Qin Cang took a sip of water to slowly moisten his lips, making his lips more transparent.
Then, he continued, “There were many people on the train. With so much noise going on, I did not know if he heard my story, but I put emphasis on the last sentence, word by word. I said, ‘Dishonourable people like my father should be struck by lightning.’
“And he echoed, ‘Sooner or later!’
“I started laughing. He stared at me and inexplicably praised, ‘Qin Cang, you are so good looking.’ I responded with a hard punch and turned my head away to ignore him.
“Although we made up afterward, I still brood over his force obscene with me that night, like a stuck fishbone in my throat, making a shallow cut as tiny drops of blood oozed out from the wound.
“Only by keeping silent would it not aggravate the pain.
“He was very kind to me as a friend, and did everything in his power. Our roommates used to tease him with this, saying how he owed it to me in our last life and is now working very hard in this life. He laughed it off and didn’t explain.
“During college, I took the train several times to see my girlfriend, Xu Wei.
“She and I are from the same county town, and have decent family conditions, but her academic performance was not as good. So she had to continue her education in a local university.
“We met each other in our second year in high school, when we were put in the same class and as seat-mates. She confessed to me first. Since she looks pretty and also the prettiest girl in our school, I agreed without too much consideration. Maybe it was a moment of vanity that I did so.
“To tell you the truth, I was never interested in dating, because my feelings are always unstable. Like walking on a flat ground, but my heart keeps focusing on my feet, fearing that I will be stepping on thin air the next step and falling into the eternal abyss of doom, like my mother.
“But I have tried my best for her. I would eat in the campus canteen, work on passing flyers on the street, and scrape together the money for the train ticket to visit her.
“She was also very happy and would drag me around to introduce me to her friends. I treated them to dinner, but the topic discussed over the dinner table started to become more uncomfortable to me.
“Everything that came out of their mouths was vulgar language, even putting bedroom matter out in the open. They gossiped about who was cheating, who had an abortion…I tried my best to weaken my presence, neither participate nor refute their conversations.
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“I patted her in the head and politely turned her offer down.
“The next time we met, my interest in the relationship became weaker and weaker. So did her.
“So in my third year of college, and the year she graduated. I broke up with her, which she agreed to.
“It was bright and sunny that day. She was beautiful with her graduation gown and make-up. I noticed the tattoo on her wrist.
“I said with a smile, ‘Nice tattoo.’
“She smiled back and raised her hand to show me. It was a small black dolphin.
“After she left, I sat in the waiting room at the railway station and looked at the flashing train information on the big screen. Suddenly, I did not want to go back to campus.
“I wanted to see the sea. I have never seen the sea before. I really wanted to see real dolphins.
“I was pretty stupid. When I returned the ticket, someone pickpocketed me and took my wallet. Fortunately, I still have my phone and ID.
“The money refunded was not enough to take me back to school. So I had to call Yang Yiqian for help.
“He asked me why I refunded my ticket, and I told him I wanted to see the ocean.
“He responded with a powerful ‘Wait’.
“After that, I received a money transfer from him on WeChat. He told me to buy a ticket to see the sea first.
“I stood quietly in the bustling rush of people, and suddenly felt peace. He undoubtedly became my support.
“When I arrived at the coastal city, I did not expect Yang Yiqian to also be here. He gave me a hotel address and told me to wait for him there. I did without arguing. When I arrived at the hotel, I was once again reminded that Yang Yiqian is a rich second generation.
“The room was large and very luxurious. The air was fragrant, and the floor was carpeted. I could see the blue sea out of the room’s French window.
“Yang Yiqian took me to the beach. Because I could not swim, he brought and put a swimming ring on me before pulling me to enjoy the water at a shallow area.
“The sun was very hot, and we were lying on the beach. He played with the sand off and on, then he buried my hands and feet with coarse sand, saying half-jokingly, ‘Qin Cang, I really want to tie up your hands and feet so that you can never run away from my side.’
“I was blinded by the sun, shook the sands off my hand and raised my arm to block the sunlight.
“At that time, I could not understand what Yang Yiqian was thinking. I could not imagine that there could be love between men. It sounded like an outrageous fantasy story.
“As for his open affection, I turned a deaf ear. If I could hide, I hid. Instead of being discouraged, he treated me better.
“At night, he took me to eat seafood. I am a country bumpkin. Let alone taste, I have never seen so many strange things. So I ate as much as he peeled for me that night. I ate until my stomach was at the point of bursting, even making walking hard.
“When he saw me struggling to walk with my full stomach, he lifted his chin and burst out laughing. The lights in his eyes were wanton and brilliant when he laughed.
“He said, ‘Come here, I will carry you back.’
“I glared at him and walked slowly into our room. He followed me in and I glanced at the large white bed and back at him. He blinked innocently, his sharp eyes opened and closed.
“I was defeated by those eyes. He booked the room and the trip was arranged by him after all. I stressed to him that he was not allowed to touch me, and he nodded and promised.
“He actually did not get a chance to touch me, because that night, I learned I was allergic to seafood.
“I fainted in the bathroom, the only thing holding me together was my strong will. My whole body felt weak, and I started to have trouble breathing. He heard me and rushed in, face turning ghostly pale as he quickly dialed 120. I could not comprehend what he was babbling.
“He held me and did not allow me to close my eyes. He was constantly checking my breathing, afraid that I might go into shock.
“I was vaguely conscious. The golden-orange headlights in the bathroom were swinging back and forth. A hale of orange light made his tears glister like crystal. The droplet fell from the corner of his eyes, it cut through time and space, bloomed on my lips and stole away my last clarity.
“I never knew that I was allergic to seafood. I think I ate some in the past, but nothing happened. Perhaps I consumed too much. I was hospitalised for a few days. Yang Yiqian watched over me the whole time. Because there was no bed in the ward, he slept using a couple stools. I told him to go back to the hotel but he refused.
“I was actually better when I received two injections at the hospital, but he insisted that I stayed for a period of observation.
“I told him I owed him too much, I could never repay him. He said I did not have to pay him back, and would always be by my side. He just wanted me to stay well.
“When he said this, his voice was hoarse. I grew accustomed to looking him in the eyes, those very beautiful eyes. But at that time, they were bloodshot eyes, like a red spider climbing and diligently waving its thin web, expanding those scarlet lines and inadvertently captured me.
“It was like I was bewitched by a spell. If I looked anymore, I would fall into his gentle trap, no way to escape. I could not face him, I had to force myself not to look, but my heart remained beating at an uncontrollable speed.
“On the train back to university. I absent-mindedly glanced out of the window. He put an opened bottle of water in front of my face.
“I looked at the bottle and did not accept it. The water swayed gently with the train.
“I said, ‘Let’s give us a try then.’
“My voice was very quiet, but it stunned him speechless. Finally, like a fool, he hugged me and burst into tears. No matter how many people tossed disdainful eyes at us, he cried like a child who finally had a taste of candy.”
“He actually did not get a chance to touch me, because that night, learned I was allergic to seafood.
NOOOOO AHAHAHA
Thank you for the translation, Teo :]
Too tragic 😂😭
Ml’s pushy trying to pursue mc who’s in a relationship. Even some occasional dangerous feeling. But at the same time, at least he still has boundaries and he treats mc good. Quite expressive too. That ending xD