The atmosphere became a bit quieter.
Wu Chun sat on the side of the tree branch and felt a scratching pain in his ankle. He turned his head to look at Xu Shi Yao, who had tilted his head to the side so that Wu Chun could only see his profile.
A slight smile appeared at the corner of Wu Chun’s mouth. Even though Xu Shi Yao didn’t say anything, Wu Chun understood.
He remembered himself.
“Xu Shi Yao,” Wu Chun said as he pulled his foot away from Xu Shi Yao’s thigh. He stared at Xu Shi Yao in front of him, who still refused to meet his gaze, and after a while, he let out a slow sigh.
Wu Chun subtly moved closer to Xu Shi Yao’s side, taking advantage of his inattention. He cupped Xu Shi Yao’s cheeks with both hands, forcing him to look directly at him.
“Why do you pretend not to know me?” Wu Chun asked straightforwardly. He used his hands to force Xu Shi Yao’s gaze onto his face.
“Speak!”
Seeing that Xu Shi Yao ignored him, Wu Chun’s tone became serious.
“What is there between us that we cannot talk about?”
As Wu Chun spoke, he couldn’t hold back any longer and leaned forward, throwing himself into Xu Shi Yao’s embrace.
“Before I left, we agreed that you would wait for me here. Do you know how worried I was when I came back and couldn’t find you?”
At that moment, all the grievances of the past few days poured out. Wu Chun buried his face in Xu Shi Yao’s embrace, his body trembling slightly.
Perhaps it was because the person in front of him was Xu Shi Yao that Wu Chun felt more anxious and helpless when he couldn’t see him than at any other time.
Wu Chun finally understood that in the world where Xu Shi Yao existed, he had always thought that he had broken through, but in reality, Xu Shi Yao had only slightly opened a crack in the door to give him such an illusion.
As it turned out, as long as Xu Shi Yao didn’t want him to, from the moment the door closed, Wu Chun would never see him again in his lifetime.
“What happened in the past few days?”
Wu Chun finally cried out with this last sentence.
Wu Chun felt a sense of fear, a fear he had never experienced even when his understanding of the world had been overturned for the past eighteen years. He held on to Xu Shi Yao, afraid that if he let go for a moment, she would disappear again.
Humans are ultimately weak.
But sometimes they can be arrogant, thinking they have control over everything in the world.
Wu Chun admitted that he had harbored such thoughts before, but in the face of absolute power, the arrogance would eventually be overthrown, leaving only the overwhelming fear.
Wu Chun cried for a long time, hot tears streaming down his cheeks. But when they touched Xu Shi Yao, the temperature suddenly dropped, turning into icy water in an instant, as if it were winter.
At that moment, it felt like a confrontation between cold and heat between them.
One was desperately trying to communicate, the other was vehemently refusing.
“Wu Chun.”
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Xu Shi Yao’s fingers lightly stroked the area under Wu Chun’s eyes.
His touch tickled Wu Chun a little.
“I haven’t slept much in the past few days, and I have heavy dark circles under my eyes,” Wu Chun said, secretly watching Xu Shi Yao’s reaction. Just as he finished speaking, he actually noticed a slight change in Xu Shi Yao’s eyes.
He still cared about him.
Wu Chun felt a surge of joy in his heart, as if he had understood something. He immediately began to plead pitifully, “Is it because you noticed that I didn’t seem well? During the days when I went back home, I wanted to think about some things. After I finally figured it out, I came back running to find you, but I couldn’t find you no matter how hard I looked. Do you know how worried I was? I even thought something might have happened to you.”
As Wu Chun spoke, tears welled up in his eyes and flowed out one by one.
Wu Chun once again buried himself in Xu Shi Yao’s embrace.
After a short while, Wu Chun heard Xu Shi Yao let out a slow sigh.
“Wu Chun, after all, I am a ghost. Humans and ghosts follow different paths, do you understand?”
There was a hint of helplessness in Xu Shi Yao’s tone, and upon closer inspection, there was also a hint of melancholy.
Wu Chun stopped when he realized that Xu Shi Yao’s words seemed to imply something.
Wu Chun immediately looked up at Xu Shi Yao, only to see him gently touch his own neck and take out the pine cone pendant.
“Maybe you don’t know, but if you hold this pine cone in your hands and talk to it, I can hear it.”
Wu Chun’s heart skipped a beat as he immediately understood Xu Shi Yao’s unusual behavior.
The night he had confessed his feelings, Wu Chun had held that pine cone in his hands like a precious treasure and poured out his feelings of love without saying a single word.
It was just a moment of confusion, but after realizing Xu Shi Yao’s unusual behavior, Wu Chun felt a sense of relief.
These words were meant to be said to Xu Shi Yao. Wu Chun didn’t think it would be bad to tell Xu Shi Yao in advance.
“What is it?”
Wu Chun wiped away his tears, his face showing a mixture of crying and smiling.
“To be afraid just because I like you?”
Wu Chun said this with a playful tone, but deep inside, his feelings were completely different. He stared straight into Xu Shi Yao’s face, waiting for an answer.
Xu Shi Yao lowered his head, and his eyes were a bit elusive.
After a while, Wu Chun heard him sigh heavily.
“Wu Chun, I am a ghost…”
“Humans and ghosts follow different paths.” Wu Chun preempted the words that Xu Shi Yao was about to say. “I know, so what?”
“We shouldn’t be like this,” Xu Shi Yao finally said these words.
Wu Chun felt a mixture of anger, amusement, and most importantly, heartbreak.
Wu Chun was well aware of what Xu Shi Yao was worried about.
After all, humans and ghosts were different.
In the beginning, Wu Chun ran back home for this very reason. However, when he broke through that barrier, he overlooked the fact that emotions were a matter of both parties.
It wasn’t enough for him to cross over on his own, and it seemed like it wouldn’t be as simple as a few words to convince Xu Shi Yao at the moment.
Wu Chun lowered his head and thought for a moment. Suddenly, he looked up at Xu Shi Yao and asked seriously, “Xu Shi Yao, do you know what it means to like someone? Or perhaps what love is?”
Wu Chun speculated that perhaps Xu Shi Yao didn’t have a clear concept of these emotions at first, but it was because of that night when Wu Chun spoke words to the pine cone in front of his chest, words that were enough to push Xu Shi Yao away.
Wu Chun was unsure if those words would truly make Xu Shi Yao understand the specific meaning of this emotion, but he was certain that it was because of those words that Xu Shi Yao had solidified his determination to avoid him.
“Do you know?” Wu Chun asked again.
This time, Wu Chun didn’t wait for Xu Shi Yao to answer. Instead, he took advantage of the fact that Xu Shi Yao was looking up, and reached out and wrapped his hand around Xu Shi Yao’s neck. Before Xu Shi Yao could react, Wu Chun kissed him. In that moment of fiery collision between heat and cold, the ice began to melt.
Unlike their previous fleeting touch, this time, even though Wu Chun had no experience in kissing, he bit and nibbled on Xu Shi Yao’s lips for a while. Seizing the opportunity, he opened Xu Shi Yao’s lips and boldly ventured inside.
Xu Shi Yao pushed Wu Chun away.
Wu Chun, on the other hand, seemed unaffected. He lightly brushed his thumb across his lips and smiled at Xu Shi Yao.
“Liking someone means wanting to kiss them. We just kissed,” Wu Chun said, leaning closer and pretending to be threatening. “If you forget this feeling, I’ll make you experience it every day.”
After speaking, Wu Chun felt like he was missing something and added, “I’ll say it again, if you can’t erase all the memories I have of you from my brain, I’ll continue to entangle myself with you.”
Xu Shi Yao had been in a daze since Wu Chun kissed him, and now, looking at Wu Chun’s fierce expression, he didn’t know what to say.
For the first time, Xu Shi Yao felt like his brain was unable to process thoughts.
“Xu Shi Yao, did you hear me?” Wu Chun looked at Xu Shi Yao, who was in a daze, with a bloated expression. He waved his hand in front of Xu Shi Yao’s eyes. “Loving someone is more than just kissing. I want to hug you and do everything we can together.”
Wu Chun leaned closer to Xu Shi Yao and stared at him with a serious and earnest look.
“Xu Shi Yao, let’s go on a date.”
As soon as the words were spoken, Xu Shi Yao’s body noticeably leaned back.
“No, we can’t,” Xu Shi Yao averted her gaze, refusing to look at Wu Chun. “You should go back.”
“Xu Shi Yao, you…”
“Otherwise, I won’t let you see me again.” Xu Shi Yao interrupted before Wu Chun could continue.
Wu Chun locked eyes with Xu Shi Yao, his gaze serious and determined, leaving no room for doubt.
Wu Chun’s heart was heavy. He knew all too well that as long as Xu Shi Yao wished, they would never see each other again.
But how could Wu Chun bear it? He had gathered his courage and finally confirmed his feelings of love.
“Xu Shi Yao,” Wu Chun called out softly as he gently held Xu Shi Yao’s right hand. At that moment, he felt Xu Shi Yao’s hand tremble slightly.
Surprised, Wu Chun looked at Xu Shi Yao, but Xu Shi Yao still kept her profile turned away. From Wu Chun’s perspective, all he could see was Xu Shi Yao’s sharp profile, seemingly fearless. However, it was only when they made physical contact that Wu Chun could faintly sense that he was afraid.
“A week ago, I realized that whenever I met you, I would always get this strange feeling. I’ve never been in a relationship before, and it’s with you. In a state of panic, I ran back home,” Wu Chun calmly told Xu Shi Yao about his experiences and state of mind over the past few days, all the while holding Xu Shi Yao’s hand without letting go.
“At home, I thought for a long time. I was bound by social norms and fears. I like you, but I am also afraid,” Wu Chun confessed.
As Wu Chun uttered the words “I like you,” he felt the hand he was holding tremble slightly.
Wu Chun smiled softly and continued, “Perhaps it was meant to be from the moment I saw you. My inner worries are insignificant in the face of passionate love. That’s why I came, but you chose to hide.”
As Wu Chun spoke these words, his eyes remained fixed on Xu Shi Yao. He noticed a brief flicker of panic in Xu Shi Yao’s eyes, but it quickly returned to its usual state.
Wu Chun’s grip on Xu Shi Yao’s hand suddenly tightened, and the area where their palms and backs met became drenched in sweat.
Maybe Wu Chun didn’t realize it, but he himself was trembling slightly.
Wu Chun was also afraid, afraid that Xu Shi Yao would decide to hide, afraid that Xu Shi Yao would truly make up his mind and completely erase everything between them from the surface.
At that time, Xu Shi Yao might have truly forgotten himself.
However, at this moment, the only consolation for Wu Chun was that Xu Shi Yao still remembered him.
Every day, Xu Shi Yao would passively forget.
Every day, he would also actively “remember” him.
For Xu Shi Yao, remembering was often much more difficult. Every time his memories were erased, he would have to replay the scenes of them doing those things over and over again from that unemotional string of characters in his mind. Besides, they hadn’t seen each other for a week, so Xu Shi Yao didn’t know how many times he had to repeat such actions during that time, just to be able to quickly call out “Wu Chun” at that fleeting moment.
“Xu Shi Yao,” Wu Chun gathered his courage and said the words he wanted to say, “You’ve always stressed that you’re a ghost, and I’m not afraid of that. What is there to be afraid of? I’ve put aside all my worries and prepared myself to embrace this relationship. What are you afraid of?”
“You!” Xu Shi Yao turned his head towards Wu Chun, his lips twitching slightly. After a moment, he let out a long breath. “Wu Chun, just because I’m a ghost, I shouldn’t be the one doing these things to you. Do you understand?”
A soybean:
Be brave, Yao Yao!!!
Pls don’t use logic with this illogical boy. He’s all about love rn. You won’t win