“Can I bring my boyfriend to the graduation ceremony? Of course, he’s a guy. Introduce him to Mom and Dad, even greet the relatives? What’s changed now that I should meet my parents again? Does Mom think I’ve come to my senses after ten years and will at least show some respect?”
Despite knowing that the outburst was misdirected, the heated words burst out as is. The other end of the phone remained momentarily silent, like a dead mouse.
– I didn’t mean it that way, Oppa.
“…I won’t be able to attend the graduation ceremony. I told you during the pre-graduation exhibition that I won’t be able to go. I’ll buy you a meal separately, so contact me when you have time. Let’s end it here today.
– Just a moment.
I lifted the phone that I had taken off my ear at the sound of grabbing. The plastic transferred heat to my cheek, making it warm.
– I’m going on a trip with friends right after the graduation ceremony. Can’t we meet before that? It’s been months since we last saw each other.
“…When?”
– Either this weekend or… is Sunday okay, Oppa?
“…Sunday is fine.”
The words “It’s okay” almost slipped through my lips. I barely managed to stop myself. I didn’t know what I would be doing on Sunday lunch. After Saturday night, I might be taken to the hospital. Even if it’s possible to walk perfectly, I didn’t want to go to meet my sister, dragging a body that had been brutally assaulted by a man the night before.
If I did that, it would feel like nothing had changed. I would have to say it’s okay with swollen and torn lips while forcing a smile.
“Sunday might be difficult.”
– …Really? Then…
And I wasn’t okay. Looking back, I had never been okay. Was this the right thing to do? Was this winning? I felt like I was being dragged back into the vortex of pain. There was no one to ask.
– What about Monday evening?
“…It might be difficult to skip overtime. If it’s late at night, I don’t know.”
– …I guess I’ll just see you after the trip, Oppa. I’ll contact you.
“Sure. Have a good graduation ceremony.”
“Yeah!” My sister replied brightly. Her uncomfortable tone from earlier was completely forgotten, replaced by a cheerful voice. Then the call ended.
I slowly stood up and began to walk. I thought I should check the map on my phone a bit more before walking further on this unfamiliar path. Even if I couldn’t sleep when I got home, I had to close my eyes. I shouldn’t be trembling and looking nervous when I face him tomorrow. I wanted to appear calm as if nothing happened, even if it meant enduring the pain.
I didn’t want to be entangled with something like trauma. I didn’t want to be affected by violence that happened to me without my fault. If my life had been distorted because of such a thing, how could I accept myself?
So, I said I was fine. It was an obvious lie. In reality, I was always scared. I was afraid of everything alone, and I didn’t know what to do.
***
He wasn’t at the company on Saturday. He said he was out on a business trip for the department. I sat at my desk all day but couldn’t finish any work. I left work at five, skipped dinner, and my face in the mirror looked lifeless and sick. It was the same in the elevator going up to the 16th floor of the hotel.
I was obviously late. I was twenty minutes late just sitting still in the subway station and another twenty minutes in the hotel lobby. When I knocked on the door, it was well past eleven.
Han Team Leader opened the door as usual. He was wearing the navy bathrobe I saw last time, and his hair was still wet. Instead of inviting me in, he held the door and asked calmly, as if he found it amusing.
“Do you know what time it is right now?”
“… I didn’t know because I don’t have a watch.”
It was a lame excuse. There was a turned-off phone in my pocket. Han Team Leader twisted his mouth as if he didn’t find it amusing at all.
I passed him and walked straight to the bed without saying anything. Without him saying anything, I quickly undressed and folded my clothes.
“If it’s that urgent, shouldn’t you have kept the appointment time?”
Han Team Leader mocked as he closed the door. I didn’t answer and lay down on the bed. I quickly turned my body neatly and buried my face in the pillow. Otherwise, the trembling that had covered my whole body since the subway might be revealed to him.
Thud, the sound of a lighter igniting a cigarette echoed. Han Team Leader left me lying face down on the bed and opened the window. A strong smell of tobacco wafted in. With a dizzy head, I thought that I should have had a drink or something. If I had done that, I might have thrown up everything. I had an empty stomach all day, and I wasn’t good at handling alcohol.
I thought of the wine glass he had handed me on the first day I came here. Looking back, it was a long grace period. Maybe I should be thankful that it was delayed this much. Closing my eyes, trying to figure out how many weeks had passed since the project started, someone put their hand on my back.
I jumped. Han Team Leader was looking down at me.
“What’s wrong?”
“…”
“Speak up. I’m starting to get curious.”
My body was drawn involuntarily. Han Team Leader stared at me closely, his neat face stopping just a hair’s breadth away from my nose.
“Is your condition bad all week because of this?”
“…”
“Really. Is Lee Seodan so intimidated?”
Silence was an affirmation. Han Team Leader grabbed my wrist without any special reaction. His fingers grazed over the loosely tied knot of the robe around his abdomen. Then he cheerfully said,
“Undress me.”
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“…”
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“Is it true, or not true?”
“… I took a shower.”
Snap, the knot came loose. I couldn’t spread the front of the robe and took my hands off. Han Team Leader grabbed my wrist again, pulling it to him as he chuckled.
It was the languid laughter of a predator. His face, which I hadn’t properly looked at all week, was right in front of me.
“Look down.”
He ordered me. Trying not to divert my gaze from his face, I reluctantly lowered my eyes.
To avoid seeing the massive organ between his spread legs, my eyes were fixed on the muscles in the chest and abdomen. Even though I tried to avoid the firm and graceful lines, they caught my eyes. He completely removed the robe and neatly folded it.
“I brought something.”
Opening a drawer in the bedside table, he spoke.
“I don’t care if I use it or not, but Lee Seodan might want to ask.”
What dropped in front of me in a rustling plastic wrapping was square-shaped.
“How about this?”
Han Team Leader picked one up and raised it. The sizes of the packagings were different. With it right in front of my nose, he said,
“It might be a bit thicker than regular condoms. Would you like to see?”
Without a word, I nodded, and he picked up another one.
“This one is grape flavored. Do you like grapes?”
He laughed while looking at my face. It wasn’t a friendly laugh. The corners of his eyes were cold and sharp. I avoided eye contact and kept my mouth shut. He picked up a pink packaging and continued talking teasingly.
“This one might be strawberry. How about strawberries? …Or should I not use it and just come inside as is? I think that would be better.”
He casually placed a condom on my knees. I tightly closed my legs. I wanted to hide my trembling body, but it must have been clearly visible to him as he looked down at me.
When I didn’t respond, he seemed bored, so he scattered the packaging with one hand. He picked them up one by one and spread them between his legs. Even though his penis wasn’t erect, pink, purple, and green were laid out next to his large organ.
“Choose. Grape, strawberry, …this one is apple. I’ve never seen an apple before.”
“…”
“Don’t just stare, choose.”
I reached out my hand. I didn’t have time to think. I quickly rifled through and grabbed one. When I looked closely, it was purple.
Han Team Leader put the rest back in the drawer and slid it closed. The grape-colored packaging in my palm felt substantial. The edges made of stiff foil were sharp like saw blades.
“Take it out,” Han Team Leader said. I mechanically tore open the condom’s packaging. Inside was a round, faintly purple, semi-transparent vinyl.
Without further explanation, he pointed to his own genitals with a short nod. I approached with hesitant steps, placed the dried condom on the glans, and he laughed at the sound of air escaping.
“You have to put it on.”
“…How…”
“Don’t let go.”
Han Team Leader’s hand overlapped mine, covering the back of my hand with longer fingers. As I applied pressure, the condom easily rolled down. After putting it on, his genitals appeared darker, perhaps due to the part covered by the condom having a slightly blackish discoloration. It made me feel uneasy.
“It’s stuffy,” he muttered as he looked down. I couldn’t tell if he was talking about me or the condom.
Maybe both. Suddenly, he grabbed my shoulders, flipped me over while pressing me down. When I came to my senses, I was lying upside down on top of him. As I lifted my nose, which had hit his pubic bone, his penis with the purple condom dangled in front of my eyes.
“It looks interesting.”
Han Team Leader’s voice murmured from behind. Since I had lowered my knees on both sides of his chest, my buttocks must have been right in front of his face. As I realized the posture, my face turned hot. It was strange to be on top, and the position was animalistic and chaotic. I tried to shrink back, but it was impossible. Han Team Leader embraced my waist tightly, making me sit down.
“How about a little wager?”
“…Must it be like this?”
“I’ll suck you off.”
And he grabbed the base of my genitals. Even though it was a touch without much force, I whimpered.
“Ugh.”
“Lee Seodan, see what’s in front of you. If Lee Seodan doesn’t finish before I come, I’ll let you walk tomorrow.”
“Wait-.”
I tried to twist my body to escape, but he completely overlapped his hands, enclosing my genitals seamlessly. As the lower part of the pillar was gently caressed, a shiver ran up my spine. My body trembled.
He mumbled unclearly against the shriveled testicles.
“Can’t understand words.”
“Ah! Huh.”
“Pull yourself together and suck it.”
I paid no attention to what was happening behind me. I blindly grabbed his hefty genitals. I opened my lips wide and took the round glans in one go. The thick and hot pillar inside my mouth indeed smelled like grapes. It was an artificial scent from the bubblegum casing. Every time I hastily licked the slippery rubber, I could feel the pillar swelling.
At that moment, as I briefly took my mouth off, he forcefully sucked on my genitals. The bursting sound was muffled by his genitals. A tingling sensation surged up my spine.
There was no way I could win. It was a difference in technique and experience. From the moment he gently sucked my testicles into his mouth, I couldn’t focus on anything else. Something like a dry whimper kept hotly accumulating in my throat. Breathless, saliva flowed from my wide-open lips. The moist and warm genital that bounced out of my mouth hit my cheek. My body convulsed intermittently, and my toes curled.
“Ah! Oh, ah, huh….”
“Your spirit is lacking.”
“Huh! Oh, ah, that- huh!”
“What should I do?”
Squishy sounds echoed. The genitals emerged from the sticky and damp area. I breathed heavily. The air touching the wet pillar covered in saliva was cold.
“Shall I ease the speed a bit?”
“Huh…”
“I’ll finish here.”
The buttocks spread on both sides. The tongue, which had licked up the perineum, moved upward. I stiffened in a situation I couldn’t comprehend. The hot lips were pressed and released against the puckered anus.
“…Team Leader…”
“Don’t worry about me. Let’s focus on what Lee Seodan has to do.”
“Uh, please- huh!”
As if bursting a balloon with a sharp jaw, he pressed firmly against the round buttocks. Lips that circled around like exploring eyes gradually approached the spread buttocks. Even though I tried to exert strength in my thighs, he held and spread the buttocks, rendering my efforts useless. I couldn’t move at all due to his hand tightly gripping my pelvis. Holding me in place, he used his tongue to push through the closed folds.
“Haah!”
Something hot pushed in, and he used his tongue to persistently lick the inner walls. Wet and messy sounds echoed as he pushed through. Energized, a thick and hard object entered through the moist and warm space. He fingered the entrance forcefully, pulling the wet folds up and down with saliva. The exposed inner walls were teased with the tip of his tongue.
“…Th-that, ah! Huh…”
“Is it good? Do you like it when I suck on the back?”
“No, ah… Ahh!”
He brushed my genitals with his fingertips as if caressing them. The stimulation was so intense that tears welled up. Although my body writhed desperately, he didn’t pay any attention. Instead of the finger that was stretching the hole, he withdrew it, and with his hot lips, he covered my anus and sucked forcefully.
“Ahh! Huh!”
The sensitive flesh inside the swollen folds protruded reddishly. He stood his tongue upright, licking as if testing, and smearing the hot lips over the wrinkled surface. My vision became blurry with overwhelming pleasure. Not only where he was sucking, but my entire body felt scorching hot.
It’s not certain whether he touched my genitals. A thick finger gently played around the red and swollen entrance, and suddenly, it was pushed in deeply. Unbeknownst to me, I was in the throes of ecstasy. Gripping his two thighs tightly until the knuckles turned white, my body shivered uncontrollably. I sprayed white semen onto his firm chest, forgetting all shame. As if oblivious to permission…
“Ah, ah…”
“You came first. I told you to hurry, but you didn’t listen.”
He murmured slowly, folding his fingers down. Due to the aftermath of the climax, my ears were buzzing, making it impossible to understand what he was saying. Staring blankly at the opaque semen on his chest, Han Team Leader reached out and touched my eyelids. As my chin was lifted, our eyes met.
He spoke softly, “It would be better to lie down.”
“…”
“Lie down and grab the bedpost.”
His erect member, abandoned halfway through, stood firm as if it would touch the belly. He casually grasped it over the heavily soaked condom, teasing it slowly up and down. I alternated between his face and his genitals, unable to understand right away.
He casually grabbed my shoulders, pressed down on my back with the palm of his hand, spread my flattened legs, and tapped to lift my buttocks.
“I was going to apply some gel if you sucked hard enough.”
Thud, he spat on his palm and teased his own organ. Holding the handle of the club-like object, he placed his firm hand on my back.
The round and hard glans hit the open hole.
In that moment, everything went dark. My body stiffened and my breath stopped abruptly.
Then, unexpectedly violently, I struggled. As I pushed his hand away, my body rolled off the bed. I fell completely from the bed. The pain from the rough collision with the shoulder was brief. I didn’t hear what he shouted. I ran with all fours. The bathroom door was nearby. Before he could catch up, I desperately rolled my numb body into it, urgently pushing the door closed. Click, the latch locked.
“… Ugh…”
As I sat on the cold floor, tears burst forth. Like a malfunctioning tear duct, they flowed incessantly down my cheeks. I couldn’t believe what I had done either.
Beyond the door, there was complete silence, no sign of pursuit.
“…Enough, I can’t… I don’t want to anymore…”
Speaking as if squeezing out, I sat on the bathroom floor, gazing up at the door, and begged with a choked voice. The overwhelming terror covered my vision in a vivid red, like a hallucination.
“I’m scared… scared… I can’t, I can’t do it, I can’t-.”
Boom.
It was a thunderous noise. The door shook as if it would shatter. I stopped speaking, lips parted, trembling. I helplessly stared at the quivering door.
Boom.
The door shook again. A frightened cry burst out from me.
“Team leader… just once, just once, let me…”
“Come out.”
It was an unfamiliar voice, cold and low, devoid of any warmth. The doorknob creaked, and the man beyond the door spoke like grinding his teeth.
“Come out. If I have to break this and come in, today will be the day Lee Seodan lives.”
“Team leader, I can’t… I’m scared…”
“I’ll say it once more. For ten seconds, Lee Seodan, open the door with your own hands and come out. If there’s a trace of sanity left, you’d better listen to me.”
I shook my head frantically, without focus. I collided with the wall as if fleeing recklessly. The window was too small. There was no way out except through the door where he stood. At that moment, a piercing voice came through the broken door.
“Ten.”
“Ugh, uh.”
“Nine. Eight.”
“No, please, uh, uh…”
The fist clenched above my knees trembled like a quivering branch. Tears blocked the view and streamed down the face. Seven. Six. He counted the numbers slowly and distinctly. Please, please. Despite the sobbing and the trembling feet, there was no mercy in the decreasing numbers, one by one.
“Five, Four. Three.”
“No, uh, ugh…”
I struggled to stand on wobbly legs and grabbed the door. With trembling fingers, I managed to release the latch just as he uttered “one” for the last time. I held onto the door, ready to open it.
Through the narrow gap, I could see a cold face filled with suppressed anger. I clung to the doorframe and sobbed.
“Team leader… Please, please… Ah!”
Without saying a word, he kicked open the narrow opening with his foot. He tightly gripped my shoulders as I attempted to retreat, pushing me forcefully onto the bed. I screamed. He covered my convulsing body, and the weight pressed heavily on me.
I clenched my teeth and closed my eyes.
“…”
I felt no touch spreading my legs. Even if I held my breath and waited, nothing happened. Eventually, I slowly opened my eyes, heavy with tears.
“Ugh…”
Right above me was the face of Han Team Leader. I met his cold gaze from a short distance. Startled, I shrank back and swallowed my breath.
“With this, I…”
He muttered in a sinking voice, pushing my forehead with his fingers.
“Don’t provoke me like that for your own safety.”
“Ugh…”
“Get up.”
The substantial warmth that covered me disappeared. He grabbed my arm, straightening me up. He examined my shoulder that had collided when I fell off the bed earlier.
“Here. Does it hurt?”
“Ugh…”
“Try moving.”
He took my wrist and had me lift my arm several times. There was a dull ache, but it was bearable. Lightly brushing the bruise that would surely form, he gently placed my arm back in its place.
I rose, and this time, he sat with me on his thighs.
“I think this might be better for you, Lee Seodan.”
So MC’s parents didn’t accept his sexuality and probably kicked him out. ML doesn’t seem to have a good relationship with his family either. I guess it will be them two against the world when they start a relationship.