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“Don’t rush to refute, I haven’t finished yet.” Pei Ming interrupted Yue Xiuzhi’s words, but his tone was still softly firm, “I love you the most, not them, but you.”
“You don’t even know how stupid you are.” Pei Ming said.
Yue Xiuzhi: “…??”
You suddenly called me stupid, that made me lose all of my good mood at once.
“You were once so weak, living in a comfortable world, but you were suddenly drawn into this world to accept these cruel tasks.” He gently pinned Yue Xiuzhi’s slightly messy hair behind his ears, “You were forced to hurt me, it is obviously not what you want, and it is obviously for the good of the common people in both worlds, but you can’t tell me about all of this and you can only accept my cruel revenge in silence.”
“You feel sorry for me, but what did you do wrong? How has fate ever been fair to you?”
“When I used the identity of ‘Jun Huachen’ to talk to you about our affairs, I was very afraid that you would resent me, but I also felt that it was reasonable for you to resent me.”
“But you didn’t.” Pei Ming looked into Yue Xiuzhi’s eyes like shining stars, “You are always so demanding of yourself, no matter how much you suffer, even if you can’t bear it, you force yourself to use the most rational and fair attitude to deal with the hurt you have suffered.”
“But you are not a saint without desires and heart. You are not even familiar with this world where the strong prey on the weak. The world you came from is so comfortable. These injuries have long been beyond the range you can bear. You, if you are so demanding of yourself, you will drive yourself crazy sooner or later.” Pei Ming sighed.
“You are so stupid that my heart beats for and aches for you.”
After he finished speaking, the palace returned to dead silence again, until Yue Xiuzhi said with a half-crying smile, “I don’t even know whether you are praising me or scolding me.”
Hearing these words, Pei Ming breathed a sigh of relief, and then put on a serious face: “I’m scolding you.”
“You should think more about yourself.” Pei Ming said, and then squatted down to help Yue Xiuzhi put on the half-worn socks just now.
“It’s okay if you hate me a little bit. I have countless hours to make amends and get your forgiveness. But if you keep demanding so much of yourself and make my heart ache, I really won’t know what to do.”
Yue Xiuzhi was speechless for a moment, and then pulled out his foot that was held by Pei Ming.
Pei Ming did not forcefully stop him this time.
He said to Pei Ming seriously: “Pei Ming, you shouldn’t like me.”
“I can’t hate you because you really don’t owe me anything. I’ve done you real harm. I’ve deceived you for your whole life. I’ve made you mourn the death of two people who don’t even exist. Your revenge on me is justified.”
“I feel guilty because of you. I am willing to give you my life, but I absolutely cannot fall in love with you.”
His tone was guilty yet firm: “Because although I said it fairly and righteously, I couldn’t forget ‘that time’.”
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Both of them understood that the ‘at that time’ he spoke of meant being locked in a dark room for a year.
“I can’t forget, staying with you now, I can force myself not to think about those things for a short time, but if I spend the rest of my life with you… I can’t do it at all. My reason tells me, you never owed me but I owed you, yet I still blame you emotionally.”
“And, you know, I don’t love you. I don’t have any love or affection.” Yue Xiuzhi tried to speak heartlessly. Even if Pei Ming was furious, he would tell him all these words truthfully.
Because he wants to face up to this relationship.
When Pei Ming expressed his heart to him before, he was surprised at first, but then he avoided this relationship like an ostrich. Because he couldn’t resist, all he wanted was to muddle along and muddle through, and never face this relationship in the face.
But now he understands how serious and precious Pei Ming’s feelings for him are.
Therefore, it is irresponsible for him to continue to blindly avoid Pei Ming.
It’s not that Yue Xiuzhi has never had lovers. He had several lovers in the real world. Although his emotional history was not rich, it was not shallow either.
So he knows that the greatest respect he can have for an admirer that he doesn’t love is to simply reject them.
Yue Xiuzhi had said no to many girls before, but most of them were due to his personal patience, but this time, it was his most earnest one.
He really hoped that Pei Ming would not hang himself on this crooked neck tree.
He thought that Pei Ming would at least be a little displeased with what he said so heartlessly and simply, but he didn’t see that Pei Ming was not angry, but instead smiled softly.
“You have already told ‘Jun Huachen’ about all of this.” He chuckled lightly, “In your opinion, this is enough to show that we are absolutely impossible, but in my opinion, this is a very good start.”
He insisted on putting on the last shoe for Yue Xiuzhi, and murmured, “It’s so hard to put on shoes and socks, be careful of catching a cold.”
Yue Xiuzhi: “…”
Don’t think I can’t hear you just because you’re speaking softly. . . . . . If it wasn’t for you insisting on helping me wear it, would it have taken so long?!
Pei Ming looked at Yue Xiuzhi who was finally fully dressed with satisfaction, and continued, “It’s good that you feel a little guilty towards me now, so that even if I pester you for tens of thousands of years, you won’t be so angry.”
Yue Xiuzhi: “…”
Your sentence contains a lot of information. . . . . .
So you are ready to haunt me for tens of thousands of years? I don’t even know if I can live to be thousands of years old. . . . . .
Thinking of this, Yue Xiuzhi suddenly realized that as long as Pei Ming wanted to, it didn’t matter if he lived to the end of the world. . . . . .
Yue Xiuzhi is not a person who is not afraid of death. If someone tells him that he can live forever, although he will be a little afraid of the loneliness of eternal life, he still hopes to live forever.
But now that I suddenly learned that I can live forever, I’m not so happy. I feel that a thousand years is enough for me. . . . . . Isn’t it scary to be stalked by Pei Ming?
However, Pei Ming ignored Yue Xiuzhi’s stupefaction, and instead said with emotion: “At first I wanted to pretend to be pitiful to let you comfort me, but I didn’t expect my acting to be too much, and instead it was me who was asked to comfort you for so long, it’s a big loss.”
Yue Xiuzhi: “…”
So it’s not my illusion that this guy has a low EQ, right? The eruption of emotional intelligence at that moment just now was probably the peak level of this guy’s life!
As Pei Ming said this, he stood up and said to Yue Xiuzhi, “Let’s go.”
“Where are you going?” Yue Xiuzhi was a little out of sorts.
“Go to Yuan Yin Sect.” Pei Ming said, “You finally reunited with these old friends. I shouldn’t bother you. I was really worried about your injury yesterday, so I brought you here first.”
As he spoke, he suddenly turned around and said seriously to Yue Xiuzhi, “Xiuzhi, you don’t have to be afraid of me, I won’t limit your life. You can stay in Yuan Yin Sect during the day, and come to the God Realm to cultivate your soul at night.”
“Of course, in Yuan Yin Sect, I will try my best to accompany you.” He said, becoming a little serious again.
Yue Xiuzhi sighed. Although he wanted to complain, he knew that it was the greatest degree of freedom and respect that Pei Ming could give him.
If I really want to say that I don’t like Pei Ming and that it’s best not to meet Pei Ming. . . . . . Pei Ming would probably go crazy, and I’m probably going to become dead-cold too.
“Jiuhuaxiao’s matter… I’m sorry, but I’m also very glad that I didn’t do too many irreversible things.” Pei Ming said, “I will unseal Fu Yuan and their spiritual veins, and then help them break through the Transcendence Realm.”
“There is also the Yuan Yin Sect… Over the years, although I did not instigate them, it is also my fault that they were suppressed by various forces. From now on, I will try my best to help Yuan Yin Sect.”
“Although the past damage cannot be undone, at least let me make up for it. I don’t ask you or Jiuhuaxiao to forgive me, I just ask you to be happier.” After he finished speaking, he turned around and walked out of the palace.
Yue Xiuzhi followed him, but his heart was a little complicated.
He knew that Pei Ming was not such a kind person. He once single-handedly started the war of spirits and demons, but he has no regrets, and now he apologized and made amends for Jiuhuaxiao’s matter. . . . . . All because of himself.
They soon arrived at Yuan Yin Sect. This time, they didn’t specifically ask people to send notice of their arrival at the front of the sect’s gate, but went directly to the house Lu Fanyi lived in.
However, after Yue Xiu was taken away by Yue Xiuzhi yesterday, Lu Fanyi was forced himself but was still fidgeting, and Old Man Lin couldn’t do alchemy either.
Liu Feng, who had been in the Yuan Yin Sect for a long time, also heard the news, but he was not worried, because he had talked with Pei Ming in front of Yue Xiuzhi’s tomb, and he could feel that the god no longer harbored any malice towards his master.
Right now, he only feels ecstasy at his master’s resurrection from death.
So when Yue Xiuzhi and Pei Ming entered the wooden house, they saw Lu Fanyi and Lin Xun pacing anxiously in the small room, and Liu Feng calmly drinking tea.
Yue Xiuzhi looked at the two of them, and shouted, dumbfounded: “Lu Fanyi, Old Lin, what are you two doing?”
Lu Fanyi and Lin Xun immediately looked at the source of the voice – this guy really came back!
They felt a burst of joy at first, and then they noticed the person next to Yue Xiuzhi. . . . . . Wait, isn’t this the god?
They hurriedly bowed their heads and said respectfully, “Your Holiness.”
But in their hearts, they were in doubt.
This guy Yue Xiuzhi came back with the god like this? And they look so friendly. . . . . .It’s simply destroying my three views!
“It seems that I’m in the way here, I’ll go out first and wait for you.” Pei Ming said to Yue Xiuzhi with a light smile.
“This…” Yue Xiuzhi was a little hesitant. After all, it felt unreasonable to ask Pei Ming to wait for him outside since he was a god. . . . . . Acting like this really made him feel like a person putting up airs.
But if Pei Ming is here, Lu Fanyi and the others will indeed be very reserved, with some things stuck in their throat.
Seeing Yue Xiuzhi’s embarrassment, Pei Ming said, “Then I’ll go back to the God Realm first, and I’ll pick you up before evening, so you and your old friends can catch up on the old days.”
Yue Xiuzhi nodded.
Even though it was only being picked up by the gods, it felt like a big show-off. . . . . . But there is no other way. After all, he only has the cultivation base of transcendence, and he can’t freely enter and leave the God Realm. It’s better than letting Pei Ming wait outside for him.
Only in the Deification Realm can one have the strength to enter the God Realm.
Pei Ming laughed: “You just want me to stay away from you.”
Yue Xiuzhi was a little embarrassed, but it was indeed the truth.
Pei Ming didn’t continue to pursue the matter, but walked out of the door and returned to the God Realm.
As soon as Pei Ming left, the atmosphere in the room immediately became much more relaxed. Lu Fanyi winked at Yue Xiuzhi, giving various hints: What’s going on?
“Stop winking, just ask directly, Pei Ming won’t hear you.” Yue Xiuzhi said.
To be precise, Pei Ming didn’t care even if he heard it.
Who knew that Lu Fanyi’s expression suddenly turned into panic: “You actually called god by his real name!”
Loving the communication that’s happening so much. This couple really needs it and it’s been handled so well.
Just let me see Yue Xiuzhi crying over Pei Ming’s almost dead body and I will definitely jump in deep happiness. I bet Yue Xiuzhi would soon realize Pei Ming’s importance in his life as a lover through near-death situations!
I’m worried PM will keep relentlessly pushing this relationship and YX will just give in to make him stop and make him happy. YX makes a Great point, he was tortured for, what was it again, a whole year? In a dark room. If we know solitary confinement is a form of torture, even to a cultivator, especially to one from our world, that’s a lot mentally to deal with. YX needs a small team of therapists and possibly a restraining order.