Parenting In Full Bloom! The Former Villainous Noble Son Who Found His Love NestChapter 80

Author: aji (あじ)
Translator: sleepingjay

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Go away.

Disappear from my eyes, and from my heart.

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“I hate you.”

In my red-dyed vision, Jill’s face had a sad tinge. It was a very beautiful sight. zm2BDf

It filled my heart with satisfaction to see how he looked, hurt by my own hands. My heart—a distorted, bent thing—rose in joy.

Everyone should hurt just as much as I had been hurt—

These violent and dark emotions broke out inside me. There was nothing funny at all about this situation, but a chuckle welled up in my throat.

My laughter echoed down the back alley.

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Then, almost eerily, it came to an abrupt halt, and a cold voice descended in its silence.

It was a disconcerting voice, sticky as though there was mud coiled around it.

“—Disappear from my sight.”

I didn’t care anymore. bogqZ0

What the hell was I trying hard for? Just who was I trying to impress with my hard work?

Either way, in the end everyone would just throw me away anyway.

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“You’ve thought that too, haven’t you? You must have laughed at me, a cockroach that just won’t die. Someone like me whose life has no worth, still isn’t interesting even if I live forever.”

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P rajgfv ja Alii mtjiifculcuis. Tfa, tf rjlv jyrbieafis cbatlcu.

Snfc atbeut eq ecali pera cbk, tf tjv yffc rajglcu ja wf rb lcafcais, bynlberis kjcalcu ab rjs rbwfatlcu. Rbk, tf cb ibcufg rtbkfv jcs rlucr bo j gfjmalbc.

That face with no visible emotions seemed to despise me, and that gaze made my irritation grow stronger. Cs2Owo

Don’t look at me with those eyes.

The moment I was about to impulsively fire a spell toward Jill—a voice sounded inside my mind.

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“Lilius, no—”

A tiny being begged me. Bo46 h

“Lilius, don’t,”

“No, no, Lilius don’t.”

A large number of spirits gathered, buzzing around me as they repeatedly asked me to stop.

Drowned by the deluge of voices, I was overcome by dizziness and pain in my head. I shut my eyes tight to clear my head, and that was when a shattering sound came from a distance, like something had cracked. Bxkbl

“……U, ugh.”

In an instant, it was as if I was woken from a dream, light clearing away the gray haze clouding over my thoughts.

As if a blindfold had been removed from my eyes, the red-dyed world disappeared. At the edge of my gaze, I saw the mass of spirits chasing away a wriggling dark shadow.

That shadow was the black haze. o13eSA

The moment I realised it, my heart froze in its tracks.

I, just what was I doing……

Why had I let myself be that cruel with my words to Jill? Recalling my own behaviour, I shuddered. The back of my throat tightened, choking my breath away.

I had done something awful. A59C7Y

When I looked up at Jill with a clear mind, his stiff, heavy voice shocked me.

“Even if you die, the people that have died won’t come back to life.”

“……”

“Lilius, you’re a kind person. But, for how long are you going to chase after those far away things? All you look at is distant and removed. Your eyes don’t shift to those immediate and near, nestled close to you. You know the terror of loss, yet why don’t you look in the present, at those that are now living by your side? You don’t acknowledge that you can do more by living, so much more than by dying—it will be too late to realise that after you’ve already lost it, Lilius.” sBL0VZ

His words pierced my chest strongly.

Like an inextricable thorn, they left a small mark on my soft heart.

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From Jill’s words, it seemed apparent that I had lost him too, just now.

It was a hard voice that could be said to be disgusted, or perhaps discouraged, that I had never heard before this. Gvy4c1

With a coldhearted, lifeless expression, Jill seemed to be indifferent in all aspects.

“As you said, my worrying about you is something that could only make you laugh. …..However, besides me, there are others who also think of you. There’s that young boy that tried to lay his own life down for your sake. You know, he desperately pleaded to me, he would do anything as long as it could save you? The people that are carefully trying to protect that life you despise exist, and if you can’t even recognise who they are, then their efforts would all be in vain.”

He was cold everywhere. That alone was enough to make me realise that I had been pushed out.

Jill had always looked at me gently. kJGIaO

But now, he was unfathomable.

I didn’t know what he was thinking under that blank expression. His gaze was as sharp as a piercing needle.

I looked down, avoiding that sight. But instead, Bel appeared in my mind.

A young boy whose hair swayed fluffily as he moved, who always laughed and called out my name happily. YvE8Qd

I recalled his appearance when he tottered along after me like a jumpy rabbit, and helpless regret welled up inside me.

I ended up hurting people. I had belittled the kindness of many people.

Right now, the one that had received the worst of it, was Jill.

I needed to apologise…… sX8 QM

I was the one that inflicted the wounds, so instead of running away, I had to be the one to make amends.

I didn’t want to part like this. My lips, which I had chewed on to the point of numbness, parted open.

Lifting my face, I called out to Jill’s back as he was about to walk away.

“Jill, wait—” IjLDlp

However, my voice didn’t reach him.

Before I could finish speaking, Jill’s figure was wrapped up in light and disappeared.

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The two men that had been sprawled on the ground were also swallowed up by the light and disappeared.

In the deserted spot where Jill should have been, only the glittering sparks of magic remained, shining quietly in the stillness. i21xj6

Translator:
If anyone forgot, remember that Lilius has been mean to Bel at work. Also, it’s so frustrating to watch these two chicken and duck talking omg. I wish I could translate faster, this is torturous.

And anyone else feeling dejavu? Miss Seira-I-treasure-your-locket-but-I-hate-and-am-jealous-of-you maybe? (Not a spoiler btw, we’re already past where I MTL’d and I’m just speculating)

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I'm Jay. This is my first time translating. I'm doing this to keep up with my Japanese studies, so I'm still in the process of learning. Please be gentle with mistakes. If there are any mistakes please ping me on Discord — I'll get back to you faster. Thank you for reading!

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28 comments

  2. Oh no…😱😥😭 Lilius also got possessed by that black shadow and hurt Jill… badly. And now waiting for them to reconcile and resume their romance will be pure torture. This isn’t something just explaining can fix. Thank you for the chapter!!!

  5. The two of them tho.. haha should they use some translator of sorts that would make them talk normal– like no pretenses and just straight communicate with each other ahahahahahaha but deym it hurts huhuhu

    Thank you so much for the chapter!!!~ 🙇🏻🙇🏻🙇🏻🙇🏻🙇🏻🙇🏻🙇🏻🙇🏻

  6. Wha-what? Jill didn’t see the Black Shadow? He thought Lily was saying those things from his heart?

    How frustrating!!! Jill and the Kids are going away soon… How could they see each other again?

    Thanks for the chapter!

  7. I’m so happy about this chapter…. yes he was harsh, but he has a right to be angry about how invasive jill was about researching into lilius’ past, ESPECIALLY about his rape and using that information to plan out how to seduce lilius. and the bracelet as well! it was dangerous: it had the potential to seriously harm lilius on accident (or if someone tricked lilius somehow), AND IT DID!

    these are all things that had to come up now, before their relationship went any further. i think now, they need to explore lilius’ family more. lilius isn’t just the children’s-dad’s-boyfriend; he is their uncle. and i think it’s weird how the author keeps dancing around that? it seems like they’ve deliberately avoided any of the kids using the term “uncle”, and blow past lilius’ relationship with his sister. I think that this is so that the kids don’t have to switch from “uncle” to “dad” at the end of the story.

    • +1 Yes! Lilius is already fed up and tired of everything, and then Jill says that he loves him but brings up something he knows Lilius never wanted to talk about. I don’t blame him for acting like that, especially since he was possessed too…

  9. Lilius is so frustrating. i know he was possessed with the black shadow thing BUT he was already harboring such thoughts. I know he’s hurt from his past but besides Jill being weary of him when they first met, he has been nothing but kind to him.

    Get your sh!t together Lilius.

    Thanks for the chapter <3

    • After being in the dark for so long, always being played and betrayed by people you trust, being a victim of r@pe and was blamed for it, I’d be more than surprised if Lillius is still trusting as ever. Yes, Jill has been nothing but kind to him, but Lillius is not used to such affections. He’s not used to people, strangers, being kind to him. He took a long time opening up to the villagers where he resided. If my memory served me right, it took him 3 years to adjust and accept their kindness, to understand that they mean no harm towards him. 3 years, and yet you expect Lillius to accept Jill’s confession when they knew each other for only a few weeks? Or even a few months? After all those traumatic events, the still evident self-hatred he have, you really expect for Lillius to easily fall for someone like Jill, who was insensitive towards Lillius in that scene where it was obvious Lillius had a panic/anxiety attack because of his trauma??? I don’t think Lillius needs the one to fix his shit up.

  10. Why is everything always always always on Lilius? Jill isn’t an angel either. How dare he put this on Lilius after victim blaming him & pushing him into despair just before? My heart is tired.

    Thanks for the chapter

  11. I bet the kids going to help them reconcile back and with this accident their relationship will be much more stronger (〃￣ω￣〃ゞ

  13. Uuggh, I think I’m gonna die of blood loss from splurting too much blood from this story. LILIUS, JILL, JUST PLEASEEE HAVE A LONG PLEASANT TALK ABOUT LIFE!!!! My heart is shredding to pieces from the heartbreaking situation sniff Even though I understand your situations, your self assumptions are killing me 2£7ajsjia:hsjak6hsh)£!!!!! 😭😭😭

  14. Thank you for your hard work!

    I’m so happy to see an update, but wow am I feeling so incredibly frustrated with the both of them, like, UGH!

  15. Delicious drama mwahaha~~

    Maybe I’m the black shadow that likes these kinds of torturous situations 😅

    Thank you so much for translating, things are getting wild!!! I’m so interested to see what happens ❤

  16. …I had to reread the last few chapters b/c I’m genuinely lost on what Jill is even doing.

    He saves the man he like/loves from being sexually assaulted. Then he makes a wrong turn from concern into victim blaming. Which is worse b/c Lilli is a rpe survivor and Jill knows this??? Lilli -who is traumatized and having flashbacks, says real mean sht to him and doubts his intentions. And JILL gets to leave Lilli feeling guilty????

    (Honestly – #whyineedfeminism)

    Bro, you got handed a golden damsel in distress event. All you had to do was take care of the bodies and get Lilli somewhere safe (Of which you only did one), others convos could wait.

    I hope there was one fairy like, “no, ML needs to at least get a little set on fire”

  17. Okay I… hahah I think Lilius has a right to be angry at Bel tho? Like Bel was clearly scheming and I’m not saying he gets to.make Bel’s life Extra difficult but if he just lets that matter slide away then its kinda unsatisfying.

    Plus, JILL!!! Lilius was the topic of a malicious gossip!!! He was shunned!!! Something that occurred in his past time and time again!! He was then nearly r-word and had a shitt flashback AND THE FIRST THING YOU DO IS BEING PREACHY?????????? something you Know he hates????!!!! Where is the braincell here Jill??? My god im so pissed!!!

    Thanks for the chapter € ^ *^)/// ~~ ♡♡♡♡♡

  19. Honestly, even if jill did made sense, he should know that doing this is not the right way to make Lillius realize things. I mean, how low of an EQ does one have to be that insensitive? Jill knew about Lillius’ past and should have an understanding of how broken our boy is yet here he is saying things that would even make our boy more guilty of himself than ever. I understand where Jill is coming from but making Lillius accept happiness after being in the dark for so long immediately won’t work. Instead of happiness, Lillius would only feel guilt and the negative emotions would just be burried, not letting go of any of it. And burrying such emotions, such thoughts, wouldn’t end well as it would always arise at some point. I honestly do not like how Jill handled this. He wants Lillius to accept him yet is hurting him. Great way to back up your ‘I like you’ confession, Jill.