Editor: MinMin
Midsummer. It is the start of the kids’ summer vacation.
The camphor trees in the courtyard were impressive as their shade entered through the glass window, blocking most of the summer’s heatwave.
Bai Xi sat at his desk doing his homework, but half an hour had passed, and he had only done five multiple-choice questions.
He rested his chin on one hand while daydreaming, his whole head filled with nothing but Qi Xun. He stopped by Qi Xun’s house this morning, but his effort was for nothing as Xu Jingwan bought out mango tapioca pudding, informing him that Qi Xun had been living in his apartment close to the university during the summer vacation and had not been coming home much.
Xu Jingwan leaned against the imperial-style couch table and said helplessly, “Your Qi Xun-gege is harder and harder to order the older he gets. It is perfectly fine to stay at home, but he insists on renting an apartment and moving out. He must be sick of us.”
Qi Xun rented an apartment close to his university long ago, but he hardly stays in it. It was not until last month that he fully moved in.
Bai Xi drank the chilled tapioca pudding. It was refreshing to enjoy such chilled desserts in the hot summer, but he felt a different kind of cold.
He knew that Qi Xun did not move out because he felt restricted at home, but to avoid Bai Xi.
Since he kissed Qi Xun in the car that day, Qi Xun had distanced himself.
As Bai Xi thought of this, his pencil fell on the paper. It landed on its pointy side with a dong and poked a small hole in his paper. He did not want to do his homework anyway, as he rested his upper body on the desk, dejectedly gazing out of the window.
When he kissed Qi Xun in the car, he knew the consequences, like burning his bridges. He expected that there was no chance that Qi Xun would not return his feelings.
But the illusion only lasted for a minute.
Because Qi Xun rejected him, he was severely scolded and asked if he knew what he was doing.
“Do you know what you are doing?” This was the most unsightly thing he had seen Qi Xun’s face become, even more so at the school gate. The force of the hand on Bai Xi’s shoulder was so great that he almost cried. “I am your ge, and you say you like me?”
Bai Xi’s heart suddenly dropped, but he also found it galling. “I know. But you like boys, and I also like boys. Why can I not confess to you?”
Qi Xun came out of the closet to him last year. Being by the other man’s side for so long, it was not a surprise for him to pick up small signs. When he went to confirm it, Qi Xun did not hide it from him, as he confidently acknowledged.
But as he looked at Qi Xun’s reaction, the other man probably regretted telling him.
Bai Xi’s eyes started to turn red as he looked at Qi Xun in tears.
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Bai Xi continued his stare. His eyelashes trembled as a tear fell from the corner of his eyes and landed on the back of his hand. He could not hold back his question as he whispered, “Ge, you do not like me? Do you dislike me?”
Qi Xun’s hands tightened on the steering wheel.
He did not seem to know how to face the questions, but a few seconds later, he turned his head and finally met Bai Xi’s eyes with a serious expression.
“Of course, I do not dislike you, but I see you only as my didi. I do not object to you liking boys, but you are not even that old. You have not met many people in your life. You cannot be certain if what you felt towards me was romantic. I have been around you all the time. You might be confused about what you felt. Is it towards a good friend or lover? I will treat it as if nothing had happened. Give yourself time to understand your feelings and tell me once you have thought it through.”
With that, Qi Xun started the car and drove out of the alley, staying silent the rest of the way.
Bai Xi remembered that he could not stop his tears in the car. He might have said something during the ride, but Qi Xun was determined to ignore him.
In the end, Qi Xun did not take him back to their house but sent him home to the Bai Family’s house.
When the car parked outside of the garden, Qi Xun took out a wet napkin and wiped the stain from his ugly cry. Even at that moment, Qi Xun still acts like a gentle and thoughtful close friend.
But the words that came out of his mouth were as cold and deadly as a blade’s edge.
“Behave yourself and go home. I am not going to play your game this time. Come to me when you have thought it over.”
Bai Xi was angry and sad. He glared at Qi Xun, and he had never felt this annoyed before.
“Then I will not come looking for you.” He shouted at Qi Xun.
Then he slapped Qi Xun’s hand away, ended their conversation, and pushed the door open.
No matter how good-natured he was, this was still his first love confession as a seventeen-year-old boy, and it had reached rock bottom. His self-esteem and heart were both shattered into millions of pieces with no way to piece them back together.
He went into his room the moment he got into the house, and refused to come out, even for food, as he had no appetite for dinner.
Before falling asleep on that day, he thought bitterly about how he would never go find Qi Xun. He would wait for the other man to bow down his head first.
He knew that Qi Xun was always soft-hearted towards him. He could persuade the other to agree to anything by acting coquettishly.
So, even if his confession failed, he was still confident that Qi Xun would be the first one to yield. But to his dismay, Qi Xun kept his word this time.
After that day, Qi Xun distanced himself.
When he finally yielded and went looking for Qi Xun, he learned that the other man had moved to the apartment close to the university and had not gone back for more than half a month.
Bai Xi sighed with annoyance. Now that half a month of summer vacation was over, he still had not seen a sight of Qi Xun.
If he knew this would happen, he would never have talked so cruelly back to Qi Xun.
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After three had passed, Bai Xi could not bear it any longer and called his friend, Liang Song. He dejectedly told his friend the entire story.
Although he and Liang Song were not living in the same city, they continued to keep in contact and maintained their strong friendship through video chat every other day.
Liang Song had long figured out that Bai Xi had feelings for Qi Xun, so it was nothing shocking.
Qi Xun was just any other man. If this does not work out, move on to the next.
But as he saw Bai Xi’s mood become so low, looking like he was seconds from bursting into tears, the words that were just about to leave his mouth did a U-turn.
He racked his brains and said, “Hey, there is no need for you to be upset. Qi Xun just could not accept it during the heat of the moment. Look, he treats you as his didi. Who can accept that their didi has developed feelings for him? How about you? Who cares if he rejected you? Who do you know was successful in their first confession? It took me three months of wooing to win over my current girlfriend. You need to step up. Make him realize that you are not his didi. Maybe things will turn out fine.”
“Really?”
Bai Xi sounded like Liang Song was his last hope. As someone with no experience in love or pursuing people, Bai Xi believed everything from Liang Song, even if his friend was known for offering bad advice.
He stared pitifully at Liang Song. “Do you think he might like me?”
Liang Song replied internally, How the fuck should I know?
But outside, Liang Song replied, “I think so. If he does not like someone like you, who is he going to like, an immortal?”
Bai Xi rolled to the side and sat up from the bed, then fixed his gaze on Liang Song. “Then tell me, how should I chase him?”
Now Liang Song was in high spirits as someone with rich experience in chasing people.
“Let me tell you, you need to be like this, and like that…” He explained to his friend in a detailed manner. He even forgot to consider whether his method of pursuing senior high girls was suitable for a mature man like Qi Xun.
Yet Bai Xi listened attentively and wished he could take notes.
When the call was over, Bai Xi opened the calendar and counted. Qi Xun’s birthday was more than half a month away. This would be his perfect excuse to see Qi Xun.
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In a flash, it was Qi Xun’s birthday.
Bai Xi had already inquired with Xu Jingwan. Qi Xun would not be coming home and would be partying with Zhong Yuqin and others.
This damped his mood. If it was in the past, Qi Xun would have taken him along, but now the other man did not even tell him of this.
But he soon cheered himself on again.
Liang Song said that not everyone can win over their target the first time. Pursuing a relationship with someone requires patience.
He carried his birthday present for Qi Xun and took a taxi to Qi Xun’s apartment address, given to him by Xu Jingwan. –Building 11th, No. 301.
He wanted to give Qi Xun a surprise, or a sneak attack, to be more precise, so he did not even give Qi Xun a call.
It was evening when he arrived at the apartment. He estimated that Qi Xun should be home by this time, but after ringing the doorbell over and over again, there was no sound coming from inside the apartment.
He was baffled and stood at the door with the gift box in his arms for a long time.
After a long while, he felt that one needed to be flexible and adaptable, so he quietly pulled out his phone and dialed Qi Xun’s numbers.
Because of his cold war with Qi Xun, he really held back on talking to Qi Xun for a month, but now as he heard the dial tones from his phone, his heart pounded wildly.
It seems he still likes Qi Xun.
Enough to make his heart ache.
When he held his breath, he could still rely on his persistence to stop himself, but once he decided to be the one to yield, the discontent and negative temper fizzled out like a coke bubble.
He could not help thinking, Did Qi Xun miss him at all? Was he happy or unhappy about seeing his call? Would his heart soften?
But Bai Xi did not get answers to all the above questions, because Qi Xun did not pick up his call.
He heard the busy tone on his phone, followed by a mechanical female voice. [The person you are trying to call is unavailable. Please try again later.]
He did not give up and tried over and over again. All with the same result. No one answered.
As he held the birthday gift box in his arms, he looked blankly at Qi Xun’s apartment door and did not know what to do.
NOOOOO QI XUN WILL STILL COME I KNOW IT 🥲🥲 thank you for the chapter..
didi my ass LOL
Thanks for the chapter!!
Oh, baby, break the heart of this piece of ice!
Thank you very much for the translation 🤍🤍🤍🤍
Why does it says end im sure there was a last chapter after this when i read the mtl
It probably has 63.2 end or smtng
Poor BX :< It’s not like one have to acccept other’s feelings, but rejection could be done with less damage…
Thank You for the new chapter (•‾⌣‾•)و ̑̑♡
»After three had passed, Bai Xi could not bear it..« three weeks
Is QX maybe too drunk to receive his call? :’D
Thx for the ch (ㅅ˘ㅂ˘)
AHHHH baby!! He’s so cute
Damn it, BX better just ignore him after this! I really want that oblivious guy to be the one regretting things now👿
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