Sunnyshies: I received my first kofi yesterday night! shimmykai Thank you! o((^▽^))o I’m happy so today, so I will post two chapters today! Actually, if I didn’t update the next chapter, it might end up as cliffhanger.
So let’s thank shimmykai! ╰(´︶`)╯
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As if the moon fell into the sea, and the whales roamed the river of stars.
The world has become more splendid because of the blooming youthful love.
Shu Jin bravely grabbed the corner of Sheng Xinghe’s clothes, and Sheng Xinghe responded directly to him. The shocking words “I just like you” caused his repressed feelings to burst out, regardless of right or wrong, regardless of gender, they held each other that tightly that year.
There is no “secretly”.
So Sheng Xinghe always looks at him, indulges him, and cares for him.
Shu Jin responded ignorantly to Sheng Xinghe’s response. He not only wanted to give him another kind of good, but also to give him more and more other good.
The first time they formally held hands was the next day when Sheng Xinghe sent him on his way to the station.
They were sitting in the bus, feeling all shy because of the confession last night. Even Sheng Xinghe pretended to look out the window, and just gently grasped Shu Jin’s hand. Their fingers intertwined, and both their palms were sweating.
They had to let go when they got off the train. When they entered the ticket line at the train station, Shu Jin took advantage of the person’s inattention and put his hand back again without being noticed.
“I’ll come to see you again next month.” Shu Jin lowered his head, even the back of his neck was red, “There will be three small holidays next month.”
Sheng Xinghe’s small company has just started and he should be very busy.
Shu Jin was taking the initiative in his own way. Sheng Xinghe knew it, and he did not refuse: “Okay, I’ll wait for you.”
They quietly held hands, then it turned into their fingers hooking together as the group moved forward, before finally separating completely with reluctance.
Their first formal hug was on the day they first kissed, and the two events happened together.
It was the night when Shu Jin came to Sheng Xinghe’s school again.
The weather was getting hot and the air was very dense.
He was wearing an ordinary T-shirt, clean canvas shoes, and carrying a bag on one shoulder, and he appeared on Sheng Xinghe’s campus just like that. Sheng Xinghe looked calm when he saw him, but when they walked to a secluded place where no one was around, Sheng Xinghe suddenly stopped and hugged him tightly.
The cicadas were rustling in the summer night, and Sheng Xinghe was a bit fierce when he kissed him.
With this unruly kiss, they hit their teeth, and Shu Jin opened his lips with a “wu”, and Sheng Xinghe drove straight in unceremoniously.
What followed was without any initial meeting.
They traveled between the two cities several times over the course of a year.
During the last summer vacation they had each other’s first night.
Shu Jin cried very hard, and kept biting the skin of Sheng Xinghe’s shoulder. But when he woke up after the matter, he kept hanging on to Sheng Xinghe, softly coquettishly begging for a hug.
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When his wings were fully grown, and when he gained the confidence to shoulder another person’s life, Sheng Xinghe would then choose a suitable time to tell Shu Zhaoyuan the matter.
That year and a half was very beautiful and very exciting.
At home, they will hide in the room to do it, hide in the kitchen to kiss, and hold each other’s hand while walking the dog along the deserted riverside.
Outside, they have graciously shopped and worn couple’s clothes regardless of the gaze of the others.
They had quarrels, mostly about trivial things. For example, Shu Jin’s social media has too many likes from girls. For example, Sheng Xinghe was too busy with work, causing him to forget, and be late for their appointments. They almost experienced all the friction couples have. Shu Jin then would deliberately stand on Sheng Xinghe’s right side to make a tantrum, so Sheng Xinghe would grab him in front of him and they would ended up kissing and hugging.
In the years that followed, Shu Jin had to rely on those memories in order not to cry out in pain at night.
He once looked into Sheng Xinghe’s eyes, and thought about it countless times—— he was there on the scene that day the accident happened when he was a child. How good it would have been if he could have prevented that from happening.
He even hated the person who started it. When Sheng Xinghe was politely told by his collaborator that it would be better to have a different colleague for the first meeting to discuss business, he had uselessly hated that person in his heart.
They will be better. Shu Jin thought.
They have long years and the rest of their lives ahead of them.
But then, everything comes to an abrupt end.
Shu Zhaoyuan called and asked him where he was in a deep voice. After getting the answer, the next thing he asked him was: “Where is Sheng Xinghe?”
As if a storm was looming over, such a situation made Shu Jin intuitively realize that his father had discovered something.
Shu Jin said that Sheng Xinghe was in school.
Shu Zhaoyuan said: “Last weekend, did you go to his place?”
Shu Jin: “Yes.”
Shu Zhaoyuan: “What are you doing holding hands in the square? In public, two men holding hands, people who do not know will think you are a couple. Your Uncle Li joked when he told me that I had raised a son-in-law for myself, do you know how humiliated I am?”
That Uncle Li, Shu Jin recalled, the last time when he was admitted to university, Shu Zhaoyuan had a guest, he should have seen him and Sheng Xinghe.
The world is really such a small place. It’s very surprising that they can bump into him like this.
When he did not hear Shu Jin speaking, Shu Zhaoyuan cleared his throat: “Remember not to do that next time. It’s not good to be misunderstood. My, Shu Zhaoyua, son should not be regarded as homosexual——”
“Not misunderstanding.” Shu Jin admitted.
At that moment, he seemed a little impulsive, but he did not regret it.
Shu Jin: “Dad, I’m in a relationship with him. I liked him first.”
Shu Zhaoyuan’s anger, Shu Jin can’t remember clearly.
Shu Zhaoyuan asked him not to be shameless. He asked him to be good and be with a girl. If he wanted to be a pervert, what is he doing liking a man for? He asked him what Sheng Xinghe could do with his disability. Is he also blind?
Shu Jin hung up the phone.
At that time, he thought it was just a struggle with his father. As long as they are persistent, as long as they can prove their feelings, then his father will accept them one day.
He was afraid that Shu Zhaoyuan would call to scold Sheng Xinghe, so he called his mother and asked for her help.
The tug of war with Shu Zhaoyuan lasted for two months.
Shu Jin did not go home during the Mid-Autumn Festival.
But Shu Zhaoyuan came to his school, and took him to dinner, and then told him the truth.
“You think your imaginary love is deep?” With the posture of a businessman, Shu Zhaoyuan said clearly, “That’s because he doesn’t know anything.”
“What do you mean?” Shu Jin frowned, he thought his father was here to reconcile with him.
“I never told you about this, Shu Jin.” Shu Zhaoyuan said, “I haven’t told anyone either, but I’m here to tell you today. If you don’t want him to hate you, you better keep this secret for yourself.”
“Sheng Xinghe’s eye was blinded by you.”
“You were playing in the open space outside, and when I heard the scream and arrived there, you still had a branch in your hand.”
“You were less than three years old at the time, and you were so scared that you couldn’t say anything. I snatched it over and threw it away, and asked someone to send Sheng Xinghe to the hospital.”
“He’s eye was blind, so I have to pay hundreds of thousands of dollars.”
“I just invested in the factory, and I have a lot of external debts. There’s not enough money to pay for it.”
“…they said that the children were playing and it was only an accidental injury, and it was strictly not his responsibility, but for so many years, my conscience couldn’t get through it. I was so good to him to make up for it, but I didn’t let you treat him like this! I didn’t ask you to be with him and have a homosexual affair!”
Shu Jin froze in his seat, his face pale.
He found his voice after a long time, and murmured: “You lied to me, you dared to say anything to get us to break up.”
Shu Zhaoyuan said: “I lied to you? He was also small and didn’t see the person clearly…think carefully about why I didn’t take you there again, because I was afraid that a child would recognize you. Otherwise, why do you really think I did a charity and started funding him since he was young?!”
Shu Jin’s ears were buzzing, and he still couldn’t believe it.
How could Shu Zhaoyuan put it so lightly?
It must be fake.
“If Sheng Xinghe finds out, do you think you can still be together?” Shu Zhaoyuan roared, “If you don’t break up, I don’t want this old man to tell him the truth!”
“What about that family?”
Shu Jin looked at his father, his eyes were as black as ink, and his lips began to turn white. His whole person is as fragile as paper, and seemed to fall apart with a poke.
Shu Zhaoyuan did not understand: “Which family?”
Shu Jin was still holding on to the last bit of hope that the person wasn’t himself: “That family who took responsibility and paid money to the Sheng family. Why did they admit to something they didn’t do?”
Shu Zhaoyuan frowned: “They were different. They were originally from a poor family, and after the reconciliation, they really didn’t lose much money. At that time, his family was working in a factory. After his child took responsibility, I paid them tens of thousands of dollars, they didn’t lose much.”
Shu Jin opened his mouth.
He felt like meeting Shu Zhaoyuan for the first time, and it took him a while to find his voice again: “You, you put the blame on someone else?”
Shu Zhaoyuan got stuck for a moment, then his old face flushed, but he quickly said: “That’s not what I’m talking to you about now!”
Shu Jin suddenly stood up and his chair fell to the ground, then he left without looking back.
The autumn wind was bleak, and it rained that night.
Shu Jin stayed up all night and did not buy a high-speed rail ticket the next day. He paid for a car and rushed to Sheng Xinghe.
It was also raining in Sheng Xinghe’s city. He squatted at the door of Sheng Xinghe’s residence. When Sheng Xinghe came back, he gently asked him why he didn’t go inside.
Shu Jin said: “I didn’t bring the key.”
Sheng Xinghe pulled him up, Shu Jin’s hands were cold, and his face was not looking good. Sheng Xinghe didn’t ask him why he didn’t call himself, but only said to him: “Are you an idiot.”
Entering the room, Sheng Xinghe poured hot water for him, and when the two turned to look at each other, Shu Jin turned away immediately.
Sheng Xinghe asked: “What’s wrong?”
Shu Jin did not speak, but he only began to fall into tears.
“Did uncle scold you again?” Sheng Xinghe squatted in front of him, “Then I’ll let you scold me, okay? Or I’ll call him and ask him to scold me, and when he’s deflated, he might be able to accept us.”
Shu Zhaoyuan had already called and scolded Sheng Xinghe to the core.
He was scolded as a white-eyed wolf, with a heart of a wolf and lungs of a dog, and that he had led Shu Jin astray. He scolded him as a pervert. He may look good from the outside, but who knows that he was broken inside.
“Good boy.”
Sheng Xinghe touched Shu Jin’s face, he stood up and hugged the person on his lap, then kissed the tip of his nose.
Shu Jin sobbed even harder, hugging Sheng Xinghe’s neck and calling him “brother” over and over again.
He said sorry.
But he didn’t say why.
The author has something to say:
It’s almost time to finish the knife.
Sunnyshies: In fact, the biggest nail in Shu Jin’s heart was not the fact that he was the one who blinded Sheng Xinghe, but the fact that his father destroyed a family, just to escape responsibility. That’s why he destroyed his, before he was able to go back up…
Such heavy guilt..
+1 such heavy guilt..
Heavy guilt +2
Seriously?! Sheng Xinghe is not even completely blind, he’s just blind in one eye. He’s half-blind, not an invalid.
This old had is really making me angry since day one. 😡🤬
*hag
Woah, a lot to unpick in this chapter 🥺
Thanks for the chapter 💞
I’m so mad I don’t even know what to do. Probably gonna put SJ’s dad in my ‘Fictional Characters That I Want To Torture So Fucking Badly’ list.