Even until Death, the Scum Gong thought I was a White LotusCh63 - Xie Shi has memories of his previous life

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Xie Nan’en collapsed and covered his head, his whole body trembling, his expression became overwhelmed, his nails uncontrollably digging into his flesh, his head aching like it was about to explode.

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He almost crawled and came to the side of Xie Mu, who had fallen to the ground.

 

Xie Mu’s eyes were already a little confused, he was breathing hard, yet when he saw Xie Nan’en in front of him, he tried to show a smile on his face.

 

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“Big brother…”

 

He cried out with difficulty, his smile full of happiness, and his weak voice intermittently said, “I really thought… I’ll never see you again…”

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Looking at the man in front of him who was almost desperate to the point of collapse, Xie Mu frowned slightly, and he moved his hands with difficulty, trying to wipe away Xie Nan’en’s tears.

 

“Don’t be sad…”

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Xie Mu smiled, “Big brother should be happy for me…”

 

“It finally… It can no longer be painful.”  

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“No, you’re going to be fine, big brother will find a doctor, big brother will find the best doctor to treat our Xiaomu, you’ll get better soon, you’ll be fine as before, you’ll go wherever you want, okay?”

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Xie Nan’en hugged Xie Mu, his hands trembling, following Xie Mu’s wishes, placing his cold fingers on his face, and his eyes were full of panic. 1exg5N

 

“I’m sorry, the eldest brother shouldn’t have lied to you, the eldest brother will take you to the doctor, soon, very soon, just take the bullet out…”

 

Xie Nan’en said, while holding the person in his arms to stand up, Xie Mu smiled and shook his head, “Don’t go…” a4IeLo

 

“Big brother, I’m in so much pain, I’m hurting every day, I really… I really can’t go on.”

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Xie Mu said softly with hope in his eyes, but like a piece of explosive thunder, he stabbed at the tenderest part of Xie Nan’en’s heart. qmOD21

 

“If my parents had taken me with them when they left, how nice it would have been.”

 

Xie Nan’en’s expression froze. 8nFrIl

 

“Big brother, you raised me, treated me well, pampered me, I really… I really like you…”

 

Xie Mu closed his eyes painfully, “If at that time, you came directly to me, even if my parents were still there, I would like you.”  WQoIcF

“Why did you… want to kill them…”

 

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Xiao Mu knew —

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He knew…

 

Xie Nan’en’s mind was full of only this sentence.

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He could no longer perceive the presence of the hand on his.

 

The drug was working again, Xie Nanen thought.

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It took almost all of his strength to gently place Xie Mu on the ground.

 

“Xiao Mu, I’m sick…”

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Xie Nan’en pressed Xie Mu’s hand tightly to his face as if praying for redemption.

 

“I was just sick, I didn’t think about killing them, I just… can’t control…”

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Xie Mu smiled miserably and looked at him.

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“Big brother, I can’t hate you, but I also can’t face you…”

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“Death is the best choice.”

 

“No… No, Xiaomu, don’t you go, don’t you mean to follow the big brother for the rest of your life?

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Xie Nanen held Xiao Mu’s hands and cried badly as he never had before.

 

Xie Shi was still sitting on the ground in a daze.

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He had always felt like a beast was hidden inside, and on the outside he seemed to completely suppress the beast, but in fact it had always existed.

 

Until he was intimate with his uncle.

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Xie Shi felt the warmth for the first time, not mixed with any benefits, just a simple laugh.

 

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The beast said he wanted that man.

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Xie Shi was accustomed to plundering, accustomed to keeping everything he liked in captivity, and if they wanted to run away, he broke their wings, put on chains on their feet, and locked them up in a place where no one could reach.

 

This time, of course, he also naturally gave the same treatment to Xie Mu.

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The uncle was disobedient and always wanted to escape, Xie Shi personally broke his ankle tendons, and the beast in his heart finally calmed down after seeing the blood-stained feet.

 

He thought that this time, the uncle could no longer escape.

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But he forgot that in this world, there is still death.

 

And now, the shot in the uncle’s heart was fired by Xie Shi.

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In the instant of seeing the blood, Xie Shi seemed to have entered a place where no one could enter, he could see the uncle, he could hear the uncle, but he couldn’t say a word.

 

Xie Shi’s mind was uncontrollably reminiscing about everything that had happened.

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The uncle who smiled at him, the uncle who touched his head.

 

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Patiently taught him, the three years of accumulation all handed over to him by uncle.

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In the end, the face that always had a shallow smile turned into a cold with looking at an ant-like eyes, which made Xie Shi unable to sleep at night.

 

He knew what kind of person he was, and he didn’t deserve Xie Mu at all.

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But, he wanted to get it –

 

He took the Xie family in his hands, imprisoned Xie Mu in a heaven and hell prison, healed his leg, gave him hope, and then destroyed this hope with his own hands.

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He deliberately let his uncle go, trying to let Xie Mu see the true face of Xie Nanen, but then a needle was inserted into the blood vessel of his uncle, and when he saw the uncle’s almost relieved smile, Xie Shi suddenly realised.

 

He was obviously letting the uncle see himself the most clearly.

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Xie Shi regretted it.

 

He really regretted it.

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He could give up everything for his uncle, name, identity, and learn to smile at Xie Mu the way his father did, who he had once hated the most.

 

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He  could live like another person for Xie Mu.

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Xie Shi thought that in this way, at least the uncle would smile at him.

 

However, the counterfeit is ultimately a fake.

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When the real Xie Nan’en came, the uncle would still throw himself into his arms without hesitation.

 

Xie Shi found this unacceptable.

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He could accept anything, no matter who Xie Mu thought of, and who he regarded as, as long as Xie Mu could stay by his side, whatever he wanted was his.

 

But just now, with his own hands, he shot his uncle’s heart.

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Stiff and kneeling in place, the wooden face of Xie Shi’s eyes suddenly moved.

 

Little Uncle……

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Xie Shi used both hands and feet, moved, and crawled to Xie Mu’s side.

 

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“Uncle, uncle, don’t be afraid, I’ll take you to see a doctor…”

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Xie Mu’s pupils were no longer focused, and he looked at the ceiling sheepishly, and his eyes were almost rolled back.

 

Suddenly, he revealed a smile.

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“Thank you, Xie Shi.”

 

Xie Shi froze.

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His eyes were red, and he looked at Xie Mu with his body in pain.

 

“Uncle… Uncle…”

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Xie Shi shouted at the man in front of him in a fragile voice, “I’m here, uncle…”

 

When those eyes that were always cold looking at him looked over, Xie Shi’s heart suddenly shook.

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What he saw inside was gratitude.

 

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Why, is it gratitude…

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Before Xie Shi could figure it out, the man had already opened his mouth.

 

Xie Mu smiled, his voice softly.

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“Thank you, for killing me…”

 

The cold fingertips that touched Xie Nan’en’s face finally fell.

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Xie Shi looked at the man with closed eyes, and his blood seemed to be frozen.

 

The uncle said, thank you, for killing… him?

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“Uncle, don’t scare me… I know it’s wrong, I really know, my gun, it was not aimed at you…”

 

“Uncle, uncle…”

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Xie Shi’s face was confused, carefully, touching the man.

 

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No response, none at all.

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Xie Shi seemed to understand something, his hand shook, tremblingly, and placed it under Xie Mu’s nose.

 

No breath.

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The man lay quietly, the white blanket under him had been stained blood red, and the air was filled with the familiar bloody atmosphere Xie Shi knew of.

 

This blood… It’s uncle’s…

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He shot the uncle.

 

Xie Shi’s body shook, as if he were very cold, his lips were pale and white, and there was no trace of colour.

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“Uncle…”

 

The young man’s voice choked for the first time, “You wake up, open your eyes, I will never imprison you again, I will not force you anymore…”

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Xie Mu is already dead, so naturally he can’t give Xie Shi any response.

 

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He lay dead, his uncle.

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Xie Shi knelt on the ground and looked at the man’s calm face, the place where he had been kicked by Xie Nan’en before hurt even more, he covered his heart and spit out a mouthful of blood.

 

Blood splashed on Xie mu’s white coat.

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Xie Shi trembingly stretched his hand to wipe it.

 

“I’m sorry, uncle, I wiped you clean, are you angry?”

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He said incoherently, “Are you angry so you ignore me, uncle, you beat me, scold me, as long as you don’t get angry, don’t ignore me…”

 

“You like to see the snow, I’ll take you to see, okay?”

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“You don’t like to be locked up, then it’s not closed, the uncle can go wherever he wants, I won’t stop you anymore, don’t get angry…”

 

“You like Cheng An, I’ll send him to you…”

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“Uncle,

 

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Xie Shi knelt in front of Xie Mu and leaned his forehead painfully into the man’s arms.

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“I love you…”

 

“Don’t leave me, please…”

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“As long as you live, as long as you live…”

 

But Xie Mu can’t live.

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He wanted to die.

 

Because of the pain caused by Xie Shi.

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With his own hands, he killed his uncle.

 

Just after this -’I understood my love for my uncle.’

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Xie Shi looked at his blood-stained hands, and in his eyes, there was only the despair of his faith collapsing.

 

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Little Uncle……

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He regretted it, so much regret…

 

However, it was already too late.

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【Ding! Xie Shi’s  favorability : 100, does the host want jumps the world? ]

 

Xie Mu looked at the two crazy people on the ground with interest, “Don’t jump, let’s see the liveliness together, how fun.”

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8 comments

  1. Nah he was saying “he regretted doing it bla bla” for quite a few chapters now (in fact, it’s in every scene ), and yet he still do it again and again. Bruh, who you fooling? (⁠ʘ⁠言⁠ʘ⁠╬⁠)

  2. I can’t understand, this is supposed to be a novel where they take revenge on the scum gongs, but why do this make me cry at every arc ending?