Chu Cheng went home late, he stayed in the company for a long time, from dawn to dark. He wanted to go home, but didn’t dare to go home. Everyone thought he was working overtime, but only Chu Cheng himself knew that he hadn’t done anything today, he was sitting in the office, thinking that Ji Qingzhou was leaving, thinking that he would go back tonight and never see the person who should be in the apartment, his mind was in a trance, and he couldn’t concentrate on anything.
It was wrong, Chu Cheng thought, he had never been in this state, he never let his personal life affect his work, this situation wasn’t supposed to affect him.
Chu Cheng stopped the car, he unbuckled his seat belt and got off the car, but at a glance he saw the Porsche he gave Ji Qingzhou.
Chu Cheng froze for a moment, he suddenly thought of something, he quickly walked to the elevator, and entered his apartment, he immediately saw the house keys and car keys on the bedside table in the bedroom. At that moment, Chu Cheng felt the inescapable depression in his heart, he took out his cell phone and called Ji Qingzhou.
Ji Qingzhou didn’t hesitate and immediately asked him, “What’s wrong?”
“Why don’t you want it?” Chu Cheng asked him straightforwardly, “What do you mean by leaving the house and car behind? Those are for you, you’ve already received them, why don’t you want it?”
The moment Ji Qingzhou saw his phone number, he guessed that it might be because of this, now hearing him say so, he wasn’t surprised and replied in a low voice, “It’s too valuable, I’m ashamed to accept it.”
“What’s so precious about it, it was given to you, can you take back a gift you gave to someone else?”
“Chu Cheng,” Ji Qingzhou said softly, “perhaps for you, these are not really valuable, but for me, it is too valuable. I already owe you a lot, and I don’t want to carry this anymore.”
“You shouldn’t be psychologically burdened, you gave me your time and company, so I gave you money, it’s fair, you don’t have to be so calculating. Besides, you’re leaving me now and moving out, but that house you had before is obviously not suitable for you to live in now, you need to have a residence with a good security system that can protect you, do you understand?”
“I understand, I rented an apartment long ago, I didn’t go back to that rental house, don’t worry.”
Chu Cheng was stunned, “You rented a house?”
“Mm.”
“When was it?”
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“Two months ago.”
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“Yes.”
“But you didn’t tell me.” Chu Cheng suppressed his anger, helplessness, depression, and dissatisfaction, “You didn’t tell me you went looking for a house, and you didn’t tell me you had found a house, I thought that for this kind of thing, you would have said something to me.”
Ji Qingzhou was silent for a while, he looked out the window at the night, then he quietly and slowly spoke, he knew Chu Cheng didn’t want to hear him say this, he also knew Chu Cheng wouldn’t like it, but they couldn’t go on like before.
“I can’t talk to you about everything,” he said, “I deserve to be able to make my own decisions about my affairs.”
Chu Cheng didn’t speak anymore, he held the phone and slowly sat on the bed.
He knew he was leaving soon, he could rightly go and find himself a place to live after he left, there was nothing wrong with that, he was doing the right thing.
This was what he wanted, wasn’t it? From the beginning, he told him they shouldn’t be entangled when they separated. Now that Ji Qingzhou had done it, he had done a good job. He even found an apartment himself. What could he blame him for?
Chu Cheng held the phone, he wanted to say something, but couldn’t say it. He was worried that Ji Qingzhou left him without a place to live, he considered that Ji Qingzhou’s current popularity was not suitable for that previous rental house, so he deliberately sent him a house on the eve of parting. He picked and chose among the houses in his name, according to the preferences of Ji Qingzhou, according to his future, according to the surrounding environment, he took into account all kinds of factors, and finally chose one that he felt was most suitable for Ji Qingzhou.
The house in the south of the city wasn’t the most valuable in his hands, but it was the most suitable for Ji Qingzhou.
But Ji Qingzhou didn’t need it, he had long found a good house. When he didn’t know, he found a new place to stay. So, he didn’t need it anymore.
Chu Cheng felt his mouth was a little bitter, he opened his mouth, but still couldn’t say anything. He suddenly realized that in fact, not only this suite, the car was also the same, Ji Qingzhou seemed to have received that car, but he never drove it, it had always been driven by him.
The gifts he gave him, whether intentional or unintentional, wouldn’t be accepted once they exceeded the burden of Ji Qingzhou. How clever Ji Qingzhou was. He always knew what he wanted to hear and see, so he took orders on the surface and didn’t quarrel with him, but privately he politely gave everything back to him.
He didn’t want anything, except the jade pendant and the bottle of stars, for the jade pendant, he gave him a jade pendant of equal value in the same way.
It was true that he couldn’t say everything to him, he hid what he didn’t say, hiding his true thoughts with the appearance of obedience. In this moment, Chu Cheng felt that he really deserved to be an actor, an excellent actor with excellent acting skills.
They were silent with each other for a moment, still Ji Qingzhou opened his mouth first, “If there’s nothing else, I’ll hang up first, I have a meeting tomorrow and need to rest early.”
Chu Cheng wasn’t quite used to his way of speaking like this, he didn’t expect that one day, Ji Qingzhou would talk to him so politely, “Ji Qingzhou, are we …… still considered friends?”
“Of course.” Ji Qingzhou answered quickly.
Chu Cheng nodded, and couldn’t help but ask: “Is the new house’s environment good? How about the security system? You’re now a star, you can’t just live in a general community you know?”
“I know.”
“You live alone, pay attention to safety, if you really can’t, let Xiao Qian live with you, or arrange a life assistant for you, in fact, I wanted to talk to Zhou Chengfeng at that time, with your current popularity, you can have another assistant, Xiao Qian is responsible for your work-related, and then add a assistant responsible for your life.”
“There’s no need for that.” Ji Qingzhou answered him, “I have Xiao Qian and Brother Zhou when I’m filming, and when I’m not filming, I don’t need help, so I’m fine.”
“Is that so?” Chu Cheng murmured, he didn’t refute him and quickly moved on, “Then take care of your safety, call me if you have any problems, or just call the police.”
“Mm.”
What else? Chu Cheng thought, “Is it convenient to get around? The main thing is that you can’t drive, before you didn’t have time to learn how to drive, or will you get a driver? You’re a star, you can’t always take a taxi.”
“No, I don’t go out often except for work, besides, when I’m free, I’ll learn to drive.”
“You don’t need a driver either.” Chu Cheng whispered, he suddenly felt at loss, and subconsciously murmured, “How come you don’t need anything?”
Ji Qingzhou listened to his words, his nose felt a little sour, he blinked and persuaded him: “Chu Cheng, I know you’re used to taking care of me, but I’m not a child, I am an adult, I can live independently on my own, before meeting you, I was with my mother, we relied on each other, and I successfully grew up to this point, right? I appreciate your care and help this year, but the contract is over, you have no responsibility to me, you don’t need to worry about me anymore, I will take good care of myself, I will also work hard to grow and make myself a better person, so you can put away your concern for me, and live a good life that belongs only to you.”
Chu Cheng froze, no matter how he thought, he never thought that one day, Ji Qingzhou would say such things to him. He really was a very spontaneous person, last night, he was held in his arms, now, he advised him to let go and live his own life. Just one day, even in less than 24 hours.
He was worried that Ji Qingzhou would have a hard time leaving, he was really over-thinking it.
Chu Cheng didn’t know how he hung up the phone, as he held the phone, his mood sank, he silently changed his clothes and went to the bathroom and took a shower, and didn’t think about anything again.
Early in the morning, Chu Cheng woke up several times, each time, dazed, he woke up because Ji Qingzhou wasn’t with him, he habitually turned on the light to find him, but once the light was on, he would remember that Ji Qingzhou had left, then he turned off the light to sleep again. He was used to sleeping with Ji Qingzhou, now sleeping alone, he tossed and turned uncomfortably.
He thought of Ji Qingzhou again, remembering their year together, at the beginning, he took the initiative to hold Ji Qingzhou in his sleep, when he still only wanted to sleep with him, thinking that since he spent money, he could enjoy a little welfare. But later, without his initiative, Ji Qingzhou would sleep in his arms. He would lay in his arms and chat with him, would lie on his body and discuss things with him, and hold him tight.
Ji Qingzhou didn’t sleep well the first few days, but later, he learnt to stay in bed in his arms.
Chu Cheng felt uncomfortable, he looked at his watch, it was more than five o’ clock. He wasn’t like this, even if Ji Qingzhou went out to film, he wouldn’t be like this, he would still sleep peacefully, because he knew that he would always come back. But now, he knew that he wouldn’t come back.
The two of them, after a brief intersection, they would finally get increasingly distant, as he once said to Chu Xin, as he had long anticipated.
Chu Cheng got up and silently got ready for work.
TN:
This is just too brutal 😭😭😭😭😭
🥲 chu cheng… i have no words
Thanks for the chapter € ^ *^)/// ~~ ♡♡♡♡♡
I’m crying TvT
Thank you for the updates!
Wow I can’t believe how much this hurts me… Hoping for a better relationship to blossom between them once CC realizes his feelings for our cutie huhu
Thank you for the chapter!
Both of them think they have unrequited love for the other because of that misunderstanding.
In fact, had Qingzhou followed through with his original plan and confessed to Cheng anyway, this parting very likely wouldn’t have happened. Their separation, however, might potentially make their future relationship deeper and more intimate.
Character development.
Oh no I’m sorry I accidentally replied to you🤧
I’m sorry but It’s fun to see Chu Cheng suffer. I don’t know what’s going on with me. Though my heart hurts for JX.
Thanks for the chapter~
we have the same ML torturing sadist hearts ^^)b its always satisfying to see a big man crumble
+1… but I’m crying a river like I’m the one who got hurt. what a weird fusion of sadist-masochist I am ಥ‿ಥ
+1
But my heart can’t decide if I want to cry laugh or laugh cry
Yeah like I cried a little because it’s a bit too much for my frail heart, but also cc kinda fucking deserves it with him blowing hot and cold all the time yknow?
Don’t cry guys. We’re going to see Chu Cheng being slapped by his own words and it’s damn satisfying.
Well, i guess because we think he deserves it and this will help him realize his true feelings.
I know i know.
ML not recognizing his feelings indirectly hurt our dear Ji Qingzhou. And if MC take initiative to say I like you and let’s be together, ML would not take importance of Mc as we wished.
So…
It is a just for Chu Cheng to take this kind of suffer 😈😈
wth u sadist ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh lololol i do hope ml realize his feelings soon cuz he’s such a good ml he and zhou zhou deserves happiness
AND WE’RE BARELY HALFWSY THRU THE NOVEKDJUSUQHSU 😭😭😭😭
Really? I thought it was nearly the end. Well it’s better like this
JQ is so good at managing his feelings…
And LOL at CC for thinking all this time it wouldn’t affect him.
Thanks for the chapters!!!
Omg my heart hurts for these two 😭😭
Sounds like a prime time for a rival love interest to arrive on the scene! Just drive that knife further into Chu Cheng’s heart ❤🔪
This is so evil 😭😭
But …. honestly, I feel the same ❤️❤️❤️
+2
+3
Chu Chengggg, I can’t even get mad at him because he suffered too (ಥ ͜ʖಥ)
Thank you so much for your amazing translation!!
Thank you for the update 😆❤️🤍🤍
😭😭😭😭😭
Oh. I’m crying. It’s sad, but they had it coming, I meant yeah they deserve a little sadness for their stupidity.
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»He was worried that Ji Qingzhou would have a hard time leaving, he was really over-thinking it.«
JQZ: prepared since a few month to leave CC
CC: Who threw me into the cold water? What do you mean by Zhou Zhou won’t come back? (;´༎ຶД༎ຶ`)
Haha~ CC, haha. Sry, but I look forward to how you will go down >3
Thx for the mass release (シ_ _)シ
Sometimes we can’t understand our own feeling. But at some situation, if we lost the moment then, we will lost them forever.
What is difficult about life? Should be nothing. Just, when we want to go back to that moment and realised, we can’t.
Thank you for the update ❤️.
This chap really squeeze my heart dry.
Thank you for the hard work but don’t forget to rest
sadness is real
Chu Cheng, please realize you love him and go get him back
God dammit why are we in angst territory.
Why do you do my heart like this… (y-y)
This is so heartbreaking. I totally relate to JQZ. He knew that its time to give up.
Well, this will make CC realize his feelings 🙂
Thanks for the chapters?
This is so heartbreaking. I totally relate to JQZ, you really to know when to give up. He still has self respect and independence.
Well, this will make CC realize his feelings. And i hope once he did, he will pursue JQZ properly.
Thanks for the chapter
sniffle, sniffle
Ooof
Sadge 😥
No, this is not too brutal for CC. I’m just glad that it seems like Zhouzhou is doing okay. CC needs to learn from his mistakes and sincerely repent!
Oh my heart. It hurts!
It’s sad to see CC having to confront his fears but that’s the only way for him to realise what’s missing in his life 🥺❤️ I’m proud of JQZ’s maturity. 🦋
Chu Cheng, Ji Qingzhou 😭😭😭
Thanks for the chapters
Fuck, I’m glad these 4 chapters were updated together because so much happened akbffxds 😭😭
Thanks for the chapter! 😘
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Fck guys can’t I just read non-emotional-abusive novel? Bc I was really into funny interactions between them, sht hut me real hard ToT😢
Thank you for the chapters!!!
But ugh I’m so sad 😭😭😭
Well, this hurts!
Thank you for the chapter!
I shouldn’t have read this. I was waiting for this to stack up until they reconciled 😭
Thanks for the chapter! Before, we saw JQ figure his feelings out, now it’s CC’s turn. It’s going to be even more painful for him, because he’s been ignoring his feelings and being dense throughout their entire relationship, and reality is hitting him hard…
His heart broke before he even knew it. This is so well written. I’mglad it’s from his POV. We know how torn up JQZ is, but it’s good to peer into CC’s mind.
Thanks for the great translation ♥️
No words, just tears 😢
I want CC to go through more angst because he deserves itttttt. Don’t you understand your feelings? Why are you letting him go? JQZ being prepared 2 months ago is really satisfying. If only we can have a friend who is overly-friendly… that would be tasty hehe. All aboard CC suffering train! Eat your own words 😂
wait for it, wait for it, HUMPH!! SERVE U RIGHT! SUFFER MFER!!
Thank u for the chapter
Mamamaaaaaaa why didn’t stop myself re-reading this until this book is completed 😭😭😭
Thanks for the translation!!!
He deserves it for being so dense but why do we have to suffer too? :((
thanks for the chapter <3
For the 1st time, I want to left a comment. My heart bursts out crying. This chap feel so reasonable yet hurtful. (;´༎ຶД༎ຶ`)
OH YEAH i love seeing him suffer. i hope the author will make him suffer for at least 15 chapters. i mean you said yourself you don’t like JQZ. now try and live a life without him LOL what RIGHTS do you have to worry about JQZ!1!1!1!1!1! i hope there will be a new love rival so i can see CC chugging vinegar GAAAAAH JUST THINKING ABOUT IT MAKES ME GIDDY 🙂
WOW I FEEL A SICK SATISFACTION FROM READING THIS CHAPTER LMAO (ignore me)
Here I am thinking it was 6 months. Time really flies
I’m sorry but this cliff hanger is too much for me. I’m bawling rn. I shouldn’t have caught up now, should have waited longer. Much regret
Bittersweet but it’s so goood, it ticks off my guilty pleassure yummm ~~~
Thanks for the translation <3
no pain, no gain
Might I mention that while Qingzhou has “closure” because even though he overheard Cheng revealing his feelings for him, his invitation to further their relationship is denied by Cheng. He now believes they have no future together and can move on much faster than Cheng, who never knew his feelings were mutual. Who let go of the person he loved because he believed Qingzhou would be happier without him and that a further relationship wouldn’t be beneficial for Qingzhou.
“If you love them, let them go. If they return, they love you too.”
I’m just waiting for that moment.
Chapter 93 is the chapter when Cheng unveils his feelings (although to the wrong person, the right person was just beyond the door).
Cheng also constantly mentions that he believes Ji Qingzhou belongs to someone else. He never believed that his feelings would ever be mutual.
I cried while reading this chapter.
WHEN ARE THEY GOING TO GET TOGETHER OFFICIALLYYYYY
I’m SCREAMING INTERNALLY
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Hi, I’m a reader and I’m just wondering if the translator is on a hiatus? 😢
Hi, I’m not on hiatus, just busy but I’ll make it up to ya with many chapters, starting today.
Well, you won’t know how important something is until you’ve lost it. This will be probably a catalyst
😭 Kind of feels like a love story were one of the two died and the one left behind now hast to cope with their sudden death/departure.
Thanks for the chapter!!^^
I reread this chap, and it still sting my heart..
Ohhh, My eyes are leaking. ummmmm😢
It hurts so much…
I’m sorry this kind of brutality is what I like ahahaHHh
Enjoy your suffering, ma boy.
Thanks for the chapter!
I don’t know about you BUT I LOVE HOW JI BABY IS BEING FIRM IN HIS SEPARATION!!!! I LOVE IT, I LOVE HIM. SO FREAKING STRONG INDEPENDENT BABY, LET ME KISS HIS CHEEKS
It physically hurt my heart reading this im gonna cry- i feel as if someone gently caressed my heart then all of a sudden just violently ripped it out and crush it under their foot-
There is only pain… passing the ball to LYX and the Fang guy
Oh how I love angst
😭
Get your act tgt you two 😭🤧
I once wanted CC to suffer a bit but now i can’t take it, my eyes are watering 😭😭
I am aware it will come to this part, but dang it nobody inform me that it will hurt like this. Bring me back at those old sweet old days.😭😭
Ok CC enough abuse for you my God go get him quickly tell him u love him ahhh he will accept dont delay
I can’t watch CC get abuse he is just soo sweet for it… Fck it
Oh my heart got squeeze hard it hurt…
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BRO IVE BEEN CRYING THROUGH THIS HELLISH 5 CHAPTERS
me crying
I realized I am happy when I smile a little 🤏 hehe this is a relief