“Don’t think about anything else.”
“….”
“There won’t be any more difficult times. Even if there are, I’ll handle everything, so Yigyeom, you don’t have to worry about anything. Just think of good things. Tell me everything you wish for.”
“I… I hope I could see you, Chief, for a long, long time. It may not be up to me, but… still… I want to see you for a long time. That’s all I wish for….”
Kwon Taejung didn’t easily find an answer to Yigyeom’s words. It wasn’t an easy response because it wasn’t just a matter of telling him not to worry, which seemed too obvious.
Certainly, Yigyeom might have hoped for such an answer, but Kwon Taejung wanted to be more careful. It wasn’t because it was difficult to listen to what Yigyeom wanted, but rather because he wanted to embrace his seemingly anxious heart even more warmly and deeply.
“You might have noticed by now, but I’m a bit selfish. Doing what I want is natural and familiar to me. I’ve lived with the idea that it’s more efficient to work with energy for what I like than to dedicate myself to someone else for no apparent reason.”
“….”
“But seeing you changed my thoughts. I realized that liking someone and work have nothing to do with each other. I learned that doing what you want is more satisfying than doing what I want.”
Yigyeom met Kwon Taejung’s unwavering gaze and voice without the slightest hesitation. His firm and clear conviction made it feel like tears were about to fall.
“I used to think differently, even knowing that I don’t need to go that far. But I couldn’t help but worry about you, and I don’t regret spending time in the car. I liked being close to you. It was more comfortable than being at home.”
“….”
“You turned everything I thought and lived by upside down.”
“….”
“I was selfishly living my life before, but now, I’ve learned that doing what you want is more satisfying than doing what I want.”
Yigyeom faced Kwon Taejung’s steady eyes and listened to his words without avoiding them. The unshakable and clear sentiment made it feel like tears were about to fall.
“Even though I knew there was no need to go to such lengths, I couldn’t help but worry about you, and my feet didn’t move. I don’t regret spending time in the car. I enjoyed being close to you. It was more comfortable than being at home.”
“….”
“I thought it would be tough if the world turned upside down, but it’s so wonderful. Maybe my original self was already turned upside down compared to others. You’ve brought me back to my original self. Yigyeom, it’s you who did that.”
“….”
“In my upside-down world, there’s only you.”
Kwon Taejung, with a tender voice, gently tilted his head and overlapped his lips with Yigyeom’s trembling ones. Warmth spread between the lips that met so naturally. Kwon Taejung, who had only lightly touched his lips without using his tongue, gently caressed the touching tongue and kissed deeply.
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“Haah….”
“Even if you say you want to leave now, you can’t. Regretting saying that you want to see me for a long time is inevitable. I wasn’t joking when I said I wouldn’t let go.”
“….”
“I’m strongly attached to what I like. I’ve never been like this with anyone else, but I realized it when I saw you, Yigyeom. Oh, I’m even more intense with people.”
“….”
“Do you dislike it? Should I like it in moderation? Does it scare you and make you sick just to hear the words?”
Yigyeom silently lowered his head. Even if stronger words were spoken, it wouldn’t have scared or bored him.
And… he didn’t want to receive Kwon Taejung’s feelings in moderation. He wanted to receive everything, as full and encompassing as it was now, enough to completely melt his whole body.
In Kwon Taejung’s upside-down world.
He didn’t want to let go like a fool. He didn’t want to pretend not to know his feelings or hide his growing feelings towards Kwon Taejung. He wanted to show his enlarged feelings to Kwon Taejung. It might be his first time, awkward, and not in a pretty heart shape, but still… still, he wanted to show it. His first… love.
“…Please… please like me a lot….” Damn, it’s really damn cute. Kwon Taejung, who couldn’t make such an extravagant expression in this atmosphere, silently said it to himself and tilted his head to find the lips again. The words “like me a lot” were so lovely that he couldn’t bear it. It was an erection completely unrelated to Rut. “Ah….”
Yigyeom, who moaned in response to the feeling of the still-growing organ inside him, trembled uncontrollably.
Kwon Taejung, who embraced the trembling Yigyeom and laid him on the sofa, lifted his legs, placed them over his shoulders, and moved his waist. With a face that couldn’t take its eyes off Yigyeom, Kwon Taejung became erect several times throughout their intimate encounter. Kwon Taejung also focused solely on Yigyeom throughout their blending.
“Got it, I’ll like it a lot.”
“…Yes…. A lot….”
“A hell of a lot?”
Unable to voice those words aloud, Yigyeom nodded, his lips slightly trembling. Smiling at his response, Kwon Taejung exhaled heavily into Yigyeom, reaching climax.
Finding Yigyeom adorable as he flinched with each climax, Kwon Taejung repeatedly kissed his face all over.
“I’ll tell you and show you even more how much I like you. So you always know.”
“….”
“So you don’t feel alone.”
Smiling as he nodded, Yigyeom raised his hand, gently caressing Kwon Taejung’s face, which had no unattractive angles. His eyes, well-shaped nose, and lips that always filled his heart with affection.
Yigyeom couldn’t take his eyes off these captivating features, and he couldn’t bring himself to let go of Kwon Taejung’s face for a long time.
Even though it might be bothersome for him, Kwon Taejung didn’t utter a single complaint as Yigyeom touched his eyebrows, eyelashes, and even up to his well-groomed beard. He didn’t grimace or avoid her gaze, willingly offering his face throughout the entire process.
Whenever Kwon Taejung kissed his fingers to avoid hurting them or placed kisses on them, Yigyeom would softly laugh.
And each time Kwon Taejung faced that laughter, he recalled the voice that pleaded for him to like him even more, as if he would cry if he didn’t.
“…Like me a lot… a lot.”
Beyond merely liking him, he was willing to give everything he had. As long as this face could smile, as long as he could feel not lonely but happy in his upside-down world, there was nothing he couldn’t do now.
* * *
After sharing sex unrelated to lust all night, Kwon Taejung finally separated their bodies after a few more times in the morning, even while showering.
Despite entertaining extreme thoughts of wanting to live with Yigyeom, body and soul together forever, Kwon Taejung, who reluctantly separated from him, playfully tapped Yigyeom’s cheek, red from the intense breathing, as if finding it cute.
Although he wanted to continue teasing him with his tongue, his face looking up at him with a curious expression was too beautiful. However, he decided to endure it for now.
He knew well that he shouldn’t ruin Yigyeom, who had just managed to wash up because of his desires.
“Let’s take it easy at home today. Eat something delicious.”
“Yes….”
As Yigyeom replied with controlled breaths, he turned his head at the vibrating sound coming from nearby. Kwon Taejung’s phone, placed next to the bed, was ringing.
“Chief, there’s a call for you.”
“Oh? Uh, just a moment.”
Reaching out to check his phone, Kwon Taejung answered the call upon seeing his sister’s name. Upon hearing his sister say she wanted to discuss something related to work, nothing serious, he lightly kissed Yigyeom’s cheek and got up from the bed.
“I’ll take a break.”
“Yes….”
As Kwon Taejung left the room, Yigyeom, who was watching his retreating figure, relaxed and sprawled on the bed. Once he managed to pull the blanket over his body, drowsiness quickly overcame him.
‘I knotted you, so there’s a possibility of getting pregnant.’
He recalled what Kwon Taejung had said back then. Yigyeom, half-opening his eyes due to a lingering cold, lay on his back and glanced at Kwon Taejung’s empty spot.
To be honest, he hadn’t even considered the possibility of having a child when he came to Kwon Taejung. Even if he had thought about it, his decision would have remained the same. Nevertheless, the idea of having a child wasn’t something he could take lightly.
As Kwon Taejung mentioned, he was still too young. Although he had reached an age where he could live independently and lead his life, he felt it was not the age to give birth and raise a child.
“….”
Honestly, he couldn’t quite imagine it. What would it feel like to have a child? Yigyeom absentmindedly looked at Kwon Taejung’s empty pillow and instinctively hunched his body.
‘While it’s good for me, I think you, Yigyeom, are still young, and you have many things you want to do, many things to do, so it might not be all good.’
Although Kwon Taejung said that having many things he wanted to do and many tasks might not be all good, Yigyeom’s thoughts were slightly different. Rather than that, his biggest concern was that he felt inadequate to take responsibility for a child.
Of course, with Kwon Taejung by his side, but if, by some chance, he had to live alone with a baby, what should he do? Yigyeom sighed deeply, pulling the blanket up to his lips.
“….”
It’s not that she disliked the idea of having a child. How could she dislike it when it’s a child with the person she loves? However, practically, there were many concerns and a bit of fear, so her thoughts kept leaning in that direction.
“Haven’t you slept? Should I put you to bed?”
As the door opened, and the voice reached him, Yigyeom turned his body to see Kwon Tae-jung approaching the bed. Strangely, the moment he looked at that face, his complex and worried heart seemed to settle calmly. As Kwon Tae-jung climbed onto the bed, Yigyeom approached him, burying his face in the comforting embrace.
“Feeling unwell?”
Yigyeom, who lowered his head, denying such a thing, raised his head at Kwon Tae-jung’s touch, meeting his eyes.
“…I remembered what you said, that I might get pregnant.”
“Ah… were you thinking about that?”
“Yes.”
“Yigyeom, in any case, you come first for me. Even if you say you’re okay, getting pregnant at your age is too early, to be honest.”
Listening quietly to his words, Yigyeom once again buried his face in Kwon Tae-jung’s embrace, lost in thought. It seemed like it would be good to talk about what Yigyeom was thinking, what was worrying him. It was better to share thoughts rather than thinking alone because Kwon Tae-jung wouldn’t understand my heart if I kept it to myself.
“…If I only think about you, Chief… I think it would be okay for me to have a child. As you mentioned before, it would be something born between people who care for each other… But what worries me is…”
“Yeah, what worries you?”
“… I’m not someone who fits the position of someone compatible with the Chief… just in case, just in case I have to raise a child alone…”
