Wang Ran covered her mouth as tears fell down her face. She could not ask any more questions, because she knew what happened next.
Yang Yiqian spent a tremendous amount of his resources in order to catch the culprit. After the man was arrested and imprisoned, Yang Yiqian hired a top-tier lawyer and collected a bunch of evidence in order to sentence the man to prison for ‘intentional homicide’, essentially giving the man a death sentence.
How vicious could this man be? He accidentally got infected with HIV. While feeling devastated, he decided to put the blame on anyone but himself and accuse others. Began to retaliate against society. He wantonly committed violent acts, wanting to drag more people down to the grave with him.
The longer the case lasted, the more people got involved. According to his own admission, he had infected more than a hundred people, regardless of gender and age.
There were even many young people who were still in school. When the news report was released, the whole nation was horrified. In the end, his conviction was the crime of endangering public security by dangerous means, and was sentenced to death.
Wang Ran’s eyes were red and could not utter a word between her cry. While Qin Cang looked very relaxed, he even smiled and comforted her.
“I’m already undergoing treatment. As long as I take these reverse transcriptase inhibitors, my medications, timly, my viral load will continue to decrease. According to expert research, a person who starts HIV treatment at the age of twenty is expected to live to his early seventies.”
Wang Ran wiped her tears, sniffed and said, “Then Mr. Qin must stay well.”
“All right.”
Qin Cang smiled with his eyes. In Wang Ran’s eyes, he was still lazily curled up on the sofa chair. The light spreading from the window wrapped him in a golden halo. He was like a butterfly, fluttering his pure-white wings gently and stayed in the halo. As if he could become transparent the next moment and completely hide from the world.
“Is that boy…still with Mr. Yang?”
“Yes,” Qin Cang’s voice was very light, and his tone was still as gentle. “At his age, it is common to feel lonely and brave in pursuit of love. He was quite like Yang Yiqian back in the old days. He knew I had a girlfriend but continued to cling to me shamelessly. Therefore, I can understand how he felt.”
“But, you and Mr. Yang have been together for nine years. This is not as simple as being in a relationship, this is like being married, isn’t it? Isn’t he ruining your family?!”
Wang Ran spoke this very fiercely. She leaned forward and frowned tightly.
Qi Xun remained calm and simply asked her a question.
“Do you think a person can love two people at the same time?”
Caught off guard by the question, she pondered over it for a long time, until she finally shook her head. The light in Qin Cang’s eyes faded. He lowered his eyes and did not continue.
She reassured him, “Mr. Yang really does love you.”
Qin Cang smiled instead of commenting.
Human desires are always vulgar and complicated. They do not know what they really want but would always seek it out. They are very greedy. They will always go for another taste even after having eaten their fill. Once they are tired of the taste, they will move on to the next new thing. In this vicious cycle of trying new things, they will start missing the old taste. Covering their dirty desires with pretty words.
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Wang Ran’s eyes were still red. She asked, “Can I contact you in the future? It does not have to be about work, I simply admire you. If it is fine with your schedule. I’d like to visit you.”
“Of course.”
Qin Cang responded as he sent Wang Ran out.
Yang Yiqian seemed to have been waiting outside the ward. As soon as Wang Ran and the cameraman left, he came in. He leaned over, pressed his forehead against Qin Cang’s and felt the other man’s hands. They were both cold.
“Are you cold?”
Qin Cang shook his head, took back his hand like leaving no trace of himself. “Not cold, it feels normal.”
Yang Yiqian looked at him, lowered his head and said, “Then let’s go home now.” His voice brushed against Qin Cang’s ears, it brought along its warmth. The familiar comfort crept in from his ears and poured into his heart.
But that tenderness was too insignificant. It could not smoothe the huge crack in his heart.
After returning home, Yang Yiqian went to cook dinner. Qin Cang received several messages on his phone. He glanced at it before going into the bathroom to take a shower.
The hot water flowed down from the shower head, the steam rose and fogged up the bathroom. Qin Cang lifted his face to welcome the incoming water. He felt that his flesh and blood inside of his body were rustling and dropping, collapsing and corrupting, until they became a pool of rotten meat. Disgusting putrefaction.
Qin Cang finally could not hold back his tears as they rain down from his cheeks. It hurts. It hurts everywhere, ones that could not be expressed in words.
Would Yang Yiqian understand? Learning that his lover was cheating, being humiliated that night, and receiving the result of the aftermath…Pile by pile, they stabbed into Qi Cang’s heart like a sharp and cold blade.
If Yang Yiqian knew, why bother with that boy? But if he did not understand, why was he being so kind to him?
Once the meal was done, Qin Cang was still in the shower. Yang Yiqian knocked on the door anxiously and received no response. He hurriedly opened the door and saw Qin Cang was still under the shower head. He exhaled a long breath, walked forward and turned off the water. He grabbed a towel to dry the other man.
Qin Cang fell on Yang Yiqian’s broad chest and asked him in a muffled voice, “Don’t you find me dirty?”
“No, you are not dirty. You are very clean and belong to me.”
Yang Yiqian wrapped the other man up in a towel before picking him up out of the bathroom. He tenderly and sincerely kissed him after putting him on the bed. It was a soft kiss between the eyes.
“Xiao Cang, stop thinking about it. I will bring in the food and we will go to bed after eating, sounds good?”
Qin Cang lowered his eyes and mumbled, “Okay.”
At night, they were tightly in each other’s arms. Qin Cang hid more so as he buried into the other’s arms, listening to heartbeat and feeling the warmth.
Yang Yiqian rubbed Qin Cang’s back, before shifting to his beautiful shoulder blade. “Xiao Cang, let me take you out for a trip. Where do you want to go?”
Qin Cang said, “Others will be afraid of me.”
“No they won’t.” Yang Yiqian caressed and gently massaged the other’s head. “I will protect you. As long as you take your medicine timely, there will be no issue in daily interaction with others.”
Qin Cang withdrew slightly from other’s arms, leaned on the pillow and looked at him head-on, depicting Yang Yiqian’s eyebrows little by little. Under the soft beside lamp, Yang Yiqian’s right face was shaded in a deep shadow.
Yang Yiqian suggested, “Xiao Cang, let’s go to the beach, go to that coastal city we have been to, staying in the same hotel and room, walking on the beach and laying on the sand.”
Qin Cang remained silent, neither agreeing nor refusing. Yang Yiqian turned off the lamp, patted the other on the shoulder to coax him to sleep.
Closing his eyes, Qin Cang still asked the question after a long time, “Do you like him?”
Yang Yiqian’s hands froze and his lips slightly opened. Qin Cang opened his eyes and caught the other’s eyes in the dark.
“Do not lie to me, Yiqian, I can see through your lies.”
Yang Yiqian did not speak.
Qin Cang lamented, “I told you before, we can break up if you like him. We are not married anyway, there is no need for us to go through all the cumbersome procedures. Just like before I got sick, I will not trap you.”
“You do not have to pity me because of this. Just let me go. I do not want to die so unbecoming like my mother.”
Yang Yiqian hugged him tightly as he whole body trembled. “No, Xiao Cang, I love you. We are going to grow old together like you said before.”
Qin Cang felt so tired and said in a vain voice, “He sent me a message tonight.”
“He described being together with you in great detail, about your favourite position, how you love to bite his neck, the pet name you praised him in, how you like his…”
“Stop it, Xiao Cang. No more.” Yang Yiqian interrupted him with a choking voice. “The night of your accident was the last time between me and him. I swear, really. Xiao Cang, you have to believe me.”
Qin Cang looked at him calmly. “But you really do like him.”
“He is young and beautiful, coming in so confident and bright. Even I have to admit that he is a great temptation.”
“Yiqian, you can admit your desire to me, I do not care if you can suppress it or not, but please do not hide it from me.”
Qin Cang’s tone was very light, as if he was talking about the weather, but Yang Yiqian could hear the rage under the calm ocean.
Feeling flustered, he went for a kiss but Qin Cang turned away and continued,
“Yang Yiqian, you might not have any feelings for me anymore. You just do not want to let go of the years of experiences into our relationship. You want to hide the bruised feelings between us for your affectionate image.”
Yang Yiqian shook his head to deny it before kissing him vigorously. Qin Cang was really tired from the pile of fatigue tonight as he had no more strength to struggle.
“Yiqian, let’s separate for a while. I want to walk alone.”
“No, I am coming with you.”
“Let me try to see if I can stay alive alone, without you.”
“No, I won’t allow you to be alone.” Yang Yiqian grabbed his hand and insisted stubbornly, “I told you before, I would go wherever you go.”
Qin Cang smiled bitterly. “That counts as what? Do you want to force me to accept him into our relationship?”
“Not that.” Yang Yiqian urged, “Let’s get married then, we can in England.”
“It is useless in China.”
“When I say it is not useless then it is not useless.”
Qin Cang met the other’s eyes like he always does, just as bright as in those years.
This was a tall fortress, which they had spent nine years building. Their past was still clear and vivid, but it crumbled easily as what remained tottering was covered in weed.
Yang Yiqian now wanted to rebuild the structure and bind them with marriage to prove his love. This made Qin Cang suddenly not want to let Yang Yiqian go.
He was already a man deep in the abyss. Even if Yang Yiqian was dragging him into hell’s deepest layer, he still would not want to let go.
Qin Cang said, “Yang Yiqian, are you sure about this?”
Yang Yiqian nodded. “Very.”
I feel like Yang Yiqian never loved Qin Cang at all. He is simply obssesed with him. Maybe it comes from the fact that QC looks like YY’s mother, tho it was not mentioned what their relationship was. I could be thinking too much into it but I just don’t see any of what YY did as loving actions. He’s just a predator capturing and ruining his prey.
I agree. It feels like he subconsciously wants someone to take care of, and country bumpkin Qin Cang, naive to seafood and luxurious hotels and Mercedes Benzes was perfect. He came onto him so strongly when they’d just met. I thought the genre was fantasy so maybe QC reincarnated a lot and YYQ was immortal and kept finding him or something lol but that doesn’t seem to be the case
Very true. With so many years together, the lines between love and companionship/experience is too blurry. Ml is just too used to be with mc. How much does actual love still weigh? The possessiveness? The care? The guilt? Familial feels? It’s exhausting.
I’m sobbing. This is so hurtful
yang yiqian is disgusting