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I just posted Day 5 to 9, I’m so tired so tomorrow day 10&11 will be posted, so prepareeeeeeee.
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Chu Cheng held him as he held his hand tight, Ji Qingzhou wanted to pull his hand out, but with a slight movement, he held it even tighter.
“Let me go.” Ji Qingzhou said again, “You always let me go, so let me go.”
“I missed you very much.” Chu Cheng didn’t respond to his words, “I missed you every day. I dreamt about you several times, but sometimes I couldn’t even see you in my dream. Would you please let me hold you for a while? Just for a while. ”
Ji Qingzhou didn’t speak, as he was held and listened to his words, he felt that Chu Cheng was creating an illusion again, an illusion that he liked him.
He didn’t push away Chu Cheng, if he could, he never wanted to push him away. He even subconsciously thanked Chu Cheng for holding his hand, for not letting him push him away, for allowing him to recall their relationship, he said without regret, “I didn’t do anything against my heart, the separation was sad, but in every step, I was willing.”
Chu Cheng hugged him for a long time, then silently put some distance between them. He looked at the person in front of him and gently rubbed the back of his hand with his thumb. However, as soon as Ji Qingzhou moved, he stopped moving.
“I’ll let go,” he said, “I’ll let go, so you don’t have to push me away, remember, no matter what you encounter, you can come to me, understand?”
Ji Qingzhou nodded.
Chu Cheng felt he was being perfunctory, just as he perfunctorily promised him to take the house before parting. He took Ji Qingzhou’s hand and kissed him on the back of his hand, Ji Qingzhou felt burned by his sudden kiss and reflexively looked up at him, Chu Cheng felt his gaze and smiled slightly, then with his disbelieving gaze on him, he lowered his head and kissed the back of his hand again, Ji Qingzhou subconsciously pulled his hand back.
Chu Cheng slightly loosened his hand, so he jerked it out easily.
“I let go.” Chu Cheng said, “Go back, you can go back.”
The back of Ji Qingzhou’s hand felt hot. He took one last look at Chu Cheng, turned and walked in the direction of the elevator.
As Chu Cheng watched him leave, his eyes slowly dulled, he thought, if he was young and frivolous, if he was more impulsive, he would have gone over to stop Ji Qingzhou, would have hugged him and said come back, I like you, and kiss him. He actually underestimated the influence of Ji Qingzhou on him, when he couldn’t see him, he would miss him, would think about whether he really liked him, and when he saw him, he just wanted to take him into his arms and let him stay by his side.
Habit was addictive. He was too used to the feeling of having Ji Qingzhou.
Chu Cheng sighed and turned on the car.
Ji Qingzhou took the elevator all the way back to the floor where Wang Fang’s ward was located. Wang Fang was still chatting with Ying Nian. When she saw him come in, she smiled, “You’re back.”
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Ying Nian teased him, “You’ve been gone for quite a long time.”
“You must have had a talk with Xiao Chu,” Wang Fang understood, “the two of them have always had a lot to talk about.”
Ji Qingzhou smiled in response.
He walked to the chair beside Wang Fang’s bed and sat down, he and Chu Cheng couldn’t go on like this. In the end he liked Chu Cheng, so when he saw Chu Cheng was still affectionate, he caved in for a moment, but, they couldn’t go on like this.
Chu Cheng could afford it. He could appear in front of him again and again, and could play emotional cards with him, but he couldn’t afford it, and he didn’t want to. His love should have ended brilliantly the day he left, and if this continued, it would only tarnish the beauty of the past, which wasn’t what he wanted to see.
Ji Qingzhou finally made a decision, he didn’t want to meet Chu Cheng again.
He wanted to send a text to Chu Cheng to say this, but he should be driving now, so he waited until he had finished visiting Wang Fang and went back home with Ying Nian, he waited until it was late, before sending a text to him, “Have you arrived home?”
Chu Cheng quickly replied: Yes.
He didn’t expect Ji Qingzhou to reach out, and even felt like it was a dream. Since Ji Qingzhou moved out, he hadn’t taken the initiative to contact him, every time he took the initiative to send a text to Ji Qiaozhou or call him, Ji Qingzhou only briefly and concisely replied, yet, he actually sent him a text.
Even though he was surprised, Chu Cheng was still elated.
However, the next second, his elation disappeared.
“Let’s not see each other again.” Ji Qingzhou’s text appeared in the dialog box, and Chu Cheng saw this line appear next to his avatar, “Like you said, let go.”
Chu Cheng froze, he looked at the text in the dialog box, he wanted to reply, but seemed to have lost his strength. He never liked stalkers, and he was most annoyed by people stalking him, but now, it was as if he had become one.
Chu Cheng put down the phone, looked up and walked forward, then he saw the roses inserted in a glass vase on the balcony. He went over, turned on the balcony lights, and quietly looked at those roses.
It was from Valentine’s Day, he bought the roses by mistake, he didn’t like flowers, romance or holidays, but Ji Qingzhou did, so he got it for Ji Qingzhou.
Chu Cheng walked over, looking at those petals that were no longer bright, as if he was seeing their past. The memories he and Ji Qingzhou shared were bright and vivid, but now it seemed as withered as the roses.
Chu Cheng picked up the glass bottle to throw the roses that had no value, but after picking up, he silently counted them, nine roses, one not more, one not less, nine, for long lasting love.
He remembered that the little girl gave one more to Ji Qingzhou that day, but Ji Qingzhou returned that one, and he said, “No need.”
He also remembered that Ji Qingzhou hung these roses upside down on the balcony, instructing him not to move them, and waited patiently for them to dry, then inserted them into a glass vase and let them stay on the windowsill of the balcony.
He was very fond of these roses, he also wanted it to last. He looked at the roses in his hand and suddenly realized that although these flowers were no longer as bright as before, they hadn’t withered, Ji Qingzhou had air-dried them before they withered, so they were preserved in full bloom.
He put the glass vase in his hand back in place, looked at the roses, then he picked up his phone and replied to Ji Qingzhou.
“I moved your roses.” Chu Cheng replied, “I think they are beautiful.”
As Ji Qingzhou looked at the text he sent, his heart was slightly moved.
He didn’t reply to Chu Cheng, Chu Cheng also didn’t reply to him, Ji Qingzhou was afraid to reveal his secret of liking him, and Chu Cheng, Chu Cheng wanted to promise him a long lasting relationship.
The life of a person was long, but he wanted to promise Ji Qingzhou a long lasting relationship and because he wanted to promise him, he didn’t dare to act rashly, afraid that he would give Ji Qingzhou hope that would turn to disappointment.
Chu Cheng looked at the roses, and silently turned off the lights before leaving the balcony.
After that day, Chu Cheng didn’t go back to the house, he went home, he couldn’t stay where he and Ji Qingzhou stayed while he seriously thought about his and Ji Qingzhou’s future.
Chu Xin was surprised when he saw him come back, “How come you’ve moved came back home?”
Chu Cheng sat on the chair next to him, “Brother, have you ever liked anyone?”
“No.”
“I guessed so.” Chu Cheng said, “Unless Western Entertainment goes bankrupt, you probably won’t like anyone.”
Chu Xin put down the pen in his hand and asked him, “Do you like someone?”
Chu Cheng didn’t speak, the silence lasted for a long time, before he said softly, “I don’t know, but I miss him, I want to give him a long lasting relationship, I want to promise him a life without worries, I want to give him a life of peace, but I don’t know, I can’t. I’m afraid I’ll meet someone else later, fall in love with someone else, and then, let him go. I’m also afraid that I don’t actually like him that much, but I just haven’t liked anyone before, so I mistook it for liking.”
“In that case, how about separating for a while, you naturally can’t see clearly, give yourself some time to do something else, don’t focus on him and wait until after a month or two, when you look back again, maybe you will see clearly.”
“What if I still can’t understand?” Chu Cheng asked.
Chu Xin smiled a little, then he gently replied, “If you can focus on other things for a month or two, not think about him in the slightest, if you see him again, and you’re still not sure if it’s love, then, you shouldn’t like him that much.”
“And what if I can’t hold out for a month or two?”
“Then at that time, ask yourself again whether you like him or not.”
Chu Cheng lowered his head and didn’t say anything more.
Chu Xin felt that his worst fears had happened, he looked at his brother, watched as he seriously thought about his proposal, so he didn’t bother him. There was no need, Chu Xin thought, if Chu Cheng liked Ji Qingzhou, then even if he stopped them, he would be with Ji Qingzhou; if Chu Cheng didn’t like Ji Qingzhou, then even if he didn’t stop them, he wouldn’t be with Ji Qingzhou.
He knew his brother very well, he grew up always having his own opinion, for his life, only he could make the decisions.
Ji Qingzhou realized that since he told Chu Cheng that they shouldn’t meet again, Chu Cheng didn’t show up in front of him again. Actually he couldn’t say that, before he said it, Chu Cheng never deliberately showed up, that day in the hospital, was just a chance encounter.
He still sent him texts, with some words of concern, Ji Qingzhou politely replied but later, he stopped responding.
One day, he received a text from him: Have you blocked me?
Ji Qingzhou replied in his mind ‘no’, but as always he didn’t reply to him. One of them always needed to keep calm, so that they wouldn’t become embarrassed by holding on.
However, after a few days, he still received another text from Chu Cheng. It seemed that he didn’t care if he had blocked him, or he firmly believed that he hadn’t been blocked. Ji Qingzhou didn’t know, and didn’t embarrass himself by thinking about it. His new drama was about to start, so he needed to devote his time and energy to his new role, which was what he should do.
Thx for the ch ٩(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )و
Bah, even the 🤡’s older brother who has never been in any sort of relationship knows better than this dog brain. aahh I’m running low on dog food sob
Thanks for the chapter ♥️! You’ve worked hard!
damn Chu Cheng you’re stupid and I love you :3
Thank you so much for updating. 🙏❤️Take care not to burn out 🌹🧨
His brother’s advise actually is good. Come on, Chu Cheng!
Thank you for this chapter!
So sad. But chu cheng is mature and responsible.
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Even though I am kinda happy that ML is worrying and caring abt not hurting our MC, I still think
Why can’t one of you just confess and get it over with! You both like each other!! Why do it the hard way!!!!
It’s actually why he’s questioning himself if he really like mc or not so that he can confess to mc. Because sometimes, especially as someone with wild imaginations as a writer, you create an illusion that you like a person when in all honesty, you’re not. Lots of person esp teenagers experience this that’s why they would immediately lose interest on their partners and relationships don’t last long. And Chu Cheng doesn’t like that so he’s thinking it thoroughly.
ah what the ducky ducker duckish duks
AFTER CHOKING ME WITH DOG FOOD NOW U GIVE ME THIS! ahh author ur too much
thank u for the chapter
I like Chu Cheng is taking his time to understand his feelings, to not burden Ji Qingzhou with a half baked love. But hurry up!!!
Thanks for the chapter!
Damn it…. is it too late to go back into hibernation? QAQ
Have I mentioned that I love it when Gong’s go sad and cry cry when the Shou’s leave? Yeah I’m feeling super duper happy rn, I’m sorry I shouldn’t be like this 😔
Okay ngl I didn’t expect Xin-gege would be this good, cheering for dage to fall in love too! I volunteer Yin Nian 😀
I usually not like this but I feel this time I can’t take it, this is dragging for so long that I’m thinking on dropping it but I’m still here bc when everything was alright they were one of my fav cps 😭 why do they need this much drama?!
came to get hurt. not disappointed 👊
I just hope that when CC finally, finally finds his answer it wouldn’t be too late 😩
Thank you for the translation~
Everyone said CC is stupid etc but i admire him, not everyone can be sure with their feeling especially someone who havent in love before, also he think of JZ He want to make sure he really love him and not gonna find anyother later, i admire it,
Thanx for the chapter!
Kwkdnejfbs so frustrating ~☆ (๑•́ ₃ •̀๑) take your time figuring out, both of you sighing
Reading the angst about CC’s confusion makes me think of this song I recently heard by Benson Boone called “To Love Someone.” It’s really emotional, I can imagine CC asking “is this what it feels like to love someone?” Ahhh, heartbreak can never feel good…
If I have a lover like ml then it’s really tiring!!!!!! He is so confused that i feel bad for mc