Even until Death, the Scum Gong thought I was a White LotusCh22 - Don’t leave me

“You haven’t been normal since I came back from the doctor’s. You won’t touch me and everyday, you have so much on your mind…”

Bo Qin clenched both of his fists so tightly his veins were clearly showing. He opened his mouth, wanting to take a step forward, but Xie Mu stepped back to avoid him as if he was a poisonous snake or scorpion. rSBVGN

The youth’s face was white, and he said softly, “You told me work was busy and that you didn’t have any time to be with me. Did you forget…”

“I used to be your assistant.”

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The man’s footsteps halted.

He had forgotten. OTdqj0

He had forgotten that the seemingly weak young man standing in front of him, who would shed tears at a single word, had been thoroughly trained by Bo Qin himself.

Bo Qin had admired Xie Mu’s talent. With such an intelligent follower, who admired him with all his heart and soul and believed everything he said, only looking at him, it would be untrue for Bo Qin to say that he didn’t feel confident in himself.

But it was because Xie Mu was so obedient towards him, that he had forgotten what kind of person he was.

“I’ve been reading the news on Boshi and the stock market. Every time I go to the study, you’re just dealing with some common issues. There are no issues at the company.”

“Xiao Mu…” As he looked at the reddening eyes of the young man, filled with determination and confidence in his inference, the man suddenly felt like a hole had appeared in his heart. He was afraid of losing the person in front of him. As he unconsciously began to explain, he was interrupted once again.

“You told me I was in a coma because of a car accident, but why I was in a car accident, where I was in a car accident, I don’t remember any of these.

Once I woke up and could remember, why was I with a psychiatrist?”

“While you tell me you love me, you won’t touch me. You probably don’t even know it yourself, but every time you accidentally touch me, your expression is extremely resistant.” 4vyQxC

The young man’s eyes were grieved. As he watched his lover, he burst out into a wry laugh. “Bo Qin, I love you, so I understand you.”

“What did you…hide from me.”

Bo Qin had lost.

It was his decision to blot out that innocent personality, and it was him who had been blinded by that second personality. DfweKE

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He had forgotten that his Xiao Mu was not as weak and gullible as that second personality. The youth in front of him was the person he had personally taught, the all-capable Xie Mu.

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But, even if his heart hurt so much it curled up into a knot, he couldn’t let Xie Mu know his true feelings.

In Xiao Mu’s eyes, he was always a perfect lover, not the man who had left him during Xiao Mu’s moment of despair. zSaliF

So he could only continue like this—

The man’s eyes were dark and they barely moved. His voice was harsh as he whispered, “That day, you were touched by Tan Tao.”

The youth’s expression violently stiffened.

Although he had made a few guesses, when faced with an affirmative answer, he lost his nerves and began panicking. tfBI5P

The rims of his eyes were still red. The self-confidence from earlier collapsed in an instant.

He asked in a small voice, “Why didn’t you…save me…”

“Why, did you watch as Tan Tao touched me…”

Xie Mu’s voice was trembling, his figure perplexed and unsure of what to do. His pale fingers pushed against the wall with so much force, to the point of turning white. nJb8YF

The youth was terrified, terrified he would hear words that would destroy him.

He stared unwaveringly at his lover, still wanting to obtain an answer.

Bo Qin hid his hands behind his back, clenching them forcefully into fists. He replied, “I was drugged by Tan Tao and couldn’t move.”

“If I had been able to move, I would’ve definitely saved you.” dBTz5f

“Afterwards, you ran out of there like your life depended on it. After you woke up from your coma, you couldn’t deal with your memories and begged me to take you to a hypnotist to erase them.”

“The things that happened afterwards, you know…”

[Shameless!!] The system was so angry its display was shaking. [Distorting the facts like this, won’t his conscience hurt!]

[I’ll answer for him: it won’t.] OkTBbJ

[Also, let me teach you something for free. To make a person feel heartbreak, you must first make his heart weaken.]

Xie Mu watched the man in front of him, his eyelids trembling. He couldn’t stay still, his eyes red and full of desolation.

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“So…it was like this…”

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He repeated the words in a murmur, finally unable to hold the tears within his eyes. They slid down his fair cheeks and fell to the ground without a sound.

“Xiao Mu, don’t cry…”

The man moved forward and held him in his arms, feeling the trembling body of the person in his embrace. He lowered his magnetic voice, soothing his little lover. “It’s all my fault for not protecting you well; if I didn’t have you come pick me up, it wouldn’t have turned out like this.”

“Bo Qin…” qYo1nl

The youth’s soft, frightened voice quivered. “You, you told me before that you liked clean. Now I’m, I’m not clean anymore…”

“That’s why you’re unwilling to touch me, that’s why you pretend to work, because I’m not clean anymore, because Tan Tao…”

He seemed to have sunk into dire straits, helplessly saying the words that had been hidden in his heart for the past few days. Finally, the youth lifted his gaze in despair and grief, looking towards his lover.

“Do you not want me anymore?” Pk17dc

“I, I can wash myself clean, I’ll never let anyone else touch me ever again. Only you, only you can touch me, hold me…”

The young man was crying to the point of hyperventilating. He was trying his hardest, his best, to keep his own lover.

“Xiao Mu, Xiao Mu please calm down for a moment.”

Bo Qin trapped him within his arms, listening to his bewildered words, his heart astringent as if it had been soaking in salt water, bitter and acidic. IQhLgR

The youth slowly raised his head, his eyes still red, his round, pretty eyes full of timidness and fear.

Just as the man was about to say something comforting, Xie Mu’s hand softly and carefully grasped at his hand.

Compared to Xie Mu’s beautiful, thin fingers that were like works of art, Bo Qin’s large hand was long and slender, cocooning the hand in his palm. Before, Bo Qin’s favorite thing to do had been using one hand to lock the youth’s wrist in place in bed and watching him bashfully struggle to free himself.

But now, the youth voluntarily thrust his wrist within the man’s hands, like a bird flying back into its cage out of its own free will. rOQHGm

His eyes had been wet with tears for a while now, and they were now filled with the fear of being abandoned.

“I’ll never, never see anyone else again, I’ll wash myself clean. You know I’m obedient and I listen to you, I’ll do whatever you ask me to.”

Story translated by Chrysanthemum Garden.

Xie Mu was crying, his hoarse voice pleading:

“Bo Qin, don’t leave me…” 1KemWI

“Don’t leave me, okay…”

The man’s heart weakened a bit as he watched his little lover firmly throw himself into his embrace.

With a faint sense of shame, he bent over and kissed him.

“Xiao Mu, I love you. I will never leave you.” M5LmXf

“Never?”

Bo Qin replied with conviction, “Never.”

[Ding! Bo Qing’s favorability: 96]