Author: aji (あじ)
Translator: sleepingjay
My eyes opened abruptly, like I was surfacing from deep waters.
I felt like I had been dreaming about something. But my mind was foggy and I couldn’t recall what it was about.
I looked up at the ceiling in a daze. Blinking a few times, I finally got some feeling back in my limbs and noticed that my left hand was gripped tightly by someone. It was pleasantly warm.
“Jill?”
“!”
When I called out to him, Jill went still with a muffled gasp.
As if he was praying, he grabbed my hand and pressed it to his forehead. He tried to smile but failed, his face crumpled and looking like he was about to cry.
“…..Thank goodness.”
“What’s going on, why do you look like such a wreck?”
Because his expression wasn’t like himself, my spirits also dampened.
I tried to sit up to reach for Jill, but failed.
I staggered and lost my strength, almost falling backwards. Jill caught me and hugged me to his large body.
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“…….Lfs, rfglberis, ktja’r kgbcu?”
“……”
Dfmjerf bo beg rlhf vloofgfcmf, ktfc Alii teuufv wf, la ofia ilxf P kjr yflcu rdeffhfv ab vfjat.
Zs yjmx kjr megnfv abb wemt jcv la kjr qjlcoei, yea atfgf kjr cb rluc bo tlw ifaalcu ub.
Qtfc P ufcais ragbxfv Alii’r tfjv, tf yeglfv tlr ojmf lc ws rtbeivfg, wewyilcu.
“….heart stopped.”
“Huh? Jill’s heart?”
“…….Yours.”
“Mine……?”
Unconsciously, my voice came out doubtful.
No way, suddenly being told something like that right as I woke up, my head wasn’t fully turned on yet so it wouldn’t click.
Maybe because I wasn’t taking it as a serious problem, Jill gave me a stern look.
“It’s not someone else’s issue, it’s about you, okay?”
“I get that. But it doesn’t feel real.”
“…….This is the second time. Your heart stopping, not being able to do anything except praying for you…… this is the second time.”
“O, oi…… That, don’t be mad.”
“Do you have any idea how worried I was? Just the thought that you might not ever open your eyes again is more painful than being torn apart alive.”
“…….”
Jill was angry.
Worry, anxiety, sadness, hopelessness—it mixed together, becoming a jumble of emotions, like paint gone black and stagnant.
“…….Jill.”
He was terrible at expressing his emotions.
Even now, Jill was trembling but expressionless, when in truth he actually might want to cry. I hugged him.
I was the one that made you angry and sad.
But if I said this, he probably would get even angrier.
But, I was happy.
“I really am a horrible person. Seeing Jill this sad, I feel happy instead.”
“—!”
“Don’t be angry. I mean that I’ve never had anyone like you in my life, who would think of me and worry their hearts out for me.”
“…..No, that must be untrue. It’s just that you didn’t pay attention to the ones that are right beside you. There are definitely a lot of people who care about you.”
“Hmph. Lecturing me even at a time like this?”
In this kind of situation, you should shut up and kiss me.
I cupped Jill’s angry face in my hands.
Even though his appearance had become unkempt, Jill’s beauty wasn’t muddied. Instead, he was decadent and beautiful.
His narrow and sharp, but sweet eyes. A high nose with its beautiful, sloping line drawn downwards from a well-shaped forehead. The thin lips that showed his seriousness. One by one, I touched them to engrave their shape and feel to my heart.
I wanted to kiss and comfort each and every part of him.
“……Jill, forgive me?”
I chuckled and kissed him, nibbling on his upper lip.
Growling, Jill pushed me down like he was taking out his anger, and gave me a biting kiss.
After that previous chapter and what Jill told him in this chapter about his heart stopping I don’t know where this plot is going, but I’m sure about one thing. This author is one of those who likes to interlace good, sweet and hot smexy moments/chapters with those that’ll scare us readers, and make us cry, rage or hate whoever is hurting him. And why do I feel that such incidents of Lilius collapsing might happen again in the future chapters?
Thank you for the chapter!!! I’m so glad that Lilius is alright.
I agree it’s a hard pill to swallow too. How dare she ruin some y time with anxiety inducing trauma? She’s stressing me out, doesn’t she want us to sleep well at night at least. As for this happening again, I think you feel that way because we rely at the half way point of the series. I guarantee it’s going to happen again.
poor Lilius and poor Jil!
thanks for the chapter <3
thanks for the chapter ♡