Xu Na was tired out after our playtime and ended up falling asleep on the sofa. Seeing this, I took off my jacket and placed it over her.
Mrs Yang and Sheng Min Ou spoke in the office for around an hour, and when they returned the skies outside were already tinged with a hint of dusk. She thanked me, carefully scooped up her daughter, and followed Wu Yi as he escorted them out of the office.
I put on my jacket and followed them out. Once I saw that Wu Yi had sent them out, I went up to him and hooked an arm around his shoulders.
“They’re the family of the deceased in that traffic accident case?”
Wu Yi was astonished as he replied, “How did you know? Mrs Yang told you about it?”
“I figured it out from my smarts and intelligence of course. The way they were dressed and how they spoke were simply too different from the target audience that you would have as clients. In one glance, one would be able to tell that they weren’t the type to be able to afford the hundreds of thousands that was needed to have you represent them in a court case. Besides…” I grinned, flashing my teeth, “I heard earlier in the conference room that you said the client would be coming to visit later in the afternoon.”
Wu Yi smiled in response, “No wonder.”
He then followed up with a further explanation that the purpose behind calling the client over today was twofold. First, it was to align on the amount of compensation they would like to receive, and second, to explain the legal process that would ensue.
He let out a sigh, “The child is the most pitiable here, she’s so young and she’s already lost her father.”
No one would disagree with that statement, no matter how much compensation was given, Na Na’s father would never be able to come back again. He’d no longer be able to accompany her as she grew up, and for a child, it was ultimately an absence that could never be made up.
“Hello, the express parcel for Mr Sheng has arrived.”
Wu Yi and I both turned back to see a young delivery boy holding a long rectangular box, as his head continuously ducked back and forth in an attempt to look within the office.
Wu Yi moved to approach him, but I grabbed him by the shoulders and had him stay where he was.
“I’ll get it, it’s all good.” I moved towards the delivery boy slightly overzealously, and signed the delivery off as he handed the parcel over.
The paper box had a length of one metre, and was about twenty or so centimetres wide. It felt quite light as I held it though, so I had no clue as to what would be inside.
I parted temporarily with Wu Yi and knocked on Sheng Min Ou’s office door. Without waiting for a response, I pushed the door open and entered, whilst simultaneously greeting him, “Sir, your parcel delivery has arrived.”
The office desk which was scarred with markings had already been replaced. The new one was an exact replica of its predecessor, having the same transparent material, and it’s surface absent of any superfluous necessities.
Hearing my voice, Sheng Min Ou raised his head from the file he was examining, and without a word he moved his laptop and other belongings on his table to the side.
I understood the meaning behind this action, and quickly placed the box on the desk in the space that had been emptied out. I then passed him the envelope opener from the pen holder on his desk.
He took it from me without even lifting his head and disassembled the box in a few fluid strokes, taking out from it an exquisite gentleman’s cane.
The wooden staff was long and sturdy, and it was crowned with a handle made out of deer antlers. To sum up how it appeared, it was high class, elegant and classy.
If I wasn’t wrong, this cane was from an Italian brand, and was purely handcrafted. It was also pretty expensive, as any cane from the brand would be in the four digit zone, and if the materials were of particular quality then the price could go upwards into the tens of thousands. Seeing Sheng Min Ou’s wood and deer antler cane, I felt like he wouldn’t be able to get it crafted without at least ten thousand renminbi.
Ai, all he did was twist an ankle, was it really necessary to drop so much money? If he told me earlier, I could’ve headed to the local supermarket and got him one of those canes for the elderly, and it wouldn’t have even cost more than a hundred renminbi.
I pulled out a chair from his desk and sat opposite him as I asked, “Did you pick that case because of what happened to our father?”
Sheng Min Ou raised his cane, lifting it so he could scrutinise it at close range whilst exuding an air of arrogance and diligence. It was as if he was a King who was examining his staff with fastidious care. Each detail was required to be executed flawlessly, and every mark had to test the limits of the artisan, otherwise it would not be fitting for such a high and mighty presence like himself.
“I picked it because I wanted to.” He held onto the handle and tried out the cane as he attempted to stand.
I had to admit, the texture of the deer antler really suited him, it was beautiful in a majestic and grand way, emanating a sense of firmness and power.
At first he wasn’t familiar with using the cane, but after a very short while, his stellar ability in picking things up became quickly apparent. In less than two minutes, he had completely figured out how to use the cane flawlessly, and walked about without any hindrance.
Here I was, having taken off two weeks leave, yet I had already been made redundant from my job as a ‘human cane’.
Sheng Min Ou walked two laps around the office, and perhaps he was satisfied with how things were going, as the corners of his lips unwittingly curved upwards into a faint smile. However, when he looked at me, that slight smile would instantly disappear.
“Leave the car keys behind, you can go now.”
I knew that he had only bought the cane with such urgency so that he could get me out of his sight faster.
“I can drive your car back and escort you home;”
He replied with an outright rejection, “No need, I can have Wu Yi accompany me.”
“Ah, but it would be such an inconvenience for him.”
Sheng Min Ou let out a sneer and looked at me with an expression that said ‘you know what I mean so why are you asking’ as he slowly spoke his next words, “I’m more worried about inconveniencing you.”
My smile faded slightly as I moved my sights off him, no longer staring him in the eye.
If I didn’t meet his pejorative gaze, or see his mocking expression, I was able to consciously lower the hurt from his attack, and consequently feel less of the pain. Although there was an element of me lying to myself here, it was the best solution I could come up with.
“I’m not afraid of being inconvenienced.”
His voice lowered as he replied, “Lu Feng, I thought I had already made things clear yesterday.”
I stopped swivelling on my chair and glued my eyes to the floor, suppressing the bitter hurt in my voice as I responded, “I understand, I won’t have any delusions of my feelings being reciprocated. You find me annoying, you despise me, and you would never fall in love with me. This I know more than anyone else.”
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If I didn’t develop romantic feelings for him, then in this lifetime our relationship with each other would never have been estranged brothers, albeit being non blood related, even until the day we died. We would perhaps meet up with each other once or twice every year, and give a rare call to each other when it was the New Year or when it was an occasion to celebrate. If I didn’t have an acrimonious fallout with him, he definitely would not have cut me off completely. Even if in the depths of his heart, he could not stand me, he would still maintain pleasantries on the outside, and maintain our insignificant brotherly bond.
Yet, I developed feelings that shouldn’t have existed, and it was noticed by him. Him and I were no longer brothers, and therefore there was no need for him to keep up with the facade. Disgust was disgust, rejections were rejections, he didn’t need to continue running circles around me anymore, and did not need to concern himself with how I felt.
After all, he hated himself so much, so why would he show mercy to a person he didn’t even care about.
“Look, you’ve twisted your ankle and it’s hard for you to move around right now, I’m also extremely interested in the traffic incident case. How about you let me be a free chauffeur during this time, in exchange for me to have an opportunity to see how the case is progressing, okay?” I said, attempting to negotiate with him, “I will absolutely not interfere with your life, and I won’t be doing anything that you find disagreeable. It’s just… let me see you win. You’d understand, for me as well, this case means a lot.”
I raised my head to look at Sheng Min Ou, almost like I was praying to him. In this exact moment, the setting sun rays pierced through the windows of the building opposite us, and the sky outside was set ablaze. Sheng Min Ou had his back against the light, and his expression was cast completely into darkness.
Time trickled with every second and every minute that passed. I was nervous beyond words, and was scared that even when I acquiesced to such a degree, Sheng Min Ou would still not be swayed.
I sat patiently on my seat, trying as hard as I could to appear docile and harmless, genuine and dependable.
He stared at me quietly for a moment, then walked towards me step by step as he gripped onto his cane before finally coming to a stop a metre or so away from me.
I gulped, and subconsciously straightened my back in response.
“I’ll set three rules.” He said, his eyes looking down at me, as the words came out softly from his thin lips, “One, you will only watch, you will not be able to voice any thoughts or opinions of your own. Two, you will only watch, you will not touch anything with abandon. Three, you will only watch, you will not have any dissents. This arrangement will last for one month, you may drive the car, but you must escort me using the car when I need it.”
In simpler terms, he had compromised on the case, but in regards to feelings, he was certain in making sure that there would be no chance for me to make any moves.
That worked out anyways, he wouldn’t have to think about how he could defend against me, and I wouldn’t have to think of ways to get closer to him. In this one month, we could temporarily put away the feelings, and get along with each other in peace, focusing only on our common goal.
Great, it was perfect.
“Do you understand?” Sheng Min Ou asked.
I hurriedly nodded, signalling that I had understood, and I would never break the rules that were set. If he still didn’t believe me, I could take an oath swearing to the heavens, pledging my life in the case that I broke it. He sat back on his seat and threw the paper box to one side, bringing his laptop to its original spot.
“Oh, by the way…”
“One.” I initially wanted to ask him for more details on the case, however he didn’t even spare me a glance before directly hitting me with a number.
I was stunned for a second, then quickly realised, it was the first rule – I was only allowed to watch, but I couldn’t express my thoughts.
Shit, it already had begun?
I was a little taken aback, but still followed the rules in place and quickly shut my mouth. Seeing that Sheng Min Ou had resumed his work as if there was no one else around, I could only quietly get up from the chair and walk towards the door.
I was halfway before I turned around, retracing my footsteps to pick up the paper box from the floor as I took it away with me.
Based on our rules that we had set, every morning I would arrive at Sheng Min Ou’s apartment, pick him up and then send him to the law firm. During the day, I would burrow myself in a corner of their conference rooms and swipe on my phone playing games. If there was a meeting regarding the traffic incident, Wu Yi would let me know so I could listen in. At night, I’d then send Sheng Min Ou back, then return home myself.
At times he would also have other commitments, for example.. he would go to a few high end establishments to meet high profile clients, and these meetings would often be held at five star hotels, exclusive conference places and so on. At times there would also be private clubs, but these were more rare. Most of the time, I would sit in the car waiting for him. Usually if the meetings were short, they’d be around half an hour, however there wasn’t much of an approximation for the longer meetings. Whenever he finished meeting with a client, we would leave, taking the same roads we travelled on when we came.
During this one week, I couldn’t be sure about other things, but my skills as a driver had definitely grown.
“Tonight, you will be coming up with me.” Sheng Min Ou suddenly remarked as I steadily pressed on the brakes, bringing the car to a stop.
Although I was puzzled and doubtful, I nodded to show I understood without saying a word. There was nothing else I could do, under the three rules that were set, I couldn’t voice my opinions, I couldn’t raise any disagreements, basically I had to abide by whatever he said.
Following the waiter’s lead, Sheng Min Ou and I entered a magnificent, gold covered lift in the private club. As we ascended, he added a word of caution as he mentioned that today’s client was exceptionally hard to deal with, and all I had to do was pretend that I was part of the decoration on the walls. If I didn’t have to talk then I should keep my mouth shut, if I didn’t have to walk then I should remain still, even better, I should just abstain from breathing altogether.
“If you mess this up, our agreement will be nullified.” The elevator doors opened slowly, and he walked out with his cane in his hand, leaving me only with a harsh remark.
Then why did you even call me to come up here? I was mystified, and couldn’t help but secretly curse at him behind his back.
Once we were in the private room, I saw that there was a long putting mat, used for practising golf. In the room was a middle aged man of average build, wearing casual clothes who swung the golf club with confidence and practised ease as the ball just passed the edge of the hole.
He clicked his tongue lightly, then turned around to see Sheng Min Ou. As if he had just noticed our presence, he exclaimed loudly as he called out towards us with exaggerated enthusiasm, and came forward to shake hands with Sheng Min Ou.
“Xiao Sheng, you’re finally here.”
Sheng Min Ou shook back, “Mr Cai, it’s nice to see you.”
After noticing me, Mr Cai naturally asked who I was. Once Sheng Min Ou responded that I was only his assistant, he lost his interest and stopped paying me any attention. I also solemnly abided by Sheng Min Ou’s orders as I obediently stepped aside into a corner, acting as wallpaper decoration alongside the waiter that was assigned to this private room.
This Mr Cai character was indeed someone who was hard to deal with. Though he was courteous and generous, each time he opened his mouth it would be in relation to current affairs, or about Shakespeare and Nietzsche. Either this, or what painting he had just outbid someone in an auction to purchase, or where he was going to dine at tomorrow. He would discuss just about every topic under the sun except for partaking in the actual conversation that was meant to take place.
Sheng Min Ou attempted several times to steer the conversation topic back on track, however they would all be quickly glossed over by him in a few words. A bottle of whiskey wasn’t enough, so he opened another bottle of red wine that had apparently aged very well from his vineyard. The topic of conversation swerved this way and that, never hitting the main point of discussion.
Once or twice was alright, but when this continued happening, Sheng Min Ou’s cordial and well regarded expression that he wore so well was even slipping. Though he continued smiling, the coldness in his eyes intensified bit by bit, and his smile no longer reached his eyes, as it appeared particularly perfunctory.
However, this was only from my point of view. Mr Cai was none the wiser, and continued broaching broad topics, even going as far to invite Sheng Min Ou up to the putting mat to have a go at golfing.
Sheng Min Ou was half crippled, so how could he even play sports? If Mr Cai wasn’t purposefully out to set Sheng Min Ou up for failure, then he really was an extreme narcissist who was completely blind with regards to others.
With this type of person, if he wasn’t satisfied, then there was no possibility of securing a contract with him. No wonder Sheng Min Ou was so wary around him, and it was highly likely that this wasn’t their first time meeting.
Mr Cai exuded an aura of great hospitality as he made way for Sheng Min Ou, so if Sheng Min Ou continued sitting in his seat, then the atmosphere would undoubtedly turn awkward.
I was still considering how this situation could be dealt with when I heard my name.
“Lu Feng,” He stood up, and walked towards the putting mat, as he passed me the cane. “Hold this for me.”
I hurriedly approached him to take the cane from his hands, and saw him smiling as he accepted the golf club that Mr Cai had passed him. Despite him wearing his mask of indifference, I caught a glimpse of a sinister, cold and ruthless aura.
After witnessing such a sight, I was afraid that in the next second he would wave the golf club and smash it into Mr Cai’s skull, so I couldn’t help but take a step forward.
Sheng Min Ou slanted his eyes my way, the intensity of his gaze rooting me in my footsteps, as I no longer dared to move forward anymore.
With both his feet shoulder width apart and his upper body leaning slightly forward, he confirmed the distance between his golf club and the ball. Then, with a graceful swing that did not compromise in power, he followed through with his club. There was a sound, ‘ta’, followed by the golf ball sliding across the grassy mat as it landed smoothly in the cup. Sheng Min Ou had executed a precise putt.
To be able to accomplish such a feat and then play it off so casually, he truly was a veteran at this sport.
“…..” Mr Cai did not expect Sheng Min Ou to be this good, and his mouth widened in stunned surprise.
“It is not very interesting.” Sheng Min Ou discarded the golf club on the floor without a care, and reached out for the cane in my hands. Then he spoke to Mr Cai again as he continued, “If Mr Cai is interested, next time we can arrange to play a round of golf.”
“Ah… okay.”
I didn’t know if Mr Cai was stunned by Sheng Min Ou’s demeanour or not, but in the end he finally sat down with Sheng Min Ou and discussed the actual topic of conversation. He expressed that he would follow up with the legal department to review the contract, and was greatly looking forward to partnering up with Jin Shang Law Firm.
Sheng Min Ou drank quite a bit of alcohol, so despite still being conscious and awake after the whole affair, his footsteps looked slightly adrift, and he now required me to support him. Perhaps this was also the main reason behind why he wanted me to follow along with him.
We returned to the car with him reeking of alcohol, and by now it was already midnight.
Sheng Min Ou removed his jacket, loosened his tie, and unbuttoned the two topmost buttons on his shirt. After which he stopped moving, and closed his eyes as he started resting.
An hour later, I parked the car at the bottom of his apartment, and seeing that he made no movements, I could only make a noise to wake him up.
“Ge?”
He slowly opened his eyes and furrowed his brows as he took in his surroundings. When he realised that we had arrived at his place, he straightened up and attempted to open the door. In the end, even after several tries, he still wasn’t successful in doing so.
I saw that I couldn’t just leave him like so, and was afraid that he wouldn’t be able to get up to his place alone, so I got out of the car and circled around it to his side and opened the door for him, as I extended a hand out.
He looked at my hand for a long while, not making a sound, before he gripped it with one fluid movement. After all, the three rules were only put in place as a one-sided restriction for me.
“Alright, you can leave now.” Once we made it through the front door, he instantaneously let go of my hand and began trying to dismiss me.
I closed the door behind me, but I didn’t leave.
“I’ll make some hangover soup for you, then I’ll go.”
I had only walked forward two steps when Sheng Min Ou raised his cane horizontally in front of me. blocking my path.
“I’ll say it one more time, you can leave now.” Due to the force he was exerting, each knuckle bulged out, becoming painfully apparent. I wasn’t sure if it was due to the alcohol or if there was another reason, but the cane in his hand started trembling slightly, and appeared to be unsteady.
I knew this was his last warning to me, and there was an implicit threat of danger underneath, so I could only reluctantly acquiesce as I turned around to leave.
Just when I reached the door and gripped the handle, I heard a quiet sound of the cane falling to the ground, followed by a stifled grunt from Sheng Min Ou.
I couldn’t help but turn my head back, and pieced together that he was in the process of bending over to pick something up, but he had lost his centre of gravity so he toppled over as a result. Now he had a leg bent, with both his hands behind him on the carpet to support himself. His spiteful gaze was currently fixated on his right leg which had just disappointed him.
“Ge!” I got a fright seeing what had happened and hurriedly went to check on him, “Did you fall?”
I went to try lift him up, and in the process I unavoidably had to have some sort of physical contact with his body. I had just reached out and touched him when he immediately reacted violently and pushed me away.
“Get lost!”
I was caught off guard and fell to the ground, stunned and also slightly annoyed. However, when I raised my head to look back at him, I was startled at the sight of him with his eyes tightly shut and his brows furrowed, as if he was exercising great restraint. I took another look and saw that in his left hand by his side was a dark red wrestling bandage, so he was most likely trying to pick this up just then when he accidentally fell.
I suddenly understood what had happened, his body was already in this condition but he still wanted to practice boxing.
“Sheng Min Ou, how long has it been since you were able to find a release?” I asked, staring at the bandages in his hand, which appeared even more vibrant juxtaposed against his carpet.
Sheng Min Ou’s breathing faltered for a second, as he opened his eyes to stare at me.
“One…” He evidently wouldn’t answer me. A cold, solitary number was all that was given. I couldn’t figure out whether it was a warning, or a conveyance of his thinning patience.
He had counted to ‘two’, however I remained where I was. By his side was the antler cane, and I suspected that if I stayed where I was, then the person who’d have their skull bust open would end up being me.
However, before he could count to ‘three’, I still did not make a move to leave, rather instead I took the red bandage he held in his hand.
His voice faltered as I saw doubt forming in his eyes.
I didn’t acknowledge him as I wrapped the bandage over my eyes, whilst simultaneously finishing his count for him, “Three…”
The word left me, and I tightened the bandage behind my head, my eyes now completely blind.
With Sheng Min Ou’s intelligence, he should be able to understand the meaning behind my actions.
I wouldn’t voice any thoughts, I wouldn’t carelessly touch anything, and I wouldn’t have any disagreements.
So, he could do anything to me.
My vision plummeted into darkness, and my sense of hearing sharpened to the point where I would be able to hear a single pin drop.
In the strange silence, I seemed to hear my own heartbeats. It was pounding frantically and in an uproar, having completely lost its sense of order and was now clamoring in my chest.
I was left without a response despite waiting for a long time, and I couldn’t even feel Sheng Min Ou’s presence near me. I couldn’t help but become slightly restless, as I unwittingly clenched my fists tighter.
“In a few days the trial is going to begin. You won’t be able to deal with it calmly given the current state that you’re in, right?”
I paused for a second, and still did not receive any response. If it wasn’t for the fact that I was certain that Sheng Min Ou was right in front of me before I blindfolded myself, then I would really have begun suspecting whether there was only myself in this entire room.
To be honest, no matter how shameless I was, it was hard to continue when I was being ignored like this with no response whatsoever.
“Weren’t you… using me as a fire extinguisher?” I said as I laughed derisively, “It doesn’t matter how many times, after all whether you’re using me once or twice you’re using me all the same, so if you have the need you might as well use more times.”
I tilted my head slightly, but still could not pick up any sounds. I had a moment where I fell into a sense of awkwardness, as if I was acting a whole soliloquy by myself.
What did it mean, what does this mean? Last time I didn’t want him to do me, and he couldn’t get enough. This time I offered myself but he instead didn’t want to do anything to me, did he have some kind of condition?
Well, fuck it, if he didn’t want to do me then he didn’t have to. I’d be returning home and getting an early night’s rest anyways.
I was just about to jerk off the bandage covering my eyes when a sharp pain erupted from my scalp, as someone gripped onto my hair then pressed my skull down.
In that instant, it was as if the silence from the world outside had been completely shattered. Sheng Min Ou’s heavy breathing and a complicated scent composed of alcohol, cigarettes, and his cologne came carried over by the air and settled into my every pore. Without intending to, I found that my breathing became heavy as well as a result.
“Open your mouth.” From above me came an extremely husky voice.
I couldn’t see anything, so as a result my ears became even more sensitive. As I became ready to carry out his orders, I also heard a series of soft sounds, of his zipper being pulled down.
Knowing where this was going, I started lowering my body towards where the sound was coming from.
A scorching heat and a dominating male scent invaded my senses as my jaw was rudely pried open in a violent and forceful manner, as he pushed himself deep in my throat.
I wasn’t too used to it, as my fingers fisted the long strands of carpet beneath my feet. I subconsciously wanted to straighten my body, however the hand at the back of my head kept me forcefully in place as it did not allow me to get away that easily.
“On this world, there are plenty of stupid people. Every day, I have to tolerate and put up with them… I’m already exhausted to the bone…” The hand which gripped my hair tightened with every word, as Sheng Min Ou’s words staggered at points due to the motion happening to the lower half of his body. “Every day I’d ask myself, why wasn’t I born one of these people? To be a stupid, ordinary person… just like you, how good would that be?”
The corners of my mouth were stretched in pain, and the unrelentingly harsh pounding caused me to feel lightly suffocated.
The smell of Sheng Min Ou’s body, his heat, his breathing, even the pain that arose due to his fingertips scraping past my scalp, all of this acted like an aphrodisiac, causing my whole body to be fired up, as my member down there started to feel painfully trapped.
This fire really was too much, a small fire extinguisher like me almost couldn’t take it. I hadn’t even extinguished the spreading fire when I was about to go up in flames myself.
As he increased his pace, the sense of suffocation became stronger. I started whimpering out of discomfort, however the treatment I received in response became even more brutal.
“Is it uncomfortable?” Sheng Min Ou’s voice was filled with delight, “Isn’t this what you wanted? The dog finally smells and has a taste of meat, are you happy?”
Maybe he really held it in for too long, and in addition he had also drank alcohol, which exacerbated his already foul condition. All this in combination caused his levels of malice to rise several fold.
If I could speak, then I would’ve definitely responded with a huge grin, then shout jubilantly at the top of my lungs, “I’m ecstatic, I’m really overjoyed! Thank you Lord for your grace!” to really disgust him.
All of a sudden, there was a slight tremble from the object in my mouth, as Sheng Min Ou let out a satisfied sigh. His fingers were rigid for a second, before they gradually loosened. Then in the next second, he gripped at my hair fiercely again and flung me to one side.
I fell to my side as I hit the floor, my mouth bursting as it was filled with liquid. I didn’t get any time to swallow before I choked as it slipped down and I began to cough in an uncontrollable and violent fit.
After a long while the coughs finally subsided, then all I heard was Sheng Min Ou telling me, “Now you can leave.”
Next to my ears was the sound of clothes rubbing together, and after a while the air in front of me seemed to move as I heard the sounds of the cane striking the floor as it slowly sounded more and more distant.
The job of the fire extinguisher was fulfilled, so now it’s purpose was obsolete.
It wasn’t until I heard the sound of the door closing that I took off the bandages tied around my eyes.
I laughed at myself for a second, then took out a packet of cigarettes from my pocket and lit one up. The smoke rushed into my lungs, and my brows furrowed unwittingly as it mixed with the raw scent from before.
This combination of smells… kind of hits different?
The corners of my mouth still stung from the pain as I wiped away some of the liquid. I unzipped my pants, leaned against the wall and started to please myself in Sheng Min Ou’s living room, on this carpet, and having this scent in my mouth. It wasn’t like he was going to come out again at this time.
After I had extinguished my own fire, I picked up the bandage from one side and wiped away some of the stickiness, then stood up from the floor. I tidied up my clothes, and without caring about whether Sheng Min Ou was asleep or not, and whether he could hear me or not, I faced the direction of the bedroom and shouted, “I’ll be going now!”
After which, I turned to leave.
OOF TRASH, WE MEET AGAIN. why oh why does Lu Feng put up with this? What is SMO good at? Is it that he has a cold ruthless aura? Lu Feng, honey, every other dude you meet will have a cold ruthless aura. He’s a lawyer? Honey, he’s a corrupt ass unworthy lawyer, he r*ped you so like, LEAVE HIM!!! He’s good at golf? Lu Feng ah, eery other stereotypical rich, old man is also good at golf. So I’ll ask again, wth do you see in that trash. Is it weird that I was so happy when SMO was in pain for like a second.
Thank yous so much for the chapter <3 I really enjoy hating on SMO once in awhile 🙂
Your comment made me laugh even more than the chapter in itself. Relax, darling, it’s just a novel, so you don’t have to exhaust yourself thinking about it. Lu Feng isn’t bothered by it, so why would you be? The tags are pretty fair to the contents of the story, so you knew what to expect before coming here to read it. Things will get in track slowly, you just need to read the rest or to drop.
Oh wow… I don’t know what to think…
Thank you for the chapter 💕
sigh LF really has an amazingly shockingly perseverance… he’s talented for that I can say no more….
Thanks for the chapter ❤❤
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Thanks for the chapter ❤️
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Thank you for the chapter ~ ❤️💙💚
Thanks so much for the chapter. I feel like I read this with my eyes half covered – I almost don’t want to look but I can’t stop myself. All the ambiguity, the blurring of lines. Nothing is ever simple or starkly black and white in real life; humans are complex creatures with twisty emotions and thoughts and I think this novel certainly showcases that.
+1 well said
Is complete in translation. Everything will fall into place and you will realize that this isn’t the typical BL story you think you know. After reading the novel, please go listen to the radio drama. It really does breathe life to everyone and gives them all so much more depth.
Thank you for translating this!!!
This x2! It’s a big ask, but… If you can, reserve your judgement until all the truths have been revealed. There’s nothing typical about either of these men or the reasons and motives informing their actions.
I wouldn’t say that it is a judgement. My morals and values just shaped how I interpreted the characters when I started reading it. I still love the story very much and have grown to really accept and like the characters as we learn more. Please don’t misunderstand.
Mmm… this novel just makes me remember what my dad says, you can give advise and try to help, but (in the end) is their own ass.
hahaha, I’ll never forget when he said that lol
Thanks for the chapter ♡
Thanks for your hard work!
Lu Feng, Lu Feng, Lu Feng… 🤦🏻♀️ jesus, what a masochist you are!!
He’s a masochist only for Shen Ming Ou. Though it’s kind of sad to be treated so horribly like that and you still love that person. He’s such a supreme M. Well a perfect fit for a sadist like his dear big bro.😔
Everytime I advance a chapter I always say; leave him! Start a new life and just go! But then I go; if this passes, do I get my well awaited gong abuse?
I’m very disappointed with myself but I cannot stop.
Conflicted😳😡😭😀😩😳😡😭😩☹️😀
I no longer read this genre of Chinese novel as human romances… I can tell you now I’d never tolerate or be interested in such one sided relationship RATHER I find I identify how so many of us myself included debase ourselves in unhealthy fashion for work, jobs and careers. I stayed in a toxic company for 14 years when the writing was on the wall after 4.
Lu Feng having the time of his life ! Good for him