It’s Actually Not Easy Wanting to be a Supporting Male LeadChapter 8.1

Translated by Eve

Edited by Cat, Juurensha, Celtic, Serefina p6G Mf


“….Say, where’s the good and proper BL world you promised?!” When Sui Yuan had finished reading this world’s plot, the first thing he did was direct his grudging gaze at 5237.

Contrary to expectation, 5237 did not respond for a long time.

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“5237?” Sui Yuan suddenly had a premonition that something was not quite right and subconsciously raised his voice.

5237 suddenly shook. As if its spirit had suddenly returned, it circled around Sui Yuan once as it forced a laugh out : “Sorry, sorry. I just received some news so I got distracted. What were you saying?” pCJ0qS

“…Why is this world still as strange as the last?” Sui Yuan composed himself, feigning disinterest while asking.

“This also isn’t my fault QAQ” 5237 immediately adjusted its awkward-sounding voice, adopting a resentful tone as it responded, “You still have the nerve to ask this! Look at your points from the last world! Can you even look straight at what you’ve done?”

”I know that my score is really terrible, so I just wanted to know if there were any problems. Am I being penalized?” Sui Yuan’s voice was calm.

“That’s right! This is because—” 5237’s accusing voice came to an abrupt stop. A long while later, it lowered its voice, “It’s because you were messing around. A single make-up assignment isn’t enough, so you have to do it a second time…”

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“What’s the penalty?” Sui Yuan did not let 5237 evade the topic, and instead accurately pulled the conversation back on track.

5237 choked for a good while before reacting: “….Did you just try to take advantage of my lapse in attention to trick me into answering you?”

“Yup,” Sui Yuan was not at all ashamed. On the contrary, he looked at 5237 with an expression full of honesty and pity, as if he was worried about its low IQ, “I didn’t think that you would not fall for it.”

“….Little Sui Yuan has been corrupted by Zhao Xihe’s bad example QAQ” 5237 at a loss, accused with eyes full of tears, “Where’s my wittle innocent and naive Sui Yuan who would believe whatever I said! Huwwy and wetuwn him back to meeee~!!!!! uwu” rpqX0c

“Even if you throw a tantrum, act dumb, or act cute, don’t think that you can get away with it today,” Sui Yuan ruthlessly and shamelessly provoked the system, destroying 5237’s wish to pretend that everything was fine.

5237 shut its mouth as it fell silent, becoming more uncooperative.

Sui Yuan sighed: “I know that you’re worried for me and that you’re afraid that I’ll feel upset after hearing it, but I don’t want to continue on in ignorance like this. Even if I were to be destroyed, this needs to be clear nevertheless.”

“….Ok,” 5237 murmured, tone no longer forcefully exuberant as before, “Although I still feel that you’d be happier not knowing, but since you’ve already realized, if I were to hide it, perhaps it’d end up even worse.” tNhTBU

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As a system, 5237’s feelings were not as rich as what it had showed on the surface. Its character had already been set. All of its  reactions were more or less predetermined by its programming, but now, it truly felt a sense of remorse and sadness that would soon fry its circuits.

“This isn’t your fault. It was for me that you decided to change worlds. Moreover, even if I didn’t change worlds, how long could you protect me? We’d be discovered eventually,” Sui Yuan was especially good at understanding other people. Or rather, he had long accepted that this day would come, so he was particularly calm. 271WI4

“Since the auditing computer program has more authority than I do, it means that I am helpless and can’t interfere with its judgement. Furthermore, its judgements are passed to the upper levels, so…” 5237 swallowed down its next words, as it was unable to spit it out.

“So, my creator has realized that I am incapable of carrying out my duty and it’s been decided that I will be destroyed?” Sui Yuan calmly added, “When? Now? Or will it be after this world?”

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“……After this world,” 5237’s body shook lightly and it suddenly raised its voice, “Actually, it’s not that terrible! Doesn’t it give you one last chance? If you do your task well this time and don’t mess around with Zhao Xihe, then the crisis will be over!”

Sui Yuan hung his head, his fine eyelashes covered his black pupils. His serene expression made 5237 unable to tell what he was thinking. cmrUoA

—-When did the child, who couldn’t hide any of his emotions, grow up to be like this? Even if it was 5237 who had been by Sui Yuan’s side all this time, it was also unable to figure it out.

“Hey, did you hear what I said?” 5237 bumped against Sui Yuan’s body, as if urging him. Sui Yuan‘s silence made him more and more uneasy, “Zhao Xihe will definitely come looking for you. When we see him, you have to speak to him! Tell him everything. Right now, there aren’t any confidentiality clauses. He likes you so much so he certainly won’t want you to be destroyed. He’ll feel wronged this once, but once you’ve smoothly passed the audit, then everyone will be happy!”

After having said this, 5237 felt that its proposal was more and more reasonable and its mood rose.

Sui Yuan’s lips twisted and he raised his hand to pat the excited 5237 that was turning around in his arms. He calmly asked, “And then what?” 7hdI1y

“After? What afterwards?” 5237 was particularly bewildered.

“Afterwards, do we continue to act in this “slacking off” manner? Waiting until my creator is fed up with me?” Sui Yuan smiled, but the words that came out of his mouth made 5237 completely dumbfounded. It felt a slight chill.

“W-when the boat gets to the pier-head, it will be smooth sailing! When it gets to that point, we’ll have a new solution!” 5237 forced a smile as it denied it, “This time, you absolutely cannot fool around! This is a matter of life or death!”

“Yeah,” Sui Yuan replied, smiling. He placed 5237 to one side and began to skim over the plot’s details as well as his own character settings. uZgMb7

5237, who had been put to the side, felt tangled inside as it rolled around on the bed. It didn’t know whether Sui Yuan’s “yeah” meant “Yeah, I’ll do as you said”, or if it meant “Yeah, let me think about it”—did he simply want to upset it to death, huh?!

After having experienced the beast world and the merman world, Sui Yuan was able to remain calm with regards to these particularly strange settings. The world this time was an ABO. It meant that aside from males and females, there were also Alphas, Betas, and Omegas. If one was to compare it to the males and females in ordinary worlds, then Alphas were like males. They were all very powerful and they were leaders. Omegas were like women.  Their bodies were weak and they were practically only responsible for giving birth, just like Sui Yuan’s previous merman role. Finally, there were Betas who were somewhat in the middle. They were just average and made up the majority of the workforce.

Compared to the differences between Alphas, Betas, and Omegas, the difference between males and females was not that important. The only difference was really just their external appearances. There were female Alphas and there were male Omegas. The Sui Yuan who was no longer ignorant towards sexual matters was especially curious. If a female Alpha and a male Omega happened to get together, why was it the male Omega that got pregnant?!

Afterwards, 5237 very cheerfully responded to this question — it was because female Alphas also had dicks! And they were very spectacular! 1n8udb

Sui Yuan:“………”

——He had thought that nothing could topple his three views again, but between males and females, just what was the difference?!

5237 answered: “Women have breasts and men don’t ╮(╯▽╰)╭”

Fortunately, 5237 had been much more generous when choosing his role. This time, the role Sui Yuan had to play was that of a Beta male. Beta males could be said to have closest to the male body that Sui Yuan was familiar with. This made it so that he didn’t have to face that kind of hermaphrodite body (5237: Beta males are also kind of hermaphrodite-like. It’s just that you can’t see it from the outside, that’s all=_=) and he didn’t have to be bothered by heats or ruts. idwcrf

That’s right, Alphas had ruts and Omegas would spontaneously enter their heats. After they came to sexual maturity, regrettably, they would periodically secrete pheromones that would attract Alphas. Alphas’ ruts would then be triggered by the Omega’s pheromones. In the case in which the Alpha and Omega’s pheromones reached an 80% or higher compatibility rating, then once they went into heat both of them would lose all reason and drown in desire. Nothing could stop them.

However, Sui Yuan was a Beta, whose pheromones were diluted to the point of being nearly undetectable. At the same time, he would not be influenced by the pheromones of Alphas and Omegas. This truly made Sui Yuan let out a big sigh of relief. After all, to lose one’s mind out of lust sounded like it was quite dangerous. It wasn’t beautiful at all.

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Only, when he looked at the two protagonists’ settings, his feeling of relief immediately vanished in a puff of smoke. He unconsciously furrowed his brows, completely unable to overlook the negative feelings in his heart.

Of the two protagonists, one was an Alpha. The other was an Omega who was pretending to be a Beta. According to the plot, the two’s pheromones’ compatibility reached 95%. In other words, in the plot, when the Omega reached his heat and was discovered by the Alpha, then even if Zhao Xihe’s willpower was strong, he would also be unable to resist the temptation. 7O9fkU

“……I know that you would feel uncomfortable with this kind of setting,” seeing that Sui Yuan’s brows had knitted, 5237 timidly comforted him, feeling awkward, “However, isn’t this better for your task? This way, Zhao Xihe cannot thwart your plans. As soon as the heat hits, he’ll get together with the Omega. See if he still has the face to come make trouble for you and interfere with your work after that!”

Sui Yuan blinked. Towards 5237’s smile, he did not respond at all. Nonetheless, he quietly came to a decision inside of his mind. This decision made him a bit excited and a bit disappointed. While it was not to a particularly high degree,  he still had some lingering remorse and sorrow.

His life was about to end, so Sui Yuan wanted to be willful at least once. Even if his willfulness this time would hurt someone else, he still decided to do it.

—–It wasn’t easy to arrive in this world. He didn’t want to leave with any regrets. If this was going to be the last time, then he wanted to properly enjoy himself. 0 WG1e

5237 finally saw Sui Yuan suddenly relax and let out a sigh as if he had suddenly been enlightened. It was most afraid that Sui Yuan would stray into difficult territories and harm himself because of his messy feelings. If Sui Yuan could get over it and no longer be worried about Zhao Xihe, then everything would be fine!

So, 5237 transferred from its database all general knowledge pertaining to ABO worlds to Sui Yuan. It was rather enthusiastic in helping Sui Yuan integrate into this world and fantasized about the beautiful scene that awaited them after smoothly passing this world.

The excited 5237 didn’t notice that Sui Yuan looked at him with a gaze full of guilt. Really, he should light a candle for it.

The technology of this world was more or less the same as the technology of the merman world. It was also an interstellar society that predominantly relied on mechas. Only, while he had been a merman who could not mess around with mechas in the last world, in this world he was a mecha pilot-in-training. Once he completed his training and attained his qualifications, then he could become a proper mecha pilot and would be able to have a mecha of his own. msawRO

Lin Zhan, one of the protagonists, and Sui Yuan’s character were fellow mecha pilots-in-training. What was different was that while Sui Yuan was a true Beta, Lin Zhan had gotten an Omega inhibitor shot, thereby inhibiting his body from emitting Omega pheromones. In this way, he became a Beta and entered the Mecha Training Camp.

Lin Zhan himself was not at all aware of his own Omega identity, so when the inhibitor gradually lost its effectiveness, he was scared to death. However, because he adored mechas, he was unwilling to leave the training camp to become a domesticated Omega for some Alpha.

Zheng Yu and Lin Zhan were close friends. Since they were the only two Easterners in the training camp, they became close really quickly. While Lin Zhan only felt feelings of friendship towards Zheng Yu, Zheng Yu held feelings that were more than friends but less than lovers towards Lin Zhan.

In this world both Alphas and Omegas were rare. With the guidance of pheromones, the combination of AO was something they could not go against. As for Betas, they mostly got together with other Betas, spending the rest of their lives together. 5WXaVm

Zheng Yu had always wanted to find a like-minded Beta lover and Lin Zhan was the first person he had met that he had found to be so agreeable. Lin Zhan’s outside appearance was that of an Omega. He was extremely beautiful and his temperament was warm and strong. He also loved mechas as much as Zheng Yu did. In Zheng Yu’s eyes, they were simply a match made in heaven.

Thus, when Zheng Yu found out that Lin Zhan was actually an Omega, the devastating shock he received was no less than what Lin Zhan himself felt.

Since he couldn’t bear to refuse his friend’s request and because of his unspeakable thoughts, Zheng Yu decided to help Lin Zhan hide his identity. After all, if Lin Zhan’s identity was discovered, he would inevitably be driven out of the Mecha Training Camp. Afterwards, he’d be forced to bond with an Alpha. Zheng Yu, as a Beta, would not have any opportunities to be with Lin Zhan.

It was just a pity that God’s plans superseded their own. Lin Zhan’s identity was seen through in the end. The second to discover his identity was an Alpha. Whether it was through strength or social status, Zheng Yu had no way to compete with the Alpha. Even worse, the other party was the idol Lin Zhan revered, Adonis. PJgvNW

Because Lin Zhan adored mecha technology and had a tenacious temperament, after Adonis lent a hand to help him out, Lin Zhan’s feelings towards the protagonist, Adonis, changed from reverence to adoration. Soon after, when he went into heat, the two people bonded naturally. Zheng Yu retreated sadly and could only bless them as a good friend. In the end, he sacrificed himself during a fight and became a martyr.

—–With regards to this, Sui Yuan could only sigh with sorrow.  Being killed in an explosion could only be painful. Coupled with the feeling of defeat, Zheng Yu’s life was simply too tragic!

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After having skimmed through the supporting male lead’s life and then connecting it to his previous tragic roles, Sui Yuan suddenly felt that his own life wasn’t the most wretched.

After all, he still had Zhao Xihe who liked him all along. Moreover, having experienced so many worlds together — having spent so much time together — he had so many beautiful memories. His death will also be his own work, so shouldn’t his death be justified? 0dtDjx

Indeed, as long as there was something to compare to, he would feel comforted. Even if he was going to die, Sui Yuan still remained happy.

——In any case, he had made up his mind. Now, it all depended on Zhao Xihe.


The author has something to say:

I believe that I will be very gentle. The tone of this world is still very happy. Maybe I will end up abusing you a little, but it’ll immediately become happy again! Don’t break, you must believe in me ah QAQ Lue0X4

 

Eve: *mutters to self* this is HE, mijia said this is HE, come on Eve, pull yourself together. *tears up anyways*

Juurensha: System is so cuuuute.

Serefina: ABO is one big kink DXas2p

Translator's Note

  Thank you Zryuu for translating this alien cutesy talk.

Translator's Note

Everything will be alright

Translator's Note

水到渠成 – lit. where water flows, a canal will form. Fig. when conditions are right, success will follow naturally

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48 comments

  1. I feel like crying…will he tell Zihe?

  2. In our universe its man proposes and god disposes but in MC’s world its MC proposes and ML disposes hahahaha

  3. NO! OUR BABY!!! SUI YUAAAAAANNNN 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

    (though his current “going out with a bang” attitude is worrying, I can’t help but love his new-found independence)

    Damn that bastard! hic hic 😭😭😭😭😭 Sui Yuan, our precious baby, the time has finally come for his judgement! Maa, if he told Zihe though, I think Zihe would try to wholeheartedly follow the plot this time, and end up breaking our poor baby’s heart 💔

    Though, hopefully there would be a relent for our precious baby! He’s so young and innocent, and they expect him to win against that experienced and free bastard?! Anyways, while he might have gone along with some of it, ast least he tried his best to mitigate the damage and follow the plot!

    Dammit! I am the same as you Eve! Mijia-sama said this has a Happy Ending, let’s endure for the sake of our precious baby! Sui Yuan, ganbatte!♡ \\\٩( ‘ω’ )و ////♡

  4. also repeats under breath HE…….HE…..but why do i feel so sad QA

    thank you for the update!

  5. I kinda hope ml suffers a lot at this one. Is that bad if me?

    Thanks for the great translation 😁

    • No. You are not bad. Because i am hoping ML will suffer too right now

    • I know I shouldn’t be, but I’m hoping, and looking forward to the ML suffering.

      It’s just, God, let the MC do his job! You may be a Senior Actor and can do anything you want, but he isn’t!

      Their relationship looks cute and all, but I swear, I have a hard time believing that their current relationship is good for the both of them.

      Besides, while there are plenty of moments where the ML’s loves is shown, majority of the time, it just feels like lust.

      I know I shouldn’t be complaining as this sort of thing is common in a lot of BL novels, but still…

      Sorry for ranting, thanks for the chapter!

  6. Author is getting more and more abusive towards his children.

    Is MC really going to seek for real death this time?

  7. This is the exact reason I hate ABO. “Alphas are very strong and have dicks and they are the best, they are the men of this setting. Omegas are weak and pretty and have babies, they are the women.” It’s such a sexist premise to designate the birthgiving gender as weak and feminine, not to mention the unfortunate eugenistic undertones of your status in life determined by your genes at birth. I really wish every world hopping novel didn’t have to have the obligatory ABO chapter.

  8. I agree about ABO is a great kink. Thanks for the chapter!

  9. I am a sadist so I very much like this dilemma for Sui Yuan. Don’t be afraid to give us angst, author!

  10. I don’t like angst but a bit once and a while won’t hurt just… my heart is already clenching!

    Thanks for the chapter! 💕

  11. :chant to self: this is HE.. this is HE.. THIS IS H!E!!

    But damnit… My heart hurt so much everytime SY thinks about the plot & his eventual reset. He’s thinking to go with his heart & dismissing system’s advice isn’t he?

    Thank you for the translation…

  12. Come on, I can’t be the only super excited about what is going to happen, right? Obviously he survives, I mean there are 10 arcs after this. I am so excited about what is going to happen/ how it’s going to happen. I was so sad when Shenhua went on hiatus, I literally checked everyday after that first month pause ended. I cannot express how enthusiastic I was when it was finally picked up again and now that the releases are so often, I am beyond stoked.

    Thanks so much for the chapter, I can’t wait for the showdown to begin!

    • But what if he still got reset but ZXH continue to chase him? Ah the angst, how I hate it and love it at the same time.

    • Thanks for reading! I’m also super excited to see where SY’s story goes from here on out!

  13. Hehe….(^)
    Should I stock up? A cliffhanger in this kind of arc would be particularly painful….hmmmm

  14. Everyone focused on different things XDXDXD thanks for the chapter! QwQ don’t let him die qwq my heart is breaking omg qwq

  15. smiles

    There won’t be a ‘Zhao Xihe-loses-his-memories-so-our-baby-Sui-Yuan-gets-to-be-the-one–who-chases-his-hubby-this-time’ dog blood scenario, right?

  16. YES! I’m glad the MC has finally decided to take control of the story’s plot!

  17. The owner would probably have a change of heart or something… I mean we could consider “them” (whoever they are) as the parent of Sui Yuan.

    And as a parent wouldn’t you feel proud if your child matured?

  18. I have never met a bl that has had me crying as much as this one has. With the exception of the last arc,I have cried at the ending of every one. I suppose since the last one wasn’t a tear jerker the author had to make the beginning of this one one instead. Seriously, I’m already tearing up and constantly telling myself that it’s not even halfway through the novel yet.

  19. Adonis… that name tho…
    But poor baby SY has to think like that 😭🥺 SY needs to be protected!!

  20. I can’t believe the name of the ML is freaking Adonis LMAO

  21. Aaaahhh no, baby no! I’m crying! QAQ choosing a last happy love over a long and miserable life….

  22. author: fine fine, i wont spoil anymore.

    also author: spoils

    • i dont mean that as an offense btw ;; I think it’s cute and kind of silly

  23. “If a female Alpha and a male Omega happened to get together, why was it the male Omega that got pregnant?!”

    ohhhhhh atlast my unanswered question! rly ive been reading omegaverse manga but i didnt ponder over both female alphas having a child .. so its like that *nods

    • That’s a new setting, usually it is some advanced tech that uses both person’s genes, but whatever floats your boat…

  24. Even if I have saw that there are more chapters and worlds, I’m still heartache! He can’t die! And it’s killing me reading him thinking this way!!

    Thank you for the chapter!

  25. Even if I know this is a HE and there are arcs after this one I can’t help tearing up. My nose is sour now, how do you expect me to eat like this, author??

    *holding back tears valiantly *

  26. Why do I feel kinda sad at this chapter? Tho the author said that this world will be happy, my heart aches a lil bit… I don’t like it 🙁

  27. So ML has literally driven MC to death now 😭 I hope MC survives and that stupid jerk ML finds out how he nearly killed off his lover!!! Actions have consequences, GRR! I just want to smack him (ML) upside his head with a bat, just once or twice to vent my anger for SY