Author: aji (あじ)
Translator: sleepingjay
A quiet laugh bubbled between them, like a pair sharing a secret.
Jill’s curved eyes gleamed a soft gold.
“So, you figured out what made me collapse? Why did you want to isolate me?”
“Lilius, about that—”
“If it’s something you can’t or don’t want to talk about, fine. But if it’s something I can ask about, then I want you to discuss it with me.”
“…..Right. Can you promise that once you listen to what I have to say, you’ll rest properly and won’t push yourself?”
“I promise.”
“Well, then; I’ll talk. That day after I was told that your heart had stopped, I ignored everybody else and teleported up to the mountains with you.”
“The mountains where we made up?”
“Aa. There, no matter how much magic is unleashed, there will be no damage. ….It’s disgraceful, but I lost control; my mind suddenly went blank and it seemed my magic went on a rampage. I kept hugging you to myself, sitting there without doing anything.”
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Jill caressed my body, his touch searching, making sure that I was truly present, here and now.
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“……You mean, my body absorbed Jill’s magic into itself?”
“I don’t know for sure. But even the surplus magic I usually keep suppressed was absorbed by your body, and then within a short time I noticed your heart started beating quietly. From there, temperature gradually returned to your body, and I found that you were breathing again.”
“So that’s why you locked me in a magic-obstructing room?”
“….Yes, but that’s not all of it.”
“And that’s the part that you can’t talk about.”
“Please, I just need you to wait a little longer. Once I get to the core of things—”
“I,”
Jill’s voice was tight, as if rushed by impatience.
This was about me, and it was probably strange for the person in question himself to say this, but there really was no need for Jill to torment himself over this.
So I interrupted Jill, not wanting to hear what he had to say beyond that.
“As long as you tell me one thing, I’ll believe whatever you ask me to believe.”
That was what “being together” was.
And that was why I had been terrified. Why I hadn’t wanted to get close to Jill, even if I knew he liked me.
But,
“I love you, so I believe you.”
“Lilius.”
“En?”
“Please trust me.”
“En. So you don’t have to push yourself so hard, okay? As long as you don’t lie about liking me, then I don’t care how much you have to hide. I wanted to tell you that.”
Jill was vital to the safety of this empire.
Even as his lover, there were many things he wouldn’t be able to tell me, and his responsibilities would only increase in the future.
Jill was far more sensitive than people thought he was. He was able to do even the most ruthless of things as if it was nothing special, but it was after all very painful, so eventually he became better at being desensitized to it.
But I didn’t want him to have to do that when he was with me. I wanted him to rest, even for a little—as just a man.
“I’m selfish and arrogant, and I definitely cause more trouble than I’m worth. But I’m going to work hard so I can become a man that Jill can rely on and rest around. That’s why, I hope that you won’t push yourself when you’re with me.”
At first I hated the distance, the lies. There were times where I had been tempted to believe that he had a guilty conscience, that he was lying to me.
But every time I looked into his golden eyes, those feelings would die down.
How strange. If it was this man, being fooled didn’t seem to be that bad.
If I had not met Jill, I would have never known this: when you loved someone so deeply, even pain would become a beautiful love.
Um… this chapter sounded pretty ominious… there’s obviously something going on but I’m clueless where this is going. With how short the chapters are I believe there’ll be many cliffhangers to come.
Thank you for the chapter!!!
XD I think that, “the core of this things” is fetus. I realy hope so
thanks for the chapter <3