Translator/Editor:- Max
I was on the verge of tears so just prepare yourself guys, it’s gonna be pretty sad ahhhh. Someone killl that Tang Yu, and all the people he knows and his family, they are a waste on this Earth.
“The school had arranged dormitories for students like us who were selected from the county, but Tang Yu’s father told me that he was willing to sponsor me for the three years of high school and even the four years of university. He was also willing to provide for my food, clothing, and accommodations, but he needed me to do him a favour. That was to help him with Tang Yu.”
When Ying Nian said this, he lowered his head to take a sip of his wine, paused for a while, and then continued, “Actually, Tang Yu is quite smart, but as you can see, just like how he doesn’t want to work hard now, back then, he didn’t want to study properly either. He’d skip classes or sleep during class, and his grades were unbelievably poor. Tang Yu’s father hoped that I could be friends with him and help him improve his grades. He said it didn’t have to be good, but at least he shouldn’t fail in everything. I thought it was simple enough, so I agreed.”
“From that day on, I moved into Tang Yu’s house. Although our initial interactions were unpleasant, we got along well later. By the time we were in the second year of high school, we were pretty much together. At that time we were truly happy. Even though our relationship couldn’t be public, just seeing each other every day brought joy. Tang Yu also studied hard, hoping he and I can enter the same university. Even if we couldn’t attend the same one, he hoped we could be in the same city. Back then, he genuinely liked me and treated me well. Not to mention when I was hurt, even if I was just a little unhappy, he would be extremely nervous, afraid that I might feel uncomfortable.”
When Ying Nian said this, he just felt sad and couldn’t help but drink another glass of wine.
Yao Xiuyuan sighed silently in his heart and said nothing.
“Later on, we entered university together, not the same schools but they were close by. We rented an apartment together and began living together. It was around that time that his friends gradually found out about our true relationship.” As he said that, he turned to look at Yao Xiuyuan and asked him, “Do you like Ji Qingzhou? Do you guys like him?”
Yao Xiuyuan smiled. “Do you think we don’t like him?”
Ying Nian shook his head. “I think you guys are very good to him.” He said, “Qingzhou is much luckier than me, so I really like him. When I look at him, I feel hopeful about the future because someone has already achieved what I want. So you know that what you want is attainable and really exists. At least it gives you something to strive for.”
Listening to his words, Yao Xiuyuan couldn’t help but feel that his life had been too bitter. He lost his parents at a young age, hoping for a better future, only to be abandoned by his uncle’s family as he grew older. He could only place his hopes on education, telling himself that studying would lead to a better future. However, until now, it seemed that he had yet to find a truly good future.
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But even so, he continued to live very hard, he had not even a hint of jealousy towards Ji Qingzhou, who was much luckier than him. Instead, they became friends. Yao Xiuyuan felt that Ying Nian’s mindset was very good, but also very bitter. He never said anything, always maintaining a gentle and polite demeanour, even smiling from time to time. He thought that he just had a failed relationship, thinking that he had moved on. And that as long as Tang Yu stopped bothering him, it would be fine.
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“I didn’t get along well with Tang Yu’s friends.” Yao Xiuyuan’s thoughts were interrupted by Ying Nian’s words. He lowered his head and said while drinking his wine, “Chen Mao doesn’t like me, you should have noticed that. He’s Tang Yu’s cousin, so he holds a lot of weight in Tang Yu’s circle. Since he doesn’t like me, others naturally won’t have a good opinion of me in order to cater to him, except for Guan Han. Guan Han is the only one among Tang Yu’s friends whom I get along with, but it’s useless. He doesn’t have much say, so even if he helps me speak up, it’s useless.”
“This wasn’t your fault.” Yao Xiuyuan comforted him, “You were Tang Yu’s lover, and his friends should have respected you. Even if they didn’t like you, they shouldn’t have shown it openly. If he found out that his friends were treating you unfairly or disliking you, he should have handled that issue. He failed to handle it properly and it made your interactions unpleasant, it was his incompetence, not your fault.”
Ying Nian couldn’t help but laugh when he heard this.
“What are you laughing at? I’m just speaking the truth.”
Ying Qiang sighed softly, “It would be great if you were Tang Yu’s friend.”
Yao Xiuyuan said in disgust without hesitation, “What have I done wrong to deserve this punishment from you? Have I not been good enough to you?”
Ying Nian chuckled and made a rare joke, “Perhaps.”
“I can be even better to you, that’s not a problem, but being friends with Tang Yu, now that’s a problem.”
Ying Nian smiled as he looked at him, feeling that with this interruption, his mood had improved somewhat.
“Anyway, his friends don’t really like me. Chen Mao looks down on me, and others don’t hold me in high regard either. So even though they knew I was Tang Yu’s partner, they still arranged people around him when we went out to play, and they still introduced him to guys or girls they thought were pretty good. I didn’t like how they did that. I’ve argued with them several times and also argued with Tang Yu several times too. At that time, Tang Yu and I had just just started living together, and we were still in the honeymoon phase, so naturally, he cared more about me. He cut off contact with them for a while, but later, although they resumed contact, they’ve always been very restrained.”
Yao Xiuyuan knew that this was probably the root of the problem. Tang Yu was surrounded with temptations arranged by others. When Tang Yu was deeply in love with Ying Nian, he cared more about Ying Nian and could resist these temptations. However, as the love period faded and he grew to love himself more, he would just be attracted to those temptations.
Sticking to one’s true feelings is a difficult thing, especially in the face of various temptations.
“When I was in my fourth year of university, I had planned to take the civil service exam. Since childhood, I always thought it was an honourable thing to sit behind a desk and stamp documents; I really wanted to stamp documents for others. But at that time, Tang Yu’s parents found out about our relationship. Tang Yu’s father said he felt we weren’t suitable, and Tang Yu’s mother was very direct; she said I wasn’t good enough. I sat in the library for a long time thinking, and then I gave up on the civil service exam. Even if I passed the exam, I would only be an ordinary clerk, which wasn’t what their family wanted.”
“So I thought of another way. I couldn’t turn myself into someone from a wealthy family, I didn’t have the talent or capital to start a business, but I had a face. I could become a celebrity. That way, at least I would have money. Aren’t there also celebrities who marry into wealthy families? This proves that at least being a celebrity is more acceptable to those wealthy families than being an ordinary person, isn’t it?”
Yao Xiuyuan shook his head in his mind but didn’t refute him. Celebrities, no matter how wealthy, were just a drop in the bucket for families like theirs. Those children of wealthy families who married celebrities either did so out of genuine love or to use the celebrity’s influence for better branding. In the entire upper class society, the Tang family was mediocre at best, and such families were the most eager for marriages. Ying Nian had no background, which meant the Tang family wouldn’t accept him, especially since he was a man.
“Did Tang Yu agree to you giving up the civil service exam to enter the entertainment industry?”
“At first, he disagreed, but after I explained the cause and effect to him, he agreed. He also knew his parents’ attitude and understood that if we wanted to get married, we needed to work together. So he agreed with my idea. After all, at that time, we both believed that as long as we worked hard together to become better people, we could be together again. We agreed to work hard together, but…”
“But Tang Yu didn’t do it.” After Ying Nian finished speaking, he lowered his head to drink again.
Yao Xiuyuan felt that he had drunk a bit too much. Even if it was just fruit wine, he hadn’t intended for Ying Nian to drink so much. However, at this moment, he couldn’t bring himself to speak up and persuade Ying Nian to stop. He had finally opened up and shared his story, and Yao Xiuyuan couldn’t interrupt him at this moment.
“The first time he cheated was at home. I got off the plane and came back home and found a pair of high heels by the shoe rack. At that moment, I realised something was wrong. I probably was mentally prepared, so when I pushed open the bedroom door, I wasn’t very shocked. Both of them were still sleeping. I was a bit stunned and didn’t know what to do at that moment. Fortunately, the woman beside him woke up. She seemed a bit scared when she saw me, but she quickly explained that she was just responsible for sending Tang Yu home. She then pushed Tang Yu to wake up.”
Recalling that scene, Ying Nian felt emotionally drained. “Then, she hurriedly got dressed in a panic and ran out without even washing her face. Tang Yu looked at me in horror and told me he was drunk last night and wasn’t conscious, that the woman was just sending him home. But I didn’t want to listen. We argued, and in the end, I left. At that moment, I felt it was over between us. I knew it would become a thorn in my heart, and whenever I saw him, I would be reminded of that thorn. I was very clear about it, so after calming down, I suggested breaking up.”
“He didn’t agree.” Yao Xiuyuan added.
“Yes, he didn’t agree. He stood outside my building for seven days, constantly calling and begging me to forgive him, saying he would never do it again. He kept talking about our school days, and those memories were so beautiful, too beautiful for me to let go of. So on the last day, when it started raining and he could barely stand, I went downstairs to see him and forgave him. But I knew the thorn in my heart hadn’t healed. Every time he touched me, I would think of that thorn. I would wonder if he had done the same thing with other people behind my back. I felt that he was dirty, and I also felt that I was dirty too. I knew this mindset wasn’t good, so I tried to adjust my mindset. That’s why I quickly accepted a role and went out to film.”
Ying Nian fell silent for a moment before continuing, “After filming for three months and returning, my mindset improved a little, and I could continue to get along peacefully with him. After about four or five months like this, one day, I received two photos. The photos were sent to me by Tang Yu’s mother. In the photos, Tang Yu was lying on a bed with two different women. She said, ‘You’ve seen it too. Xiao Yu can be with women. So break up.'”
“Do you know why Tang Yu’s cheating partners are all women?” Ying Nian asked him.
Yao Xiuyuan remained silent.
Ying Nian didn’t need his answer. He answered his own question, “Because these people who Tang Yu thought he was joining in the fun with, were all arranged by Chen Mao. Chen Mao’s mother is Tang Yu’s mother’s sister. Tang Yu’s mom couldn’t accept Tang Yu being with me, so she had Chen Mao, his elder brother, to help her keep an eye on Tang Yu. That’s why Chen Mao has never liked me. He only found women and not anyone else, just to let me and Tang Yu know that Tang Yu wasn’t purely gay; he can be with women. That’s all.”
Ying Nian sighed and began to drink. He was almost done with his drink, and luckily he was also almost done talking.
“I asked Tang Yu if the photos were real, and his expression said it all. Suddenly, I felt it was all meaningless. What’s the point of me trying so hard by myself? His parents don’t approve of us, his friends don’t approve of us, and now, even he doesn’t approve of us. So why should we be together? Because of love? But do we still have love? That’s why I suggested breaking up. I moved out. I feel like we don’t need to be together anymore. Nobody wants us to be together, even I don’t think we want us to be together.”
The author has something to say:
An extra chapter to mark the end of 5000 words. I have a dream, when will I ever reach over ten thousand words? Let’s work hard on writing! I originally wanted to finish writing this night’s conversation in this chapter, but there’s still a bit left. Finally, Ying Nian has opened up to Yao Xiuyuan, which wasn’t easy. Ai, Ying Nian has truly suffered, but he has also been working hard and active in life, so his bitter days are coming to an end soon. Go for it, Yao Xiuyuan!
Translator’s note:- This chapter felt like a thorn in my heart too. Meet me at 10 to come together so that we can kill Tang Yu and his equally disgusting family. I’m bringing my sword guys
. And Yao Xiuyuan, boy, you better not hurt him cause there are 100s of people behind our baby.
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If it were someone else, they’d be jealous of Ji Qingzhou and act all nasty toward him (well just like Luo Yuxin). But Ying Nian is such an angle, he dont feel jealous instead seeing him as motivation and even become his friend. But how dare those demons hurt and abandone him 🤬🤬
🗡Good day. Thanks for the update ~♡