“Others say that Moyong’s descendants are crazy and regard them as laughing stocks, but I couldn’t stand it since I can’t change it.”
Tears streamed down Soseo’s fingers.
“But apart from that, I hate myself sometimes. Sometimes I feel like I’m too sensitive.”
I was in a hurry to deny Soseo’s words.
“Why do you think you’re sensitive? No, you aren’t like that at all.”
“Father told me to brush off what has already passed and move on. That’s how you should actually live your life. But I can’t do it. I don’t have the confidence to forget everything and just live at all. I still remember it all as clearly as if it was yesterday.”
“Soseo.”
“From Mother holding my hand while crying for me to bring glory to my family instead of her, to Father sending her back to that place through the pretext of family blood ties. But the most painful thing is… I am becoming more and more like Grandfather.”
“What makes you think that…?”
“I told you. Grandfather is a person with a great desire for honor. He is most afraid of becoming an insignificant person. But I have become most terrified of being forgotten by people like him and of becoming someone no one looks at.”
Soseo kept sobbing.
“I resent the people who made me like this, but on the other hand, I want to become someone who they can be proud of. I’m starting to worry about what expressions I make, the way I speak, the way I conduct myself. I just can’t control myself.”
“…….”
“I don’t even know what kind of person I am now. Am I really as sensitive as Father said? Or crazy, just like the servants said? I really can’t figure it out, no matter how much I think about it. Myoha, what kind of person I really am?”
I seriously thought about it, and then shook my head.
“Sorry, I can’t answer such an important question.”
“Why? How come? Of course, you also think that I’m…!”
“I’m afraid I’ll decide what kind of person you are in a few words. It’s really something you have to think about and conclude by yourself. But I can tell you this.”
I put my hand on Soseo’s shoulder.
“No matter what you think of yourself, I will forever think of you as a person I’m grateful to.”
“…..Why?”
“You were understanding no matter how many dumb questions I asked you. I couldn’t even ask other people since they would outright not understand or laugh at me, but you were at first a little bit embarrassed for a moment and then you explained it kindlier than anyone else. To be honest, I was more grateful for that than for you getting me a job or giving me something delicious.”
Tears streamed down Soseo’s cheeks again. Finally, I said.
“I really like you.”
“……It may not mean what I want it to this time too, but it doesn’t matter.”
As Soseo lowered his palm, the face he had been covering was clearly revealed. His face was full of tears, but he looked more relaxed and lighthearted than ever. Soseo said while wiping away the pearly tears around his eyes.
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“Thank you. I really like you, too.”
“Efjiis? P’w uijv kf offi atf rjwf kjs.”
“Qf vbc’a offi atf rjwf kjs atbeut.”
“Zc?”
Vbrfb qea tlr tfjv bc ws rtbeivfg.
“Vbggs, P kjca ab rajs ilxf atlr obg j ktlif.”
“Ktfgf’r cb cffv ab yf rbggs. Tbe mjc rajs ilxf atlr obg jr ibcu jr sbe kjca.”
I patted Soseo on the back. It was an exceptionally bright night with a full moon hanging high in the sky.
* * *
“I’m thinking of going back to the Moyong Family.”
The next day, Moyong Hwa appeared and blurted this out. Soseo, who was having tea with us in a temporary residence provided by the servants, responded leisurely.
“Really? Have a safe return.”
Moyong Hwa’s arrogant expression was instantly distorted by Soseo’s response. But after a while, Moyong Hwa struggled to lift the corners of his mouth. It was a smile more awkward and unnatural than ever, but we couldn’t say anything. Because Moyong Hwa seemed to be at his limit. Moyong Hwa asked naturally.
“You don’t seem to be disappointed about me going back?”
“I’m disappointed. But what can I do?”
Soseo spoke smoothly like a snake crawling up a wall.
“Now that you’ve said that, it seems like your travel fatigue has gone away, and I can’t force a healed person to stay here against their will. You also have a sensitive appetite.”
“…….”
“You do know that you have to go back alone this time, right? Mother is not well yet. I’ll send her back as soon as she recovers, so go back first.”
Soseo insisted.
“Take care of yourself. Please make sure to send my regards to Aunt.”
Moyong Hwa’s red bloodshot eyes glared at Soseo. His bloody glare made us, who were standing behind Soseo, falter, but he was still relaxed. It was like a cat watching a mouse struggle meaninglessly under its feet. Oh, actually in practice, Moyong Hwa is actually the mouse. He fainted with no resistance against Soseo in the training grounds. Then, Moyong Hwa asked.
“Why are you so calm like that?”
“Can’t I be calm?”
“Usually, once Hyung-nim is angry, you shut yourself in your room and don’t come out for a few days.”
“Yes. But it won’t happen from now on, so you don’t have to worry.”
Moyong Hwa gritted his teeth, and pointed his finger at me.
“Is it because of that guy?”
Huh? Me? Suddenly, I awkwardly avoided Moyong Hwa’s eyes. But when I turned my head the other way I had to look at Myoryeong’s sharp eyes. She looked as if she was asking, “What did you do while I wasn’t there?” No, I just listened to Soseo’s concerns. Everyone listens to their friend’s concerns. I restlessly made excuses at Myoryeong’s look, but Soseo was still relaxed. He said with his usual sweet smile.
“I don’t know why you asked a question you already know the answer to.”
Moyong Hwa’s face turned red.
“…… How can Peng Soseo rely on a mere servant of all people? Aren’t you afraid of how others will think of it? And yet, you can still say you are the Peng Family’s heir?”
“I don’t care.”
“What?”
“I don’t care. Whatever others think.”
“…… I never imagined that Hyung-nim would be such a weak man.”
Moyong Hwa’s already rough breathing got rougher. He said, shaking with anger. But….
“I’m almost ashamed of myself for overestimating you so far. I will never depend on anyone like you do. No matter how hard it may be, I will climb up and get the upper hand someday.”
Moyong Hwa’s eyes have been tearful for some time. Me and Myoryeong’s eyes widened.
“I will definitely prove to Grandfather that I’m more outstanding than you.”
“Yes, work hard.”
Soseo warmly gave Moyong Hwa some words of encouragement.
“I’m rooting for you.”
As soon as the words fell, Moyong Hwa’s eyes were filled with shame. He ran out of the room while Soseo casually filled his empty teacup again. Although I felt sorry for Moyong Hwa, I didn’t feel like Soseo had been too much. I thought the same way as he did. You don’t need to be nice to people who hate you. I closed the door again. No, I tried to close it.
“Do you mind if we go out, Young Master?”
“Huh? Why?”
“It seems like I need to have a little talk with my Oppa.”
“Of course, go ahead.”
As soon as Soseo granted permission, Myoryeong grabbed my wrist and ran outside. Myoryeong, who came out to the garden, rapidly began to question me.
“What happened yesterday with the Young Master.”
“It wasn’t a big deal. Soseo told me his concerns, and I listened to them.”
“I’m sure you did!”
Myoryeong shook me up.
“I don’t even need to be there to know! It’s obvious! I’m sure you behaved sweetly like a RoFan male lead again!”
“I wasn’t sweet, I was just being polite. You know, my dream is to have extraordinary manners just like a RoFan male lead!”
“You don’t just have extraordinary manners, you’re also full of flirtatiousness! Have some consciousness, why are you flirting all over the place! Do you think those martial artists who only know how to wield swords will be immune to your behavior?!”
“I’m not flirting! I really didn’t do anything. I just wanted to be there for Soseo when he was depressed and let him know that I’m right by his side whenever he needs me.”
“……Oh, I’m going crazy.”
Myoryeong closed her eyes tightly.
“I would really like it if at least once, between friends who act that way and no friends, I could shout that I don’t have any friends.”
Myoryeong’s words shocked me greatly. I asked in a trembling voice.
“I’m not your friend?”
Perhaps it was an unexpected question, but Myoryeong, who had been faltering for a while, freaked out and hugged me.
“Of course you’re my friend! You’re unconditionally my friend! That’s why I really can’t say it. But you’d better be careful. You’re really going to… Forget it. After all, you’ve only seen hetero things so you can’t listen to me seriously.”
Myoryeong sighed.
“Just know this one thing. I will always be by your side..”
“Me too. I’ll always be by your side, too.”
“Sure enough. You’re truly a man whose manners and talent drip like honey.”
Myoryeong and I shared a light hug and went back inside. Soseo said as he pulled out two more teacups.
“I have something to say before I go to see my Mother.”
Myoryeong and I sat in a chair as Soseo told us to. I asked.
“What do you want to tell us?”
Is it as serious as it was yesterday? Does he have more worries? I looked at Soseo with worried eyes. How many worries does he have when he’s only 13 years old? Maybe my worry was obvious, and Soseo said to relieve me.
“It’s not a bad thing, so there’s no need for you to make that face.”
“Oh, really? That’s a relief.”
“Yes. I just wanted to let you know that I’m going to train harder from now on.”
Our eyes were widened. Isn’t this as serious? We were stunned.
“Training harder!?”
“That’s ridiculous. You’re going to hurt yourself, Young Master!”
You’re already working so hard like you don’t have enough bodies, and you still want to work harder? How much time will you have to rest?!
OBLIVIOUS MC STRIKES AGAIN! Raising more red flags! hahaha
How many people is he going to unwittingly seduce before the story’s through? 😂
Thanks very much for the chapter, in ancient times there are not psychological treatment… it’s a shame…