Translator: Abo Dammen
Trigger warning: Attempted suicide. Please proceed with caution.
The drapes were open, the sun was shining, and the bedspread was bathed in warm light.
Bai Tang was held down and kissed by Jiang Yunshu sleepily. Though his consciousness was still groggy, he enthusiastically embraced his alpha. However, his eyes seemed to instinctively play slow motion as he witnessed Jiang Yunshu slump backwards in the following millisecond. The body of the alpha landed hard and rebounded upward.
It came on suddenly and was really abrupt.
It was dead silent.
At that moment, Bai Tang was completely frozen. His entire body immediately went into a condition of stress, as though a sharp needle had violently jabbed him in the temple. His mind stopped working, he sat immobile on the bed, and his expression was blank. He held his breath.
It was like something was strangling him. He was having trouble breathing, and his face was turning a suffocating shade of red. He held his breath and his body twitched frantically till he was almost out. He furiously coughed, got out of bed, stooped, and crept over to Jiang Yunshu. His trembling hands were positioned beneath the alpha’s nose, and his numb ears were forced up near the alpha’s heart. “What, what’s happening… What’s happening? It isn’t, it isn’t April fools today… Dr. Jiang? Dr. Jiang!”
His mouth moved, but no sound came out.
It was quite silent.
No one responded to him.
Make a call…BAI TANG! Make an emergency call! He mentally yelled at himself and gave orders.
Yes, yes… call… Bai Tang hurried to the nightstand, his toes catching the jagged edges. He had trouble holding his phone steady and dropped it multiple times. Thankfully, the emergency number is just three digits long, or otherwise he might have to press it dozens of times before he got it right with his shaky hands.
The call connected.
Before the other line could speak, Bai Tang interrupted and reported their address stammeringly. The tip of his nose is covered with cold sweat. “S-Someone fainted… help, help… H-He’s breathing and he has a heartbeat… but he just fell down…”
The person on the other end of the phone said they’d come over right away and urged him to lay the patient down, unbutton his garments if there were any to loosen the airway, and tilt his face to one side to avoid oxygen deprivation
Bai Tang’s emotions collapsed and he completed the instructions one by one, saying with a wisp of hysteria, “I-I’ve done everything… What else? Come on, come on, come on…”
At this moment, Jiang Yunshu’s body suddenly twitched unconsciously, his brows furrowed tightly. He looked like he was in extreme pain, as if he was struggling.
Bai Tang’s eyes widened, his pupils dilated slightly, and a sound came out of his throat. He screamed, crying into the phone with a high pitch, “HE, HE’S MOVING! Twitching…! What to do, what to do!”
The person who answered the phone sensed that he was not in the correct frame of mind, so he immediately said, “This is a pretty normal phenomenon. For instance, seizures are sometimes seen alongside syncope and hypoglycemia. It’s also possible that his subconscious is at war with his body. It is very normal. First, try to calm yourself down.”
S-Subconscious… Bai Tang’s expression turned dull, and when he heard the word.He immediately thought of something bad, and he said dully: “…What? What subconscious… ”
His wrist was suddenly grabbed.
Bai Tang subconsciously yelled, trembling all over in fright. He looked down at his wrist. It was the alpha’s hand that grabbed him tightly, so hard that his wrist hurt.
Bai Tang was overjoyed in an instant, without even noticing that the corners of his mouth were raised, he shouted, “He grabbed me…! He woke up! He…”
His voice came to an abrupt end.
Because he met an extremely cold gaze. The alpha’s eyes were wide open, without focus or temperature. He just stared straight at Bai Tang.
It had been a long time since Bai Tang had seen such a look in his eyes.
Only Jiang Yunsu would look at him like that.
“AAAHHHHHH——” His joy was doused by cold water. A long, piercing scream erupted from him, and he struck furiously at the alpha’s palm before desperately trying to retreat to the corner. He continued to bump into objects, which caused the items on the table to fall to the ground violently.
Bai Tang clamped his hands over his ears, let out a strangled cry, his eyes bulging.
Subconsciousness….. Fighting against… Woke up…Jiang Yunsu…
So…so it was Dr. Jiang who was fighting Jiang Yunsu just now? Then why…why look at me like that…..Dr. Jiang wouldn’t look at me like that! Yes, Jiang Yunsu, it’s him, it is him… Jiang Yunsu…T-Then, what about Dr. Jiang? Where did Dr. Jiang go? Did he lose…..Where’s Dr. Jiang? What’s going on! Is he dead…. dead?
Dead.
This word came to Bai Tang’s mind, and he screamed again.
That’s not true, that’s not true! Bai Tang was panting heavily, and from the corner of his vision, he saw the alpha’s body calm down again. No… Dr. Jiang, Dr. Jiang went to another world! Yes, yes, that’s right… That’s how Dr. Jiang came here…. That’s right! That’s right!
He wants to go with Dr. Jiang! We’ll go together…but how, how? How can he go with Dr. Jiang… Bai Tang suddenly thought of something, his eyes lit up for a moment. Yes, yes…. He got to his feet clumsily, then fell back down, then got back up, then staggered into the room’s bathroom, where he took up the razor-sharp eyebrow shaver and aimed it at his wrist.
Yes…as long as I die….. Dr. Jiang is like this… Dead, he’s dead. Bai Tang’s face was stained with a little smile. It’s fine to die….
He didn’t cut it properly the first time. His hands were shaking so much that he couldn’t even hold the eyebrow shaver.
Hurry up… Hurry up Bai Tang! If he can’t catch up with Dr. Jiang….. If he can’t catch up, Dr. Jiang must be very scared now. He went to another place by himself… He has to be with Dr. Jiang, he has to be with him…Dr. Jiang will feel scared…
He has to accompany Jiang Yunshu.
Blood gushed out and fell onto the clean white floor tiles.
He was close to losing consciousness, and hiding in the restroom corner, feeling numb all over. Even though he was already feeling dizzy, he grabbed an eyebrow razor and repeatedly sliced at the cut since he thought the blood wasn’t flowing quickly enough.
He still has to be on guard against Jiang Yunsu… In case Jiang Yunsu wakes up, Jiang Yunsu won’t let him go…
Suddenly, he heard an extremely loud dog barking. Probably because it smelled blood, Heitang was frantically pawing at the door for an unknown amount of time.
“Arf! ARF!!! ARF!!!!” The barking became louder..
Bai Tang’s tears burst again at that moment. Right, Heitang… What about H-Heitang? He and Dr. Jiang would go to another world, but what about Heitang…
Tears diluted the blood but soon it covered him again. He doesn’t know, doesn’t know anymore…Forgive me, I’m so sorry Heitang… I’m abandoning you… I’m is not a qualified owner. But, but Dr. Jiang is more important, Dr. Jiang is very scared.
“Bang!” It sounded like Heitang was banging on the door.
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Bai Tang trembled from fright.
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Suddenly, another thought popped up in his brain: What if Dr. Jiang hasn’t left yet? What if he was still fighting with Jiang Yunsu? At that moment just now, Jiang Yunsu might just have the upper hand…Jiang Yunsu is so bad, h-he must have used some dirty method to gain the upper hand…. Doctor Jiang is so amazing… Dr. Jiang is great…No one could say for certain. In the end, Dr. Jiang might just win…
Bai Tang slightly raised his head. Yes, there is also this possibility….
Dr. Jiang is so, so, so powerful——!
So what is he going to do now…. Shouldn’t he go cheer on Dr. Jiang? Tell Dr. Jiang he’s still here? Yes, yes, that’s right. In this way, Dr. Jiang will be more determined…and will be energised…
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As long as there is a 1% chance that it is Jiang Yunshu, he will work hard.
Seeing that the alpha’s eyes were closed, Bai Tang lost all colour on his face, and his lips trembled uncontrollably. “D-Dr. Jiang! I am Bai Tang! I am Bai Tang…C-Can you hear me?”
He curled up next to the alpha and rubbed the alpha’s hand affectionately, repeating in a low voice over and over again, Jiang Yunshu…Yunshu, It’s Bai Tang…you have to work hard… okay, okay?
Then his expression changed, and suddenly he hit the alpha hard on the chest, shouting, “Jiang Yunsu, get out! Get out! Go die! Die.. Die! Return your body to Dr. Jiang!”
After a while, he calmed down again and gently said, “Dr. Jiang… Jiang Yunshu, it’s Bai Tang..can you hear me? It’s Bai Tang…”
His elbows suddenly rubbed something hard. He lifted his eyes slowly and looked at it. It was a phone.
Right, right….. He hasn’t made an emergency call yet …. He, he didn’t even make an emergency call! Bai Tang stood up and put on those three numbers.
There were a few beeps, and then it was picked up.
Bai Tang thought for a long time before remembering the address. He babbled, “I, someone on my side has collapsed… collapsed! Come here you guys… come on!'”
On the other line, “Hello, it has been 8 minutes after your first call passed. The ambulance should be arriving soon. Please wait patiently! First, flatten the patient, then unbutton his collar, and turn head to the side.”
Bai Tang‘s hands fumbled in mid air. A steady stream of blood soaked the alpha’s clothing, and he was struggling to keep his grip. His vision began to swirl and his consciousness slowly faded. He caught himself just in time by hitting the edge of the bed with the palm of his right hand.
The pain sobered him up for a moment. He shook his head, and his eyes moved slowly, checked, and replied, “The buttons are un-unclasped…”
He felt he was about to fall forward again, so he quickly smashed the edge of the bed with his hand again, but it didn’t hurt enough. He felt a tendency to fall forward again, so he quickly hit the edge of the bed again, but it didn’t hurt enough.
Why…why he is so weak! Why can’t he even protect his lover…why, why…
As if he couldn’t help it, he smashed it more than a dozen times until the back of his hand was dripping with blood.
Bai Tang held his breath and looked back at the alpha. His words were in chaos and he trembled as he spoke, “The button is open… he’s lying flat… flat, it’s flat…the head too…”
The person at that end told him to wait and they’ll arrive in less than three minutes.
The phone hung up.
Bai Tang stared at the darkened screen in a daze. After a while, he shifted his gaze to the alpha’s face, and his pupils suddenly shrank.
Jiang Yunshu’s face was covered with blood. He hurriedly wiped it with his hand, but the more he wiped it, the more it spread. “What happened… how, how did you bleed… where did you get hurt…”
Right, make an emergency call. He needs to make an emergency call…. He lay on the ground, gasping as he looked at his phone screen, and called.
The dialogue was exactly the same as the previous two.
The phone has hung up again.
In the end, Bai Tang lost his strength, and the dizziness of losing blood left him with his head on the ground. He couldn’t breathe, his brain was blank, and he couldn’t remember anything.
He really wanted to sleep…So sleepy.
But he couldn’t fall…. If he fell down, no one would call for an emergency for Dr. Jiang.But before he could collapse, he had to get through the call. He opened his eyes narrowly and nodded wildly as he lifted his hand.
Patter.
The warm liquid hit his face. He stared at his raised wrist for a long time.
The phone connected.
Bai Tang pressed any one of the recent call records. Zhou Zhaoyu’s voice came over. “Hello? Bai Tang?”
“We need help here… someone collapsed.” Bai Tang murmured unconsciously, his eyelids gradually pulling down, and his head tilted to the side. His voice became smaller and smaller. “I, I seem to be injured too … the blood’s flowing so fast….”
Immediately after that, his hand completely fell to the ground. The sound disappeared, leaving only Zhou Zhaoyu continuous eager shouting.
“Da——da——”
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Sounds from the outer world were muffled and distorted when they reached Jiang Yunshu’s ears, as if they were filtered through a thick membrane.
With tremendous effort, he opened his eyes, and his consciousness and sensations slowly returned. The strong odour of the disinfectant, the LED’s brilliant white light, and the sound of his own laboured breathing.
He didn’t die.
The moment he fell down, he was already green with regret.
What about Bai Tang? Where is Bai Tang…his omega should be freaking out…
Nobody was standing by his bed. Jiang Yunshu’s face was filled with confusion for a considerable amount of time. He opened his mouth and made every effort to speak, but he was unable to do so. “Bai Tang, Bai Tang…”
Suddenly, the door was pushed open, and when the person who came saw him, he was excited. “Fuck! He’s awake, he’s awake!”
Jiang Yunshu’s eyes swept across Lin Baizhou’s face. He fixed his gaze at the door behind the latter, but it was not Bai Tang who came in the next second, but Qin Zhongnan.
The door closed.
He murmured in a low voice, “…Where’s Bai Tang?”
Lin Baizhou froze when he heard his question, and it took him a long time before he answered, “Bai Tang is fine.”
Jiang Yunshu assumed that the doctor had given sleeping drugs for him, so he was drowsy and lacked stamina, so he missed the details on Lin Baizhou’s face and only heard that Bai Tang was alright.
He went back to sleep, but when he was about to fall asleep, he vaguely heard Lin Baizhou’s sigh. “Oh…why did you put yourself in the hospital?”
Jiang Yunshu thought his bones were about to come apart after waking up a second time. After what seemed like an eternity, he finally opened his eyes and sat himself up.
He was placed in a single ward. Qin Zhongnan was reading a magazine sitting on the sofa on the left. “You up? Do you feel any discomfort?”
Jiang Yunshu shook his head, full of happiness after surviving a catastrophe. At this moment he just wanted to see Bai Tang, apologise, and comfort his omega well.
“Feel your own body first,” Qin Zhongnan said, “Are you sure you don’t feel uncomfortable?”
Jiang Yunshu still shook his head. He didn’t dare to imagine Bai Tang’s reaction to watch him fall. He asked urgently, “Where is Bai Tang? He…”
Qin Zhongnan was shocked when the entrance to the ward was kicked open with a loud “bang” just as he was about to finish speaking.
Jiang Yunshu saw a flash in front of his eyes and felt his collar being lifted abruptly. He felt a brisk breeze in his ears.
Zheng Ruyun’s eyes were red, as if he had cried. His right palm, clenched into a fist, barely halted two centimetres from Jiang Yunshu’s temple as his left hand securely choked Jiang Yunshu’s collar. His hand was shaking so hard that his veins were protruding.
“Zheng Ruyun!” Panting, Lin Baizhou chased after him, grabbed Zheng Ruyun’s waist and stepped back. “Calm down!”
Zheng Ruyun gritted his teeth and for a little period of time, his left hand made an abrupt effort before being released. But he grew more irritated and pointed at Jiang Yunshu. “Fuck you….I-I was really crazy trusting you with Bai Tang.You know that if something happened to you, Bai Tang will…!”
He choked and couldn’t talk about it completely. He shook off Lin Baizhou, panting several times. His fist crumpled. “Fuck…forget it.”
Only Zheng Ruyun’s breathing sound came from the ward for a while.
For a long while.
“What happened?” Jiang Yunshu said softly, with a blank face, difficult. “Bai Tang… what happened?”
No one spoke.
This atmosphere…were doctors most familiar with.
…Why is no one speaking?
Jiang Yunshu’s heart was driven into the glacier by the awful silence. He was swiftly pulled towards the abyss by a heavy weight. His throat felt rusty, and the water had rolled into his nostrils and nose. He was unable to breathe, as if he had to gradually suffocate in the sea.
In the midst of his twirl, a tremendous ache shot through his brain. His lungs choked on air as a result of his body abruptly seizing and crashing against the hospital bed. His eyes were cloudy as he frantically coughed. As soon as he hit the bed, he realised he was surrounded by people. He saw Qin Zhongnan’s face’s serious face, and saw Lin Baizhou pinching a certain acupuncture point of his, and then pressing the call bell button near the bed.
He broke free from everyone’s fetters, tightly pressed his throbbing temples and shouted, “WHAT’S WRONG WITH BAI TANG!!!”
Both alphas couldn’t hold him down. Qin Zhongnan said, “Calm down, Bai Tang’s okay, just…'”
“I want to see him,” Jiang Yunshu interrupted in a panicked tone, only repeating, “I… I want to see him first.”
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Jiang Yunshu was still in front of the ward that was just next to him. Looking through the transparent door, he observed a patient lying still on the hospital bed in the room’s centre, as frail as a sheet of paper, with a face as white as a sheet of paper, lips that were completely devoid of blood, and only a hair’s breadth from death. He was tempted to go in and check the omega’s breath with his fingertips.
The most eye-catching feature was that on his left arm, where the gauze had been removed, under Bai Tang’s long winding scar on his wrist ———There were new bandages wrapped on it.
“Do you feel any discomfort?” Zhou Zhaoyu asked.
Jiang Yunshu shook his head, then said, “I want to go in.”
Zhou Zhaoyu looked at Qin Zhongnan.
Qin Zhongnan said, “The doctor checked when he woke up for the first time. There’s no problem.”
Zhou Zhaoyu’s face was very pale. “Bai Tang has just fallen asleep, and I haven’t slept yet. Don’t go in first.”
Jiang Yunshu’s head was blank. He opened his mouth but couldn’t speak.
“Let’s go next door to talk.” Zhou Zhaoyu exerted a little strength with his hand, signalling Jiang Yunshu to let go of the hand that was jamming the door.
Jiang Yunshu stared at the omega’s sleeping face, then slowly lowered his hand.
Zhou Zhaoyu gently closed the door.
“I believe you also know what happened to Bai Tang when you went unconscious.” Zhou Zhaoyu leaned against the window.
Jiang Yunshu was extremely silent and didn’t speak for a long time.
He seemed to be in disbelief, he didn’t dare to say that word, and he murmured in a very soft tone, “…How could this be?”
Even though it’s only been 11 hours, how could that omega that can laugh, dance and be full of vivid aura just…how did he suddenly become like this?
Zhou Zhaoyu said emotionlessly, “People who commit suicide usually encounter stressful negative life events prior to committing suicide,” seemingly in response to Jiang Yunshu’s question, as if they were just chatting casually. “Take embarrassment, loss, failure, or threat, for instance.
“Among them, the term “loss” alludes to the disappearance of important things, important people, beliefs that are essential to their life, etc.
“Even a normal person, let alone an omega full of psychological trauma, is extremely prone to this kind of action when they experience the loss of significant others, such as parents.”
Although Zhou Zhaoyu expressed the truth in all candour, it seemed as though Jiang Yunshu’s heart had been sliced open a little bit each time he spoke.
Qin Zhongnan, Lin Baizhou, and Zheng Ruyun didn’t say a word at this moment, seemingly to have heard this a long time ago.
“I can probably guess Bai Tang’s mental journey at that time,” Zhou Zhaoyu, with a haggard face, said slowly, “Do you want to listen?”
Jiang Yunshu has a slight tinnitus in his ears, and everything around him seemed to be twisting and screaming. His brain seemed to be filled with glue, it was so sticky that he couldn’t think. After an unknown amount of time, he moved his stiff fingers and said, “…Yes.”
“You arrived here following an unplanned passing in your old world. Bai Tang always held the opinion that Jiang Yunsu was not actually dead because of such inconceivable things as the soul. He claimed that he was merely waiting for an opening to quickly take his body back. So it’s understandable that when you slipped down this time, Bai Tang assumed you died or gone to another world. Basically, the guy lying in front of him is now Jiang Yunsu again in his mind.”
This was Zheng Ruyun’s second time hearing it. He felt stifled for a second time due to Zhou Zhaoyu’s narrative style of exposition. Just how desperate Bai Tang was at that moment was beyond even his wildest imagination.
Zhou Zhaoyu lightly dropped a heavy weight, ‘He thought you were dead, so he chose to die with you.'”
A heated current appeared to have burst through his damaged eardrum. The only effect on Jiang Yunshu was the same as if someone had viciously banged on his temple with an iron awl, making him temporarily lightheaded.
Thankfully, though, things took a sharp turn for the better at that moment. Perhaps Heitang ran up, or perhaps he noticed something that belonged to the two of you and no one else, inspiring him to give it one last go. He then contacted me after calling the emergency hotline.”
Zhou Zhaoyu would always remember Bai Tang’s absent-minded tone.
With his right hand firmly pressing the left wrist of the alpha as he was shivering and covered in blood, the omega cuddled up next to him. He asked in a low voice, “But what should I do…my blood is flowing out so fast…”
Helpless and dazed.
Zheng Ruyun jerked his head away, his eyes flushed, his cheeks bitten softly. Tears streamed from the corners of his eyes.
Jiang Yunshu’s fingers were so cold. He closed his eyes, unable to say anything.
“You’re in the hospital now.” Zhou Zhaoyu’s lips had no colour at all, and his emotions were a little out of sorts. He took a deep breath, trying to suppress it but couldn’t. “I don’t know what caused you to be overtired and fainted. Fortunately, it was just hypoglycemia this time. Fortunately, you woke up. Fortunately, it isn’t a disease. But what if something else really happened?”
The typically calm Zhou Zhaoyu said, “The body is the most important,” yet there was a slight tremble in his voice. Business issues will always be present. Speak up and let everyone know if you need help. There’s no need for you to shoulder the burden alone. Qin Zhongnan and I are also here, you can come and find us.”
There was silence around him. Qin Zhongnan’s brows furrowed.
Jiang Yunshu was also silent for a while.
Lin Baizhou, “Alright, that’s enough about it.”
“I don’t know if my guess is right,” Zhou Zhaoyu inhaled again, his temples throbbing with pain. He lowered his voice and said tiredly, “But if you really have a real psychological problem, you need to see a doctor.”
He paused, as if he wanted to say something more, but he decided to keep his mouth closed.
At the same moment, Qin Zhongnan took Zhou Zhaoyu, who had lost his composure, and pulled him out. He said to Jiang Yunshu, “Bai Tang just fell asleep with a sedative. His mental state is not very good. He is not in a suitable condition to meet you at the moment. We won’t disturb you for now. Please pay attention to your health, rest first, don’t think too much. I’ll come back to you later.”
The people in the room went out one by one, leaving only Lin Baizhou.
Jiang Yunshu lowered his head and stared at the dead white hospital bed without blinking.
Lin Baizhou muttered a curse under his breath.
“Your body has been looked at, and there is nothing wrong with it. Just low blood sugar. Take a break, and everything will be okay. Don’t worry.” Lin Baizhou sighed and added, “Everyone was very worried when they learned that you were admitted to the hospital, but they didn’t know exactly what happened to you… Zhou Zhaoyu couldn’t focus on work all morning, so he requested time off to investigate possible causes of your condition… They think you kept your illness a secret to avoid seeking medical attention. You are someone from a different world. Despite being aware of the possibility that you may have psychological issues, you chose not to seek help. It was only until something bad happened that you realised you hadn’t taken it seriously. They are also upset with you for not treating your body with proper respect.”
Jiang Yunshu responded, “Mmm, I know.”
“You don’t even consider it if something happens,” Lin Baizhou groaned. “Nevermind, don’t take their words to heart, really. Nobody would have predicted such a thing would happen. It happened too quickly. Fuck, you need to sleep a little longer. Anyway, I’m free, so I’ll sit next to you. Zheng Ruyun has promised to bring over dinner tonight, which he has prepared. If you need anything, just call, alright? Everyone will be with you tonight.”
Jiang Yunshu once again hummed in response. Seeing that Lin Baizhou had no intention of leaving, he had no choice but to say, “You go out first, I want to stay alone for a while.”
“You….” Lin Baizhou hesitated to speak. “Then, I’ll just sit outside? Would you like something to eat? Drink something? Or do you want to sleep for a while?”
Jiang Yunshu shook his head and waved again.
“I’ll just go sit outside then?” Lin Baizhou didn’t give up, looked at him for a while, and in the end gave up and went out first.
Jiang Yunshu maintained this position for some time. It took him a while to blink his eyes gently since the chilly wind was blowing so hard on his face through the open window. What was going through his mind was a mystery.
On the way, Lin Baizhou returned twice to close the window for him. At one point, Qin Zhongnan delivered a dish of steamed porridge with lean meat in it.
But Jiang Yunshu still made them leave.
Lin Baizhou appeared to be quite concerned, but after observing Jiang Yunshu’s strong desire for solitude, he unwillingly left.
Jiang Yunshu drew back and took another peek out the window.
The alpha was robust and in good health. While an omega’s blood was nearly completely drained in another ward just a few metres away from him, it only took him a solid night’s sleep to recuperate.
What if Bai Tang didn’t change his mind in the end? So his Bai Tang would just curl up next to him and wait for the blood to drain out? Then what, if his body eventually healed and he woke up on his own, he’d find nothing but a lifeless body?
…Right?
That would be the case, right?
Author’s Feed
I sought the advice of a psychiatrist on Bai Tang’s suicide attempt, who informed me that it was extremely realistic reaction.
This was a really painful chapter 💔
@ Abo Dammen thank you for your hard work on this chapter.
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Amazing.
He got so caught up protecting people like Bai Tang, that his lifelong conditioning made him forget that Bai Tang himself still needs him. I think he’s hitting the same rock-bottom that many addicts do before they realize they need treatment. I hope he doesn’t start thinking Bai Tang can do better without him, or something drastic like that.
I was so scared! TTOTT Health is the most important thing! Cherish it, please! ><
Thank You for the new chapter (ฅ^ω^ฅ)♥
Oh my lord, my heart hurts for them so much 😭
Hopefully dr jiang will get the psychological help that he needs and be in his best condition for both him and bai tang’s sake! 😭🙏
Damn that was so psychological and deeply analytical and scary. when you’re making a 911 call they were extremely **** unprofessional I don’t know it’s supposed to lean more into the fictional side on purpose cause the 911 operator is never supposed to hang up the call at least not in America it’s stupid honestly