My Boyfriend Discovered My Zhihu ResponseCh1 - My Secret (Part One)

Q: What’s a secret you’ll never let your partner know? RZQ1yF

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Whenever I see you, I’ll always say to myself: Don’t fall too deep, ease up on the accelerator, because we’re merely going steady.

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You’re too good, illuminating every inch of shadow in my heart like the sun. I really want to stray away from the unthinkable, but if one day, you are to lose interest in me and leave, what will I do?

I heard of a phrase before; it’s better if you leave, saving me from the looming worries of when you will leave. d J5F3

I took that phrase to heart.

Believe it or not, I have thought several times that it would be better if you fell in love with someone else now. Before I fall in completely, before I am not indispensable to you, leave me first so that I will not be in pain later. .

You might not believe it, but this thought always crosses my mind. If only you will like someone else right now and leave before I’m in too deep and before you become my necessity, otherwise, the pain will be too unbearable.

I didn’t expect so many people would read my casual rant. Many thanks for the friendly comments and comforting words.

However, I have also seen some friends say that I am hypocritical and worry about gains and losses, and they are right. I am not angry at all. I also want to be more open-minded and think less, but it’s a little difficult, so I’m trying to change.

But I did see people calling me unreasonable and being swayed by considerations of gain and loss. You were right to call me out, and I’m not angry at all. I also want to be open-minded and stop over analyzing everything. Although these are difficult goals, I’ll strive to change my way of thinking.

Also, please don’t like my response. I don’t want my response to get too popular. The less people read it, the better, since my boyfriend is also active on Zhihu (´๑•_•๑)

You guys are so mean! NugdLI

What do you mean you’d like my response if I don’t tell my story? And take me to the front page while you’re at it??

We’re sorry for MTLers or people who like using reading mode, but our translations keep getting stolen by aggregators so we’re going to bring back the copy protection. If you need to MTL please retype the gibberish parts.

Hmph! I’m not gonna tell my story. So, what are you going to do (´▽｀)ノ

By the way, I still have to refute those who say that little girls are sentimental and moan unnecessarily. First, the moaning is only for me personally and does not extend to others; second, I am a man, um, gay, because I am anonymous. I got a little carried away and forgot to mention it.

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Finally, are you guys sure you want to hear my story?

Alright, I underestimate the power of rotten girls…

You think it’s possible for me to not tell my story now?

In fact, I really want to tell the story about me and him. After all, because of gender, let alone showing affection, I rarely even have the opportunity to introduce my partner to others. nUmT9W

As it happens, I’m also quite on board to share our story, especially with the nature of our genders. Never mind showing our affection, I rarely get a chance to introduce my partner to others.

I’m posting anonymously anyway, plus my boyfriend is not someone who browses this kind of topic, so why not?

Story translated by Chrysanthemum Garden.

I am a junior in college this year and my boyfriend is also a junior in college. I am in Suzhou and he is in Shanghai. I met him at the subway station half a year ago. It was actually quite a coincidence. When I took the subway back to school, there were so many people that I couldn’t stand steady even though I was carrying several big bags of stuff in my hands. I accidentally got swarmed up to me. The crowd squeezed him down, and he happened to fall into the arms of someone.

I’m a third-year college student, and the same is true for my boyfriend. I study in Suzhou, while he is in Shanghai. We met half a year ago at the subway station. Now I mentioned it, the whole thing was quite coincidental. The subway station was very crowded, and I was on my way back to campus, carrying several large bags beyond my capacity. When the train arrived, I lost my balance amidst the pushing, and I happened to fall into someone’s arms. PvsHhd

Using arms here didn’t feel quite right. Correction, I smacked his chest with my back. He caught me on instinct. Yes, I know, this story sounded very cliche and fake, but it’s the truth.

I turned my head, and my eye level was about his flattened lips. I also remembered that generally, normal guys aren’t willing to be this close with a stranger, so I quickly straightened up and increased the gap between us.

I thanked him, he told me it’s fine. Then he put his headphones back on and turned his attention elsewhere. Since he didn’t seem to mind, I didn’t make a big deal out of it. To be honest, it was a small hiccup, so I didn’t take it to heart.

In fact, he was very good-looking. Although I didn’t dare to take a closer look, I could tell from a few glances in panic that he was a handsome guy. He was different from the popular appearance nowadays. His facial features were very three-dimensional and his hair was cut short. It looked like he was handsome. Get up and feel upright. But as a gay, I didn’t have any special feelings at the time because he was not my type. qsU94H

Believe it or not, he is very good looking. Although I didn’t dare to get a good look at him, a glimpse of him was enough to know he is handsome. He was dressed the same stylish way, had very well-defined facial features, shorter than average hair, and looked very upright. But as a gay, I didn’t get any special feeling at that time because he wasn’t my type.

But what I didn’t expect was that we were going to the same place. He got off at the same station as I did, we went towards the same exit, and headed in the same direction. Since we looked about the same age, I thought he might be a student at H University. At first, I wanted to say hello to him as a fellow schoolmate, but I got shy and stayed passive. In the end, he halted me at the school gate.

The story was, he wanted to tour around H University, but it has entry restrictions, so outsiders can’t get in. His original plan was to have a good time on campus, but something came up and had to change his plan. He asked if we could exchange WeChat and wondered if I could show him around if I’m not busy.

You should know that if you want to visit a university, you can drag a student from the same school outside the school and pretend to be with you to avoid the security inspection. I was suddenly stopped by a stranger at that time, and I didn’t react. He didn’t look like a bad person. , and gave him WeChat. jxYuqk

You guys should know that to tour around a university, you can stop any students outside the campus ground and walk through the gate with the student. By pretending to be with that student, you can avoid showing your ID to the guard at the gate. At that time, his request was so sudden that before my brain had caught up, I gave him my WeChat information because he didn’t look like a bad person.

Only when I walked through the gate did it dawn on me that he could have stopped any other students the next time he visited. There was no reason to add me on WeChat.

As expected, he had a motive.

At the same time, he messaged me and tried to chat me up. My little radar quickly detected that we are the same kind. I don’t like to be in this ambiguous relationship with others, so I went straight to the point and asked him. He gave me a positive answer, as well as saying how he fell for me at first sight. Yz5yXj

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Like, how? I look very average (I’m not being modest; I’m merely stating a fact). If he gets an eight in appearance, I get a five at most.

But for some reason, in his eyes, I scored a ten with three stars on top. I still don’t understand how to this day. Other people said beauty is in the eye of the beholder, for him, I think ‘love is blind’ is more like it.

He started to chase me, morning, noon and night, and would share everything with me, such as any interesting news in school, he had recently met someone weird… Of course, he is not a very noisy person, he sent me Those things are quite interesting, but they still make me a little uncomfortable. 3r7sc9

He began to pursue me, not one day did he not share things with me, such as interesting news that happened on his campus, or the new weirdo he encountered for the day…of course, he didn’t bombard my WeChat, and the things he sent were quite interesting. Even so, I wasn’t used to this.

I rarely, or should I say never, keep in frequent contact with a stranger. He tested my boundaries over and over again, trying to become part of my world. Just the thought of it caused me panic and made me feel flustered.

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In his own words, he suddenly turned into a ‘simp’, he didn’t even know when it got started, he became the king of simp.

Just like that, he ‘simp’ over me for a month. 6JbhDY

Alright, I really didn’t want to use that term on my boyfriend, despite it being his own words.

It’s because he is just too outstanding. Not only is he handsome with good nature, but he is also studying at the best university in Shanghai. Based on what he sent me, he excelled in his grades. As for his family background, it’s not bad either, judging by the lack of unnamed brand clothes on him.

Besides that, the most important thing was how gentle he was to me. I had never felt like the center of anyone’s universe.

Fine, other than being clingy and childish at times, I can’t find a single flaw about him. RqV6Mj

For a person like him to be my simp, what was he playing at?

I’m not rich, without power, and lack appearance. As a small town nobody, this really put fear in me.

So, I told him that I didn’t want him to waste his time on me.

The afternoon after he received the news, he took the high-speed train and came to my school to look for me. Although it seemed that we had been entangled for a while, that day was actually the second time we met. MqRHXu

When he received my message, he got on the next train and came to my campus to find me that very same day. Although it might seem we have been dancing around each other for a long time, this was actually our second time meeting in real life.

I was very nervous, and he was as well.

Both of us were equally at a loss for words, and he even forgot the purpose of coming here. I saw him put a hand behind his head and his blushing face. The first thing he said was…

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This instantly got to me, and I felt tenderhearted for no reason.

Later, I took him to visit my school, which fulfilled his wish. When it was almost over, he grabbed my hand when he saw that there were so few people around, and told me that he was determined to catch me.

Later, I showed him around my campus like he had wanted. Right before the end of the tour, he took my hand when there weren’t many people around us and told me how he had decided to win over my heart.

Well~my class is about to start. I’ll continue the story after my classes are over. Gosh, I suddenly realized I could make a series out of our story. 7aexQ

The translator has something to add:

Teo: Starting a short novel project on a whim. Something to note about this novel is that it was originally posted on Changpei/ Gongzicp but moved to jjwxc. This translator tried to cross check to the best of my ability. Please let me know if there are chapters out there I didn’t translate. The special characters also got affected. Something like (´▽｀)ノ became (?▽｀)ノ. Used my best judgment to correct them.

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Side note, this project was done completely in HTL (human translation). It’ll be very different from my usual work (´。＿。｀). I wanted to see how well I can translate without the aid of MTL (machine translation). It did take me longer to translate and with more of my personal style showing, because I translate whatever pops into my head first, as to using MTL as reference.

Lastly, there will be no Discord role for this novel, because it’s too short. Hope that saved readers’ time to look for the role/ ask for the role! vLVG7Q