If You Don’t Fall in Love, You’ll DieCh79 - I’m a Little Scared.

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Ye Chen was delighted. “Brother Zhe, what are you going to play as?” dCZgTh

Once he said those words, Yu Xingzhe began to regret it. That was so childish, it truly wasn’t in line with his reserved persona.

But who would have thought that Ye Chen would take it seriously and said, “I’ll ask Director Li and see if there are any suitable roles for you!”

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Gu Xi, “…”

Yu Xingzhe, “…” S 0yax

Ye Chen had taken his leave. Yu Xingzhe opened his mouth, thinking of calling him to return, but Gu Xi said, “He told me that after he finished shooting this movie, he won’t accept any more roles.”

Yu Xingzhe was bewildered.

Gu Xi said, “I hope that we won’t have any regret when we watch this movie in the next few decades.”

——That Ye Chen wouldn’t regret that he had chosen Ren Jing, and that they wouldn’t regret having entrusted Ye Chen to Ren Jing.

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After Yu Xingzhe pondered over Gu Xi’s words for a while, he thought that he would feel sour like he just drank vinegar, but actually, he felt very calm. He was even slightly looking forward to it.

Looking forward to witnessing Ye Chen’s fairytale love.

 

Director Li was sipping his tea when Ye Chen ran into and spoke to him. He nearly choked to death before saying, “T-T-That second young master of Yu Family??” hkYi6I

Ye Chen said, “Don’t worry, Director Li. Old Yu’s acting skills are much better than mine!”

Director Li wasn’t concerned about that. What gave him a headache was… With so many ‘famous people’ gathering here, it wouldn’t match with his low-profile, meaningful, and natural style.

It was his assistant director who had better foresight. This clearly showed that this movie was going to be popular!

Movie King Ren——a guarantee that the movie would go to the box office in no time! qi5LMb

Director Gu——a well-known figure in the circle!

Yu Xingzhe——God-level figure who collaborated with them!

Even though they might lose some audience when Ye Chen’s poster was released (there were always those who didn’t want to die of second-hand embarrassment), as long as the movie was screened and the audience saw Ye Chen’s acting skills, they would certainly pass it on by word of mouth. When that moment came…

Goodness, Old Li is about to make a bundle of money! cF7KET

 

The assistant director immediately agreed. “No sweat! It so happens that there is a suitable role for him!” Doesn’t fucking matter if there is or there isn’t, we have to make him stay first. It’s good if there is one, but if there isn’t, we could just make one up! 

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We’re sorry for MTLers or people who like using reading mode, but our translations keep getting stolen by aggregators so we’re going to bring back the copy protection. If you need to MTL please retype the gibberish parts.

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Ye Chen struggled to keep the corner of his lips down. “I won’t, I won’t, I certainly won’t smile anymore!” That was what he said, but his eyes were still in a curve.

Gu Xi told Ren Jing, “You should be more indifferent to him. That way, he’d be able to bring out the emotion more.” keKSi8

Ren Jing nodded responsibly. “I’ll be more indifferent.” That was what he said, but his pupils which were filled with infatuation almost had ‘Chen Chen’ written all over.

Gu Xi nearly got drowned by all the pink bubbles they were creating!

 

Yu Xingzhe watched over them for a moment and suddenly didn’t feel like signing the contract anymore. Would he be shooting a movie after joining the crew? He would probably be swallowing lots of dog food instead! ZTt8Jd

They would delay too many hours if they went on like this. In the end, it was Death System who offered to help Ye Chen.

Death System, “Come, come, come, I’ll help you find the right emotion.”

Ye Chen asked, “How?”

Death System only uttered a sentence, but it was enough to stab right at Ye Chen’s gut. “What if everything was a dream?” gRQuND

Ye Chen suddenly felt that his chest was engulfed with a slight chill.

Death System continued, “Have you really been revived? Does Death System truly exist? Does Ren Jing truly love you? Such a happy life, is it only a pipe dream?”

Death System only casually said these few words, yet Ye Chen instantly lost his wits.

Everyone was quite astonished. They really had no idea how Ye Chen managed to find the (right) feeling. vIySQu

Fortunately, they shot the scene perfectly. Ren Jing noticed that Ye Chen didn’t look well, thus he asked, “What’s wrong?”

Ye Chen replied, “I-It’s nothing.”

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Death System said, “Alright, I was just teasing you, don’t take it seriously.”

Ye Chen knew that Death System was only teasing him, but when he contemplated on it for a bit, he couldn’t help but feel a chill on his back. gldIBx

 

When everyone was having lunch at noon, Ye Chen tried his best to keep his spirit up, but he was still somewhat in a daze.

Ren Jing said, “Are you tired? You should return and have a rest in the afternoon. The crew had arranged to shoot other people’s scenes first.”

Ye Chen asked, “Is that alright?” QEkudL

Ren Jing replied, “Yes.”

Ye Chen wasn’t in the best condition, he didn’t want to be at the shooting site in the afternoon. He asked Ren Jing again, “Do you have anything you need to do in the afternoon?”

Ren Jing, “Nothing much. I’ll accompany you.”

Ye Chen felt warm inside his heart. He quietly held Ren Jing’s hand, then grunted, “Mn.” xNmvHn

 

Death System felt somewhat anxious. “Brother, there’s no way you’re that emotional, right? I was merely helping you find the (right) feeling.” Seems like I would overdo it if I was careless.

Ye Chen didn’t say anything.

Death System said, “How could this be a dream? Could you even dream of such a smart and stylish system?” 4dQrn0

Ye Chen, “…”

Death System said again, “Now pinch yourself, it’ll definitely hurt lots that you’ll wail!”

Ye Chen finally said in a low voice after a long time, “…Things are quite unrealistic, indeed.”

Being revived was unrealistic, Death System’s existence was unrealistic, and being able to receive a tremendous amount of happiness also made him feel a bit uneasy. mAJtXM

Death System said, “What’s unrealistic about them? No matter how unbelievable things might be, it’s real once it happens.”

Is it truly real once it happens? Ye Chen stared blankly as he was lost in thought.

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Ren Jing called his name. Iw6HlJ

Ye Chen suddenly snapped out of it. He looked at Ren Jing while still feeling quite bewildered.

Ren Jing’s eyes had a hint of worry. He kissed Ye Chen then asked, “What are you thinking about?”

Ye Chen stared into Ren Jing’s eyes. When he caught sight of his own reflection in his twinkling black eyes, he promptly felt at ease.

There was only Ye Chen’s reflection in his eyes. Qsft r

This was truly too good to be true.

 

Ye Chen began to speak. “I’m a little scared.”

Ren Jing asked, “What are you scared of?” VBlhas

Ye Chen whispered, “I’m scared that everything was only a dream.”

“A dream?” Ren Jing was startled.

Ye Chen was very embarrassed, but still said earnestly, “I’ve been feeling so happy all this while. Being together with you made me truly happy. I like you, and you also like me… You’ve always been so, so nice to me. Everything is wonderful, so wonderful it feels like a dream…”

Ren Jing abruptly tightened his grip on Ye Chen’s hand. IJd08M

Ye Chen said as his cheeks reddened, “Am I too…”

Not waiting for Ye Chen to finish his words, Ren Jing spoke. His voice was very low and a bit hoarse when he said, “This can’t be a dream.”

Ye Chen inexplicably felt his heart tightened.

Ren Jing buried himself into Ye Chen’s neck before he took a deep breath. “If this is a dream, then…” FhPokG

He didn’t finish his words, yet Ye Chen could hear it clearly. He could keenly feel Ren Jing’s fear, so deep it went on the verge of despair.

Ren Jing was a lot more scared than he was.

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This sentence plunged into Ye Chen’s mind and immediately sobered him up: I mustn’t give way to foolish fancies!

Ren Jing was real, he was real, everything was real! xFrcfD

 

Ye Chen also hugged him tightly. Upon feeling the warmth of Ren Jing’s body, he felt relieved right away. “Ren Jing.”

Ren Jing simply hugged him closely.

Ye Chen said under his breath, “I must be too deeply in love with you.” O5yeGs

Ren Jing’s body suddenly froze.

Ye Chen mustered his courage and continued to speak, “Because I love you so deeply, I’m worried about the gains and the losses.”


The author has something to say:

Don’t worry, this entire story’s sweetness is: ↑↑↑↑↑ (it’ll keep going up incessantly XD) 4GK36W

T/N: ‘Big surprise’ next chapter! Look forward to it~ :blobpeek:

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In response to this chapter: As a 24/7 worrywart and mediocre person, I understand Ye Chen’s sentiment so much (Please Ye Chen bby u and Ren Jing (and all of my children in this novel!?) deserves all the best huhuhuuuuu don’t let anyone tell u guys otherwise!?!?!?!?!? I’ll fight ANYONE WHO SHITS ON THEM, I WON’T HESITATE BITCH) </3 It kinda saddens me when I think about how I don’t deserve anything I have right now. Even when it comes into translating, I always low-key (or high-key?) feel bad for continuing this series because I was unable to update quicker and that y’all have to keep reading my shitty translations and blabbering LMAO… Well yeah, someone out there said they dropped this novel thanks to my crappy translations so yeah it didn’t make me feel better about myself cries. I knowwww, I should just ignore them rite? But yeah, such reviews/comments or things like that always make me wonder if I’m truly worthy to be called a translator. It also made me maybe a bit too cautious whenever I translate, I had to keep checking the lines over and over again and sometimes stress over them when I can’t find the proper translations, or when I can’t exactly decipher the raw. Maybe I never was a translator. Maybe I should never translate in the first place. Someone else could definitely translate this novel better. This novel would’ve been completed by now if I didn’t pick it and someone else did. And the list goes on LOL…

Sorry, all that I did these days were blabber… I’m just so tired, idk. I haven’t translated anything for almost a week. I can’t bring myself to do things properly ksksksksksk. I can’t update on time. I can’t reply to comments. I just. can’t. I just don’t have the energy. I’m really sorry… I’ll try my best, but I can’t promise anything.

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Translator's Note

This means “appreciate beauty” or “judge someone by their appearance”.

Translator's Note

This means “an unattainable or fanciful hope or scheme”. Figuratively, this means “illusions of wealth and glory”.

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22 comments

  1. The nerve of some people!! 😠😠 I never comment but for this, I had to. You are an awesome translator. Your translation made me fall in love with this novel. Could’ve been a some classic literature but without proper translation, wouldn’t mean anything. It is easy to tell you ignore those sh*theads but it’s difficult to do so irl. I can only say that try to accept that you cannot please everybody. You can do a bang on job but someone will always be dissatisfied. So always keep in mind the original reason you started translating this novel. You had loved it and wanted other people to be able to read it and love it the same way you did. Do things at your own pace. If you were to update this even once a month, you’d still have your loyal readers waiting for you. If you wanted to stop completely, we’d understand and with a heavy heart, make do with some crappy machine translation. So don’t torment yourself over things like this. Lots of love.
  2. Thanks for translating such a cute dog blood novel and sharing it with us!

    I just want to say that it is ok to be tired, it is ok to be sad, and it is absolutely ok to feel bad when someone criticizes our sincere efforts.

    Take your time and do things when you feel comfortable doing it.

    We are here cheering you on!

  3. The nerve of some ppl…

    You’re doing great, honey ☺️ keep up the good work and don’t worry too much. Us readers are always grateful for your hard work. Have a virtual hug ⊂(´・◡・⊂ )∘˚˳°

  4. THEY ARE SO CUTE ><

    Also, don’t take what they say to heart. Might be difficult bc the negative comments are the ones that always stick for long, but believe me, your tls are perfectly fine. I can’t say anything about the accuracy bc I haven’t touched the raws and I don’t know the language, but the tl isn’t at all difficult to read. Kind of wondering if the person who dropped even read this same tl, bc even if I were to drop this novel (which I would not), it wouldn’t be bc of “bad tl” 🤷‍♀️ So don’t worry and keep your spirits up! 😀 <3333

    (Frequency of updates is also not a problem btw, bc we all have rl to deal with and getting updates at all is already something to be grateful for)

    Thanks for the chapter! 🙂

  5. So cute!

    you work hard to give us this wonderful story that we wouldn’t be able to read otherwise! and it is wonderful! I always understand what is happening and I never have to go back and re-read! Thank You!

  6. Hello Potato-san,

    Thank you as always for your translations. I wanted to share with you my experience with my own mental health. I remember you recently said real life has some sad and frustrating things for you. I am not a confident person. I always question my memory to remember things correctly; and my abilities in many other areas required to live life happily and successfully. Do you wonder why that is? I am a chronic insomniac person. I’ve been dealing with insomnia for 7 years. When it first started, I looked down on how serious this problem is. I thought it’s not a big deal to go on without a night of sleep. But now I have so many other problems extending from that; my skin, my memory, my temper, my social life and many other things. I have acnes more regularly than my sleeping and eating schedule. I remember you said your uncle died from COVID but I dared not mention this without going back to previous chapters and searching up the words you wrote because I was scared I mixed you up with another translator. I’m always second-guessing at my own memory. If someone said I left the lights on last night, I can’t refute them because I cannot remember if I did or did not. I can’t handle arguments well. Because I now have anger issues and cannot win things with rational words. I will cancel appointments with friends and even miss eating lunch with family because I was sleeping in the day instead of the night. I’m too tired to go to movies, hiking trips or whatever activity that requires focus and energy. I have a lot of nervous energy and it does things to my body. Last night, I was so tired and sleepy and I just finished my work and emailed it to my client. I didn’t sleep 2 nights straight to work on it. I was always dozing off into short naps on the third day. After submitting that work, I mysteriously did not sleep. I was so happy it was all over that I decided to read some BL novels. I finished work at half-past midnight but I only fell asleep at half-past four in the morning. I woke up at half-past noon today and I was refreshed and in a good mood (by the way, I remember the hours clearly because I just checked my fitness band data. Not that remember anything or trust my own memory). I was in a good mood because my work was over. Later, I checked in on my client and asked if they received my email and if the submission was ok. There was some word they wanted to change and I offered to do it and send over a new file. Actually, it was a very easy thing to do. But I only sent over a new file at 5 pm in the evening because I was dawdling, feeling tired, sleepy and surfing Facebook. After sending the new file, I was all relaxed again. So I watched movies all evening and it’s already half-past midnight again. My point is, the ill body does things to your mind and ill mind does things to your body. I am always tired and sleep-deprived so I get angry, impatient, depressed, anxious and negative. That’s my physical body affecting my mental state. I was so stressed about the deadline of the submission and quality of my work that I kept procrastinating and wasting time on anxiety and negative thoughts that I was always sleepy, tired and muddle-headed. That’s my mind affecting my body. I could not do my work in regular hours, in an efficient manner and best to my abilities. I never had that experience before: my mental state influencing my body so heavily to the point that I can’t move about properly. I plan to seek out a psychologist (if this COVID thing ever go away and I can go to places). I know you seem to be struggling with a lot of things and just lost a family member. But I want to remind you that half of your problems are created by your own mind and the other half has ways to be dealt with. I know it’s easy to say things and not actually easy to achieve them. Otherwise, I wouldn’t be dealing with it for 7 years. But I wanted to come up and say something to all those new people who are feeling trapped due to COVID (I keep using all caps for COVID because Grammarly underlines it in red if I don’t and I can’t turn it off easily. And yes, I have OCD about little red dots reminding me of unread notifications or unfixed errors). Because of the virus, many people are facing financial problems, lack of social life and fun trips, losing jobs, dying. I see more people feeling negative online. I just want to tell them that life goes on and you want to live in a better way even if it sucks.

      • And I noticed mistakes. I’m really gonna lose sleep over this unproofread chunk of text 🙄Btw, I also work in the language industry. That’s my proper job. So please take my review on your work. Your translation is amazing. You just need a proofreader (Again, I can’t remember which translator makes grammar mistakes and which don’t. But it’s always good to have a proofreader. Period.). I’ve read worse translations online. These translations are done for hobby and we as readers don’t have the right to snub them. Don’t get pressured by the amount of coffees you receive. They are already sending you coffee what more can express their appreciation about your work? And your translation can convey emotions and nuances. I think it’s good enough.

        And you have to think of people who feel good and relaxed by reading a fun story like yours. I mean, I had a long day yesterday and I came to CG to fix my day. I even come up here to read when I’m running away from work. It’s safe heaven!

  7. 99% of readers appreciate you very much, please don’t listen to the remaining 1%!

    Your translations are not that slow. In fact, of the novels in my reading list, around half is updated once a week, just like this one. And even if you were slow, so what? If all slow translators didn’t translate, then there would be at least 40% less novels to read. No one wants that.

  8. Who are these jerks who complain a out your translations? I have done some translations for coursework and stuff and yours are freaking fantastic.

    I hardly ever have those wait what moments when I read your translations unless it is like based in the situation of the story which is COMPLETELY different because it means you did such a good job i got emotionally caught up.

    This year sucks so much but reading your translations is like a bright part of a sucky week for me

  9. Awww 🥰, my boys! I love them too!

    Potats, thank you for doing what you are doing! Criticism is always difficult, but so many more of us appreciate your efforts. So thank you!

  10. Translator-san, it’s a year since you wrote that, so maybe you won’t see this. In case you do, I want to tell you that I think your translation is excellent and I don’t know what on earth’s the matter with people sometimes. As a writer and fellow translator, I know what it’s like to be on the receiving end of dickhole comments like that. Besides being incredibly hurtful, the worst thing is the self-doubt they have the potential to cause. I can’t offer any magic words to make the negative feelings vanish – all I can do is give this piece of advice: Keep going, my friend, don’t ever stop what you’re doing because of what anyone else says. Especially anonymous troglodytes on the internet. As long as you keep going, you prove that you won’t let yourself be defeated by such negative crap. That alone can be a really good feeling, and it goes a long way towards mending self doubt. As long as you keep going, time will heal the rest. Truly. Jiayou!! 😀