“Is Xiao-er angry because you were being compared to someone else?” Long Yinlian asked after a while.
Lin Xiao pursed his lips and let out a dissatisfied sound in the form of a grumble. “Don’t anyone hate it when you get compared to others?”
A helpless smile formed on Long Yinlian’s face. “You’re right. People don’t enjoy being compared,” he said as he reached out to pat Lin Xiao on the head. “It was the Emperor who is wrong. He shouldn’t have compared you to someone else. The two of you are different people.”
“Right. And he shouldn’t have mistaken me while… doing all those stuff.”
As soon as those sentences left Lin Xiao’s lips, Long Yinlian suddenly let out a small chuckle. “Xiao-er, you are angry that His Majesty called someone else while he’s with you. But are you not angry that he… took advantage of you?” he asked. “Are you not angry about the wrong matter? Or is it that you don’t hate it when His Majesty does all those things to you?”
Lin Xiao: …
“Shizun, even if it was a joke, please don’t say that,” Lin Xiao said, feeling a shiver down his spine as he thought about the thing that happened in the palace. But what Long Yinlian said did make Lin Xiao question himself. He had long figured out that he didn’t feel any form of romantic feelings, no matter how much the villagers from Senlin Village try to match-make him with their daughters. Nor does he feel the same against someone of the same gender. He even suspected that he was an abnormal.
The first time he was kissed, he was angry. But more than that, he was actually scared. The feeling of being kissed was something new to him, and he could not understand it. It made his heart race and his body feel hot. It sent him to a bout of confusion.
The second time, it might be because he was under influence but he found that he didn’t hate it. In fact, he enjoyed the gentle movement of the warm, soft lips against his own. It had felt nice. Made him feel warmth.
But when those gentle movement turns into nibbling and biting, he was unable to enjoy it any longer. And when those tongue went into his mouth, he felt suffocated that he almost instinctively bite down on it. As opposed to the comfortable warmth, his body suddenly became heated. The same heat that he felt during the first kiss, and it also made him uncomfortable in his lower abdomen.
“… Xiao-er?”
Lin Xiao was too deep in his thought that he didn’t realise that Long Yinlian was calling him. It wasn’t until he felt a pinch on his cheek did he snap out of his thought. With a pained yelp, he quickly grabbed Long Yinlian’s hand and looked over at him.
“Shizun, why did you do that?” Lin Xiao asked.
“You were not listening to me,” Long Yinlian replied. “What were you thinking about that made you preoccupied?”
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‘No… But, Shizun might be able to help me understand these feelings better…’
“Shizun, when you… kiss, what are you supposed to feel?” Lin Xiao decided to ask.
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“Shizun, are you alright?” Lin Xiao asked worriedly as he reached behind Long Yinlian’s back and stroked them.
“I’m alright, Xiao-er. Why did you ask that particular question?”
“… I just… I mean, I’m curious. Right now, I am confused…”
Long Yinlian could hear the uncertainty in Lin Xiao’s voice and felt that this conversation could no longer avoided. As his guardian, he felt that it is his responsibility to explain it to Lin Xiao. “What are you confused about?”
“Well…” Lin Xiao began to explain to Long Yinlian about how he felt during his two kissing experiences. Long Yinlian simply stayed quiet as he listened until Lin Xiao finished his narrative.
“In both times, you didn’t feel disgusted?” Long Yinlian asked.
“I… don’t think so?” Lin Xiao replied. He understood himself well. If he was disgusted, he wouldn’t even dare to think about it. And if he was, he won’t even enjoy the gentle kiss in the first place.
“But do you hate the feeling?”
Lin Xiao’s brow narrowed into a frown as he thought back to his feeling. “I don’t like it. But I don’t think I hate it…?”
Hate, for Lin Xiao is a very strong negative feeling. He has yet to experience anything that would evoke hatred in him. So, to him, a mere kiss shouldn’t be hateful.
“Why do you not like it?”
“It’s choking me! Why would you put your tongue inside someone else’s mouth and expect them to like it? I can’t even breathe properly when that happens!”
This outburst made Long Yinlian cough even more.
“Xiao-er… don’t like it because you feel choked?”
“Yes, ah!”
‘Just… how strong was the Emperor’s kiss to make one breathless?’ Long Yinlian couldn’t help wondering. But then he realised that it might also be because of something else.
“Xiao-er, did you actually try to breathe when that happened?”
“… How am I supposed to breathe when I’m too busy to try to push out that offending tongue?”
By now, Long Yinlian has confirmed that the problem is not solely on the Emperor, but also Lin Xiao, who was too inexperienced.
Helpless, Long Yinlian could only pat Lin Xiao’s back several times as if to comfort the young, innocent soul. “Let’s just get some sleep tonight. You’ve experienced quite a lot in such a short time. You must be exhausted,” he said in a gentle tone. “And that remind me, Xiao-er… Congratulations.”
“Hmm?” Lin Xiao, being suddenly congratulated, became confused. He has done nothing that warranted it. It was also not his anniversary day. The only thing he could think of was the kiss. ‘Is… Shizun congratulating me for the kiss…?’
Not wanting to accept that as the truth, Lin Xiao could not help ask, hoping to dispel his thought. “Shizun, what did you congratulate me for?”
“Did His Majesty confer you with a title? I heard from General Bai that His Majesty conferred with you the title of Qing Wang,” Long Yinlian said with a smile. Since he was visually challenged, he didn’t see how Lin Xiao’s expression change from distressed to relief. “Though, I am a bit worried. With the Emperor’s favour, there bound to be trouble laying in wait wherever you go. There will be officials wanting to get close to you, hoping to use the Emperor’s favour on you to make their life better. And there will be a lot of marriage proposals too from families who wished to gain more political power. Xiao-er must choose well when that day comes…”
“Shizun don’t have to worry. Lin Xiao have no interest in marriage. Right now, Shizun is the top priority,” Lin Xiao said as he once again leaned against Long Yinlian, resting his head on the broad chest. “Let me repay you for saving this life of mine…” he murmured in a soft whisper.
Somehow, Long Yinlian could sense that Lin Xiao was being sad again. “Xiao-er, what’s wrong?”
“Nothing is wrong. Shizun, it’s very late now. Let’s turn in for the night. Staying up this late is not good for your health,” Lin Xiao suddenly pulled away and stood up from the daybed. He then helped Long Yinlian up before guiding him to the bed.
After tucking Long Yinlian to the bed, he went around the room to blow off the oil lantern that has been keeping the room alight. Once the entire room turn dark, Lin Xiao walked back to the daybed based on his memory and laid down. But before he went to sleep, his eyes went over to the direction where Long Yinlian is resting.
He didn’t want to actually think about it but when Long Yinlian advised him about the marriage partner; it felt like the other was trying to make him settle down. Not to mention, he specifically tells him to choose properly.
‘Does Shizun plan not to help me in this matter?’ Lin Xiao wondered. But deep inside, he knew the main reason for it. He knew that Long Yinlian is suffering from a poison. About a year ago, the village doctor had warned him that Long Yinlian might not live for long.
‘The poison will take away his senses first, then his organ will slowly fail to work. At that time, he would only have few days left to live…’
Lin Xiao still remembered the exact sentence that the village doctor used. The knowledge made him afraid to the point that he rushed over to Long Yinlian, forgetting about his errands on purchasing a new batch of seasoning. He had asked his master how he was feeling, to which Long Yinlian merely replied that he was feeling normal.
But Lin Xiao wasn’t convinced. He already knew that Long Yinlian’s sight was taken away by the poison, so he had to test his other senses. That night, he purposely added more salt to Long Yinlian’s meal. His feelings at that time were complicated. He didn’t know what he’ll do if Long Yinlian couldn’t tell if it was salty. But fortunately, Long Yinlian commented on how the meal was salty and made Lin Xiao breathe out a sigh of relief.
Since then, he would occasionally have a slip of hand whenever he cooked every few months. ‘That reminds me, I should do it again. As long as Shizun’s sense of taste is still there, then I still have time to repay for all of his kindness…’
Unfortunately, when Lin Xiao woke up the next day, he found out that Long Yinlian was no longer in the room. It was only after asking around did he find out that Long Yinlian had gone out with Bai Chenyi. For what, though, no one seems to know.
With nothing else to do, he decided to go to the Xia family household to take a look at Xia Yushen.
I relate to Lin Xiao. Everyone surrounding me are people that enjoy sexual things in general and I don’t have any reference of someone that feels the same way as me, so I’ve always been confused. Anyways this was a bit of a rant. Thanks for the chapter! I enjoyed it 🙂
Thanks for the chapter ♥️♥️
Seriously, Lin Xiao u make it hard for your shizun..
Thanks for the update 🙏❤️
In the future, he will be enlightened in the art of seduction 😂
 that’s sounds really tempting.. Lol!!!
Thanks for reply 🙏🙏❤️❤️