Lu Mo scratched his head.
He never expected Ling to bring up these past events at a time like this.
Of course, he could sense that Ling’s past must have been quite complicated. There was a sense of accretion in him, an attitude of indifference and laziness towards everything.
But he never expected… the weight of the past to be this heavy.
For a moment, he felt as if his heart was like a sponge soaked with water, wet and heavy, sinking straight down with a chill.
Ling talked a lot about Mr. Lai Yin’s past, and Lu Mo vividly pieced together a vivid image in his mind.
Blond hair, blue eyes, his appearance could at most be described as delicate, but his habit of being unkempt ruined the few remaining advantages he had.
As a female zerg, he displayed astonishing stupidity when it came to taking care of children. He could prepare a bunch of toxic dishes and then lament, “I always thought the portrayal of kitchen killers in TV dramas was exaggerated and funny. Until I ate the food I cooked myself.”
Ling’s culinary skills were probably honed through such experiences.
When it came to his past, Ling’s expression softened considerably. Before encountering Mr. Lai Yin, his life was filled with only fear and despair, shaping his sharp, suspicious, cold, and selfish personality.
“You can’t imagine what kind of kid I was back then,” Ling chuckled. “On my first day, I stole Mr. Lai Yin’s knife and used my hands to tear apart the meat, making a meal that even I could barely eat.”
If one hadn’t been loved in their childhood, they would lose the ability to feel love as they grew older.
The scenes of healing in novels may seem beautiful, but in reality, it’s not always the case. They won’t be grateful or understand how much love others have for them, patiently accepting all their flaws.
If Mr. Lai Yin weren’t an exceptionally thick-skinned female zerg, Ling would have driven him crazy and he would have left long ago.
Ling constantly stole things from Mr. Lai Yin, like a dark mouse hoarding them in his room. When Mr. Lai Yin didn’t pay attention to him, he would tell him ghost stories every day, scaring Mr. Lai Yin so much that he had to hold him and Wenge together to sleep at night.
Day after day, year after year, Mr. Lai Yin never noticed Ling’s schemes.
It was one evening, in the tenth year since Mr. Lai Yin adopted him.
He sat on Mr. Lai Yin’s shoulder, and Mr. Lai Yin told him to look up. Ling noticed for the first time that the evening sky was burning with vibrant colors, it was incredibly beautiful.
There was a subtle fragrance of flowers in the wind, accompanied by the chirping of returning birds, making the world peaceful and harmonious in that moment.
…
He would have become a paranoid female zerg but because of Mr. Lai Yin’s existence, like the only plank in the vast sea, was supporting him so that he wouldn’t drown.
And after Mr. Lai Yin’s death, Ling could no longer control himself. Lu Mo appeared too late, too late to the point where Ling no longer had the strength to struggle.
But it wasn’t too late either. If Mr. Lai Yin was the plank, then Lu Mo was the enormous monster lurking beneath the sea, and they would entangle with each other, sinking into the unfathomable depths of the ocean.
“Lu Mo, Mr. Lai Yin died.”
He stared deeply into Lu Mo’s face. “I’ve also gone insane.”
We’re sorry for MTLers or people who like using reading mode, but our translations keep getting stolen by aggregators so we’re going to bring back the copy protection. If you need to MTL please retype the gibberish parts.
He couldn’t believe he was telling Lu Mo about all these things, things he had planned to conceal for a lifetime.
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But now, he actually said it, including the Klein zerg. There is no male zerg willing to refuse the temptation of advancement.
Ling almost gambled everything, desperately waiting for Lu Mo’s final judgment.
If Lu Mo showed even a moment of greed, he would kill Lu Mo and then kill himself.
And at this moment, Lu Mo was on the verge of being dumbfounded.
The most heartbreaking tragedy is not how sorrowful he wrote, nor how touching the author’s writing is, but often the sentence “This story is based on real-life events.”
Ling talked about so many past events, but when it came to Mr. Lai Yin’s death, he simply mentioned it in a flat tone without saying anything else. The child was really about to go crazy.
If it were the Lu Mo from the past life, he would have rushed up and hugged Ling, crying louder than anyone else.
But at this moment, as he opened his mouth, he found that he couldn’t say a word.
It’s strange, isn’t it? In everyone’s eyes, he is a despicable zerg, right? The cold and cruel him suddenly showing a tender side at a time like this, it’s really strange.
That’s why Lu Mo felt embarrassed almost to the point of collapsing when he realized that his act of buying Wenge was actually quite warm-hearted.
How would Ling see him? He would probably find it funny, right?!
Lu Mo stared with trembling pupils.
Unconsciously, he had shouldered a huge and heavy burden of his image, and just the thought of himself smiling and comforting Ling made him feel suffocated.
But he couldn’t ignore it either. His internal sadness had already turned into a raging river.
Under Ling’s deep gaze, Lu Mo’s almost malfunctioning brain slowly turned, and he finally coughed. He turned his head, awkwardly grabbed Ling’s sleeve.
“If… if you really want to cry, I can reluctantly forgive your loss of composure today. Of course, this is not because I sympathize with you. I won’t have an ounce of pity for you. It’s just the etiquette of being a noble.”
“Cough… I also wish your mentor finds peace in the embrace of the Mother Goddess.”
Ling stared blankly at the side of Lu Mo’s face.
This time, it was different from what he had imagined. Lu Mo seemed as if he hadn’t heard the words he said at all, completely ignoring the “Klein zerg.”
If Lu Mo had even a bit of intention, he would deeply embrace him after hearing it, and he would say, “From now on, I will love you together with Mr. Lai Yin’s love.”
He would embrace him, like those cheesy novels, healing himself and making himself wholeheartedly devoted to Lu Mo.
Or, like Song Jian Shu, he would look down on him with sympathy and compassion to satisfy his sense of superiority in “high status.”
Instead of what was happening now, where he clearly showed his sadness on his face but used pride and reserve to hide it, desperately not letting himself show any hint of emotion.
…
Ling’s back leaned against the corridor wall, and he reached back to hold Lu Mo’s hand, pulling the unguarded Lu Mo closer.
“I warn you not to take advantage of the situation!”
Ling buried his head in Lu Mo’s shoulder, and a few warm droplets of water wet Lu Mo’s clothes.
Lu Mo felt it, he stiffly allowed Ling to lean on him, unsure of what to do.
Ling was crying?
Huh?
Huh?!
Wait, is it because he was too cold just now? But he felt like he was already teetering on the edge of ruining his image!
But the moment he realized that Ling was crying, Lu Mo felt like his damp, heavy, and cold sponge-like heart was fiercely twisted and stinging with pain.
Not pushing Ling away was already his limit, even if the system issued sharp warnings in his mind, he couldn’t bring himself to push Ling away.
“Lu Mo.”
Ling sighed, “What exactly do you…”
What exactly do you want me to indulge in you? How far do you have to go before you’ll stop?
Every time he felt like he had no room left, Lu Mo would make him fall in love with him again.
Why on earth are there such male zergs in the world? Ling couldn’t even imagine why he was so special, as if he came from another world.
If there was such a world, it must be a world full of warmth and love. Leaning on Lu Mo’s shoulder, his tense nerves finally relaxed.
When Mr. Lai Yin died, he thought he would be in pain, but he wasn’t. He didn’t shed a single tear, nor did he feel any sadness. Aside from frequently spacing out, he was no different from usual.
Wenge cried bitterly in Song Jian Shu’s room all night, and when he came to the military headquarters the next day with swollen eyes, he looked at Ling in disbelief and blurted out, “Ling, aren’t you the least bit sad?”
Ling rubbed his temples numbly, “Wenge, I was busy all night, I’m tired now.”
Wenge left in silence, Ling leaned back in a large chair, the brim of his hat covering his dry eye sockets.
It wasn’t until now that Ling finally, belatedly, felt the pain.
He took a deep breath, and the stabbing pain radiated through his chest, quickly spreading throughout his body, making him tremble as if he had just been pulled out of the water. Those delayed tears seemed to have been accumulating for too long, once they burst, there was no sign of stopping. Unlike usual tears, they overflowed without being filled. Ling just leaned against Lu Mo’s shoulder expressionlessly, tears rolling down directly.
“Lu Mo.”
“Yeah?”
“I really… miss him.”
“…Alright, considering that he was a female zerg, I’ll reluctantly forgive your outburst. It’s not because I sympathize with you, I won’t show you an ounce of pity, it’s just noble etiquette.”
“Lu Mo.”
“Ah, my dear female monarch, why are you acting like a cub? If you continue like this, I’ll really get angry.”
“Lu Mo.”
Lu Mo took a frustrated breath and helplessly said, “I’m listening, just stop calling my name.”
If Ling showed this side again, he really couldn’t hold back his image anymore! He really wanted to wrap Ling in thirty layers of thick blankets, stuff him into a room, and lock it with eighteen doors. That would be the strongest sealing barrier in the world, and it would definitely be the safest inside.
Bathed in moonlight, Ling slowly took off his gloves, and his fingers intertwined with Lu Mo’s fingers, holding his palm.
“Lu Mo.”
Lu Mo said, “…Alright, alright! Whatever you want to do tonight, go ahead and do it. You can even buy the imperial star with my money—it’s just, please stop calling my name, it’s so annoying.”
Ling curled his finger and lightly rubbed the back of his hand, softly saying, “Lu Mo, I surrender to you.”
“You’ve completely occupied all of my territory, you win.”
His voice was softer than ever before, like a white marshmallow. “From now on, you are my only Master, and I will forever serve you.”
A breeze blew through Ling’s soft and smooth hair, tickling Lu Mo’s cheeks.
He could hear his own heartbeat clearly, and in this slight tingling sensation, it beat a little faster.
Not good.
Lu Mo reached out and grabbed his own sleeve, feeling as if his mind had been bewitched.
The so-called scum value, zerg race, and system were all thrown to the back of his mind at this moment. All that remained in his heart were Ling’s beautiful eyes, shining like pigeon blood rubies.
He lifted Ling’s cheek with his hand and kissed him without hesitation.
Ling’s breath was more disordered than before. His hands weakly rested on Lu Mo’s shoulders, and his long eyelashes brushed against Lu Mo’s skin as he closed his eyes.
Until they separated, Lu Mo looked at Ling with slightly flushed cheeks and a hazy gaze. He wore a proud smile, announcing like an emperor, “Of course, my female monarch, are you still considering those things at this point?”
“I dominate everything about you, it’s only natural.”
Author’s Note: Plot? What plot?? The silly author just wants to sprinkle sugar and do nothing else.
Let them enjoy their lovey-dovey moments.
I love them so much 😭❤️
We like sugar! Thanks for the update 🤣❤️🤣❤️🤣
WaHHA so cute!!!!!!!!!!!! At some point, I need Lu Mo’s mask to shatter and Ling to see how sweet he truly is on the inside. Of course, Ling already thinks he’s the sweetest, but I mean the true Lu Mo.
Sometimes death of our loved ones leaving us with so much shock and emptiness that we are unable to cry, so we need more time to digest our lost… It’s normal QwQ Give me more sugar, author-sama, I need it now!
Thank You for the new chapter (´,,•ω•,,)♡
Thank you!!!!!!!!!!!!
Not to ruin the mood but we seemed to have left Wenge for a while in there 😭
I know right😂😓😭
That was an awkward and sweet moment.
Dear my co lovely rotten women,
I have finished reading the mtl (so much headache but still bearable) of this ’cause I can’t wait but rlly want to read it asap but damn how brokenhearted I am today because I can’t find the 21 extras?!? Can u please tell me where I can find them? I need those badly or else I’ll die of heartache. The patient is in critical condition, pls lend a hand ASAP.
Sincerely yours, Terminally ill Zerg worm
[thanks for the ud btw :))]
I read it on wattpad
Wattpad
The author is JPenumbra
Thanks for the chapter! Can’t wait to read the rest! 😭😭😭♥️
laughs crazily I WANT MOAR SUGAR! WHAT PLOT? WHO?
I was happily having lunch while reading, my chicken was salty, why does it suddenly taste so sweet? Single dogs can’t even eat in peace, tsk tsk tsk
so cute, im jelly😊
So fluffy 😭
There was plot? Sorry, I didn’t notice under the pile of sweet sweet dog food. 😏🤣🤣
Regarding my earlier comment in the last few chapters, I’m changing my theory. It’s likely the scum system deliberately chose Lu Mo with a soft heart for the scum system to create a contrast that would touch Ling’s tired heart. He’s so used to all overly affectionate and fake emotions that Lu Mo’s tsundere is very endearing, subtle yet lovingly cute. His heart has found its anchor❤️❤️❤️
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