Note on title.
Translator: WhenEverIWantTo
Editor: Anna
Although the relationship between Xu Ze and Yang Yan had made substantial progress tonight, when Xu Ze woke up the next day, his attitude towards Yang Yan was not much different from usual.
For men, occasionally losing control doesn’t mean anything.
If Xu Ze’s attitude had a 180-degree turn just because of this one time, then he would really look like a fool. Making each other feel good at the time was fine. But after wearing their pants, the way they got along with one another would still be the same as before.
Knowing that Xu Ze had this attitude, Yang Yan did not force Xu Ze. From his point of view, the person is living in his house and was pregnant with his child. It was basically impossible to cut off all relationships with him. Yang Yan’s thoughts were, ‘Since Xu Ze could change his mind for ten million, then he’ll also change for twenty million. Money is a good thing.’
Xu Ze not refusing him, to a certain extent, meant that it would be very easy for Xu Ze to be his again.
It’s just that time was short. Yang Yan was able to make Xu Ze love him to death in the beginning. So right now, he’s very confident in himself that he could do the same and capture Xu Ze’s heart again.
Knowing that he shouldn’t be too hasty, Yang Yan took the initiative to step back. Although he was taking a step back, Yang Yan knew everything about Xu Ze’s movements, including inside the school, where he goes, and who he meets.
Another classmate wanted to go out to meet with a girl today, calling Xu Ze to be his background wall of strength. Xu Ze suggested eating steamed vegetables, which were nutritious and healthy. The classmate checked the reviews of that store on the internet and found it to be okay, so they arranged the location inside a shopping mall.
When Xu Ze set off from school, he didn’t know that Yang Yan already knew about his whereabouts. Whenever Xu Ze went out to meet and have dinner with people, Yang Yan had always sent someone to follow him secretly. Yang Yan would then receive some photos within a short period of time. The Xu Ze in the pictures went out to dine with others and talked to them with smiles. Yang Yan was reluctant to delete any of them, even creating a special folder to place Xu Ze’s photos. If he had nothing to do, he would take them out for a peek. It seemed that he had the possibility of advancing into an idiot.
After learning that Xu Ze was going to eat steamed vegetables with others, Yang Yan thought he hadn’t been to that restaurant before. He turned around and asked his dormitory classmates if they wanted to eat together tonight.
The classmates all knew about Yang Yan’s family and that they have never been short of money. No one would refuse a meal if someone was paying the bill, so several classmates nodded happily.
Xu Ze was together with the students in his dormitory, having already arranged with the girls to eat at the steamed vegetable restaurant. Just like the previous few times, Xu Ze didn’t talk much after sitting down and basically immersed himself in eating.
He originally didn’t carry much hope. He had eaten similar dishes before, but the taste was mediocre. This restaurant’s food was unexpectedly delicious. The signature dish steamed beef and steamed sausages were particularly delicious. They were soft and sweet, especially when the beef melts in your mouth. After taking a bite, Xu Ze’s expression even changed slightly and his eyes brightened.
The boys came out for dinner this time with a purpose different from Xu Ze. They all wanted to have a new development. It was best to get a girlfriend. So even if they didn’t talk very much, they tried their best to express themselves compared to Xu Ze. Obviously, someone with even a little bit of sight could perceive that Xu Ze might have come out to rub off this meal.
Indeed, Xu Ze came out and used his face in order to eat. If they really went to other places, Xu Ze would not have the interest to be a light bulb.
Xu Ze was seriously eating, and soon there were a lot of bones on the plate beside his hand. The classmates laughed at whether he hadn’t eaten for a long time as if he had just been released from prison.
Xu Ze’s answer was to eat another rib. The ribs were cut into small pieces, which were very easy to handle. Directly picking it up and holding it in one’s mouth, then chewing it twice would allow one to eat the delicious meat.
The dishes here were delicious, large in portion, and the price was relatively cheap. In addition to meat dishes, they also ordered some vegetarian dishes. Among them, there was steamed string beans, which Xu Ze liked. More than half of them were eaten by him alone.
Because the girls were more reserved, they didn’t eat too much at first. After everyone exchanged words, talked, and got to know each other a little bit, they were no longer so restrained.
While everyone talked, Xu Ze buried his head and ate. Afterwards, when he was full, he sat aside to be a background board.
He wanted to be the background board. However with his looks, unless he hid his face, it was difficult not to attract attention.
“…… Xu Ze, someone like you not having a girlfriend is something that I don’t believe in.” One of the girls turned the topic on to Xu Ze.
Not only does she want to know the answer to this question, but the little sisters around her also wanted to know.
And so, several girls looked at Xu Ze with curiosity.
When Xu Ze saw them all looking at him, he thought of a reply. Before he could explain it aloud, a classmate was already one step ahead of him.
“Yeah, we didn’t want to surprise you. When we knew Xu Ze was a single dog in the beginning, we also felt it was strange. But very quickly we found out the truth.” That student said seriously.
“What’s the truth?”
“The gender’s different!” The classmate talked while shaking his head repeatedly with regret.
Xu Ze watched the exaggerated act of the classmate, thinking that if this person had a tail, it might have already been waving in the sky.
“The gender’s different? What do you mean? Xu Ze likes men?” The girl was so surprised, she turned her head and faced the little sisters who did the same.
“There’s no way, I can’t see it at all.”
“It would be strange if you could. With him like this, I don’t know how many girls’ spring hearts he has cheated from our school.” The classmate put a pot on Xu Ze’s head.
Xu Ze narrowed his eyes slightly and looked at his classmates with a smile that’s not a smile. The classmate shuddered, fearing that Xu Ze would retaliate when they returned. He smiled courteously at Xu Ze. At the same time, he secretly asked Xu Ze to be wronged just this once. And for the friendship between classmates, to temporarily make a little sacrifice.
For the sake of the delicious steamed dishes, Xu Ze’s smile warmed up a bit.
When the girls learned about Xu Ze’s sexuality, some people still didn’t believe it and thought it was a lie. But when confronted with Xu Ze’s fair, handsome face, and also that pair of soft, warm peach blossom eyes, they subconsciously believed that Xu Ze wasn’t a person who lies.
In fact, if they thought about it, they knew with Xu Ze’s looks, even if he was a heterosexual, he probably wouldn’t date them either. Even if they did date, the girls fantasized in their hearts, if they had a boyfriend who looked better than themselves, this kind of pressure might not be the normal kind.
Sitting there was Xu Ze, whose skin brings its own gentle light, looking like a beauty that came out of a painting. In the end it was still better to look from a distance.
Speaking of which, If they couldn’t be a couple, maybe they could be sisters?
Some girls roughly understood the homosexual group. Using a tone that didn’t incur people’s dislike, they politely asked Xu Ze about whether his position was top or bottom.
Xu Ze didn’t expect the girls to accept him so naturally after they knew he was gay, and even immediately asked him if he was a zero or a one.
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Seeing that the girls didn’t have any malicious intentions, Xu Ze answered that he was a zero. If it was the original owner, he was indeed a zero too. If he wasn’t a zero, his stomach wouldn’t be carrying a child.
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Xu Ze was too full, so he leaned back on the sofa to rest. Suddenly his expression changed slightly. There seemed to be someone watching him. That gaze was peculiarly sharp, making Xu Ze uncomfortable. He turned his head and looked around, trying to find the source of the gaze, but after looking for a long time he still could not find the owner of the gaze.
Withdrawing his all-searching sight, Xu Ze placed his hand on his slightly protruding abdomen. He thought it might be due to pregnancy that caused his nerve to be relatively sensitive. Shaking his head and waving away that discomfort, Xu Ze returned his attention to the dinner table.
Just two seats away from Xu Ze, a few people were sitting there. A partition was blocking them. The people inside could clearly see Xu Ze’s side, but Xu Ze couldn’t immediately recognize the other.
Because it was in the lobby, even though there was a partition, the sounds of talking were still audible.
Yang Yan had heard Xu Ze’s conversation at that table. The smile on Xu Ze’s face looked as if he didn't want money, never breaking since the beginning. When Xu Ze faced him, he always kept an indifferent face. He was bearing his child yet smiling happily with men and women from outside. Even if he knew that these people knew Xu Ze’s sexuality, understood that Xu Ze would not like them, Yang Yan’s eyes weren’t blind yet. The eyes of a few girls were basically glued to Xu Ze’s face.
The steamed dishes in this restaurant tasted good, though Yang Yan didn’t really like the sweet taste that much. After seeing Xu Ze eating the ribs and revealing a delighted expression, Yang Yan found that it was actually okay when he ate it again.
However, his good mood didn’t last long. When he heard a girl say that she wanted to introduce some boys to Xu Ze, Yang Yan almost stood up at that time, walked to Xu Ze’s table, then pulled the person up to hold him in his arms, telling them Xu Ze was his person, that his stomach was bearing his seed, and don’t casually have ideas about Xu Ze.
Yang Yan clenched his fists hard until he finally restrained himself in the end. He knew that if he really did this, the bright smile on Xu Ze’s face would definitely disappear immediately.
He didn’t know when it started, but Yang Yan began to miss Xu Ze’s smile, those beautiful peach blossom eyes bending slightly. The spring colors at the end of those eyes fascinated Yang Yan.
In the past, Xu Ze would choose to find a reason to leave midway. Today however, because he was too full from eating, he wanted to sit a little longer. When everyone is leaving, he’ll just randomly find a reason and leave.
A classmate went ahead to settle the bill, Xu Ze also followed along, though he was going to the bathroom. However, when he was returning through some aisles in the store, the discomfort of being secretly watched resurfaced. Furrowing his brows, Xu Ze looked around again, but still couldn’t find anyone secretly watching him.
He wouldn’t have met with some perverted stalker, right?
Xu Ze quickly walked back to his seat.
He sat for about 20 minutes after returning, before everyone at the table finished eating and got up to leave. Xu Ze walked relatively behind everyone. When he was walking out of the store, the feeling of being watched suddenly became stronger and even followed him like a shadow. Xu Ze violently turned to look behind him. In his field of vision, he saw a figure. That figure was currently walking around a corner. The back of that figure unexpectedly gave Xu Ze a sense of familiarity, as if it was someone he knew.
But to make Xu Ze turn that person around just like that to confirm who the other party was, Xu Ze wasn’t curious to the point where he had to do this.
Because he really can’t imagine someone he knew having this kind of hobby which was different from ordinary people’s, liking to track and secretly watch people. The key point was that there was no sign of such behavior before this. After walking out of the store, that kind of feeling faded a little, and Xu Ze’s pupils contracted slightly.
Coming down from the upper floor, a group of people stood on the side of the road to discuss where to go next. They finally called the girls out and some of them had already made a good conversation. No matter if it was the boys or the girls, neither wanted it to end like this.
While several people were discussing, Xu Ze interrupted the conversation, saying that he had some matters to deal with, so he’ll stop accompanying everyone and go ahead.
The girls were a little regretful, but Xu Ze had explained it so clearly, it wasn’t good to keep him anymore. The boys winked at Xu Ze one by one, thanking Xu Ze for his selfless dedication. Xu Ze smiled and waved goodbye to his classmates.
Turning around, Xu Ze only took two steps when he saw a pedestrian in front of him walking in a hurry. Xu Ze even deliberately walked aside to make way for him, yet the result was that person directly rushed forward like his eyes were growing on the top of his head, hitting Xu Ze’s shoulder directly. Fortunately, that place was flat ground, so Xu Ze only staggered a step back from the collision.
Standing still, Xu Ze turned to look at the person who hit him. The other party did not apologize, as if he had never hit Xu Ze. Xu Ze pursed his lips, thinking that there is no need to lower himself to this kind of person’s level. Suddenly, there was a slight pain in his stomach. Xu Ze placed his hands on his abdomen and rubbed it gently.
Yang Yan happened to see this scene when he followed Xu Ze out of the mall. He saw the passer-by walking rampantly and had almost knocked Xu Ze down. If Xu Ze really fell to the ground… Yang Yan’s eyes burst forth a chilling, terrifying light in an instant.
Because he saw Xu Ze only staggered a bit, looking like it wasn’t a big deal, Yang Yan endured it and did not go up. He told his friends next to him that he had something else to do. He then walked on another road, intending to drive his car and follow behind Xu Ze.
Author has something to say:
Lalala~
Yes, that’s all in the Author’s note for some reason. Idk why either.
Anna: An artistic spur? she probably wrote what her muse told her. You just have to decode it.
Weiwt: Meh, too lazy.
And also this Yang Yan! I swear! All of this yet he still thinks he’s not in love with Xu Ze?! God damn he’s so dense!
Oh, and uh, I had another “nightmare” literally the day right after last week’s “nightmare”. This one however, is um, how do I put it… is very… unique. Yes. Unique. I’ve put it after the 2 shorts(split into two to follow the format).
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We both returned home to prepare for the banquet.
After waiting a few hours, it was finally time for the banquet.
I was dressed by my servants and rode the carriage to Yi Xionghuang’s place. When the carriage reached her home, I saw her standing outside waiting for me.
She was lavishly dressed in a sky blue dress. It made her look more beautiful as if she was the gorgeous sky that descended from above.
“Well? Are you going to invite me in?”
Her gentle voice put me out of my stupor. I realized I’ve been staring at her all this time. She laughed when she saw the blush creeping up my face.
“Just get in already.” I told her.
She did and we set off to the imperial palace. We talked about our past together with the crown prince. She had a very happy smile as she spoke as if they were the most important memories of hers.
Every time she mentioned the crown prince however, her eyes seemed to have a strange passion in them.
My chest felt stifled for some reason.
Mini Theater:
*Talks about their childhood*
What Shuang Xìnglian thought Yi Xionghuang was thinking: The memories with the crown prince were the best!
What she was actually thinking: I really want to get rid of that little trash that kept competing with me for Xiao Xing’s attention.
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We talked until we reached the palace. She got off the carriage first.
But before I could get off, she turned around and reached out her hand.
“Come on, let’s go.” Yi Xionghuang smiled brighter than before.
“Okay.” I took her hand and got off the carriage.
We walked next to each other as we entered the banquet hall.
“Entering the eldest daughter of the great general, Yi Xionghuang, and the second son of the prime minister, Shuang Xìnglian.”
Everyone looked at us as we walked forward towards our respective seats.
The rest of our family was already there waiting. As for why we didn’t go together, I don’t know. I don’t know why they got here early and didn’t have me come with them.
There were two distinct figures within them however. The second prince and third prince were talking and sitting by our family.
More specifically, the second prince was sitting beside my eldest sister. She was one of the Four Great Beauties, ranked right after Yi Xionghuang who was the first. My eldest sister was gorgeous, well-mannered, and extremely talented in all forms of music and musical instruments.
The third prince, on the other hand, was sitting beside Yi Xionghuang’s eldest brother. He was the second-best general after the second prince. He led armies to win battles after battles and was one of the people that contributed the most during the war.
After staring at the four a little longer, I took my seats with Yi Xionghuang. We talked to our families and discussed the success of the war with the princes until the steward announced the star of the party today.
“Entering his majesty, the Emperor, her majesty, the Empress, and the crown prince.”
The three most important figures walked through the door then towards the imperial throne. Once they sat down, the crowd bowed and said their line, “Long live your majesty.”
“You may rise.”
When I sat down again, I looked up and saw the crown prince staring at us. More especially, after taking a glance at me, he stared at Yi Xionghuang.
The stifling feeling appeared in my chest once more.
Mini Theater
Zhang Julong: F*ck! Why is that hateful chicken besides my little star!
“Nightmare”
So on Oct 11, 2021, I had a long dream. This one though wasn’t like the last three where I’m half awake and half asleep but took place fully inside my dream. So that was good.
I barely remember the beginning, but the most important thing was that I got a book. I also remember escaping from something(a room?) with the book along with a girl. The girl isn’t important though since she never appears again.
The book, however, was extremely important. It was an all-knowing book of the past, present, and future. As long as you write down a question on it, words will appear and answer everything, and it’s always correct.
But good things never last long. When I went to sleep(in the dream), I woke up(in the dream) after feeling something by the door. I opened my eyes to see the door open. This door was right across from me, so I faced it and stared to see what it was.
Suddenly, I saw a movement. There was something black, something staring right at me in darkness through my bedroom door. The tiniest of the moonlight showed me what it was.
A monster.
An abomination.
A black humanoid figure stood by my door. It looked like it was made out of black goo, shaped to resemble a human. It looked unnatural. The jaw was longer than it was supposed to. There weren’t any legs, just a pile of black goo keeping the humanoid figure up.
It stared at me with its sunken, black sockets where the eyes were supposed to be.
When I blinked, I couldn’t see it anymore. Thinking that I missaw, I closed my eyes. I opened them again after a second because I felt uneasy.
There.
Right there by the door, I saw it again.
This time, it looked to be closer. Not by much, but I know it was closer.
I blinked.
It moved.
I blinked again.
It moved again.
Every time I blinked, it moved closer centimeters by centimeters.
Until I just closed my eyes. For five whole seconds.
When I opened them, it was… right at the door. It just entered the room and not more.
Honestly, I was expecting it to be right in front of my face, but this is fine too. I prefer to not get scared the crap out of me.
Oh, and what happened next was even more, uh, *special*.
I literally, for some god-forsaken reason, thought, ‘What if it was my boyfriend?’
I have no clue why I thought of that, definitelynotbecauseIreadtoomuchBL, and for better or worse, it worked!
I no longer felt uneasy around it at all.
I don’t remember the next part too clearly, but I know that the goo creature came to my door every night(still in the dream) and stood there saying nothing.
I, on the other hand, whenever I woke up to it in the middle of the night, I looked at it and said hi. I talked to it every time, though it never replied, or maybe it couldn’t? Anyway, I even waved my hand to say hello with a smile!
Wow, I never knew I was so thirsty that I even wanted to sleep with a black goo abomination in my dreams!
That lasted until one night when my brother showed up. Which I don’t understand why it’s my brother every single time. I mean I still have an annoying little sister. Like, why?
Anywho, I woke up with the door open as always. But this time the light was on in my bedroom, yet strangely the outside of my bedroom was still completely dark. My brother was standing there between my bed and the door.
He had a blank yet terrified look on his face.
I observed him until my goo monster boyfriend came. It was by the entrance of the strangely dark hallway. It stood there for a while until it entered my room.
My brother visibly flinched as it walked closer to him. When it was right beside my brother, as if it was about to devour him, I moved forwards and sat at the edge of my bed. I pat to the left of me and said, “Come here.”
Goo stopped. It ‘looked’ at my brother before getting away from him and closer to me.
Then my brother disappeared after I stopped paying attention to him. Like literally poof. Gone. Erased from existence for some reason. He also never appears again in the dream.
So I talked with Goo about our relationship and our future. I then thought of using the all-knowing book that I had all this time.
I wrote down/asked the book about us. Like do I love him, does he love me, what do I like about him, that sort of stuff, which all answered positively.
That is until the last question.
I wrote down the question: [Will I ever hurt Goo?]
Words started to form, but then I crossed out “ever hurt” and replaced it with “be with” and “forever” behind Goo.
Words stopped appearing. It stopped at the “You will” that was trying to answer the previous, but now crossed-out question.
The book continued after a second, forming out the full sentence, [You will not be with him forever.]
After reading that, a powerful and mysterious voice sounded right beside my ear as the words appeared on the books at the same time.
“[The abomination of the Church and the traitorous descendant will be punished by death.]”
Then a hole appeared under me. It sucked me into a different dimension and Goo was nowhere to be seen.
In that dimension, I was forced to go through several mazes. Well, maybe not mazes, but rather trying to find something in an open world.
Oh, it’s not that easy of course.
Obviously there had to be something chasing me while I searched.
It was a Japanese woman wearing a kimono. She looked like Geisha from Identity V.
It was also like I went into a horror game. It had the common running mechanic, where I can run super-fast, but I need to take a breath to rebuild up my stamina afterward.
The one chasing was also like a horror game AI. When it sees me, it runs after me fast, though not as fast as me running. Then when it breaks sight, it goes back to walking and searching.
Anyways, after getting chased for a few seconds, I reached like the middle of the “maze”. Then I… woke up.
Yep! I just woke up from my freaking phone alarm! There was no ending, no conclusion, no nothing! Frick it was so unsatisfying!
Ugh.
Though this dream was really interesting.
…
Say, what do you guys think about this plot as a novel?
It’ll be an unlimited flow novel.
MC would go through horror worlds, and the reward he got for one of them would be the all-knowing book. Then he’ll cheese through the rest and escape the horror cycle.
When MC returns to the real world, Goo, the ML, would follow. However, because he’s a monster, he could only protect MC in the dark like he did in the cycles.
All until one day MC notices Goo and says hi. They become friends then date, until the book thing happens.
The maze would be the punishment and the last horror world he has to get through. The hunter could also be that girl I mentioned way in the beginning that disappeared.
The backstory could be that Goo and MC were past lovers but had a terrible fate. The two were then punished. Goo by becoming a monster and MC to reincarnate over and over again. However, because someone dotes on MC, he sneaks the all-knowing book to MC. But MC trying to find out the future he has with Goo alerted the heavens or something and he has to be punished.
After all of that, Goo gets his human body back, or maybe the two were gods and becomes them again. In the end, they live happily ever after.
The End.
Anna: True, it’s a good prompt.
Weiwt: I know right!
Currently TLing Chapter: 14
I would be a nerve wreck in your nightmares
“…ain’t the worst ML I’ve seen.” Translator-san, what have you seen? 😆
Thank you for the translation! (´∩｡• ᵕ •｡∩`)
slaps YY
Thank you for the chapter!!! ❤️❤️
Well Yang Yan is so damn stupid so of course he doesn’t know his own feelings.
Thank you for the chapter!
Thanks for the translation!
What is this slight pain in his abdomen again 🙁 I hope yangyan is ready to help him when he needs it later
It’s the baby. Whenever Xu Ze gets too stimulated his stomach will hurt.
Aiya Yang Yan be a man laa dont stalk stalk like this
my god this is nightmare-inducing stuff. get your shit together and leave yy lmao
We love to see Yang Yan become so completely dense until it’s too late. It’s amusing to watch and I’m here for it XD Can’t wait for the tiny bud! Thank you for the chapter~
I hope Goo is alright. (´；ω；｀)
Thamkk for the chappiee~🛐
Bro is going really crazy
I definitely raised an eyebrow when the author wrote the girls “politely” asked if MC was top or bottom. the question is rude and invasive. It is impossible to make an impolite question polite. It doesn’t matter how you ask it
Okay, I’m invested in that nightmare/good prompt!
Just drive him home smh
Thank you for the chapter!