The claim of being busy seemed to be genuine, as Han Team Leader was busy examining tablets and documents spread out on the table by the window, until I took off my clothes.
I folded my clothes as he instructed, placing them on top of my bag, and sat on the edge of the bed. Pulling the neatly arranged hotel bedding over my thighs, I waited for him.
Whether I should have eaten a little for dinner or not, the inside of my stomach felt prickly and painful, as if there were thorns stuck to the inner wall. It was only natural, considering I had been drinking coffee at a rate of four or five cups a day for the past few weeks. I couldn’t remember if there was a warning against combining coffee and sleeping pills. Perhaps it was futile if the durations of their effects overlapped.
Lost in thought, my heavy eyelids gradually descended. Even in an uncomfortable posture, the inner corners of my eyelids were covered in a deep sleep as profound as a dream.
“After indulging Lee Seodan for a few weeks.”
Suddenly, my eyes opened. In the blurry vision that did not focus, Han Team Leader’s face came into view.
“It seems like this is Lee Seodan’s bedroom now.”
It was a slow and firm pronunciation. I straightened up from the awkward position. I opened my mouth to apologize, but Han Team Leader interrupted.
“Lie down.”
The concise instruction quickly dispelled the drowsiness. Moistening my dry lips, I lay down on the bed.
Han Team Leader swept up the flesh on my belly, leaving my tightly closed legs untouched. A response came in the form of a soreness. Warm palms gently caressed from the side to my chest, and round shoulders were stroked.
Exploring my body for a while, the long fingers that had been caressing me gripped my wrist and moved down to my forearm. Squeezing tightly, releasing the tension just before it became painful, repeating the process. The thin veins on the inside of my wrist turned white beneath the stretched skin, and when peeled off, the blood rushed, staining the area red. He seemed to scrutinize the traces, carefully observing.
“Ah…”
Playing with my wrist like a toy, he raised both hands to put the same tie around my wrist as last time. The cloth tightened over the heated skin, taut and pulling. Han Team Leader confirmed the tightness by inserting his fingers between the cloth and my wrist, then looked down at me indifferently.
Our eyes met. At that moment, I felt a strong desire to say something. I chewed my lips until they made a wet sound, trying to swallow my words. I turned my head and closed my eyes. Just because I had a meal once, rode in his car, and our lips touched once, did that mean I foolishly harbored the hope that he would listen to me?
“If you’re bored enough for sleep to come, you should’ve spoken,” said Han Team Leader, speaking casually as he pressed down my wrist onto the bed.
“I’ve never really understood Lee Seodan’s inner thoughts. Wasn’t it unsatisfying to just suck my dick without any sincerity?” he continued.
“Um, it’s not like that. Uh…”
His palm touched my chest. After briefly pressing on the beating heart beneath, he removed his hand and brushed over the protruding flesh above it.
“…”
After a moment of silence, he looked into my face and repeated the same action. He firmly pressed and stroked my chest with the firm part of his palm. While the sensation was unfamiliar, it wasn’t overly painful.
As I lay flat, staring blankly at the ceiling, Han Team Leader climbed onto my stomach. With his knees on either side of my waist, the weight wasn’t too noticeable. It was a posture that seemed to block any resistance in advance.
In that position, Han Team Leader, with an indifferent expression, slowly reached out. He lifted both of my nipples and rolled the insides, rubbing them as if shaping them. Despite the warmth of his hands, the probing touch beneath the skin felt delicate.
“Ugh…”
“There’s no need to ask.”
“What?”
“There’s so much I have to teach Lee Seodan from the beginning.”
Not understanding the English, I looked up, and Han Team Leader’s expression was subtle. It seemed annoyed and troublesome.
The dropped hand slowly caressed my body again. It was a slow and warm touch. The fingertips that tickled above the navel slowly moved up the delicate skin of the waist, scratching with the nails. The other hand explored the outline of the ribcage that revealed itself with each breath.
“You seem to have lost some weight.”
“Ugh…”
“If you don’t want to report and confirm your three meals a day to me, it might be better for you to take care of yourself.”
“Aah!”
With the fingertips, the nipples were touched abruptly. As if annoyed, he kneaded the flesh with firm knuckles. Finally, he grabbed both nipples, rubbing them forcefully and giving them a strong pull. Sudden pain made me gasp, and I half-raised my upper body.
“Team leader, there…”
“Just touching a bit, now I can grasp the shape.”
Even after his hand withdrew, my chest still felt numb. When I looked down, as he said, the area that usually didn’t catch my eye was now red and swollen. It felt strange that the rising and falling of my chest with each breath seemed detached from my body. Han Team Leader flicked my swollen nipple with his fingernail and then left me lying on the bed, getting up.
This time, my hands weren’t tied to the bed. While he did something on the other side of the room, I closed my eyes and mentally rehearsed the escape route to the door several times. It wasn’t a rational thought. The scenarios born out of fear were vivid, as if I had already experienced them.
A faint metallic sound, and the mattress swayed. Something cold touched my face.
“Ugh.”
Reflexively, I opened my eyes. A thin and cold iron chain, lightly brushing my cheek, produced a metallic sound. At each end of it, thick iron clamps with black rubber were hanging. I stared at the dangling clamp, wondering what it was used for.
Han Team Leader, who had been observing my reaction, sat on top of me again, just as before. I was firmly restrained, unable to move. I became aware of the situation when the cold touch of the iron touched the swollen knob on my reddened chest.
He had already pressed down on my chest with his palm, preventing me from sitting up. I closed my mouth and shook my head vigorously. Though I opened my mouth, I couldn’t speak.
With the opened clamp, he playfully nudged my nipple. Looking down at me, he said, “It won’t happen at once, but let’s increase the size and sensitivity a bit. This way, it’s not enjoyable to touch.” I twisted my body but eventually closed my eyes. When I turned my head, he casually let go of the clamp handle. Like a gaping crocodile, the clamp closed tightly around my nipple. Strange pain sharply struck the crown of my head.
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Ignoring my words, he pinched one of the knobs with one hand, and with the other, flicked the end as if hitting a honeycomb. It felt like receiving a direct hit to the nerves. Realizing that listening was the better option, I opened my eyes. As he said, the nipple he was pinching was red and strangely swollen.
Wiping my moistened eye corners, he nonchalantly picked up the clamp again. This time, there was no warning. He deeply clamped the knob with the open clamp and released it all at once. A tingling pain constantly followed through the nerves. Waiting didn’t bring an end to it. Stiff tension spread throughout my body.
“Ugh, oh, ah…”
“To compare the effects, we should leave one side untouched, right?”
Han Team Leader, who was fondling the other clamp, said calmly. He held the chain in one hand, like walking a dog, and looked down at me. Each time he lightly pulled, the hanging clamp swayed with a wet sound. Regaining my somewhat clouded consciousness due to the overwhelming pain, I barely opened my mouth.
“This, the blood, isn’t circulating…”
“One or two drops won’t matter much, will it? It’s not like it’s going to feed a baby.”
“Team leader.”
“Too noisy.”
He covered my mouth with his palm. Desperately, I lowered my gaze to the nipple with the clamp. It seemed grotesquely distorted, as if it might actually fall off. Feeling a sudden fear, I tried to call Han Team Leader again, but the firm palm blocked my murmuring. A stinging pain surged like waves from my chest. Once it became bearable, it eased off, then surged again from a higher point.
Han Team Leader, still covering my mouth impassively, pulled the chain abruptly. The part blocked by the black rubber turned white, and when he released it, the blood rushed back, turning it red again. Observing the change, he slowly moved his fingers and continued to observe.
I breathed with my mouth open. The corners of my eyes became hot with pure fear.
“Relax your body. Enduring it like that will only make it more painful.”
“Ugh, ah, ugh.”
Cold sweat covered my bound hands. I felt dizzy.
“Instead, I’ll treat this side nicely.”
He reached out to the opposite nipple. As before, he lifted it and gently fondled it. His warm palm swept down my lower abdomen, tickling my waist. It was a tender touch. He pressed the knob forcefully with his fingertip, then soothingly cupped it again. As my head leaned toward my chest, his lips touched my chest.
The swollen nipple, heated and moist, was sucked in. I momentarily forgot about the clamp and tightly curled my toes. The breath I had been holding burst out. Soft lips tightened around the areola, and the tongue slowly licked the tip.
What I felt on the left side was undoubtedly pain; I could clearly recognize it. On the right, it was a different sensation, a kind of pleasure. Every time, Han Team Leader sucked, a warm heat gathered around the small knobs. The tightly clustered nerves were firmly pressed down. A gasping sound echoed beneath the tongue. The tightly closed eyelids inside turned red.
“Ah, oh, huh.”
He lightly brushed his wet fingers over the wet nipple that barely escaped from his mouth. He rubbed it gently and licked it. When the sensitive area was stimulated, my breath caught. He held my twisting body and fiercely scratched the protruding nipple with his nails.
If my tongue hadn’t been freed, I would have uttered nonsense. Alternating between pain on one side and an overwhelming pleasure on the other, it surged like waves. As my eyes flickered rapidly and the view cleared, my chest came into sight. Every time he pulled the chain, the left nipple, which used to sting sharply, now looked like a lifeless dark red, swollen more than twice its usual size.
“Team leader…”
“What?”
With my bound hands, I somehow managed to grab him. I held onto his shirt with sweaty fingers and hung on. Once the fear became overwhelming, the suppressed sob burst out. Hanging on for dear life, I somehow managed to grab him and begged desperately.
“This… please… Team leader, I…”
“This?”
He casually touched the clamp. Just that made my body convulse. The sharp pain that shot up was sinister. Clinging to him as if to protect myself, I gasped for breath, which became rapid.
“Please, let me go… This is too much, I can’t take it anymore.”
“Didn’t I tell you not to act up?”
He cut in coldly. Like squeezing tongs, he added more fingers to the clamp, squeezing mercilessly with brutal force. The vision in front of me turned pitch black. A warm sob surged from my throat.
“Admit that you were wrong.”
“Ugh, ah… I was wrong, I was wrong. I won’t… do it again.”
“What won’t you do again?”
“I won’t… ah, ah! Ugh…”
“Do you know what you did wrong?”
My words kept getting cut off. When my response was delayed, he extended his tongue and gently licked the swollen knob on the clamp. Even though it was clearly visible, I felt nothing. Suddenly terrified, my voice trembled.
“Whatever it is… Team Leader, you.”
“Will you listen to me well from now on? Anything I say?”
“Sob, th-that, ugh.”
“You should answer.”
“…Listen well… So, Team Leader, please… really, I feel like I’m going to break, please… ugh, I…”
I whimpered like a child, letting go of my tethered hands. He didn’t push away the hands hanging like a lifeline. Something soft touched my warm, moist eyes. Gently brushing over my trembling eyelids, he spoke in an indifferent voice.
“Don’t forget what I just said.”
“…Ugh!”
Snap! He pulled the chain. The clamp got caught for a moment, then was ruthlessly pulled out. A scream burst out as if dragged from my throat. The shock hit me, and my body seemed to sink into the bed. At the same time, an immense pain struck. The red, swollen nipple stung as if fire ants were swarming over it. Squirming like a shrimp, he restrained me, pulling the inflated knob directly into his hot mouth.
“Uh, uh! Huh, ahhh! …Uh, ugh, sob…”
A dreadful sensation surged up like a flood, covering me. Now, I couldn’t tell if it was pleasure or pain. Every time he sucked forcefully with his hot lips, my body bounced. It was hot. My vision blurred, and I couldn’t see anything.
He reached for the opposite chest with his fingers, nibbling and moving his lips over there. The left one, just released from his mouth, was caught by his fingers again. He cruelly teased it between the wet fingers.
Time seemed endless. When he finally stopped, I cowered with a trembling body. I covered my face with my bound hands. As I pushed him away, he surprisingly stepped aside easily. Stumbling back, he accidentally hit the bedhead.
Biting my lips and swallowing the suppressed sob, I briefly glanced down between his fingers. Both nipples were protruding with a reddish tint, distinctly different in size. The chest and its surroundings were a mess of red. The throbbing pain continued incessantly. Even if I quickly averted my gaze, the sob rose again. A choked whimper burst out.
“Hush.”
Trying to push away what was approaching was futile. Han Team Leader grabbed my bound hands and pressed them down. The resisting body was entirely pulled into his embrace. I couldn’t overcome the difference in strength.
A cheek rested against his firm chest. His shirt soaked with tears. He sat me on his thigh, wrapped his arms around my waist, and caressed my shoulders, soothingly patting my head.
“Hush. It’s okay, it’s all over now.”
“Uh, huhuh, ugh… Hic, uh… huhuh…”
“Did you think I would ruin Lee Seodan so easily?”
Lips trailed down my tear-streaked face. It tickled annoyingly on my eye. The laughter-tinged voice was more bitter. What made him angry, what made him relieved—I couldn’t understand anything. Why did I have to be at the mercy of his whims like the weather?
“Stop, let’s end it. …Was it that frightening? Did you think I would really go wrong you?”
“Hic, huhuh, huh… ”
“Lee Seodan, you need to trust me a little more.”
It was the most absurd thing I heard today. Without opening my eyes, I pushed his shoulders away with my bound hands. He easily lifted my wrist.
“Stay still. I’ll untie you.”
Lips touched my cheek, the tip of my nose, and my philtrum. The parted lips teased with the tip of the tongue. He examined closely and effortlessly unraveled the knot that bound me. The tightly fastened tie gradually loosened. As the blood circulated again, my fingertips tingled.
“I might not be able to use it again for real this time.”
Examining the crumpled tie, he said somewhat displeased. There was no concern for the red marks on my wrists. In his embrace, I found it hard to stop crying. Even when he wiped my tears, they quickly welled up again.
“Who twisted Lee Seodan’s nipples.”
“Huhu…”
Our eyes met, and the previous coldness in his expression was nowhere to be found. It was a satisfied face.
With my body relaxed, I nestled into Han Team Leader’s arms. I wiped my tears on his shoulder and stifled my crying. Slowly, the sobbing lessened. Not only his tie but also his shirt was crumpled and messy.
“Why are you so sorrowful?”
Finally looking up, he asked, patting my back. It seemed genuinely incomprehensible. My chest throbbed, and I turned my head away, not wanting to answer.
“If I ask a question, you should answer.”
“…”
“Is there nothing in sight? Do you want me to clip it back?”
Laughter was evident in his words. He looked down at me, who had shrunk away at just his words. His lips lightly touched mine before falling away. I recalled the scent of a citrus room freshener and the faint sweetness of pink ice cream. My chest felt numb and heavy.
“Every week…”
“Yeah?”
“Will you do this every week?”
My voice choked up. No matter how he tried to comfort me, it didn’t return to normal.
“What are you talking about?”
“Team Leader… it seems like there’s no limit for you.”
No amount of practice or preparedness mattered. Every week, he surpassed the boundaries I could predict, creating such situations. The difference in experience was like a vast crack. It was always in the palm of his hand, no matter what I did.
“I, Team Leader, how far… In the beginning, you said you wouldn’t hurt me severely, but every time…”
No, was it just to reassure me that he said such things? As I frequented this hotel room every week, how much risk did I have to endure? Laughter had disappeared from the leader’s face, which was once expressionless. I thought he would be angry, but the returned response showed no particular emotion.
“Lee Seodan, you didn’t know that I would go to such an extent.”
“…”
“If there’s a safety word, would you feel more at ease?”
“Safety…”
“It’s unfair from my perspective. I don’t think I’ve done anything that would require a safety word.”
Tsk, he released me with a cold tongue. I still looked up at him, sitting on his thighs. When our eyes met unexpectedly, he faintly smiled.
“Try kissing. I’ll consider that as a safety word.”
“What’s a safety word…”
“Safe word.”
“Safe word?”
He narrowed his eyes.
“Is it a professional term for Lee Seodan?”
“If I say the safe word, will it become safe?”
“Not exactly in that context… it could be or it could not be.”
It was a subtle response. I widened my eyes and concentrated as if I were studying.
“A safe word is used to let me know that ‘this is the limit.'”
“…”
“Of course, it’s a problem when you don’t properly understand your own limits. Bear it until you can, and use it when you absolutely can’t endure anymore. If you misuse it, it will be taken away again.”
“So… if I use that, you’ll stop?”
He shook his thigh. My body shook as if it were on a seesaw. After briefly contemplating, he reached out, smoothing my hair on my forehead with a gentle touch.
“Look. Depending on my mood.”
“…Then anyway.”
“If you don’t need it, don’t bother.”
“No, I… please give it to me.”
He was quite straightforward. When I looked up, the corner of the leader’s mouth went up again.
“Try it now.”
He leaned back and said kindly.
“Now, right now?”
“We have to try now. Isn’t it something you’ll do later?”
“…Yes. Then, how…”
“If you have to ask me that, what would you do?”
I closed my mouth. This wouldn’t be something offered to help me. At best, I would become a target for more teasing. With a burst of determination, I lifted my chin and pressed my head forward. My slightly off-target lips hit the Team Leader’s chin painfully. He closed his eyes and smiled.
I somehow managed to lift my lips properly. As my upper lip slipped between his upper and lower lips, it fit snugly. Is this how it’s done? With my lips pressed, I rolled my eyes. The moderately dry lips were warm.
“No, not like that.”
He said with his lips pressed against mine. He grabbed the back of my head, lifting my legs and enclosing me between them.
“Do you feel the earnestness in where you’re looking and asking to stop?”
“Mmph.”
He used his thumb to play with the corner of my mouth and gently pushed me down. As he gently inserted his tongue between the slightly open lips, he licked the soft flesh inside my cheek. I closed my eyes and extended my tongue as I had learned last week. As our tongues entwined and danced, there was a pleasant, gentle friction. A warm and humid heat rose in my mouth.
“Remember it well.”
As the lips made a wet sound and slowly parted, our eyes met. In my dazed expression, he slowly revealed a hint of a smile.
“While a safety word is one thing, it might be better to keep this as a reward.”
Lee Seodan is new to the bdsm scene and he doesn’t know anything about the lifestyle it seems, but the ML is throwing him into it blind. No explanation, no talk, nothing. I hope it still works out between them despite this.