’t really understand him. Song Xuanhe was usually cool-headed and rational. He even seemed to care about his safety and well-being more than most people did most of the time. But sometimes, he would do something crazy.

The System didn’t even have to run any analyses to know that this trifling matter wasn’t worth risking one’s life for. The System occasionally wondered if Song Xuanhe simply didn’t care whether he lived or died. Perhaps the other was even suicidal. 9dawZT

Suddenly, the System suddenly recalled what Song Xuanhe had said once. He had said that there was a reason he had to go back to his original world while he had no reason to stay in this world.

Back then, the System had thought that Song Xuanhe and Xiao Yuanmu understood each other well and had even fallen for each other. Was that not enough to make Song Xuanhe stay?

But, it now seemed like neither Xiao Yuanmu nor itself really understood Song Xuanhe. The reason why Song Xuanhe wanted to go back to his original world so much might be because the people who understood him were there. Even if those people were no longer alive, he still wanted to go back to his own world.

The first night in X Country, the System had asked the burning question on its mind:【Does the reason you have to go back to your original world have something to do with your parents? 】 yQ41Tg

Song Xuanhe had been wondering if he should stay here and look for other people who were experts in these arts, considering the fact that the carpet maker he had been looking for had already left. His other option was to leave tomorrow morning.

The System’s voice had startled him out of his thoughts, which caused him to blank out for a few seconds. Even after having processed the question, he didn’t respond for quite some time.

Time slowly passed. Song Xuanhe closed his eyes, which held no emotion. The System knew that he wasn’t sleeping, based off of his brain waves. It thought that he didn’t want to respond.

The System had been about to say that Song Xuanhe didn’t have to answer the question if he didn’t want to when he saw the man open his eyes. There was a puzzled light in those limpid eyes, glistening under the moonlight. “I don’t know.” K8QswC

The System knew that Song Xuanhe was telling the truth. But, it didn’t understand what this meant.

Therefore, it honestly asked:【How could you not know? Didn’t you say that you had a reason to go back?】

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Song Xuanhe blinked and asked, “Did I say that?”

The System was certain:【Yes.】 XdHxBJ

“I might have had a reason back then.”

Song Xuanhe flipped over, his gaze traversing the moonlight flooding in from the window as he stared at the foreign-looking dome buildings outside. Who would have expected nighttime to seem so peaceful and safe here? In contrast, the days were filled with despair and fear.

He had not expected it either. He had not expected that after having cut off contact with all the people in his life for three months to travel alone, he would find himself sitting in a bar at night and realizing that the rest of his life might play out the same way. Suddenly, he had felt overwhelming sadness at the thought that Li Nianan, Zhou Nan, Xiao Shenglin, and Xiao Yuanmu would disappear from his life.

This abrupt sense of emptiness had made him want to do something. Subconsciously, he had wanted to dial Xiao Yuanmu’s number. The second before he had pressed down on the call button, however, Song Xuanhe had heard the clock tower chime. 7JkUvh

At that moment, Song Xuanhe had made a bet with himself. If he was able to find Hashemi and return from X Country safe and sound, then he would stay in this world. If Hashemi wasn’t there, or he ended up injured, then he would return to his original world.

The System asked:【Do you have a reason now?】

Song Xuanhe said:【Yes. Hashemi isn’t here, so I’ll choose to go back to my original world.】


Eve: Incoming angst alert. Not major angst, but definitely emotionally charged. I once read a comment from someone who read MTL and didn’t understand why SXH put himself in danger like this. Well, here’s why. He’s lost, he’s uncertain, he’s confused. He’s torn between everything he’s known and his potential happiness in a foreign place. Remember, SXH lost his parents at a young age. He loves and misses them very much. Even if it’s childish, he still feels comfort in looking at the sky in his original world, because his parents might be looking down at him. In contrast, his parents do not exist here. He wanted to leave it to fate, because this is a life-changing decision which can overwhelm even the best of us. OhHlF

Kara: MY SOOOOONNNNNN!!!! He bao, my sweet child!! ˚‧º·(˚ ˃̣̣̥⌓˂̣̣̥ )‧º·˚ I both adore and detest these self-reflection chapters. All they do is hurt me, but I can’t help but appreciate the way the author takes the time to really flesh out the characterization of our boys.  

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38 comments

  1. . . . I don’t know what to react. T^T

    But I really wanna stop reading this now, and wait until the translation is complete, bUT I CAN’T. AAAAHH!! T^T BBY, IMMA HUG U. I KNOW THAT WHATEVER U CHOOSE, YOU WILL BE HAPPY THERE! Some (and partly you) might be disappointed or sad, but you know yourself more. You know what is important and very close to you, and that will make you morw happy. IMMA HUG YOU COZ IDK WHAT TO SAY WAAAAHH!!!

    Thank you for the chapter! ^_^

  2. I hope he doesn’t get hurt. I hope he finds the carpenter. I hope Mumu finds him and I hope SxH finally cries.

  3. the self reflection is quite deep in this novel… I don’t know what to say… I just want to hug baby Xuanhe (っ˘̩╭╮˘̩)っ

  4. If Hashemi ain’t here I will drag him out of his grave I swear!! It’s quite interesting to see people having doubts if they should stay in the world they transmigrated into, though, I like that

  5. I totally get SXH’s hesitance. Despite having people who cares about him in this world. He is not the original SXH. Dspite all of this, im sure Mumu’s exsistence would change his mindset.

    Thanks for the chapter!

  6. Desite ard read the spoilers, I’m still stuck here with heartache. Aih… I’m somewhat understand SXH feelin’. Lost and confused, totally can relate..

  7. oh dudes, sxh in this chapter is certainly a mood. jumping from country to country experiencing stuff, but also being super self-destructive. i feel so sad for him, but yeah i get why.

    thanks for the chapter.

  8. I understand it a bit. It’s really difficult and sad either way. I really want to give my He Bao a hug now (´•̥̥̥ω•̥̥̥` ).

    Thank you for the chapter 😊

  9. I want to give him a big hug 😭

    It’s such a hard choice.

    But once you leave home, when you go back it’s never quite what it was before. It feels strange.

    Thanks for the chapter!!!

  10. He bao… You’ll be fine, you’re not alone anymore. You have someone who loves you more than anything in this world </3

    Thank you for the chapter!

  11. There’s definitely a part of me hoping that the reason Hashemi and his family recently left (and caused the local to have a weird response) is because Xiao Yuanmu’s connections found out about Song Xuanhe looking into him and guessed why, so Xiao Yuanmu arranged for him to be safely removed from danger so Song Xuanhe wouldn’t have to go there to pursue his skills. Perhaps even help set it up so Song Xuanhe can outright hire him to work for him back at the studio in a win-win situation since now Hashemi and his entire family will be somewhere safe with a reliable income to continue supporting them.
  12. He bao, your self-destructive behaviors have reached the tipping point….

    Out of everyone, I feel most bad for Xiao Yuanmu. He loves Song Xuanhe so much but then Xuanhe disappears for months and throws himself into danger…. if I were Xiao Yuanmu I’d go bald from stress. Or in his case, have severe stomach pain haha…..

    Thanks for translating!

  13. 。゚゚(´□`。)°゚。 ahhh Eve, I thought I could hold in my tears but what you said broke the dam. Babbbyy SX!! Don’t do this!!!

    Thanks for the chappie (-᷄ .̯ -᷅。)

  14. I definitely have a love-hate relationship with Song Xuanhe.Right now is hate.

    Dude, please. PLEASE!

  15. Thanks for your hard work!

    TYPO- “ He had gone bungee-jumping and parachuting in **seek [search] of thrills.”

  16. Xuanhe doesn’t have a sense of belonging. He explicitly has stated since his mom passed away, he had no home, perpetually drifting in the world, alone.

    When he first transmigrated, for A very long time he felt that he was in a fantasy world of a fiction novel. Finally when was able to reconcile with the fact that the world around him was just as real as the one he belonged to, he was still stuck in a predicament where he & Yuanmu have a set role they ought to play, which restricts him from having freedom to act on his emotions. This gives a sense of alienation from the world where he can’t actually live with free will, hence making him a solitary figure as it’s not a typical transmigration/reincarnation novel where protagonist could adjust to new life & in turn, accept the world they transmigrated to.

  17. Hmmmm…… i have a guess that Xuanhe went back in time??? Because it said that the X country isnt in his original world, maybe its because it turned to ruin or it’s Country R in his real world. Maybe he’s the real owner of the body because the system said that if he losses a limb or something like that, the limb he losses wont also be there in his world. So he reincarnated after dying in the past and went back in time because of some unknown reason. (Just a wild guess based on other stories with plots that the Mc transmigrated but it turns out that they were in their own bodies)

  18. Xuan baby!!! Gambling is bad!! Do not gamble with your future QAQ! I can give you all my savings to gamble away just dont gamble your future! Besides didnt you say your gambling luck sucked orz

  19. In all the transmigrating novels I have read so far, He bao is the one whose thoughts are closer to reality (at least for me). His existential crisis and worries gave me an itch that I can’t scratch and leaves an uncomfortable feeling. Thank you Eve and co. for the amazing translation. His frustrations and uncertainties were all relayed in a wonderful way.

  20. I’ve read some of the comments on the novel updates too and they really baffled me bc, up to this point, all his actions had reasons. Like being in contact with that LX actress was bc he wanted to escalate the conflict between himself and the father. Bc the book’s SXH was kicked out of the family by his father, saying he cannot shelter someone who is morally corrupt (or something like that) when info came out that XYM is part of the Xiao family and everyone t started throwing stones at SXH to curry favour with him.

    It’s the same with every action SXH took with regards to XYM. First, he did what he had to do bc of the plot. Then, he slowly got to know and understand XYM and sympathise with his journey. He slowly realised he’s not just a book character, he’s a living, breathing human. Then he started to get involved more and more, but he also tried to either ignore his feelings or subconsciously avoid them. Now he’s probably finally faced the fact he likes him. But we have to bear in mind that, for SXH, every person he ever liked/loved has died – his parents and his friend from his world. So I personally think it’s to be expected for him to try and run away from his feelings and thus from XYM. Loving someone means being vulnerable. Not everyone is comfortable with said vulnerability. XYM is comfortable with it bc he has confidence in himself and thus took every measure he thought of to keep SXH safe, away from the conflict inside the Xiao family. However, SXH doesn’t have that confidence nor does he have the resources to keep XYM safe. What of he loses him just like he lost his parents and friend? Thus he’d rather go ahead and return to his world. A world where XYM doesn’t exist and can’t influence his life (or so he thinks).

  21. Wow the decision making of choice between two worlds here are really fleshed right and in-depth. I understand Xuanhe’s lost and I also understand why he gambled his life in his lost-ness.

  22. I like reading about SXH’s choices bcs it’s tough. even though everyone he cared about is gone in the original world, he still has a connection there. whereas in this world, he made new connections with people that also care about him.

    I’m also glad to read about a mc that’s lost since nowadays it’s always about an omnipotent mc haha.

    • well… I mean they will def end up tgt. it’s just a matter of how. but I rly love angst and crying (for myself) so I’m gonna enjoy it hehe.