Author: aji (あじ)
Translator: sleepingjay
NSFW warning
Past sexual abuse. PTSD flashback.
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I sat down on the bed and clung desperately to him.
I couldn’t bear to leave Jill. Even when he moved away to take off his shirt, I chased after him for a kiss.
“Nn, un.”
I wanted to do something about the voices I leaked out when we separated to breathe, but my mind was so occupied with Jill and the sensations he was giving me that I couldn’t seem to get it to work.
Jill fell on top of me, covering my body that was sitting on the bed, and gave me a kiss that made me melt.
It was impatient and messy, but at the same time, my whole body felt loved. Those contradictory feelings washed over me, and I tightly wrapped my arms around his back.
“Wa–it…. ahh.”
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He wasn’t willing to let go of even the saliva that I couldn’t swallow and spilled out, hugging me and deepening the kiss.
“Nnn….nh!”
As the sweet waves of sensation spread slowly through my body, my waist swayed.
I found myself instinctively rubbing my crotch against his strong thighs, and the obscenity made me dizzy.
—Aah, what do I do?
Just the kiss made my cock so swollen it hurt. I already felt like I was about to come.
The feeling that ran up my spine scared me, and I subconsciously pushed Jill away.
Then I tried to restrain my body, but there was no possible way to stop the pleasure that had run wild.
Inside my underwear, my cock pulsed, drenching it, and I went into a panic at the fact that I had completely spilled that turbid fluid.
“—Hhk!”
When I nervously looked up at Jill, he seemed to overlap with a red-black shadow, blindsiding me.
No, it wasn’t Jill. That was not Jill, I knew that.
Even so, the past I had forgotten, the past that I didn’t know—I seemed to see fangs, turning towards me. A fist raised.
“I’m sorry!”
I shut my eyes tight, protecting my head.
If I selfishly chased my own pleasure, I would be punished badly, so I—
My heart, which had been excited, slowly froze over, and the air went deathly still.
“….I, I…….please, no, I’m sorry,”
A single tear dropped from the corner of my eye.
The illusion faded away, and when my vision cleared up, Jill was there, his face filled with sadness.
Now, realising what I had done, what I had just remembered, the guilt made me want to run.
“It’s okay, Lilius. I said I’ll love whichever you (no matter who) you are, remember?”
“—!”
My breath hitched.
Jill pulled my hand as I tried to escape, and hugged me close.
When he stroked my back to soothe me, my mind and my body both went lax.
As if to comfort my trembling body, Jill placed me on his lap and then wrapped me up in his embrace.
“You don’t have to be afraid, Lilius.”
“……..S–sorry, I,”
“You don’t have to force yourself to say anything. You, your past, I love all of you. Besides, even if you’re crying, your face is still unbearably cute.”
“……hah, stupid, isn’t it?”
If I had known that I would meet Jill, I would have resisted even if I died.
I wanted to give everything to Jill. My first time, Jill’s first time, I had greedily wished to have all of it.
As if to chase away the tears that were spilling out drop by drop, a rain of kisses fell on me.
Eventually, the kiss reached my lips, as soft as a comforting caress.
Ahh the feels. Both 😳 and 😢. The memories of Lilius’s past resurfaced, but now he’s with Jill and Jill will heal his heart. Thank you for the chapter!!!
ah, Jill! Thanks for being so careful with Lilius. He needs to heal and the comfort and protection you give him will help him tremendously.
thanks for the chapter <3
This hurt my heart.
It’s belated, but thanks for the chapter. ☺️