My Boyfriend Discovered My Zhihu ResponseCh4 - A Pleasant Surprise (Part Two)

April 20th, 2019.

I’m on the high-speed rail right now, heading back home from Shanghai. ULI5ev

I might have ruined his birthday, it turned from a nice surprise to a bad surprise.

Today, I waited outside of my boyfriend’s dormitory for half an hour. When I finally saw him from a distance, I walked towards him. As I walked closer, I saw that someone was in the process of asking him out.

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Yes, a love confession.

Why is our story insisting on being so unrealistic? VUqPGQ

At that time, at the intersection next to the dormitory, I saw a very cute girl holding two cups of milk tea in her hands. She looked up and talked to him with a flushed face. I stood a little far away, but I still heard ” Words like “always” and “like”.

During that time, I saw a very cute girl by the dormitory entrance with two cups of milk tea in her hands. She was talking to him with a beet-red face. From where I was standing, I could pick up words like ‘always’ and ‘like’.

I used to often say that my boyfriend is very handsome and very outstanding. I have poor expressive skills and can’t describe it. I know that everyone has no real feelings after hearing it. This time I finally know how to describe it. He looks so calm in front of girls now. , you can tell at a glance that he must be the kind of person who has been confessed to since childhood.

I said before how my boyfriend is very handsome and outstanding. Back then, I didn’t have the ability to express or describe in words. I know no one found my words realistic, however, this time, I finally know how to paint him in words. Standing before the girl, he carried a calm and collected expression. You could tell at first glance that he was the type of person that receives love confessions every other day from a young age.

Both of his hands were in his pockets, looking unfazed by this honor.

The sun shone on his face and outlined his outline very delicately. Maybe he was too flattering to me and always had a low eyebrow in front of me. I had never seen him from this perspective of a bystander. I have thought about it more than once, what is it like when my boyfriend is not around me? What is it like in his circle? It turned out that it was really completely different from being with me.

The sunlight showered his face, outlining his profile more exquisitely. Perhaps because he always tried to get on my good grace, and his constant docile appearance in front of me, I had never seen him from this kind of spectator point of view. I had wondered what my boyfriend is like when he is not by my side, and what his social circle is like. It turned out to be completely different from my expectations.

Completely different. 8apJ5P

Suddenly I remembered that one time he asked me to watch his class group chat (he often asked me to watch his mobile phone, and I didn’t know what was wrong with him), because he was the class monitor, and at that time it seemed that the league secretary was assigning some activity tasks, and everyone in the group was They were pushing each other, and no one wanted to participate. Later, when there was no other way, the league secretary invited the squad leader out. Without saying anything, he just said, “Press the student number, odd number this time, even number next time.” The next second, who No one dared to discuss it any more, and the group was completely silent.

This suddenly reminded me of a time when I was reading his class’s group chat (he has this weird habit of letting me see his phone). At that time, CYL was delegating tasks for some event. Everyone in the group was shirking responsibility as none of them wanted to participate. This pushed CYL to get the class monitor, my boyfriend, involved. Without demur, he directly posted: Task will be issued based on student ID numbers, odd this time, and even next time. 

The next second, no one dared to push responsibility, and not a single objection could be seen.

He told me about the reputation he has on the campus, and how many new students find him scary. I didn’t buy it at first, since in my eyes, he is a ‘simp’ who requests kisses and begs for hugs. lb7Eon

Now I finally believed him.

My boyfriend that was standing in front of me was very cool and very cold.

I never would have thought that he had a solemn and indifference side that he uses with girls.

Oh right, so why is this matter so serious, and why am I so unperturbed when telling this story? Y6lI5E

Because as I was torn between walking away quietly or summoning the courage to stay here, my boyfriend spotted me.

I stood behind him, and he turned his head and caught a glimpse of me. He was stunned at first, looked at me and blinked a few times. Just as he was about to run towards me, he was grabbed by the girl. He immediately broke away and said, “Sorry, I have someone I like.” That girl. The girl followed his gaze and looked towards me, and my whole body froze.

Chrysanthemum Garden.

I was standing behind him, and he happened to catch a glimpse of me when he turned his head. First, he looked shocked, then he blinked. I could tell he wanted to run to me, but that girl pulled his arm. He instantly shook his arm free and told her, “Excuse me, I have someone I like.” That girl followed his line of sight and saw me, and my whole body froze.

I tried to act like a passerby, avoided eye contact and wanted to retreat. UZvXbO

When that girl realized that I’m a guy, her face instantly turned south. She hmphed towards my boyfriend. “You sure are working overtime on rejecting me.”

My boyfriend furrowed his brow. I could tell he was slightly pissed off because she had stopped him from showing his affection.

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The girl asked, “Do I really have no chance at all?”

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Then, in front of the girl, my boyfriend tore off the plastic packaging outside the straw, poked open the seal of the milk tea, and handed it to me, “Would you like to drink it? But you don’t like desserts, so just give it a try?”

Then in front of the girl, my boyfriend freed the straw from its package, inserted it through the seal and passed it to me. “Do you want to drink it? But you don’t like sweets, how about just one sip?”

The girl finally stomped away in anger. 8GENPd

Me: “…”

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My stop is almost here. I’ll write more later.

Sigh, how come I never know just how talkative I’m? OeMK2h

If anyone wants to read the follow-up, I’ll just keep updating. Some people in the comments said that I made it up, uh… I’m too lazy to explain. I cherish this experience with my boyfriend. I wrote it down to make myself happy and also want to hear from others. If you don’t like your opinion, just leave it as a joke. Don’t argue in the comment area. It’s pointless.

There are people that want me to continue, as you wish then. There are also people calling me a liar in the comment section. Well…I don’t really want to take the time to defend myself. I really treasure the experience I have had with my boyfriend so far, I really do, and I wanted to write down my joy, as well as hearing others’ opinions. Please treat it as a fun pastime, if you don’t like it, please leave instead of being a party pooper in the comment section. That’s just pointless.

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With milk tea in my hand, I was pulled to a deserted grove. There were small seats for students, so we sat there, with neither of us talking. WAipmw

I took a sip of the milk tea. It was both sweet and heavy. I didn’t want to drink it and push it in his way.

This was a rare moment when he went against me. “Throw it away if you don’t want to drink it, because I don’t either.”

Chrysanthemum Garden.

I purposely hindered him, “You don’t want to drink it, so you dumped it on me. Am I a trashcan to you?”

“You really don’t know what my intention was?” UFIxGl

I continued to play dumb, “Weren’t you trying to show your disdain?”

He took a deep breath, probably from anger, and took the milk tea. He got up and threw it into the trashcan nearby. When he came back, he squatted in front of me. “Are you mad? Would you get unhappy when others confess their love to me?”

I could feel my nose getting stuffy, but I insisted on saying with a smile, “Did you not reject her? I believe you.”

“You’re not unhappy even just a little bit?” f1pDxj

How was I supposed to answer? I really don’t know, and he really didn’t give me time to think, because he already approached me for a kiss.

Unlike the light kissing we had been doing, this kiss involved using tongue. He suddenly went especially fierce and took me deep into his arms. I could feel my lips hurting from how hard he sucked on them, and he even bit my tongue. With what consciousness I have, I reminded myself that we were still on campus with students walking around, and that gave me the strength to push him away.

By then, it pained my heart to see how red my boyfriend’s eyes were, thus, knowing how upset he was, I softened my voice and said to him, “Do you really want me to be jealous that badly?”

“You’re always so composed; it makes me feel insecure.” He buried his head into the crook of my neck as he complained in a muffled voice. waZEt4

It turned out that it wasn’t just me who felt insecure. It’s amusing now that I’m typing it out. We clearly only have each other in our hearts, but we always doubt ourselves. What I felt at that moment was a needle stab to my heart; an ache with a hint of numb feeling.

It was probably because this is the first for me to like someone so deeply, creating this pain in my heart.

I originally wanted to spend his birthday together, but I didn’t think the day would turn out like this. I had been saving most of my living expenses from the last half a month to get something for him to wear, and I gave it to him just like that, there wasn’t even a candle dinner or anything. Although he looked very happy and surprised, I knew he was actually keeping his emotions inside. I knew that I should express something to put him at ease, but I didn’t. I was afraid, very afraid that if I took one more step forward, there would be no going back.

He saw me off at the station. Being in a crowded area, it wasn’t ideal to be too intimate. He just leaned closer to me and held my hand when no one was looking. The one second before I got into the train, I was hit with this sadness. I really wanted him not to let go of my hand, but he let go of my hand without prompt. He patted my head and told me to be safe out there and to call him. cau4bP

In that instant, a void grew inside of me. I probably realized just how much I truly like him.

Earlier, I read through the details I had written before. I felt I went off tangent and showed off our loving affection in thousands of words; however, the topic I mentioned before was nowhere in sight.

At the beginning, I said not to fall too deep, ease up on the accelerator, we’re merely going steady.

Now I’m too scared to think further. neZzXJ

There might be many of you who found this hilarious. I’m not that old, and my love story is like something out of Chiung Yao’s novel. I’m simply fussing like a hypochondriac. I really don’t know how to explain it, or maybe because my boyfriend is just too good for me. He’s not a partner that I can divert myself from loneliness too. He deserves me spending time to seriously consider our relationship.

I’m a very stubborn individual. Even if the people around me are changing relationships every other day, or start a relationship during a game match, I still believe that love is a very special and precious thing, something that can’t be shared with anyone at one’s discretion.

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I saw someone in the comment section who had asked me, is your pessimistic view on feelings from a fall out of a past relationship?

Not really. I was actually in love before this, but it was so childish and short that I won’t even consider it as a moment of love. It was during the early period when I joined the group chat. There was this senior that pursued me. At that time, I was very ignorant and confused, but I didn’t really reject his advances. In our first meeting, that senior got handsy. Although I felt that as a guy, a simple touch wasn’t really overstepping it, but my inner self was repulsed by this behavior. VruS3L

I told the senior that because there wasn’t any foundation in our feelings towards each other, we should slow down because there was plenty of time for that in the future.

To this day, I still remember the look the senior gave me. He raised an eyebrow, looked speechless and said, “Why are you making dating so much more complicated?”

I was stunned.

He even told me how I’m such a girl for thinking about the future. Never mind a year or ten years, both of them are unrealistic. Asking to graduate together was already hard enough. How people would no longer find my sexual orientation new, refreshing and fun once I’m done with school. Society won’t recognize it. yIWOCk

He didn’t want to mislead me, and straight up informed me that I was just for fun. From my words, he now knew we were not the same type of people, and there was no chance between us. He also left me the message of not trusting anyone that said they would be with me forever, because it’s all a lie.

I felt like this was an attack on my three views, so I canceled him right there.

At that time, I believed that there had to be someone who would tell me forever from the bottom of his heart. He will use his lifetime to exchange for my own. That person might not be this guy, but it doesn’t mean that person is a myth.

But when that person really appeared, I began to panic. bTXPJE

How should I put it? Right now, my boyfriend is treating me too well. Since the beginning, he gets nothing but a full mark from me, but that also made me fear that for every little mistake I made, he would deduct points on me.

Because of how cooperative he is towards me, how I don’t know his dislike or like, and how I don’t know what I should refrain from doing in order for him to not subtract points on me. As a consequence, I built my aloof persona. I had never made requests for anything, nor did I reject his invite, cause him trouble, and show interest or ask about him…I always thought that I was being a good boyfriend, but now it seemed that I was only pushing him further and further away.

I really don’t dare to think about the chance of my boyfriend being cooperative to another person, taking all the love and tenderness towards me and redirecting to someone else…it’s something I mustn’t think and don’t dare to think.

I’m actually not that composed. I didn’t sleep a wink the day I made my love confession. Every night before bed, I would read through our chat history from that day. There were times when I got nervous about him mentioning people in his life, and I wanted to relate many times. I wanted to ask, yet I never summoned enough courage, deleted the unsent words and acted like I knew nothing. 7xDZpy

Do you think a person like me deserves to be in a relationship?

Discussion (253):

Jia Jia-ing: Anon, hug.

Gray and Broken: Anon’s personality is like my own. On the surface, I’m also pretty mild towards my boyfriend, but beneath the surface, I love him to death. If I get too close, I fear that it might cause him to feel vexed, but if I stay too far, I fear that he might fall for another. 4EhVyW

Anonymous Account (Author) » Gray and Broken: Then what should I do? It’s not like this can continue, help!

Gray and Broken » Anonymous Account (Author): If only I knew the answer, but I think you should sit down and talk it out with your boyfriend.

Chrysanthemum Garden.

Counting One Hundred Stars: I felt like Anon and his boyfriend’s personalities are not compatible. One who consistently invests in the relationship, while one who consistently avoids the relationship. Sooner or later, your boyfriend will burn out, once he does, that’s the end of your play.

A-Jia o A-Jia: I agree. Anon’s character is too contradictory, and much more melancholy and moodier than a girl. How could this work out? TKm392

Counting One Hundred Stars » A-Jia o A-Jia: Their relationship had just started, but they managed to step on all the landmines they shouldn’t step on.

Qi Xi: Wait a moment, why is this story heading in the wrong direction? Where’s the sweet cookies I was promised? QQQ~

Yu Wenshu: Why does Zhihu always recommend crispy duck skins to me? (I’m straight)

Jia Jia-ing » Yu Wenshu: What you said is very un-straight… Smcq5p

Eternity in a Glance » Yu Wenshu: Do you really still don’t know why it keeps on recommending?

Yu Wenshu » Eternity in a Glance: …

polish: Girlfriends, I’m here for the betterment of the community. After browsing for two hours, I finally found the response that I had mentioned (my thumb had long refused to listen to my brain’s command). However, this Anon’s answer is making things more and more interesting. Hehe. Anon and everyone, why not check it out? https://www.zhihu.com/question/××××××××

Jia Jia-ing » polish: My girl, awesome job! TsiAjq

Ignorant of Reflection » polish: What kind of the best internet user in China are you, I’ll immediately go and check it out!

Qi Xi » polish: Ahhhh, you’re right. What kind of immortal romance is this!

A Tree Climbing Pig » polish: Back from reading. Like what kind of situation is this? The more I read, the more problems I see. Is it because we are reading it with filters?

Absolutely » polish: Ahhh, could these two Anons please drop their anonymity? I felt antsy just by reading! zqtd7