Warning. This story contains date-rape drug, rape, suicidal thoughts, and character(s) death. Reader discretion is advised.
“In fact, I should believe in him. We have gone through many ups and downs together. He has always treated me well, protected me safe and sound.
“But that night, I lay in bed and could not sleep. The quilt was full of his smell and I was used to laying in his arms, surrounded by him.
“So I went out and to that address.
“It was a five-star hotel. I did not go in, just standing in the lobby and watching people come and go like a wandering soul. It was a night bustling with activity.
“That night was really lively and prosperous. Under the intricate lights, I saw a dazzling sight. Yang Yiqian came out with the boy in his arms. I could not see Yang Yiqian’s expression clearly because the boy kissed his face. He brazenly clinged onto Yang Yiqian with so many people in the lobby.
“It was intentional. The boy probably noticed me early on and deliberately blocked me from Yang Yiqian’s line of sight. He rubbed against Yang Yiqian and I saw him glancing over at me from time to time. The corners of his mouth raised up as if he was wantonly and cheekily declaring war on me.
“What the hell was that supposed to mean? The boyfriend catches his lover in the act with the third party at the scene? The straightforward and rough pain was like a sharp knight dismembering me. I could not cry out. I just wanted to leave the scene, but no matter how much I tried, I could not summon the strength to move my legs.
“Yang Yiqian finally noticed me. The expression on his face suddenly collapsed as he hurriedly pushed the boy away. The panic expression that appeared on that night was the same on the night I was taken to the hospital from my seafood allergy.
“I found it very ironic.
“He came to embrace me but I was drowned by the strong perfume lingered on his body immediately. It was suffocated, making it hard for me to think clearly, even my legs gave out on me.
“I did not have the strength to struggle, but it was enough for me to clench my teeth to stop myself from crying. All the eyes in the lobby were on me. It was very humiliating and embarrassing. I just want to keep my most basic dignity.
“Yang Yiqian refused to let go, and neither did the boy. They pestered me and trapped me. I felt that I was going to drown in that beautiful night.
“There were so many people outside, all in colourful impeccably attired. Yang Yiqian knelt on the ground, not caring about his reputation. He cried and admitted his mistake to me, promising to me that he would never do it again.
“I gazed down at him through the hazy mist. His eyes were still as beautiful. As soon as he cried, all the stars in his eyes were swaying and spinning. I was powerless to them. Under everyone’s eyes, I bolted out from the lobby.
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“When Yang Yiqian finally caught up to me, he picked me up and took me home.
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“After his shower, the smell continued to linger and invaded me like a shadow. I said to him, ‘Yang Yiqian, if you like him, then let’s break up.’
“He shook his head desperately but I continued, ‘I will not be like my mother. I will set you free.’
“He refused. The red in his eyes was like an lazer, trying to tear the night to shreds. His tall body pressed down hard, like a cement board weighing tens of thousands of kilograms. I could not move my fingers, so I let him release his possessiveness on me.
“He genuinely seemed to be very afraid of losing me. He showered me with blazing kisses on every inch of my body the entire night, refusing to leave.
“The next day I got up, there was still a cup of warm water on the table beside the bed, already squeezed toothpaste, a prepared breakfast on the table, and he ironed my outfits for work, just like before.
“He is always so thoughtful and gentle, so sincere and warm. But how could he cheat? As if last night was just my nightmare.
“I forgive him. Actually, it made no difference as our days continued like usual.
“I am spoiled by Yang Yiqian. It is I who cannot leave him, while he can leave my side at any time.”
Wang Ran was near tears when she heard this. She also could not believe that Yang Yiqian would cheat.
She had never seen a loving lover like Yang Yiqian, who would take such a great care of Qin Cang. Those smallest details could not be forged. If such a person could cheat, then how could she have the courage to believe in love?
Qin Cang’s expression remained very calm. He gazed out of the window and felt that the sky was too gloomy, covered by a layer of grey fog.
“That day, I worked overtime and the weather did not look very good. It was dark and bursts of heavy thunder came from the sky. It increased in volume as it rumbled, and then it began to rain heavily.
“I sent him a message, asking him when he would get off work and if he could come pick me up.
“He did not reply back. After a while, I got off work and as I was about to call a taxi, I received a friend request. The avatar was very familiar. It was the boy’s. My heart sank right away and my hand started to shake uncontrollably. I pressed accepted. There was no fluff from the other end, he directly sent a video to me.
“I opened the video and it was recorded in a bar. He sat across Yang Yiqian, and under the cheers of the people around them, he patted Yang Yiqian and fed him wine with his mouth.
“The bar’s light was gorgeous and dim, and the colourful lights were projected on them. When I look at that person who I knew so well, but at that time, he felt like a stranger to me. The boy sent me an address and an extremely provocative message.
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“I looked at the line of black texts and laughed. What was there for me to be afraid of? Why would I not dare? Yang Yiqian saved me, protected me, spoiled me and loved me. He did not hesitate to break ties with his family for me, and made my three meals a day. After learning I was allergic to seafood, he was absent from it with me for so many years.
“Of course I have this right and confidence.
“I immediately took a taxi to that address. The room’s door was not closed so I pushed it open. What I saw was the scene of them making love, the peak of desire.
“What was in the air was that sticky small, which penetrated into my nose and turned my stomach in disgust.
“I could not watch it any longer. Yang Yiqian and I have been walking together all of these years. We were happy and safe. Everything he had given me was clear and sincere, so I often fantasise that we would grow old together. Two white haired old men planting flowers in the yard, enjoying books, sitting on the rocking chair and chatting while holding hands.
“But that was but an empty dream.
“That night, I forced my dignity and dragged my weak legs away. I stepped into the torrential rain. There was no crying, there was no yelling. Only the big raindrops painfully hit my face.
“Despite the thunder, lightning and heavy rain, the nightlife in the city was still lively. I walked aimlessly and happened to see a bar when I looked up.
“I have actually never been to a bar. My colleagues invited me there for dinner several times, but Yang Yiqian always stopped me, saying how it was a very messy place and insisting on picking me up.
“Now that I am looking at the lights and thinking of the idea of wine. Something was pressing the air out of my chest, urging me to lift my feet and go in.
“I was soaked and in a sorry state, but someone approached me and asked me if I wanted to go to the hotel to change out of my wet clothes.
“I ignored him and ordered a cocktail at the bar. There were many people dancing, creating moving shadows. The bar’s music also suppressed the rain outside. Those were the only things I remember because I fainted in the noisy space.”
Wang Ran’s lips trembled as she asked, “Did someone drug you?”
Qin Cang nodded and kneaded the blanket over his body with his fingers.
“The dose of the drug was not very strong. I woke up very soon but I could not move a single muscle. I did not have a single article of clothing on me, my limbs were completely stretched out and they were tied to the bed’s four columns.
“There was a middle-aged man with fat piled up on his stomach layer by layer. He pounced on me with an obscene smile. I tried to struggle, negotiated with him and asked him what he wanted, but he told me he did not need anything.
“My voice became hoarse. When he invaded me fully, I finally turned silent. I turned my head and closed my eyes, never opening them again until it was over.
“I fainted from the pain. I did not know when the man left, but when I woke up, the rope on me had been untied. I was limped and paralyzed like a dead fish. At that moment, I had no consciousness, no soul, and only my physical body that was still crying in pain.
“It felt like I died.
“But Yang Yiqian came and tried to save me again.
“He ran with me in his arms from the hotel to the hospital. In the hospital corridor, he burst into tears.
“The tear had healed by that time I was discharged from the hospital. He still took close care of me and apologised to me countless times.
“What was there for me to do? I have lost all of my dignity, it felt like I was no longer human. Only he was willing to guard me. He is my only dependence in the world. I really do not know how I can live without him.
“So that’s what I did. I forgive him once again.
“Things turned south three weeks later. I had a fever and my whole body was drenched in sweat. I had this bad hunch and Yang Yiqian must have noticed it as well. He immediately took me to the hospital for an examination and had me get tested. Sure enough, the result was that I have been contracted with HIV.
“It was like thundering during a clear sky that pushed me into the abyss. From then on, my fate was sealed.
“Yang Yiqian knelt to the ground like a madman. He harshly slapped himself in the face as he cried. I looked at him and understood one thing.
“This was Divine’s Punishment, for him, and for me.”
F*** so unfair
Did that homewrecker organize the drugging? It seems very possible
man 🙁 it does
Just want QC to leave YYQ 🙁 but that clearly didn’t happen 🙁 thank you for translating teo
Out of all things 😭 the rapist left a permanent mark with aids. Ml keeps on cheating too 😭 I can feel mc’s powerlessness each time //sighh
…. this is so heavy 😭 i can’t