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Unexpectedly, Lu Heyang made such a request. Xu Ze froze momentarily, neither agreeing nor saying any other response. He just turned around and stood by the hospital bed.
Lu Heyang released his hand and said, “There’s a chair beside the bed.”
For Xu Ze, this statement was akin to instructions to “sit”, so he gently pulled the chair over and sat down.
The dim, quiet space with just the two of them should be Xu Ze’s comfort zone, but he wanted to turn on the light to take a closer look at Lu Heyang’s face for signs of weight loss or exhaustion.
“Is it uncomfortable?” Xu Ze asked.
“Mn.”
“Nursing records show you took medication a little over ten minutes ago,” Xu Ze said, “Once the medicine takes effect, you should feel better.”
Lu Heyang’s voice was hoarse, “It worked like that before, but this time it doesn’t seem to be effective. Maybe I need to take a few more.”
“You can’t,” Xu Ze suddenly became serious, “It might damage your glands and brain.”
The cost of taking care of an outstanding Air Force pilot was extremely high. Lu Heyang’s diagnosis and treatment had to be carried out by the best military doctors in the hospital or even the entire Union. All the doses were precisely calculated, and even half a pill extra was not allowed.
“Really? I learned something.” Lu Heyang said seriously as well.
Xu Ze didn’t believe that he would still be in the mood to joke in such physical discomfort, nor did he believe Lu Heyang genuinely didn’t know it before. So he fell into deep contemplation.
Suddenly, he heard Lu Heyang’s hand scuffling on the edge of the bed. Xu Ze stopped contemplating and leaned forward to ask, “Are you looking for something?”
“Yeah, looking for—” The sensor on his finger clinked on the hard edge of the bed. He continued, “Your hand.”
Since Lu Heyang was looking for it, Xu Ze instinctively extended his hand. He felt Lu Heyang’s hot fingertips brushing the back of his hand, covering the entire hand before clasping it firmly.
Xu Ze held his breath, unsure how he should react and unaware of the reason behind Lu Heyang’s actions. Amidst the numerous thoughts crowding his mind with no clear resolution, his body instinctively followed—he turned his hand and grasped Lu Heyang’s palm against his palm.
It had been an immeasurable amount of time since the last time they held hands so earnestly. Despite this, Xu Ze could still vividly compare how much larger Lu Heyang’s hands had become and the calluses that had formed in certain places.
Some memories never faded, they were just hidden well.
“Will it affect your work?” Lu Heyang asked as if there was still a trace of conscious willpower left.
“It won’t, I just finished the night shift and have the morning off.”
Xu Ze had also experienced ruts, so he knew that at such moments, he shouldn’t delve into the intentions behind Lu Heyang’s actions, as most of them were beyond his control. Since Xu Ze was also an alpha, all Lu Heyang wanted was for them to hold hands. If he were an omega—there would be no “if” because omegas couldn’t be present in this situation. Alphas during a rut required all opposite-sex medical personnel to keep their distance.
Lu Heyang asked him, “Aren’t you tired?”
“Not at all,” Xu Ze replied.
“Then, Dr. Xu, could you please stay with me for a few more minutes? You can leave as soon as I fall asleep.” Lu Heyang’s thumb rubbed the scars on Xu Ze’s wrist. After a moment, he added, “It’s okay if you don’t wait.”
The second half of his statement left Xu Ze speechless. He opened his mouth, but couldn’t utter a sound. After a long time, Xu Ze took a breath and replied in a low voice, “I will wait.”
The hospital room fell back into silence. Lu Heyang didn’t keep Xu Ze waiting too long this time. A few minutes later, he drifted into sleep under the influence of the medicine.
Xu Ze held Lu Heyang’s hand without moving and remained in this position for over five minutes. Once he was sure that Lu Heyang was asleep, he gently stood up and leaned over the bed. He cautiously touched Lu Heyang’s cheek, the bridge of his nose, and the corner of his mouth with his other hand. Although Xu Ze couldn’t draw any concrete conclusions about weight gain or loss, he felt reassured nonetheless.
He sat back in the chair and relaxed completely. The only thing he could sense was Lu Heyang’s hand, drawing him in like a rope. He lay down on the side of the bed, suddenly feeling tired. Xu Ze’s nose was close to the hands they held together. He moved closer and kissed the back of Lu Heyang’s hand before closing his eyes.
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The nurse was surprised to see a doctor sitting by the bed in the dimly lit room. Unable to recognize who it was, she just nodded at Xu Ze and picked up the tablet at the foot of the bed to record data from the equipment.
Xu Ze stood up and glanced at Lu Heyang a few more times before moving the chair back to its original position and leaving the room.
In the corridor, he checked his phone and realized he had only slept for about twenty minutes. At first, Xu Ze considered not returning to his apartment to rest. But staying in the hospital seemed equally meaningless as he would keep thinking about checking on Lu Heyang—which wasn’t practical.
In the end, Xu Ze decided to clock out and leave for the day. Just as he reached the lobby, he ran into He Wei.
“You just came out of Heyang’s room?” He Wei asked, “How is he?”
“Sleeping.”
“It wouldn’t be our Dr. Xu who managed to put the Colonel to sleep, would it?” When He Wei heard that Lu Heyang was asleep, he didn’t want to disturb him. He casually slung an arm around Xu Ze’s shoulders and walked out with him, “My friends finally managed to return from the war zone victoriously, only for one of them to rush off to catch his wife without even going home, and the other to be isolated in the hospital due to his rut. Ah, it is so difficult to reunite.”
“Did Lieutenant Colonel Gu not come back?” Xu Ze was probably the most eager person in the world to repay a debt. He was still waiting for Gu Yunchi to return so that he could hand over the over two million.
“Nope, he flew directly from the war zone to another city. I told you he was going crazy.”
Xu Ze nodded. He thought for a while and then asked, “Are you getting married?”
According to what Chi Jiahan said, He Wei should have sent him a wedding invitation. Even though Xu Ze hadn’t received one, he still wanted to give He Wei money as a gift.
He Wei didn’t ask who told Xu Ze this, nor did he give a direct answer. Instead, he just smiled and said, “Guess.”
Xu Ze replied, “I don’t know.”
“Uh-huh,” He Wei made an ambiguous sound and said nothing more.
Returning to the apartment didn’t provide much rest. After a brief two-hour nap, Xu Ze headed to the Medical University early. He stayed busy in the lab until evening, only realizing it was dark when his project team members invited him to order takeout.
“I still need to go back to the hospital. You guys go ahead,” Xu Ze said while saving his data and files and packing up.
After arriving at the 195th Hospital, Xu Ze didn’t even have dinner. He changed into his white coat and went to the glandular department, only to be informed by the guard at the ward that Lu Heyang had gone to a meeting.
Aside from the fact that the nation would be subjugated tomorrow, Xu Ze couldn’t think of any reason why Lu Heyang would attend a meeting during the height of the rut.
“How long has he been away?” Xu Ze asked.
The guard checked his watch, “About two and a half hours.”
“Okay, thank you.”
Xu Ze stood in front of the ward for a while, gradually feeling a little lost. He didn’t understand his purpose in coming here—even if Lu Heyang was in the room right now, there wasn’t much he could do. The inhibitors and drugs were all handled by the nurses in the glandular department.
With some time left before the night shift handover, Xu Ze looked at the ward door and thought it might be best to have dinner first.
He walked back toward the lobby. After only a few steps, he heard a “ding” behind him. Xu Ze turned around to see the doors of the special elevator at the end of the corridor open. Half a dozen alphas wearing Air Force combat uniforms stepped out.
Lu Heyang walked in the middle, the brim of his training cap pushed down low, and it looked like he was wearing a mask.
Once he got closer, Xu Ze saw that it wasn’t a mask but a solid black bite stopper.
In addition, Lu Heyang’s hands were covered by special half-finger gloves that prevented his knuckles from moving. He appeared stable and showed no signs of losing control, as evidenced by his walking speed and movements. The only unclear aspect was his face, which was completely obscured by the shadow of the cap and bite stopper, making his eyes deeply hidden.
Under the bright lights, the alpha was like an unrelenting and palpable black fog, exuding a towering presence accompanied by unmistakable pheromones. Approaching him created an oppressive force that made one hold their breath.
Xu Ze stood motionless. Even though he couldn’t see Lu Heyang’s eyes, he was certain that Lu Heyang had looked at him for a few seconds before entering the room the guard had opened. The gaze seemed to carry substantial pressure.
Lu Heyang entered the ward alone, while the others stayed outside. Song Yuke rubbed his face with lingering fear and relaxed his stiff muscles. He walked over to Xu Ze, “Dr. Xu.”
“Was it an important meeting?” Xu Ze asked him.
“It was. There were several important military commanders from the northern war zone. Lieutenant Colonel Gu was already absent, so it wouldn’t look good if Colonel Lu missed it as well.” Song Yuke said, “He barely made it to the end of the meeting with the help of two inhibitors. He can’t use any medicine now. We’ll just have to wait for the Colonel to calm down on his own.”
Song Yuke, who was also an alpha, felt a strong physical repulsion under the influence of Lu Heyang’s pheromones. He waved at Xu Ze and said, “I feel like I want to hit someone. Dr. Xu, I’ll find a nurse to get some inhibitors.”
“Okay,” Xu Ze paused, then asked, “Can I enter the ward?”
“Huh?” Song Yuke needed a moment to react, “But… it will be dangerous.”
Song Yuke hesitated, thinking that it would be dangerous to treat the Colonel alone in the ward and considering Xu Ze was also an S-level, “Should we wait for the doctor from the glandular department to come?”
“It’s fine.”
“Alright then. Dr. Xu, please be careful and come out if there’s any situation.”
Xu Ze nodded. He set his wristband to the highest setting and pushed the ward door.
The curtains remained closed, but all equipment and movable objects had been removed, creating an eerie silence. After his eyes adjusted to the light, Xu Ze took a few steps forward. Looking around the corner of the bathroom wall, he saw a tall figure standing next to the sofa in the visiting area.
“Colonel?” Xu Ze tried calling him, “Shall I help you take off the gloves?”
Without receiving a response, Xu Ze hesitated before walking over to Lu Heyang. He lifted Lu Heyang’s right hand. The custom-made gloves were attached to the wristband. Xu Ze lowered his head to feel for the switch and pulled it to unlock the wristband.
When the glove was halfway off, Xu Ze was startled by the sudden cool object pressed against his neck. He froze in place.
Lu Heyang hung his head and held the bite stopper against the side of Xu Ze’s neck. Xu Ze was forced to raise his head slightly. The area of skin pressed by the bite stopper and Lu Heyang’s heavy breath felt both cool and hot. Xu Ze grabbed the glove, unsure what to do. However, Lu Heyang pulled his hand out of the glove and lifted it to support the back of Xu Ze’s neck.
Pheromones saturated the air, and Xu Ze made an effort to regulate his breathing. Over the past few years, he has consistently used medication to improve his pheromone instability caused by the second differentiation. It had been a long time since he had experienced a rut, and his pheromone control ability had reached normal S-level.
Xu Ze was restrained by the bite stopper moving from his neck to his chin and Lu Heyang’s hand on the other side. Xu Ze looked into Lu Heyang’s eyes but couldn’t see anything but deep darkness. He raised his hand to touch the bite stopper and slowly moved back to the switch. With some difficulty, he asked, “Do you know the password?”
The password was set to prevent alphas from opening the bite stopper themselves. Xu Ze had forgotten to ask it from Song Yuke before coming in.
“Default password,” Lu Heyang finally spoke in a low voice, “Give it a try.”
Even though Xu Ze couldn’t see anything, he turned the combination lock to 123 with his fingertips. The bite stopper clicked open. Xu Ze removed the bite stopper while keeping in mind that Lu Heyang’s other glove hadn’t been taken off.
“What are you doing here?” Lu Heyang asked in a calm tone.
“The bite stopper and gloves… it will be uncomfortable if you don’t take them off.” Xu Ze couldn’t figure out Lu Heyang’s current condition. He asked, “Or is there anything else I can do?”
“Will you do it?”
“I will.” Xu Ze took off Lu Heyang’s left glove and asked, “What do you want me to do?”
Lu Heyang didn’t answer. Instead, he grabbed Xu Ze’s hand and leaned in closer. His movements were deliberately slow as if he wanted to give Xu Ze time to react—sure enough, Xu Ze did react and instinctively moved back.
Lu Heyang asked, “Didn’t you say you would?”
After a few seconds of silence, Xu Ze let go of Lu Heyang’s hand, dropping the gloves and the bite stopper onto the carpet. Then he hugged Lu Heyang’s waist and raised his chin to kiss him.
Xu Ze knew that fate wouldn’t grant the same person too many chances, especially for someone like him. Three months ago, it was a drunken encounter and now it was the heat of the rut. There might not be a third time with a not-clear-headed Lu Heyang.
Despite his mediocre kissing skills, Xu Ze finally got the embrace he desired. Lu Heyang removed his glasses and took the lead in their disorganized kiss, guiding Xu Ze backward until they reached the sofa. Xu Ze knelt on Lu Heyang’s lap and hugged his neck—a position that reminded Xu Ze of the times when Lu Heyang would effortlessly pull him to sit on his lap like this when he came to his home.
Lu Heyang’s hand slipped under Xu Ze’s white coat and reached the shirt underneath. When his hand touched Xu Ze’s waist, Xu Ze let out a groan. Their heartbeats and breathing reached an uncontrollable intensity. They separated for a moment, both breathing heavily. Lu Heyang’s kisses fell downward, from the throat to the collarbone, transitioning from soft kisses to bites. Xu Ze closed his eyes partially and licked his moist lips but surprisingly felt no pain.
His hands trembled as he went to undo Lu Heyang’s belt. The clash of alpha pheromones—more specifically, the suppression of Lu Heyang’s strong rut pheromones, caused intense discomfort in Xu Ze’s body. He began to question if his actions were a mistake. But it was too late to turn back.
The smell of blood reached his nose. He couldn’t tell if it was from his collarbone or elsewhere. In a soothing tone, he said to Lu Heyang, “Colonel, let me go down.”
Xu Ze knelt between Lu Heyang’s legs. Lu Heyang’s fingers tangled in his hair as he looked down at him in the dark light.
—
After swallowing what was in his mouth, Xu Ze attempted to stand up, but Lu Heyang pulled him back onto his lap and initiated another kiss. Their tongues intertwined for a few minutes. When Xu Ze felt that Lu Heyang had calmed down, he lifted his head. It was already time for the shift change, and he couldn’t stay here any longer.
“I have to go back to work.” Xu Ze kissed Lu Heyang’s lips, cheeks, and forehead.
Finally, nose to nose with Lu Heyang, he whispered, “Forget this too.”
Just like forgetting everything from the past, sometimes it was best not to remember.
Lu Heyang, like many alphas during their rut, didn’t waste energy on words and didn’t respond to Xu Ze. He picked up the glasses from the side table and handed them back to Xu Ze.
Before leaving the room, Xu Ze put on a mask from his pocket and opened the door.
“!” Song Yuke looked alarmed. “Doc…doctor Xu… Why… why are you bleeding?!”
Xu Ze looked down and saw that his collarbone was indeed bleeding, staining his light-colored shirt, which looked alarming.
“It’s okay. I have to go back to work.”
“The Colonel did…… he hit you?” Song Yuke followed Xu Ze and observed that his white coat was wrinkled beyond recognition. He became even more distressed, suspecting that Xu Ze’s face might also be swollen, hence the mask. He stammered, “I’m sorry, Dr. Xu. I didn’t expect it to be this serious… I’ll go with you to take care of it.”
“It’s okay,” Xu Ze reassured him.
It took some time to talk Song Yuke out of it. Xu Ze left the special ward alone.
While waiting for the elevator, he turned on his phone to check the time. The doors opened quickly. Xu Ze turned off his phone and looked up. A slender omega walked out, followed by a tall alpha.
Xu Ze made eye contact with the alpha behind his mask before they brushed past each other. Xu Ze entered the elevator and pushed the button.
For him, these were people he had only met once, and he might have forgotten their specific appearance. However, encountering them again triggered instant recognition.
The omega was Lu Heyang’s father whom he had seen outside the private hospital, and the alpha was Lu Heyang’s bodyguard whom he had met at the hotel.
Art for this chapter:
The dialogue:
“Colonel?”
“Do you know the password?”
“Default password.” “Give it a try.”
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On another note, while we’re nearing the end, the chapters are getting longer 😅
Omg I just remembered we have like 12 chapters left 😭😭😭 It’s too early I cant part with my babies so fast
I really love the art for this chapter 😍😍. Tho I know what was coming nexxt due to mtl-ing, reading this with your translation is still the best.
Oh no im sorry, i didn’t mean to reply to your comment.
I’ve been reading this for the past few days and finally caught up. Ugh, this is SO GOOD! And I’m not typically into school, amnesia or ABO novels but there are some exceptions and this is definitely one of them. Thank you so much for your superb translation!! 💜💜💜
Omggg this was so 😋😋😋😋😋😋💖💖💖
oh noo its going to end soon :((
…I feel so bad…is it going to be ‘the post reading/ end of story ‘ depression….damn so soon?!
Thank you for the chapter 😭
Not too soon 😞