extra ko-fi chapter for M.🌻 (1/4) 
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Strangely enough, after uttering the word “Colonel”, Xu Ze recognized that the person standing there was Lu Heyang, despite receiving no response.
Xu Ze waited a few more seconds but still got no answer. He put on his glasses and worriedly took a few steps forward to get a better look. Lu Heyang was leaning against the wall, looking directly at him with his head slightly tilted.
There was a faint smell of alcohol blending with Lu Heyang’s pheromones. Xu Ze reached out his hand halfway but then pulled it back. He wasn’t sure if Lu Heyang was drunk and to what extent, so he didn’t dare to touch him rashly.
“Colonel,” Xu Ze called out again and asked, “Have you been…”
All of a sudden, Lu Heyang raised his hand. His fingertips brushed across Xu Ze’s face, going all the way behind his ear. His hand was large and the palm was warm. It completely covered half of his cheek and his thumb brushed under Xu Ze’s eye.
The unfinished question was interrupted. Xu Ze couldn’t make a sound. At the same time, he had to make an effort to keep from gasping for breath. In that instant, a rather absurd thought crossed his mind—he wondered if Lu Heyang had remembered.
If he didn’t remember, Xu Ze wished at this second that they would be back in the dimly lit hallway of the old apartment building seven years ago.
Xu Ze never indulged in fantasies of returning to the past. Everything was currently good. Poverty, restraints, and threats were all gone. It had been a hard journey to get to this point and he shouldn’t dwell on the past.
But why did this thought come up now—maybe when Lu Heyang touched him like this, Xu Ze finally realized how much he wanted to be remembered.
After ten seconds, maybe fifteen, Lu Heyang lowered his hand.
“Dr. Xu,” he addressed Xu Ze, but there were no further words after that.
Even though Xu Ze had put on his glasses, he felt like he was back in a state where he couldn’t see clearly. He moved his stiff knuckles. He even forgot to answer and continued the unfinished question, “Have you been drinking?”
“There were many superiors from the military region at the dinner,” Lu Heyang said, “So I drank.”
This made his earlier actions understandable. Xu Ze nodded slowly and asked, “Why are you standing here?”
“Waiting for you.”
“Did you wait long?” Xu Ze was always concerned about this.
“For ages.” Lu Heyang showed no intention of being polite, “I didn’t expect you to come back so late.”
“I dropped my friend home after dinner and went to another friend’s house to return the car, so I got delayed,” Xu Ze explained, then asked, “Colonel, did you have something to do with me?”
Maybe because he knew that Lu Heyang had been drinking, or perhaps it was the dim lighting, regardless, this was Xu Ze’s comfort zone, and he looked directly at Lu Heyang’s face in a rare moment.
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“I’m thirsty,” Lu Heyang stated.
After a moment’s hesitation, Xu Ze asked with some uncertainty, “Would you like to come to my apartment for a glass of water?”
“Mn.” Lu Heyang still had no intention of being polite and straightened up.
Xu Ze took a step back to make sure that Lu Heyang could stand on his own before walking into the hall with him.
Perhaps it was a misconception, but Xu Ze felt that the physical distance between him and Lu Heyang was smaller than usual. As they walked side by side, the backs of their hands occasionally brushed against each other. In order to prevent Lu Heyang from feeling uncomfortable, Xu Ze deliberately pulled back the distance by half a step.
In the elevator, Xu Ze said after considering his words, “You could have called me in advance. I would have come back earlier so you wouldn’t have had to wait so long.”
Lu Heyang replied, “I didn’t want to disturb your date.”
“It wasn’t a date.” Lu Heyang might have noticed that he and Ruan Miao weren’t familiar with each other and were just on a blind date. Xu Ze said honestly, “It was more like… a blind date.”
Xu Ze was unable to find a more appropriate description, in essence, it was a fruitless blind date. Since Lu Heyang probably wouldn’t be interested in such trivial matters, Xu Ze didn’t elaborate further and summarized it vaguely as a “blind date”.
From the blurry reflection in the elevator doors, Xu Ze saw Lu Heyang smile without commenting anything. Xu Ze felt an indescribable strangeness. Lu Heyang appeared as calm as usual, yet there was something subtly different that couldn’t be described exactly. Xu Ze still classified this as his misconception.
The lock on the door had long since been repaired. Xu Ze unlocked it with his fingerprint, entered the apartment, and turned on the light. Then he turned around to open the door and invite Lu Heyang in.
The process wasn’t complete when the recently lit lamp suddenly went out as if the power had been cut off. Only the light from the corridor seeped in for a moment before fading away—Lu Heyang pulled down Xu Ze’s hand that was holding the door frame and closed the door, cutting off all the light.
It wasn’t a power outage, Xu Ze heard the switch being turned off with a click. It was Lu Heyang who had turned off the lights.
Before Xu Ze could ask why he turned the lights off, Lu Heyang grabbed his wrist and pulled him close. He took off his glasses and clamped the handle of the glasses between his fingers. Then he used the other hand to clasp Xu Ze’s waist and push him against the door.
Without giving Xu Ze any time to react, Lu Heyang lowered his head and kissed him, pressing his lips against Xu Ze’s and using the tip of his tongue to part his teeth.
Xu Ze’s body felt instantly emptied, leaving only an intense heartbeat. The overwhelming feeling of being dominated and suppressed made Xu Ze instinctively part his lips to accept it completely. Amidst the buzzing in his ears, he heard the sticky sounds and rapid breaths when he finally realized he could still breathe through his nose after a prolonged lack of oxygen. He had shared many kisses with Lu Heyang before, mostly gentle and not too intense. Perhaps it had been too long since the last time that this moment was incredibly unfamiliar.
In the dark, Xu Ze opened his eyes vacantly, wondering if it was raining outside. How could he hear the rain? It was just like years ago when he delivered the birthday present in the pouring rain. As he left, he was dragged away and pressed against the wet tree trunk. Two people were enclosed under the umbrella. It was the first time he had kissed Lu Heyang.
Maybe he was dreaming, or perhaps he was the one who had been drinking. Xu Ze closed his eyes, surrendering to the fading consciousness, and tilted his head slightly in an attempt to reciprocate.
As Xu Ze clumsily catered to the kiss, Lu Heyang’s grip tightened. He wrapped his tongue around Xu Ze’s and deepened the kiss. Xu Ze gradually felt a pang of pain and let out an ambiguous groan. He wasn’t sure if it was his lips or tongue that had been bitten, but a faint taste of blood filled his mouth. He wanted to hug Lu Heyang either around the waist or neck, but one of his hands was restrained and the other was forcefully pressed against the door. Xu Ze was worried that once Lu Heyang let go, his whole body would slide down.
After a long time, Lu Heyang raised his head and parted their lips. They gasped for air face to face as their pheromones broke free from the confines of the wristbands, colliding and intertwining at the same time. After only a brief pause, Lu Heyang kissed Xu Ze again, this time with gentler movements. He sucked the corner of Xu Ze’s injured lips and touched the tip of his tongue.
Even after the kiss ended, Xu Ze’s breath was still trembling. He tried to make out Lu Heyang’s expression and eyes, but it was too dark.
“Are you drunk?” Xu Ze’s voice was slightly hoarse and it sounded more like a statement than a question—you must be drunk. That was the only reason he could come up with, there was no other option.
“After returning to the capital, I’ve met many people from the past,” Lu Heyang ignored his question, his voice still calm as he continued, “Every single one of them asked me if I remembered them.”
“You are the only one who didn’t ask.” Lu Heyang’s hand gradually moved upward from Xu Ze’s wrist into the sleeve of his shirt, which had been folded twice to his elbow. He asked Xu Ze, “Why?”
“Back in the third year of high school… the last time I saw you outside the hospital, I knew you didn’t remember.” Just the touch on Xu Ze’s arm made his back shiver, even his voice trembled slightly, “Asking again won’t change anything.”
“You said we were just ordinary friends with an unimportant relationship.”
Ordinary friends wouldn’t readily accept a sudden kiss. Xu Ze knew that Lu Heyang had already confirmed this recently—he could only pray that Lu Heyang would forget everything once he sobered up.
“You’re drunk,” Xu Ze said, this time seeking confirmation.
“Yes,” Lu Heyang admitted it openly and directly.
After admitting it, Lu Heyang behaved like a proper drunkard and kissed the corner of Xu Ze’s mouth again. Xu Ze tilted his head and grazed Lu Heyang’s lips. He believed that Lu Heyang was truly drunk and wouldn’t notice this subtle gesture.
“It’s okay,” Xu Ze said suddenly.
With their noses almost touching, Lu Heyang asked, “What do you mean?”
In reality, Xu Ze couldn’t see anything clearly, but he still avoided eye contact and replied, “It doesn’t matter if you don’t remember.”
Xu Ze would occasionally have dreams about this in the past seven years. In those dreams, Lu Heyang would appear in his school uniform and smile at him. Even though he lost him in the end, this brief light in his otherwise bleak life was a fortune in itself. Sometimes it was hard to tell the difference between right and wrong, maybe there wasn’t any difference at all, it was just fate playing tricks on people.
So it was okay to be forgotten. He had already met the best person.
“It truly doesn’t matter.” After a few seconds of silence, Lu Heyang let go of Xu Ze’s hand and waist. He put the glasses back in his hand, “It’s okay if you don’t want to or can’t say it. I won’t force you to tell me.”
“Dr. Xu, you seem to have no requests for me, so I’ll be the same with you.”
Before Xu Ze could fully comprehend these sentences, Lu Heyang continued, “I have a mission early tomorrow morning and won’t be back for a while.”
Xu Ze’s rapidly beating heart was about to burst out of his chest. He felt uneasy. This uneasiness had been present for a long time, ever since Lu Heyang began to go on Air Force missions. Xu Ze was most afraid of watching the news because he was afraid of seeing bad news.
“Stay safe,” Xu Ze could only use these two words, as words that were excessively concerned weren’t appropriate and couldn’t be said.
The atmosphere didn’t become tense because of his words. Instead, Lu Heyang asked Xu Ze, “Will you be married by the time I return?”
Xu Ze didn’t understand but he was sure that Lu Heyang was drunk. Otherwise, he wouldn’t ask such a question. Xu Ze shook his head, “I won’t.”
“But you will still go on blind dates?”
Ruan Miao had made her stance clear and Huang Liling probably wouldn’t insist anymore. Xu Ze said, “Not anymore.”
“Okay, then I’ll get going.” Lu Heyang grabbed Xu Ze’s arm to move him a step forward and then opened the door. As Lu Heyang walked out the door, he glanced back, half of his face illuminated by the lights from the corridor. He said to Xu Ze behind the door, “Good night, Dr. Xu.”
It was absolutely impossible to have a good night. Xu Ze stood there in a turbulent and complicated mood and said, “Good night.”
The door closed and the room plunged back into darkness.
Several minutes passed but Xu Ze remained motionless. He remembered that Lu Heyang had said he came to get the badge, but he left empty-handed.
He also remembered that Lu Heyang had mentioned that he was thirsty, but he hadn’t even taken a sip of water before leaving.
Then, considering Lu Heyang’s personality and the early mission tomorrow, Xu Ze wondered if he would really get drunk the night before.
“You’re driving me crazy.” After Lu Heyang left the apartment building and got into the car, Song Yuke immediately started the vehicle, “When we get back, Colonel, make sure you get some rest. I just received notice from the northern war zone. The departure time has been moved up. We leave at 3 am.”
Lu Heyang activated his communicator and replied, “Understood.”
“The old commanders at the dinner table tonight should also know about your mission tomorrow. Otherwise, they wouldn’t have let you leave the table so quickly.” Song Yuke suddenly craned his neck and sniffed, “Why do you still smell of alcohol? Didn’t you only have one drink?”
“I accidentally spilled some on my clothes.” Lu Heyang rubbed the small area on his chest that the alcohol had soaked with the back of his hand.
The conflict in the northern war zone was entering its most critical phase, prompting the general command post to dispatch several elite teams from other zones for reinforcement. If everything went as planned, Lu Heyang would likely meet Gu Yunchi at the northern war zone’s military command tomorrow.
“I thought you left the dinner early to get some rest, but then you said you wanted to come here.” Song Yuke was puzzled by Colonel Lu’s late-night visit to Doctor Xu’s home. It couldn’t have been for a medical checkup.
“There was something to do,” Lu Heyang summarized and added, “I won’t be resting tonight. There’s a video conference to attend after returning to the base.”
Song Yuke sighed as if he was the one who hadn’t slept, “You’ve stayed up several nights this month… Ah. You could have just sent me to handle it if something came up.”
Finally tearing his eyes away from the communicator, Lu Heyang looked at Song Yuke and said, “Thanks, but that’s out of the question.”
Heyang is so HAHDHDHSHSHS he purposely made himself look drunk so that he can excuse being drunk to kissing xu ze that’s so smart😭😭
SKSHDJFJW LU HEYANG PROBABLY ALREADY GUESSED THEY HAD A SPECIAL BOND BEFORE MEMORY LOSS AND AUNTY HELPED TOOWEEEE
Lu heyang….my guy if u had remembered then you’d know u need not act drunk to kiss …..just kiss and my dear xiao xu would comply ….too bad u still don’t remember and even scheme and pretend due to jealousy…..sigh…
Thank you for the chapter ☺️
ohh so hes only acting 😌 aaa i want moree!
lu heyang is so crazy i love him for that
i feel soo sad T___T xu ze even hallucinated hearing the rain… oh god, just imagine how overwhelming his longing was