translator: baumkuchen editors: serefina, glitterypanda
061 immediately pasted a stick-on heat pad from the storehouse over his stomach, then covered the heat pad with his palm. As such, even though Chi Xiaochi felt a little unwell, he could still keep up the act.
Chi Xiaochi cocked his head slightly to the side, watching Zhan Yanchao.
Zhan Yanchao’s head was lowered so far down that it was practically buried in his chest, only leaving Chi Xiaochi the view of his fluffy hair whorl. “I know my wrongs now.”
When he said those words, there was a bitter taste on the base of Zhan Yanchao’s tongue, making it numb, but he was, at the same time, full of anticipation.
Give me a chance, I’ll never do that to you ever again. I’ll treat you well. Once I go back, I’ll burn both the whip and the coffin. I’ll let you be an Alpha, the strongest Alpha.
You’ve been with me since I was eight. It’s already been close to ten years now, longer than half my lifetime.
Please be as softhearted as you used to be…… Please.
There were thousands of words he wanted to say, but when they came to Zhan Yanchao’s mouth, they condensed into a single sentence, “I know my wrongs now”.
Chi Xiaochi looked at him. Zhan Yanchao didn’t know how much time passed before he asked, “……So?”
Zhan Yanchao, “Don’t hate me. Don’t hate me. I want you to come home with me. I’ll make it up to you. I restored your room a long time ago, I bought new furniture, the old ones…… I…… threw away all the old ones. As long as you come back, I’ll listen to everything you say from now on……”
After speaking this string of words, he was almost a little out of breath.
The huge pressure made him unable to lift his head. Even when he had been surrounded by seven or eight Zerg in these past few days, he hadn’t felt this kind of despair, but at the same time, he was full of hope.
After a while, he heard Ji Zuoshan’s judgement, “I don’t hate you, because that’s not necessary.”
Zhan Yanchao felt a surge of joy, but before he could grab onto Ji Zuoshan’s arm in happiness, he heard said person continue, “I won’t go back, because that’s also not necessary.”
Zhan Yanchao abruptly stood up. His head was still lowered, but his tone had already started to become hurried, “Why isn’t it necessary? Why isn’t it?! To me, it’s really important! Really important!”
He hated his crazed self in the beginning!
If he hadn’t burnt all of Ji Zuoshan’s things just for the sake of a moment of satisfaction, he wouldn’t be left with nothing but an ordinary notebook as the only thing with a trace of Ji Zuoshan’s past.
His heart was beating wildly in his throat, making him hurt terribly.
Chi Xiaochi’s emotions, however, were as indifferent as ever. “I feel that my opinions are also very important. Can you respect my opinions?”
Zhan Yanchao’s childish temper which had been suppressed for a very long time flared up once more. “If you feel like there’s anything bad about me, I can change it. I can change anything, but you can’t not give me a chance.”
Chi Xiaochi asked, “Why can’t I?”
Zhan Yanchao’s knuckles cracked, which previously would be a sign of his anger.
“Are you going to get angry again?” Chi Xiaochi asked calmly, “Going to pull your whip out again?”
Zhan Yanchao’s fingers unclenched.
He lifted his head and stared at the person in front of him.
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In those memories of Ji Zuoshan’s, he was strong and overbearing, innocent yet barbaric.
And these Zhan Yanchaos, entirely different from the past, Chi Xiaochi saw them all in the span of a few minutes.
Ji Zuoshan, in his body, had seen it all as well.
Soon, Ji Zuoshan spoke, “Let’s go.”
There was no sadness, no anger, no joy. He just said, let’s go.
Chi Xiaochi readily followed this good advice, closing the booklet, planning on going to take a look at this new, accidentally acquired mecha.
Zhan Yanchao wiped away the tears staining his long lashes. “Ji Zuoshan, I love you.”
Chi Xiaochi didn’t have a very big reaction, just pausing in his footsteps, but the tip of Ji Zuoshan’s heart trembled.
When he had still been alive, Zhan Yanchao had never once seriously told him “I love you”. Even when they were having sex, he would only place his mouth against his ear and tell him roguish words that would make his face turn red.
He hadn’t thought he would actually have the fortune of hearing it now.
Ji Zuoshan let out a self-deprecating, melancholic laugh, “……Ha.”
Hearing Ji Zuoshan laugh like this, Chi Xiaochi could already guess his attitude. He continued towards the exit without hesitation.
Zhan Yanchao chased after him, shouting painfully, “Ji Zuoshan! Do you dare say that you don’t love me? Do you dare say it?!”
Chi Xiaochi, who’d walked to the entrance of the tent, lifted the tent flap and waved backwards lazily.
“I don’t dare,” Chi Xiaochi said, candid, “I loved you, it’s nothing I can’t admit.”
If he’d never loved him, Ji Zuoshan couldn’t have been so sad and hateful, hating him to the point that he would rather burn himself to death than be taken back and given a funeral by Zhan Yanchao.
But that was all in the “past”.
A long time after Ji Zuoshan disappeared from the tent, Zhan Yanchao finally sat down, disappointed. He picked up that disposable cup, smoothing it out, stroking it, unwilling to throw it away. In the end, he placed it in his inner jacket pocket.
Upon leaving the tent, Chi Xiaochi looked up at the sky.
One of the countless rays of dawn shone down, engulfing the youth’s slim figure, making him squint slightly.
061 checked the data. He said, “The regret value has risen to 30 points.”
Chi Xiaochi, “En.”
061 tried to hold back, but in the end, he still couldn’t help it. “……Not going to exchange them for cards?”
Chi Xiaochi closed his eyes, but the corners of his mouth slowly rose in a smile.
061 coughed lightly, “May this student not laugh at his teacher.”
Chi Xiaochi replied, wronged, “Laoshi, I didn’t.”
061 made his voice a little rougher, “Your scores are so inconsistent, what’s wrong, can’t you distribute your points in the class of goodwill value a little more evenly?”
Chi Xiaochi explained, saying, “I’m not using goodwill points because, against Zhan Yanchao, goodwill points are the best tool.”
061 was as strict and righteous as a civics teacher, “Little kids shouldn’t be talking about tools.”
Chi Xiaochi was shaken. “……” Liu-laoshi what’s wrong Liu-laoshi, quickly return the original Liu-laoshi to me.
Ji Zuoshan puffed out a laugh, “You two are so close.”
061 finally remembered that there was still another person in this body. His ears burned slightly.
Chi Xiaochi, however, said naturally, “We’re just joking, this is my teacher.”
Having said that, he said to 061, “Pah! Give up, I won’t tell you my party’s secrets.”
061, “……” Changing settings so fast?
But he quickly followed along, “You’re still so young, why don’t you think a little about your future? Why must you insist on going down the wrong path?”
Chi Xiaochi remained unyielding and unafraid. “Because our ideology is progressive, while yours is regressive.”
Ji Zuoshan didn’t really understand what they were talking about, but he still couldn’t help but laugh.
061 and Chi Xiaochi thought at the same time: When he laughs, he sounds pretty good.
Since coming back from the summer training, Ji Zuoshan’s personality had changed a lot. He began trying to join in on 061 and Chi Xiaochi’s conversations. He borrowed a few books from different worlds to read from 061, trying to understand different types of societies.
One day, after they received their mechas, Rosie found Chi Xiaochi in the mecha repair room and said, “I’ve run the calculations on the Naman metal you brought back. You can strengthen Blue completely from head to toe, and still have some left over.”
Chi Xiaochi came out of Blue’s cabin. There was some machine oil on his cheek. “Thank you very much.”
Rosie, “No need to thank me. Did you go mining? Where did you get all this Naman metal?”
Chi Xiaochi just smiled, not saying a word.
Since Chi Xiaochi wasn’t going to say, Rosie wouldn’t force him. No matter how close two friends were, they would always have a few secrets.
She said, “Don’t you have a new mecha, why do you still want to use Blue?”
Chi Xiaochi pasted some gold on his face, “I cherish my old friendships.”
Rosie suddenly thought of something. “My mecha’s arrived, what about yours? Let me study it a little.”
Chi Xiaochi, “Oh, that. I sold it.”
Rosie, “……???”
Chi Xiaochi stroked Blue’s back. “Just Blue is enough for me.”
Rosie blinked her blue eyes, a little reluctant, “Who did you sell it to? Didn’t we agree that I could study it?”
Chi Xiaochi used a towel to wipe off his sweat, “I sold it to Wang Xizhou. Since he happens to be a speed type. If you think it’s inconvenient to have to go to the Wang home to study it, I can ask for it back for you?”
Rosie raised an elegant eyebrow, then gave him a thumbs-up. Just as she was about to leave, Chi Xiaochi called out to her, stopping her, “Rosie, you want to work in the field of scientific research, right?”
Rosie was stunned for a moment. “Yes.”
“If you want to be a scientist, you need to first be an Alpha so that you can get access to the top resources, right?”
Rosie smiled. “Yes. Isn’t that very normal? Why are you suddenly asking this?”
As he went back into the cabin, he said in a soft voice, “No. It shouldn’t be like this.”
Rosie shook her head, not knowing what strange idea he had gotten into his head now.
Everyone could feel that Ji Zuoshan was a little different now.
After he returned to school, this change was particularly obvious.
His personality became a lot more cheerful. He would pull over his classmates to chat with them, regardless of whether they were from a noble family, or if they were one of those human sacrifices accompanying their young masters to school. He would also often swap pointers with his classmates, not at all stingy with giving guidance. At times, he would even make a few slightly stiff wisecracks.
Once, he ran into the classmate whose mecha he had exploded in the shooting range.
After that incident, he had transferred classes.
He purposely loaded empty shells to interfere with Chi Xiaochi’s shooting, but Chi Xiaochi, sensing his intentions, shot the gun out of his hands.
Extremely humiliated and angry, that person jumped up and shouted, “Surnamed Ji, I’ll fuck your uncle!”
Chi Xiaochi had already completely used up the energy in his energy gun. He picked a flower and placed it in the still-smoking muzzle, then hugged the gun to his chest and said, “Then I’ll thank you on behalf of my uncle.”
Rumour had it, that since Ji Zuoshan had fallen out with Zhan Yanchao because of a dispute, then going by how Zhan Yanchao had treated Ji Zuoshan in the past, it would be strange if Ji Zuoshan didn’t beat him into an Omega.
Hearing about this matter, Zhan Yanling called Zhan Yanchao back home to ask about it.
Zhan Yanchao, however, wasn’t at all affected. He was even very happy about it. “Let him. If he beats me into an Omega, then can he not want me?”
Even the good tempered Zhan Yanling couldn’t help but get angry. “……Do you know what an Omega is?”
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The stupid bird is still in the process of growing up qwq
sere: big regrets now huh
Despite everything he did I believe he really loves ji zuoshan he was just an immature selfish brat i hope your ending is not that bad
Same. Also ZYC’s temper, he was used for more than a decade of having a bad explosive temper. Immediately changing it is very hard for him, no matter how strong he loves JZS, that is why he got mad again during their talk. Old and installed from birth habits die very hard. ZYC needs a very long time to change. Only who knows if JZS would, or could wait for this change. They really loved each other, but their circumstances broke them up.
It’d indeed be nice if ZYC changes for the better and finds someone, I don’t really want him to be with JZS though. What’s gone is gone. I don’t think he understood what he’s getting into with becoming an omega either. But maybe the author will change my mind, idk
I love how the author writes characters
👍
Side note, this series is gold 😭
Ahaha omg this Zhan Yanchao is still skipping through some fucking dreamland ah 😂😂😂. Baby, there’s no more love left for you, okay? Whether you become an omega or not won’t change shit, okay???
Thanks for the chapter (/^▽^)/
Wu wu wu I hope he grows up soon….
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So when’s Xiao Ji’s ML?
Thanks so much for the chapter~!
Or FL at the matter~! Where is s/he!!
Thanks for the chapter~
I hope he doesn’t get an overly bad ending.
Same. No matter how scum ZYC is, and JZS would revolt, ZYC still shouldn’t end up that bad. He only got severe attitude problem. It’s not as if he directly caused JZS be raped and die, only indirectly. Also, if JZS would cause, directly or indirectly ZYC’s bad end, this would have a contrast on JZS’s good-natured temper. Even if JZS would revolt, but I believe his good nature wouldn’t change. ZYC’s similarity to the usual scum MLs is that he is a scum. However, that’s just it. ZYC is a brat, raised terribly by his dad, but he is still young and so he still has years to change his attitude.
He seems to be regretting how he treated JZS. I hope he doesn’t end up actually becoming an omega. He has ability though it’s not as good as JZS so it would be great if that ability was used properly and he became one of JZS subordinates
It isn’t easy to be the brother of an idiot… xD
It’s nice to see little Ji blooming :3Thx for the ch (ㅅ˘ㅂ˘)
thanks for the chapter…sometimes you need to remove the tumors for your real self to come out…it seems that scum guy’s IQ isn’t going to recover anytime soon
Author is implying that the little bird ZYC will grow up later. OK baby, please grow up nice3and be a gentleman this time. Idc if you’re a beta or an alpha cause it’s your life, but don’t purposely throw yourself into an omega to gain Little Seal’s pity. Everyone hope you can redeem your babyish cruel self.
Hoo~~
So, our Xiao Ji really is intending in doing some revolution~?
Go little seal! Come out of that little well to the broad world~!!!
Thanks for the chapter!!
I do think he really love JZS but in a wrong way. I don’t want them together but I hope this poor child would change.
ZYL should help his stupid brother realize how awful it is to be an Omega it would make him regret more.
Thanks for the chapter.
Same. Or else, it’s ZYL’s turn to to be a trash scum who would indirectly cause his little brother’s end – as omega. I just hope ZYL is not that too terrible towards his immature younger brother.
Thanks for the update
thank you for all your hard work translating!!!
zyc is dumb but i can’t help but feel kind of sorry for him… guess it just means the author’s really good at fleshing out her characters
I swear to god DPUBFTB is the only novel getting me so fired up about how unjustly the characters were treated, and just how malicious/hypocritical/greedy/just outright stupid people can be. The arcs and the characters are so fleshed out, and they are so flawed, which is what makes them so human. I can see people acting like this in real life, and that’s what makes me so freaking angry.
Too true that saly. I can find to many ppl of the same type in real life.
i’m glad ZYC confess his love to JZS. it feels like what JZS need to hear… like closure or something? seeing JZS inner self development, i doubt that the idea of getting back together is something he interested. especially now that he knows more about other worlds, i figure he’d like to see real changes in his world first before everything else. i like how complex these characters and situation are, almost every chapter makes me thinking things. thank you for the chapter!
Sometimes i read comments and i cant help but worry. So many commenters, probably women, so quick to forgive someone who routinely flogged and isolated a human being and also let his siblings, children, strave despite promissing to take care of them… i cant help but wonder if many of these commenters wont end up trapped in a dv relationship. Alternating good “honeymoon” periods with violence is common in such relationships, dont be so quick to forgive 🙁
Doing or being good to someone DOES NOT cancel out their wrongs, especially with JZS’s treatment, even if he’s reformed, it’s been done, not even the timeline where JZS suffered beyond measure, but even in the present one, he was a total ass. I’m just rereading, but you’re right, so many people for occasional kindness choose to bear with constant abuse.
True ( It’s also the dynamic in many real life abusive and toxic relationships the victims truly forgive too many times until they end up tortured forever or gather the courage altogether after awakening to how horrible & dangerous their situation is and run away at the chance to escape from the abuser )
Zhan Yanchao… Really?
Ohhh, I’m really glad Ji Zuoshan can be a cheerful person now. The path for happiness is smooth. He really deserves it!
Chi Xiaochi is thinking about make changes in this society, it seems. Good for him.
Thanks for the chapter!
I’m very hopeful for ZYC’s character development.
We’ve all been immature and stupid when we were young, especially when it comes to love. I feel like ZYC just doesn’t know how to express the love he has for JZS. He doesn’t know that what he was feeling was love. Yes, the way he treated JZS is extremely unacceptable but their society is fxcked up as well. The fact that JZS is a “human sacrifice” degraded him to the point of having no human rights, that fxcked up scenario resulted with ZYC being stupid as hell. That’s just my opinion
wow so much tears QAQ
his upbringing is the dad’s fault
This is the first scum that regrets his actions towards the target, rather than regretting meeting the target. He is still a nasty fuck. I hope what happened to the target happens to him too.
cih this stupid little bird
Same thoughts. He loves JYS but can only express it by means he’s most familiar with. I’m just hoping that these two can go on their separate ways; no hard feelings attached.
Thanks for the chap!
CXC rubbing off on seal. Reading books from different worlds—won’t that just blow his little seal mind!
ZYC, bruh, you need to let Xiao Ji go and do some serious soul searching. Appreciate yourself a bit more, don’t just become an omega for someone else
I only hope they have HE
I blame ZYC parent for the way that he is. I’m glad Ji got his freedom. He’s a person not a caged canary. Just because you regret it not means u auto matically deserve a next chance. I wish you at least a good ending based on ur change
Well…with him being like this I don’t think they’d try to get revenge on him cause he’s really in love but just ignorant and spoiled playing to the goodwill points would be the better choice indeed
Sigh, ZYC is just an immature little kid that’s slowly learning why and what he did was wrong all by himself. He never had any body that was willing to tell him and guide him so his journey’s bound to be a bumpy ride. Hopefully he doesn’t take the wrong turn and become a yandere
I’m surprised his regret point is that low.
I’m glad,I’m so glad and grateful to the author. The character writings really makes me awestruck.