It took too long
For me to understand you did me wrong
You did me wrong
You give fake love like that
- When Angels Lie By Besomorph
It took an hour for Nine to calm down. The tea that Cassy made for him became lukewarm.
Lee continued to hold Lee through it all, rubbing his back, waiting for Nine to give him more information. He wanted to push and ask what Nine meant but waited, knowing his friend needed to cry it out first.
Once Nine felt like he did not have any more tears, he pulled back, rubbing his eyes. Cassy passed him a tissue. Nine took it, blowing his nose before holding onto the napkin once he finished.
“I have been cheating.” Nine started.
Cassy held back gasps while Lee looked surprised. It never crossed his mind that Nine would ever cheat on Quin. Even when Quin was not the best, Nine always stood by his side because he loved him too much.
“You’re cheating?” Lee asked, wanting to clarify that he heard right.
Nine nodded. “Remember the night we went out to the club, and I disappeared for a while?”
Cassy and Lee nodded.
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He did not want to look at his friend’s faces, fearing their disgust and judgmental expression for cheating. He knew that one day he would have to admit his misdeeds but to actually say them was torture. Nine did not want to lose his close friends.
But, instead of judging him, Lee grabbed Nine’s chin, pulling it up. They stared at each other as Lee looked more concerned than disgusted. “Nine, are you okay? I feel that you are already beating yourself up over this.”
“Are you not disgusted with me?” Nine asked, his heart beating fast in fear and anxiety.
“Cheating is wrong,” Lee commented, “but why should I be disgusted with you when you look so guilty.”
“I may feel guilty and regretful, but I kept doing it. God, I am still doing it, Lee. What is wrong with me?”
“There is nothing wrong with you.” Cassy and Lee simultaneously spoke. Cassy grabbed Nine’s thigh, squeezing it.
Nine bitterly laughed, “There has to be if not even the man I loved for seven years loves me back. And the first attention I received in a long time from someone else had me quickly jumping into their arms.”
“Nine, please stop with that thought; there is nothing wrong with you. You are only human—we all make mistakes. Now tell me what you mean—does Quin not love you?” Lee asked.
Nine shook his head as he looked up. His face started to scrunch up while tears began to fill his eyes again. They slowly fell down his face, landing on Jon’s hand. Cassy reached over with a tissue in her hand, wiping the falling drops on Nine’s face.
“Seven years, Jon. Seven fucking years! Why couldn’t I get him to love me, only think of me, and be the one in his heart? Am I not good enough? Was I a terrible boyfriend? I gave him everything. Every fucking part of me, and he still couldn’t spare me his heart.
“But he makes it seem like I did wrong by cheating on him. I am not trying to play the victim because I know my faults. But why do I feel like I am the victim? Tell me why we couldn’t be like you and Cassy. Am I incapable of being loved?
“I am jealous, hurt, devastated, and broken. But even then, why do I still want Quin to call me and tell me he does love me? I am an idiot, right?”
Nine thought he had no more tears, but he broke down again. He let out every grievance in his heart, not understanding where everything went wrong. And he cannot even say he wanted to return to being 15 because Nine knew he would be naive once more.
Maybe Nine is selfish and a terrible person. Because he still wants to hold on to Vee because he gives Nine so much attention he craves, but Nine also wish to hold onto Quin because he stupidly still loves him.
It is hard to fall out of love with someone he loved for seven years. His first love and first in everything still had a hold on him.
Cassy and Lee quickly hugged Nine, holding him as they felt like crying themselves. Seeing Nine’s broken expression and hearing his wavering voice hurt their hearts.
They cursed Quin in their hearts, not understanding how anyone could hurt someone like Nine. When Nine loves someone, he will stick by them and always cares for them. So, they didn’t understand how Quin could hurt him like this.
“Nine, please,” Lee begged, “don’t think about yourself like this. You made mistakes, but so did he. And he hurt you more than you hurt him. Nine, you are not a terrible person, and you are not playing a victim. Anyone would be hurt if the person they loved for so long did not feel the same.
“And nothing is wrong to want Quin to come to you. You cannot instantly change your heart in a snap of a finger.”
Cassy nodded, agreeing, “Nine, baby, he doesn’t deserve you, okay? I know it hurts, but you don’t need him. We are here for you, so know we are staying no matter what.”
Nine cried more, “Thank you. Thank you for being amazing friends.”
“You know we will always be here,” Lee responded. He and Cassy finally couldn’t hold back and cried with Nine, hurting for him.
Quin took a swing from the whiskey bottle, looking at Nine’s number on his phone. His finger hovered over the call button ever since Nine left. He had been debating on calling Nine or not.
After another minute, he ran his hand through his hair in frustration, switching to another contact instead. He pushed the call button, hearing the ringing tone.
He waited a few seconds before the other end answered.
“What?”
“Come over.”
“Are you drunk?” The person noted that Quin’s voice sounded weird.
“Just come over.” Quin hung up, switching back to Nine’s contact.
Instead of calling, he left a message.
Quin: Are you leaving me?
Note: I won’t lie, writing this chapter had me crying. I was crying a lot while writing lol. My heart broke for Nine. I can understand him so well.
Enserio Quin, estás preguntando si te ha dejado para ver si ya puedes estar con otra persona?
Poor Nine, is better if he be as far away from Quin as possible.
What the fuck Quin?! Where, where do you hide all your audacity!?
Quin you didn’t even try!? For the start (of the story) you didn’t even try to fix your relationship!