As willingly offered flesh tasted strangely sweet, Xu Yintang couldn’t describe his current feelings. He felt as though he was toasting and feasting with countless versions of himself—in a murky darkness where no one could see each other’s consciousness, where countless possibilities about the future tangled and collided like a gridlocked intersection.
He could hear their conversations, but those words exceeded the limits of his understanding. Each intonation was so bizarre and twisted that they couldn’t be imitated or remembered, as if they shouldn’t exist at all.
Thus, Xu Yintang’s head also became strange along with those conversations. The patterns that had briefly appeared on him before now grew wildly, spreading to devour the moonlight of Daeis.
Gradually, he could hear the conversations more clearly. They spoke of sacrifices, offspring, destruction, and rebirth.
They also debated what form to take—monsters? deities? humans or wandering undead?
Hush—
The noisy cries of the offspring abruptly ceased, and all the fantasies of reproduction from Daeis were instantly erased.
This was a feast where the gods were sitting, Xu Yintang… he, they – politely kept their promises, so the sacrifice could only taste the sweet taste shallowly.
Contrary to Shi Yuebai’s imagined bloody and violent feast, perhaps due to the injected venom that bewildered the mind, the sensation of pain was weak and ambiguous between the licking and biting at the neck and heart.
More than that, the waves of indulgence, pleasure, and chaos rushed in…
He almost felt as if his soul was being eroded by delusional illusions of communion with the gods, his body tense and exhausted to the limit yet limp and relaxed, his soft tail uncontrollably convulsing and trembling.
Like a chalice on an altar, desperately trying to contain an overflow of nectar.
This should have been a sacred and selfless act of love, where the resulting chaos and primal order would fill the insatiable stomach of the offspring, teaching it rationality, restraint, and obedience.
But Xu Yintang does not name these characteristics as virtues. He shapes his cubs this way simply because he wants them to be this way.
It would be a good child.
Just as he spent much useless energy indulging the sacrifice beneath him, allowing touches and kisses that were no different from desecration.
No, touches and kisses were not desecration.
It was the fleshly desire aroused by the honey-like sweetness in his golden eyes.
We’re sorry for MTLers or people who like using reading mode, but our translations keep getting stolen by aggregators so we’re going to bring back the copy protection. If you need to MTL please retype the gibberish parts.
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As the figures seated in the darkness had not yet touched the moonlight, they left the seats like a dream, thanking the host for his generous hospitality, and perhaps one day in the future, Xu Yintang would also be among their guests.
The distant and indistinct whispers rustled like white noise in Xu Yintang’s head, barely audible but he felt he had caught one or two particularly loud sighs of regret, praising the nearly completed sacrifice.
Of course, if one wanted to change the term, calling them lovers was also acceptable—they were interchangeable in their world.
Unfortunately, Xu Yintang was stingy and unwilling to share too much with them, so he scattered moonlight to drive away every unwelcome guest.
So when he opened his eyes, he found his complete reflection in the bright golden eyes washed clean by tears.
All the alien, inhuman, and incomprehensible traits—all those not meant for humans—were neatly tucked under this human skin, orderly and uniform, to the point of contradiction with his essence.
This was the first time Xu Yintang had done this kind of thing, somewhat awkwardly but still managed to control the situation smoothly. His Sanity began to stabilize and rise again, and the Mystery value that should have been irreversible seemed to be manipulated backstage, gradually dropping from terrifying numbers that breached human limits until it settled back into a safe zone.
After completing these tasks, Shi Yuebai had not yet regained consciousness. Drenched in blood and sweat, he resembled a cat caught in the rain, his tail low, ears drooping, and any slight touch would trigger an overloaded stress response.
However, some cats, when stressed, would cower and let themselves be manipulated, while others would bare their claws and fiercely hiss, driving away anyone who dared to approach.
Xu Yintang was violently knocked down by the counterattack of a large felid, and the dull sound of his back hitting the floor echoed.
It sounded very painful.
The cubs huddled together in the corner made uneasy noises. They wanted to rush over to protect their mother and drive away the villain, but they were afraid that their mother would transform into what he was just a moment ago.
They were completely frightened by Xu Yintang’s recent changes, as the colossal and terrifying presence completely overshadowed the emotional connection between parent and child. Fear from a higher level stirred another instinct, stronger and more imperious, commanding them to obey, serve, and worship, with their master’s voice as the only shared will.
The offspring loved their mother very much. They knew they should lean against their mother at this time, huddle together to protect their exhausted and weak mother. However, their entire sense of self was wiped away, turning them into lifeless puppets. The fear deeply rooted in their consciousness made it difficult for them to move their bodies to approach the source of fear.
Even the unborn offspring forcibly linked to Xu Yintang dared not cry out for hunger anymore. The order imposed on it during it’s gestation process began to take effect. It tried to be as quiet as if it didn’t exist, clumsily and cautiously simulating a docile and pleasing mood.
It’s nature was in complete contradiction with it’s actions.
But mother liked, liked this kind of child.
“…Good child.” Xu Yintang was satisfied that his teaching had worked. This offspring finally seemed to have some manners, no longer dribbling saliva all over the floor in front of it’s siblings.
Even when given some nutrients again, it knew how to endure its appetite like a well-trained puppy, patiently waiting for its mother’s command to eat—even if it only lasted less than three seconds before it broke down and started eating greedily, it was still a huge step forward compared to before.
Xu Yintang couldn’t help but rub Shi Yuebai, who was pressed against him, and joked while pinching his drooping airplane ears, “You should learn from it… Hmm, making such a mess and not eating, the offspring will laugh at you.”
“…”
Shi Yuebai remained silent, biting down hard on the flesh between his teeth in response.
As rationality returned with the first bite, Xu Yintang, still behaving like a wild beast, clawed and bit at him. The blood flowing from the wounds mixed with his own blood, emitting a seductive and dizzying fragrance.
Relaxing his body, Xu Yintang leaned back, half sitting, letting whatever happen, happen. After all the commotion, he was tired, and the new offspring still consumed his strength. Now he really wanted to close his eyes and sleep well, enjoying the soothing warmth of Second Treasure’s soul caress in his dreams.
Yawning, Xu Yintang glanced at Second Treasure sneaking a peek from the corner, held by Little Darling’s tentacles, and chuckled, patting beside him, “Come here, I won’t eat you guys again.”
Hearing mother’s call, Second Treasure hesitantly peeked out, left paw stepping on right paw, wanting to go over but not daring to. It took a lot of effort to tremble forward, leaning over while crawling, making whimpering noises with a milk-like voice.
It was imitating its own cries when it was just a small infant clinging to its mother’s chest, hoping to evoke more… more of its mother’s love, rather than becoming a cold and unfeeling bad mother.
It was extremely scared, making every step forward tentative, its five eyes timidly watching its mother’s expression. It would run away at the slightest movement.
Shi Yuebai’s tail tightly wrapped around Xu Yintang’s waist, buried his head in his chest as if trying to suffocate himself in it. Feeling Second Treasure approaching, he silently moved aside, making room for Second Treasure to squeeze in.
Normally, with Shi Yuebai’s arrogant territorial behavior, Second Treasure would definitely hiss and protest, but now, under the huge psychological shadow that their mother might turn into a bad mother, Second Treasure silently endured the resentment of being pushed aside by the male mistress and, with claws scratching, huddled against his mother’s chest, pushing Shi Yuebai’s ears aside to press closer, counting the beats of his mother’s heart in his chest.
Just listening to this made him feel safe and secure, as if he had finally found a warm haven.
As Second Treasure purred and rubbed incessantly, squeezing into a ball, tears streamed down it’s small face uncontrollably.
Wuwuwu, it was really scared QAQ
What if its mother really became a bad mother who didn’t love its cubs QAQ
Second Treasure didn’t want to be abandoned by its mother QAQ
As Second Treasure cried, Little Darling and Third Flora, curled up in the corner, also started crying loudly, one by one calling for their mother as they squeezed next to Xu Yintang. They didn’t mind that there was also Shi Yuebai, who didn’t want to move, taking up space. Tentacles entwined, butterflies fluttering, wrapping around Shi Yuebai as well.
At this moment, the terrified cubs just wanted to cling to their mother tightly, to confirm that their mother was still with them, still the same mother as before.
Feeling his chest damp from Second Treasure’s tears and drool, Xu Yintang pondered as he touched Shi Yuebai’s hair, “Are you—”
…
Alright.
Xu Yintang surrendered and, amidst the background noise of the cubs’ crying, reluctantly grabbed a scapegoat, “Yes, yes, it’s all because Second Treasure cried, it’s not your fault. Stop biting, stop it, you’ll lose your teeth—”
Author’s Note –
I went bald writing the first half of this chapter.
How joyful it is to imagine in the outline, but how agonizing it is to try to create an atmosphere.
I hope everyone can feel that sex/love itself is sacred and selfless desire, simulating the birth of the world and the formation of chaotic order. Love is the combination of madness and desire, making the divine nature of selflessness return to humanity.
By the way, this passage was inspired by Ryu Murakami’s “Venus in Furs,” and I personally quite like the analysis of earth mother worship in it. Interested angels can go and read it.
And there’s a line, “Sex itself is not erotic; it’s consciously evoking or suggesting this image that makes it erotic.”
It can also be understood that mother Xu Yintang himself is not “sensual,” and it’s me who describes him through yellow-tinted glasses who is the true LSP [definitely].
its 5am and i still havent slept can someone razor language this for me pls i feel dumb reading this chapter 😭😭😭
Xu Yintang decides to bite Shi Yuebai cuz of some urge to supplement himself or something
During this, he has these crazy hallucinations about having more kids whilst there’s some sort of deity meeting going on inside his mind
All the whispering and stuff makes him real contemplative and he becomes enlightened and he fully accepts Shi Yuebai’s identity as his lover instead of some dude he’s ok with making out with
He decides to stop the meeting and kick the others out cuz he doesn’t want them to see him doing stuff with his lover
He returns to normal and has to coax everyone into calming down cuz he scared them into thinking he was gonna eat them.
This is basically what I think was going on and I hope you can understand this.
Thank you for this cuz I didn’t understand anything either 😭😭
I’m still confused if they had sex or if XYT just literally bit and ate shi yuebai ; o ;
It’s the latter, he probably was thinking of something but he wouldn’t do it in front of the kids lol
Oh yeah true I forgot about the kids lol
This was such a cool and weird chapter. This has me really curious as to what form Xu Yintang will transform into when he goes full lovecraftian god/monster.
Tiamat!
Love the authors note. Always cool to peek behind the scenes
Beautifully done! Thank you!🧡🧡🧡🧡
Wow!! 🤯 I love the way this author writes!! I had to reread a few sections to better understand what was going on, but it’s so good and trippy and different from a lot of other things that I’ve read. Thanks for the chapter!!
4th child!! Sex?!?! Rock ‘n’ Roll. And then drugs, because that was a trip.
THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR BEING AWESOME!!!
Wow, it was breathtaking
Thank you for your translation 💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚