Xu Yingtang’s distorted perception of pain is for self-protection, and the confusion between love and malice is also the same.
“Do you know about that woman?” Xu Yintang patted Little Darling, and the tentacles squeezed into the wound obediently retreated. The chaotic and bitten fleshy tissue inside visibly healed rapidly, with blood-red patterns permeating from the inside, filling the gap in his lower abdomen’s patterns within a few breaths.
At first, the healing wasn’t so rapid, but with more incisions made in recent days, these patterns became familiar to his body. Even if he dug out the “uterus” entirely, it would grow back in less than thirty seconds.
“I want to live better under Mom’s hands, and pretend love can’t deceive her.” Xu Yintang jumped off the lazy recliner stacked with tentacles and sat down face to face with Shi Yuebai.
“So, I have to deceive myself first.”
Shi Yuebai seemed to be shocked by his bold words just now. He immediately forgot to maintain that deep and profound look on his face, and instead, he stared at him as if he were lost in some kind of daze, showing a worry that couldn’t be dispelled.
It was like…
Hmm… it was like…
Fresh fragments of Xu Yintang’s fragmented memories fell again, recalling a small, dirty-faced Shi Yuebai, crying and holding onto his arm, repeatedly uttering silly words like “I won’t leave” and “You’ll die if I stay.”
Although Xu Yintang couldn’t remember when that happened, he vaguely recalled feeling irritated and wanting to kick this clingy guy’s butt at the time.
Did he actually kick him in the end?
After all, his temper wasn’t that good when he was a child, and he held grudges, hating people who contradicted him.
Fortunately, Xu Yintang’s temper now is much gentler and more patient than before. Otherwise, Shi Yuebai might have a taste of what it feels like to be kicked out by Xu Yingtang.
Memories always tend to embellish things. For example, on the day of parting, whether it was Xu Yingtang sacrificing himself resolutely to push you through the escape door, or you crying and refusing to escape alone, finally being kicked out by Xu Yingtang, who had exhausted his patience.
Another example is the farewell of “go home quickly” and “forget everything here”. How much of it is a sad and tender decision like a dream, and how much of it is a talkative, clingy, get out of here and don’t come back again.
There’s no way around it. Xu Yintang was only five or six years old at the time. Just dealing with a capricious mother every day was already challenging enough. Add to that the task of protecting a little burden who would cry when scared by mice, from being beaten to death by Mom or killed by the patients, it was indeed a daunting task.
Xu Yintang’s memory of that escape wasn’t very clear. If he could remember, he could probably tell Shi Yuebai that he never expected both of them to actually escape.
Escaping alone would be considered a victory.
Next, all he had to do was to appear jealous of other children and exclude dissidents in front of his mother, fabricate some nonsense about them being killed and his mother being sad so she sent them away, as the only one alive in the hospital, and genuinely loving his mother as “Tangtang,” the worst he could expect was to be confined to a room for recovery.
“Alright, don’t worry, I can distinguish between what’s real and what’s not.” Xu Yintang reached out and tousled Shi Yuebai’s hair, deliberately ruining his carefully styled hair, “Instead of worrying about that, why not worry about this with me.”
He pointed to the patterns spreading across his lower abdomen, “Don’t tell me you haven’t been watching this all along.”
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Shi Yuebai was silent for a moment—Second Treasure swore he heard the high-speed cooling fan noise of Shi Yuebai’s brain trying to explain—but the next moment Shi Yuebai touched his nose and put on a helpless expression as if he’d been found out.
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As he spoke, he saw Shi Yuebai’s brow furrowing again.
Xu Yintang knew he shouldn’t laugh when others were genuinely worried about him, but he suddenly couldn’t quite control his expression. The corners of his mouth couldn’t help but lift into a joyful curve because of Shi Yuebai’s concern, which gave rise to a slightly unwarranted sense of satisfaction.
But he couldn’t quite explain what he was happy about, so he just pursed his lips to make his smile less obvious and continued, “If you want to know something, just ask me directly. Like I said, there’s nothing I can’t tell you. If there is, I’ll let you know.”
Shi Yuebai looked at him, blinking rapidly for a moment, licking his lips nervously—these actions were natural for him, making it difficult for others to discern whether it was a natural expression of emotion or whether he wanted others to think so.
“Then can I know about this—” Shi Yuebai hesitated and reached out to touch the pattern on Xu Yintang’s lower abdomen, “What exactly is going on here?”
Those patterns warmed slightly, and like living organisms, they crawled and wriggled on the skin, ensnaring Shi Yuebai’s hand that had only intended to touch them briefly.
Dangerous, tempting.
Shi Yuebai delicately traced the marks left by those patterns crawling, through his golden beast eyes, he could clearly see the “nest” at the core of the patterns pulsating like a heart, filled with an ominous and disastrous aura.
He vaguely felt that this aura seemed familiar, but for a moment, he couldn’t recall the source of the familiarity.
Xu Yintang felt a bit itchy from Shi Yuebai’s incessant touching, and his lower abdomen tightened, revealing the contours of his abdominal muscles. He leaned back against the comfortable cushion(Little Darling) behind him, making the patterns clearer and more complete, thinking about how to describe his experience after being pulled into the game.
He had some self-awareness and knew that his gaming experience wasn’t as conventional as that of ordinary players.
“This story is a bit, well, not very long actually. My first instance was the Night of the Birth of the Gods. Both Little Darling and Second Treasure were born there. In the words of those believers, they are children of Daeis,” Xu Yintang said.
“The Night of the Birth of the Gods, Daeis—” as soon as the keywords were mentioned, Shi Yuebai’s foggy memories instantly cleared up, “So, this is the hidden ending of the god’s birth. The Servant of Daeis… You directly faced the projection of Daeis? And finally got recognized as his Servant?”
Xu Yintang nodded and shook his head, “I had my eyes closed at that time, so I didn’t really see it. This ‘uterus’ should be a symbol of being Daeis’s Servant, after all, what I obtained was [Daeis’s Power – Birth]. Third Flora is born using this power in another instance, and its race in the system is also Dai Race, so I guess it’s considered a kind of offspring of Daeis… probably?”
Xu Yintang had only successfully birthed one Third Flora using the power of birth, and he hadn’t completely figured out the operation mode of the entire skill and its specific connection with the “uterus,” so he could only make simple descriptions and speculations.
“When encountering high-quality seeds, or when the body is seriously injured and mentally collapsed, this place becomes very hot and excited. Previously, it was just the color of the patterns darkening and expanding slightly outward, but since the last instance when I went to the Void Sea and stole some nurturing fee from Daeis, this place has become exceptionally active, starting to try to erode my body.”
“I guess it may represent that my connection with Daeis is deepening or the degree of alienation is increasing,” he said casually. Shi Yuebai listened with a heavy expression, “Are there any symptoms?”
Xu Yintang thought for a moment, “Mainly, my rationality keeps decreasing. When it decreases to a certain extent, this place becomes very hot, similar to the feeling when energy accumulates to a certain extent and instinct awakens. Then I develop a very strong, um, desire to reproduce, wishing to give birth to a dozen or twenty at once. But as long as I cut open and let the cubs eat some, this place will calm down again.”
“Like… just now?” Shi Yuebai asked.
Xu Yintang nodded, “The cubs also find it very tasty, probably because they have picked up the aura of Daeis, and eating them feels like having a dad?”
He attempted a joke, but it didn’t quite succeed.
Shi Yuebai felt the tendrils of those patterns Xu Yintang described extend out and felt a sensation of being stuck and entangled by them on his fingertips. He swallowed, tearing his gaze away from Xu Yintang’s lower abdomen, shifting it to the three cubs on the side, “You’ve raised them very well, so you should ask for some nurturing fee.”
“They are originally very good children,” Xu Yintang said as he patted Second Treasure, who came over with his tail wagging, watching it jump onto him and attempt to step on Shi Yuebai’s hand, driving away this intruder from his “territory.” He smiled and added, “Just a little mischievous.”
Shi Yuebai allowed Second Treasure to step on his hand a few times, openly ruffled Second Treasure’s fur, and surrendered amidst the cub’s angry howls. He continued, “Although Daeis’s existence is relatively stable and gentle, the aura of the evil god will erode the Servant as long as it exists, transforming them into tools to provide power. Judging from your symptoms, Daeis’s energy most likely comes from reproduction, and its existence form is similar to Third Flora, but much more advanced.”
“The transformation of the Servant will establish a deeper connection between the soul and the god. And since you’ve been to the Void Sea and touched Daeis’s original body, your soul has established a deeper connection with the god—metaphorically speaking, Daeis’s instinct recognizes you as a potential good seedling and decides to speed up the transformation process to turn you into its breeding nest.”
Becoming stronger is the instinct of the evil god. High-quality Servants with exceptional potential can even make the evil god fight for them.
This doesn’t sound like a good thing at all, so Shi Yuebai tried to comfort Xu Yintang, “Daeis is currently only eroding you instinctively, without awakening its consciousness. I have some medicine here to control the degree of your transformation, temporarily obscuring its perception. You should quickly digest all the energy with the cubs— as long as you turn all this power into your own, Daeis will have no way to trace it back to you. And once you become stronger, you may even take more power from it.”
Xu Yintang looked at him and suddenly asked, “So, you don’t think what I’m doing is… greedy and stupid?”
The probability of a crash seems ridiculously high to him, to the point of being arrogant and greedy to the point of losing his mind. So he hasn’t told anyone about this, and he didn’t expect to hear anything good from Shi Yuebai.
“If you want to hear the truth, then yes,” Shi Yuebai took a deep breath and tried to press his entire palm against Xu Yintang’s lower abdomen. As the soft and fluffy tail brushed over those patterns like tendrils, the energy suddenly became restless and active.
Xu Yintang’s expression changed slightly, his breathing became rapid and hot.
Shi Yuebai leaned closer to Xu Yintang, “But greed, desire, ambition… I’d rather you go crazy for these.”
The fluffy tail entwined with those vine-like patterns, and the heterogeneous and violent energy awakened the “uterus” that had just calmed down.
Xu Yintang let out a low groan, squinting at Shi Yuebai’s approaching face. Shi Yuebai’s bright golden beast eyes made his usual smile appear full of aggression, like a beast staring at its prey, showing a greedy desire for victory.
But this was not his full effort to deliver the final blow, just a probing move.
Underneath the fierce exterior, there was an indescribable cuteness.
“You like this,” Xu Yintang’s voice was hoarse, not retreating but instead actively approaching Shi Yuebai—whenever he was in a disadvantaged position, he always attacked aggressively, making people suspect he was the one with the upper hand.
As a result, Shi Yuebai ended up having to step back to avoid colliding face to face with him.
“I don’t deny it,” Shi Yuebai admitted.
Shi Yuebai’s intuition told him that the plot was taking a wrong turn.
Although it was a probing move, he speculated that perhaps Xu Yintang would exhibit a certain stress response to the aggression he was displaying. He also considered the possibility that Xu Yintang, influenced by the instinct of transformation, might desire to consume and parasitize him. However, there should not have been this sense of trembling like prey. Before he could react, his body subconsciously retreated.
He didn’t even notice when the cubs disappeared from the room. With no more tentacles of Little Darling blocking, sunlight poured in through the window unabashedly, making it difficult for him to see the expression on Xu Yintang’s face.
Xu Yintang grabbed him.
The strength was such that he could easily break free with a flip and a lift of his hand, but his body suddenly felt weak and cold because of Xu Yintang’s question.
“So, you like me?”
This was not part of Shi Yuebai’s plan at this stage. This should have happened much later, when their relationship had progressed to a qualitative change after repeated hints and tests, even when the cubs accepted his presence—
Shi Yuebai’s eyes widened in astonishment, unable to determine what the touch on his lips meant.
Soft, warm, moist.
Perhaps Xu Yintang was extremely unfamiliar with pure love and affection, but he had seen countless forms of physical pleasure in various ways from childhood to adulthood.
In the entertainment-starved hospital, even the lunatics knew how to entertain themselves.
On this matter, he had to thank his mother for her protection. The caregivers always appeared in time to drive away the patients who wanted to play house with him. At most, he was just touched a few times, rather than being forced into it, becoming a component of patient comfort.
Xu Yintang had to admit, that scene was a bit nauseating when seen too often.
But the taste of Shi Yuebai was completely different—it was sweet, with a refreshing scent of mint. At the same time, it was soft, gentle, trembling, and almost biting his tongue in fear—
Xu Yintang stood up straight, making the final conclusion with certainty: “You like me.”
Author’s Note –
Although it’s late today, Shi Yuebai finally got a bit of sweetness to taste.
Xu Yintang’s entire mental journey is probably like this:
This person seems to like me + I don’t dislike him liking me + the atmosphere is progressing just right + slightly opening up, so I’m a bit curious = Try kissing to see—feels not bad—maybe can continue to try more.
In any case, it’s like raising cubs, go with the flow, and having fun in time, Xu Yintang is an instinctive experimenter, and Shi Yuebai, with his tea strategy tactics, is a variable ball-playing player.
The last kiss scene took me several hours, I hope everyone can feel the same joy as I do.
And that’s why our guy Xu Yintang is on top! 🤣
Thank you for the update.
KISSING!!?? ALREADY ???!! YEAAAA BOIIII YEAAAAA!!!! (please excuse me I only read slow burn romances).
Sugar Daddy sure doesn’t mess around! RIP to our Moonlight Chaser accidentally becoming the one that’s chased~
I love his “wait, what?!” reaction to it 🤣
YESSS, it did nit go as planned but he’ll experience sweetness nonetheless ~
Yep, Mama Xu’s insanity cannot be fought, even by SY’s special flavor of madness
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I HAD TO READ THAT LAST SCENE MULTIPLE TIMES OH MY GOODNESS!!!!
Err, in the paragraph
Shi Yuebai’s eyes widened….her lips meant.
It is her. It should be his.
Ok it is fixed now.
Wooo so much earlier than I expected
Shi Yuebai ah Shi Yuebai, you are not the attacker here 🤧☝️
YAAAAAY!! More please!!!😍🤩💜💜
Thank you for the chapter! <3
Aaaaaahh!! Screaming over here! I was NOT expecting that. Thank you, thank you author & translator!! 💜👏😘
The pacing for the romance is just an unhinged as TangTang, we love it
Shi Yuebai the tea making wanting to be mistress finally got a taste unexpectedly hahahahaha.
Aaaaaaaaa, unexpected!!!
Thank you for your translation 💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚
SY: Wait,, This is not the script??!?!