I’m A Male Mom in a Nightmare GameCh1 - Night of the Birth of the Gods

[Ding—]

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[Dear players, welcome to the high-freedom reality experience game ‘Nightmare Time’!]

 

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[In this game, you will fully unleash your creativity and imagination, exploring the infinite possibilities of the copy world! No matter how long you spend in the game, when you wake up, only a second has passed in the real world. At the same time, everything you gain in the game will continue in reality—wealth, power, wisdom, appearance, everything you desire will come true!]

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[Come on! Enjoy the nightmare to the fullest! Enjoy the endless unknown surprises!]

 

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In the monotonous electronic narration, Xu Yintang opened his eyes.

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Just a few seconds ago, he had fallen onto his bed for the first time in a long time, and now he was abruptly thrown into a strange room, lying on the floor, staring at the semi-transparent screen in front of him. He couldn’t quite tell if this was reality or a dream.

 

Can’t the world be a bit more friendly to patients? Xu Yintang couldn’t help but bite his fingertip, trying to focus his attention on the new messages constantly popping up on the screen. OkscKY

 

[Player successfully logged in.]

 

[Player data loading…] uXCGd

[Player name: Xu Yintang]

[Player gender: Male]

 

[Player stats-] qfTtrp

[Constitution: 68]

[Willpower: 90]

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[Sanity: 65]

[Mystery: 20] 8P5NDv

 

[Excellent initial stats for a newcomer, looking forward to your splendid performance!]

 

Below the player stats, each category was further explained in smaller font. nxEhM1

 

[Constitution: This stat is a comprehensive judgment of a player’s strength, agility, intelligence, and other basic qualities, directly affecting the success rate and effectiveness of all player actions and skills in the game. Maintain a healthy body through exercise and proper sleep, and it will never betray you.]

 

[Willpower: This stat is a comprehensive assessment of a player’s emotional stability, intuition, and courage, among other factors, and it will affect the changes in various stats when a player undergoes emotional shocks. Please remember that in the endless nightmares and fears, willpower will be your last weapon.] W6ocRD

 

[Sanity: This stat represents the player’s real-time mental condition. Any extreme emotions and external shocks can potentially affect Sanity. The system recommends that players keep their Sanity above 50 to obtain a safer and higher-quality gaming experience—of course, occasional madness can be enjoyable, as only those who defy logic can glimpse the true nature of the world.]

 

As for the last stat, “Mystery,” the system’s lengthy explanation, in Xu Yintang’s words, can be summarized simply as a way to determine whether a player is still human or not. The system’s recommended safe value for mystery is below 50, and once mystery exceeds 100, the player is considered to have completely abandoned their human identity. gXYqdM

 

By the way, the starting Sanity for normal humans is 85-90, and the starting mystery will never be over 5.”

 

“It doesn’t look very optimistic,” Xu Yintang thought to himself. He wasn’t surprised by his Sanity being only 65 and a mysterious stat as high as 20. He calmly read through the final statement, [The interpretation of the above content belongs to the owner of this game], and then, a new message appeared on the screen. 97UbP1

 

[Random Dungeon – “Birth of a God” successfully loaded.]

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[Dungeon Difficulty: E]

[Current players: 5] BUxNl6

[Dungeon character selection in progress…]

[Dungeon character: Sacrifice]

 

[Character prompt: The most exquisite fear and pain give birth to the most powerful gods—this is your role as a sacrifice, the ultimate glory.] mKQ1E4

 

[Winning condition: Survive until dawn.]

[Dear player, welcome to Nightmare Time.]

[Wishing you good physical and mental health, and enjoy the game.] AMGBIv

 

As the last line of text disappeared from the screen, a gust of wind blew into Xu Yintang’s ears. It was as if someone had pressed the “play” button, and time began to flow in this space.

 

—The game had begun. 2vl3GO

 

While pondering his less-than-ideal situation and any possible ways out, Xu Yintang subconsciously looked around. This was a natural reflex for anyone entering an unfamiliar environment. However, what met his gaze caused his pupils to contract sharply, and his breath caught in his throat.

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The word “Sacrifice” was now synonymous with death. 1JLkcI

 

In any case, isn’t starting off with being killed a bit too much? Xu Yintang couldn’t help but smile bitterly. 

 

Those flat patterns came to life as soon as he saw them, twisting and wriggling into existence, filling the entire space with their massive, sticky, and jarring presence. The room was saturated with a nauseating, putrid smell, and it rushed into Xu Yintang’s body. 5iFK4R

 

His body…

 

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Xu Yintang started to cough uncontrollably, forcing himself to keep breathing even though the air had turned into a viscous, foul-smelling fluid that threatened to suffocate him like an insect trapped in amber.

 

His body shivered with chills that seemed to emanate from the very marrow of his bones. Maintaining his breath became increasingly more challenging than maintaining his sanity. The intense, putrid odor seeped from the depths of his body. For a split second, overwhelmed by exhaustion, Xu Yintang involuntarily retched violently. RpTbxG

 

Oh no!

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He knew things were going south quickly. A sharp pain seized the opportunity to stab into his brain, and for a moment, the pain was so intense that Xu Yintang’s vision darkened, and his ears rang incessantly. His head felt as if it had been churned into a mush of rotten flesh. AZlaHO

 

[Player experiences a mental shock, stats check in progress…]

[Player Sanity -5, Mystery +6]

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[Sanity: 60/Mystery: 26]

 

Starting from his eyes, the blood-red patterns gradually spread across Xu Yintang’s body. These weren’t painted patterns on his skin, but rather marks where his skin had been eroded, exposing blood vessels. Then, the blood vessels seemed to be torn apart by invisible hands and rewoven, until every single one of them perfectly matched the patterns in the room.

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Some mysterious and terrifying blood-red patterns were converging and writhing toward Xu Yintang’s body, more precisely, toward his lower abdomen. They flowed and tangled, forming clumps of flesh-like clusters, emitting noises resembling the beating of a heart.

 

In praise, in celebration, and in an ear-piercing, maddening revelry.

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“Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh—!”

 

Was he screaming in agony?

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Perhaps…

 

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Xu Yintang was surprised that he was still capable of thought at this moment. It felt as if he was trapped in a vivid yet surreal dream that he should have forgotten.  

He was forced to recall things that could not pass censorship, such as electricution, drugs, blood, and violence, which stabilized his reason and spirit. The cage that once held his sanity and spirit had now been cracked open. p3zJQe

 

[Player experiences a mental shock, stats check in progress…]

[Player Sanity -3, Mystery +5]

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[Sanity: 57/Mystery: 31]

 

An agonizingly long period passed, or perhaps it was just a few seconds, and Xu Yintang couldn’t accurately judge how long he had been trapped in this hallucination. It was only when fear, more horrifying than pain, jolted him awake.

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Something, something…

 

There was something physically present in this empty room where he should have been the only occupant…

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Xu Yintang coughed up a mouthful of blood-tinged saliva and hesitantly touched his abdomen. It was abnormally distended; there was something there, something that did not belong to his body. Whatever it was, it became active as soon as he became aware of it. 

 

It wriggled and squirmed, creating lumps like knots of flesh under his skin, emitting noises that mimicked the beating of a heart.

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It was alive…

 

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Xu Yintang gritted his teeth, enduring the excruciating pain that felt like his intestines were being shredded and his guts were rotting. His skin was stretched, and the inner organs and the contours of the monstrous intruder beneath were visible through the uneven surface. Tiny cracks appeared on his skin, and slimy, spiky tendrils and mouthparts alternated in wriggling and tearing at the wounds, desperately yearning for birth.

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The tendrils and mouthparts scratched against the skin, producing a sticky, nerve-wracking sound, creating a continuous rustling and whispering reminiscent of crawling insects.

 

[Player experiences a mental shock, stats check in progress…]

[Player Sanity -6, Mystery +6] 9chdFf

 

[Sanity: 51/Mystery: 37]

 

[Warning! Warning! Player Sanity is about to drop below the safety threshold! Please take action immediately!] n0oa3m

 

Xu Yintang was breathing rapidly. He could clearly feel that the thing inside his abdomen was sucking his blood, consuming his innards. It no longer belonged to his body, it had become a nesting ground for the birth of a monster.

 

There was no other way… Xu Yintang repeatedly muttered the phrase from the character prompt, “The most exquisite fear and pain give birth to the most powerful gods.”  DP aNJ

 

He knew he had only one last option.

 

If the source of the monster’s strength was fear, then maybe, just maybe, he could give himself a chance to survive by not being afraid. If he could completely abandon the negative emotions of fear and pain, he might still have a shot at making it through. Bz1LlQ

 

Fortunately, this wasn’t too difficult for him. He just needed to let go of his desperate struggle to remain conscious.

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Xu Yintang wanted to survive, and he had no other choice. 42Enk

 

All the methods, medications, and hypnosis… the doctors had tried so hard to declare his treatment a partial success, and now it was all being undone in an instant.

 

As the mental anguish accumulated little by little to the point of neural collapse, all the fear vanished from his body. cAi0hg

 

[Player experiences a mental shock, stats check in progress…]

[Stats check failed…]

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[Stats check in progress… Stats check in progress…]

[Player Sanity -7, Mystery +10]

 

[Sanity: 44/Mystery: 47] ZRal7A

 

[Warning! Warning! Player’s Sanity is too low! Please take action immediately!]

 

Xu Yintang’s cheeks flushed with excitement due to the pain. His body trembled, intermittently producing inappropriate laughter. 9BquNy

 

If his primary care physician were to see him in this state, they would probably cry.

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Xu Yintang thought, and he managed to tone down the smile on his face slightly. For some reason, his brain couldn’t correctly differentiate between fear and affection, and it often blurred the boundaries between pain and pleasure. HXQVMO

 

Excessive fear, unbearable pain, and relentless nightmares—all were the ultimate expressions of affection. It was a cognitive error that the doctors had spent many years correcting, but it now dominated Xu Yintang’s brain.

 

He hoped that the intense feelings of pleasure flooding from his body would also satisfy the discerning taste of the little creature inside his belly. xmZhrw

 

“Don’t worry, I’ll let you out soon.”

 

Xu Yintang took a deep breath and reached out to pull at the wound on his lower abdomen. The tendrils and mouthparts rushed out from the crevice, biting onto his wrist. In the blink of an eye, his entire forearm was entangled in a wriggling mass of flesh. vlZxRb

 

But…

 

Xu Yintang gazed at the wriggling mass on his arm, and a smile formed on his lips. When fear disappeared from his body, and pain could only bring stimulating pleasure, the fangs of the monster’s mouthparts were too soft and immature to pierce his skin.  mV UQ9

 

Xu Yintang blinked away the sweat that had formed on his eyelashes and looked at the monster on his arm with a gaze that was tender and affectionate to the point of being terrifying.

 

[Identity transformation recognized, stats check in progress…] Vb73KF

[Player Sanity -2, Mystery +6]

 

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[Sanity: 42/Mystery: 53]

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[Warning! Player Mystery has exceeded the safety threshold! Entering initial transformation state!]

 

[Warning! Player Sanity continues to decrease! Please take action immediately!]

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The system’s warning alarms were automatically blocked by Xu Yintang’s brain. He didn’t feel any discomfort in his body, but suddenly, he could understand the cacophonous noises produced by the monster’s mouthparts. They sounded like the cries of a tender and pitiable baby, calling for its mother’s embrace and food.

 

“Mommy! Mommy!”

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“Hungry! Food!”

 

Look, it’s calling me “mommy”…

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In the midst of the chaotic cognitive confusion where fear and affection were inverted, Xu Yintang acknowledged that he loved this a little too much.

 

“Good child.” 

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Xu Yintang clenched the mouthparts that were gnawing at his wrist. These mouthparts had a resilient texture, and with just a little force, blood, and a murky liquid would spurt out. Whether it was rolling, squeezing, or simply observing, it was all very interesting.

 

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He wiped the bloodstains off his cheek, and every curve of his smiling face expressed a deep love for the new life from the depths of his heart.

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“Good, relax your grip.”

 

The creature, with its repulsively limp and filthy body, and its slimy tendrils, nauseating and grotesque to the point of driving anyone insane, brought a smile to Xu Yintang’s face that he had only seen from his mother. He recited the words that were etched deep into his memory, “I count to three, two, one—”

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Fear, despair, pain—Xu Yintang solemnly swore that his affection came from the heart, pure and without pretense.

 

The monster, however, let out a horrifying cry because of this. Xu Yintang was correct: if fear was the sweet nectar, sustenance, and an indispensable necessity for its existence, then affection was the poison, the toxin it dreaded. Even a trace of it made the creature weak and agonized.

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In an instant, the roles were reversed, and Xu Yintang suddenly became the terrifying, incomprehensible monster to it.

 

“Why… why not scared?”

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“No, I’m super scared, so scared that I’m almost dying,” Xu Yintang said. 

 

“So you have to be a good child.” The rising tone at the end of his sentence was so gentle it could squeeze out water. However, the tendrils enveloping his forearm trembled and recoiled, curling up into a small, sticky mass that fit within the palm of his hand.

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Xu Yintang gently touched the limp tendrils hanging from the small, sticky mass, finding something oddly cute about its appearance, like squashed, played-with clay.

 

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Speaking of which, as the “mother,” should he give the child a name? Xu Yintang pondered this for a moment and suddenly heard footsteps approaching outside the door.

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The footsteps were light and weak, and the sound of fabric trailing behind. Most likely, the person was wearing a robe or a cloak. Simultaneously, a man’s coarse curses echoed, complaining about the incompetence of this batch of sacrifices and how the organization had wasted so many resources on nurturing them.

 

—Only one person.

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Xu Yintang subconsciously glanced at the small creature in his hand. It seemed very fragile, but it stubbornly emitted a sense of hunger and desire toward him.

 

Both afraid and dependent, as if it truly regarded him as its mother.

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“Mommy! Hungry! Food!”

 

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Author’s Note – qPIL2v

 

Let’s start a new story! Let’s raise a child with joy! A joyful male mother!

 

The story takes a surreal and dark turn, with themes that may not be suitable for all readers. Please proceed with caution. o3AULh