WARNING: THIS CHAPTER CONTAINS DEPICTIONS OF SEXUAL ASSAULT THAT MAY BE UPSETTING FOR SOME READERS.
Any persistence comes with a price.
Li Xiaobai thought his relationship with Blade was very subtle.
First and foremost, everyone except the two of them assumed that they were lovers, at least in the sense of an owner and a pet. This is due to Blade’s intentional and unintentional “affectionate and thoughtfulness”, such as cutting an orange and carrying him to the infirmary, and so on. Sometimes he will also deliberately give a very natural greeting or farewell kiss in front of everyone… These behaviors have intensified since the end of the Cold War! In addition to increased liberty, excessive touching, caressing, and cuddling are becoming more common…
Intimacy between males in prison is typically coarse and frequently involves s*xual content! Li Xiaobai had never been in a situation where he was treated with a warm and affectionate attitude by a possessive lover on a daily basis. This left him unclear about how to handle it.
However, they are not really lovers. Under the premise of one party claiming to obey, the two people on the contract of interests taunt each other with the same deadly blood, similar thinking angles, and style of existence. Each has its own secrets and is trying to figure out the other’s secrets.. They are attracted to each other, and… They are also suspicious of one another… This relationship is dangerous, exciting, and mixed with a trace of ambiguity.
In reality, after Lorenzo’s visit, Li Xiaobai considered leaving this game of mutual probing.
Because he knew very well that Lorenzo had found this place, and he couldn’t hide from that person.
Perhaps it’s a day, a week, or a month… He’ll come and take him away, making him regret hiding in prison to avoid him. Yes, he’ll make him regret even thinking about it…
Because hiding had lost its purpose, the game of hiding strength did not have to continue.
Li Xiaobai basically gave up on himself after Lorenzo left, passively waiting for that person to appear, sentence himself to death, and then send himself from prison to hell.
He was not very skilled at resisting him in the first place.
It took him three years to gather courage and one year to flee to the end of the earth. But now that he’s bound to fail, he lacks the confidence to keep going.
In fact, there’s no reason to go through all this trouble; wouldn’t it be better to be obedient? I will devote my entire body, heart, and soul to him. Anyway, everything was originally given to him.
Why are you still refusing to resign?
Why are you still not resigned to your fate?
Why are you still foolishly trying to seize a non-existent opportunity with bruises all over your body?
He’s exhausted, and it’s difficult to keep going.
But life is freaking fantastic! There is always something to learn from those around you. When you desire to persevere, one sentence may be enough to bring you down. When you want to give up, perhaps another statement will rekindle your fighting spirit!
Maybe he would have given up if not for what happened next?
On that day, the gloomy night sky of the prison was broken by terrible screams – just like countless ordinary prison nights.
Perhaps he should roll over and continue sleeping, as he had done countless nights before.
But tonight’s scream made Li Xiaobai extremely concerned…
That was Yellow Wolf’s voice.
Li Xiaobai had no interest in Yellow Wolf. He didn’t care about anyone. He couldn’t help it. He couldn’t help but walk to the door and peek at the adjacent cell through the little window. He only wanted to know what would happen to the dumb yet tragic man named Miller.
It became very noisy outside, and the lights on the entire hive were fully on!
Yellow Wolf appears to have been gravely injured, and even medical personnel were summoned in the middle of the night… Most of the inmates were awakened by the noise, and the iron door of each cell was loudly banging! Curses, yells, and whistles… In the midst of the pandemonium, the half-blooded Yellow Wolf’s visage became practically twisted, and several doctors and prison guards were unable to restrain him! His gruff and cracking voice rang madly throughout the hive…
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“You bitch!! You white bitch!! I will kill you… I will kill you!!! I will kill you without a burial place!! I will kill every filthy bastard in your family so miserable!! I want you to be fucked by all the men in the prison until you beg to die but can’t!!! I will kill you!! I will kill you, I will kill you…”
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Those eyes are so dazzling! Miller’s dilapidated body, with only a few breaths left, appeared out of place at the time, but it was so lovely that people’s hearts trembled! It seemed as if those eyes were the only thing left in his entire body, soul, and world…
Li Xiaobai subconsciously extended his hand and gripped his chest. He saw in those eyes what he least wanted to see at this moment… He did not dare look into them…
He turned his head evasively and spotted Vera standing apart, his face pallid.
“He will die,” Vera whispered.
He had just had s*x with Wolf Fang, and he was naked. In the narrow viewing window, he stood beside Li Xiaobai, draped in a quilt, peering at the pair of eyes in the gloom on the opposite side…
“He will die,” he repeated, biting his lips tightly.
Yellow Wolf never let go of Miller, and Miller never surrendered. The resistance of the weak reached its peak last night! He bit Yellow Wolf’s roots while being forced to have oral s*x!
I’m sure he’s been hating that garbage for a long time and is finally over it…
Of course, he paid the price for this: long-term physical abuse, coupled with mental depression, and finally the fatal kick in the heart from Yellow Wolf after he injured him yesterday!
Miller’s tough but exceedingly frail life came to an end on a hospital bed in the infirmary about three a.m. that night…
As Li Xiaobai had foreseen when he first met him, he would be very miserable and wouldn’t live long.
When Vera heard the news, he gave a cold sneer as usual: “A fool who insists on dying for no reason!”
Now that the person has died, Li Xiaobai is disappointed but more relieved to hear Vera mention this.
That’s correct; such a person is a fool, a fool.
So, we are right if we don’t persist.
This is the correct answer.
The day Miller’s coffin was carried out, thousands of inmates watched in silence on the bare ground.
When the black car disappeared into the vast and barren land, Vera was the only one with tears streaming down his face…
“Those who carry their foolish persistence to death are all hopeless fools.” Vera silently looked into the distance, and the clear sky outside the high barbed wire mesh reflected in his cornflower-like light blue eyes…
“But… I don’t even have ‘persistence’ anymore.”
Do not state that…
Do not mention that!
Li Xiaobai couldn’t help but want to take a deep breath… As if he were short on oxygen…
He does not like the answer. He does not like it. Because this answer ruthlessly pulled out all the genuine thoughts buried deep within his heart!
That process was quite uncomfortable.
And he knew the outcome would be even more awful…
In reality, sometimes it is more comfortable to live in an environment that opposes your wishes.
The opposite side of perseverance is the awareness of suffering.
He was unsure which side represented happiness…
Vera was released from prison one month later, after serving his sentence.
Who knows who is right and who is wrong between the living and the dead?
Li Xiaobai altered his mind, and he refused to give up.
He has decided not to withdraw the game; instead, he aims to upgrade it!
During the break time, having a conversation on crowded, bare ground will not attract the attention of a third party.
Li Xiaobai sits next to Blade. Previously, Blade was the one who stuck with him. Although Li Xiaobai usually followed the attachment rules and stayed next to his master within a three-meter radius, he took the initiative to stick to him, which was his first.
“Hey, when do you plan to be released from prison?” Li Xiaobai inquired casually, ignoring the rules.
“Plan?” Blade asked with a grin. “Shouldn’t you ask me when I will be released from prison?”
Li Xiaobai automatically skipped his hypocritical statements and got straight to the point: “Who are you here to kill? I’ll solve it for you! There is only one thing: after this job is done, I want to join ‘Blade‘.”
“What makes you think I’m here to kill someone?” Blade looked at him with a playful smile.
“I originally didn’t know.” Li Xiaobai withdrew his gaze from his face and looked over the inmates of various forms on the bare ground beneath the high platform with him. “At first, I assumed you were here to hide from people like me, because at the time, although I suspected from your movements that you were a member of the killer organization ‘Blade‘, I assumed you were just another member. So, at first, I assumed you had sought refuge following the assignment.”
“Since I got away from that person, I’ve been thinking about what I’m going to do next. The greatest method to survive after quitting one organization is to join another that has equal or higher authority. In reality, I was eager to approach you in the first place because I wanted to find a chance for you to introduce me to the ‘Blade‘ and then join in.”
“Why does it have to be ‘Blade‘?” Blade still looked at him with a smile, but there was an unpredictable look in his eyes. “The power of the Leo family is not inferior to ours. Furthermore, ‘Blade‘ can only work underground. The aristocratic family, on the other hand, has the shade beneath the sun to take advantage of, as in the previous instance, only Wolf Fang, with the entire Chase family standing behind him, could step forward, correct?”
Li Xiaobai remained silent for a moment and sighed, “Compared to that man, Lorenzo is not much better; jumping from one fire pit to another makes no sense to me. What’s more,” He looked down at his hands and said, “I don’t know anything; I have no other choice but to be a killer.”
Blade stretched out and caressed his head; the gesture was a bit of pampering. “So, when did you first realize I wasn’t an ordinary member?”
“The first time we fought. At that time, I was just a little suspicious, because your skills were so outstanding, beyond the standards of ordinary members. If regular members of the ‘Blade‘ reach this level, the ‘Blade‘ should not be as well-known as it is now.
I became suspicious when I was writing a semi-cursive script. According to previous reports, the new head of ‘Blade‘ is a Chinese-American mix… Furthermore, having the same name as the group would be too pompous for an ordinary member.
Then again, there’s Wolf Fang’s attitude. He’s certainly attempting to win you over. If you were just an ordinary killer, your attitude towards the young master of the Chase family would be overly attentive.
Even if he is naturally enthusiastic and hungry, your attitude is out of character. You are too close to him, and as we are all aware, members of the killer organization are not allowed to have personal ties.
But all of this makes sense if you change your identity to the leader of the Blade. Because you are the leader, there is no need to go to prison to hide from the others. The most likely reason you’ve come here is to kill someone.”
Li Xiaobai pursed his lips slyly. “But this is also quite intriguing… If you came here to kill someone, you have reportedly been in prison for four months. In my perspective, nobody in this prison is your opponent! So, why haven’t you acted for so long?”
“What do you think it is for?” Blade looked at him with interest.
“I don’t care.” Li Xiaobai squinted his eyes slightly and glanced into the distance. “Whether you doesn’t want to kill, can’t kill, or finds it difficult to do it personally, as long as the killer takes the order, you can’t miss it. If you can’t do it, I will.” He turned around and stared at Blade provocatively. “This is my gift to you for joining the organization.”
The wind blew between them, raising Li Xiaobai’s smooth and delicate hair. His sparkling eyes, like stars, were just visible beneath the undulating strands of hair… Blade, almost uncontrollably, slowly bent down and kissed his eyelashes…
“How can you be certain that I will definitely accept you?”
Li Xiaobai closed his eyes under the pressure of his lips and said, “I’m not sure; I’m just taking a gamble because I don’t have time. After being disturbed by Lorenzo, that person… should already know the news about me. Maybe tomorrow or the next second, he will appear here and take me back.”
Blade stood up and carefully flicked his hair away with his fingers, raising his face. “Actually, you were an unexpected gain for me in this small prison. I had always planned to absorb you into Blade before.”
“I know.” Li Xiaobai smiled self-deprecatingly.
Blade released his finger and added, “But later on, I realized you were really a big fish. I can’t absorb the only heir of ‘Mo’; maybe it will affect assimilation.”
Li Xiaobai’s gaze lingered for a second before he muttered, “When did you know?”
“The day you were taken away by Lorenzo.”
Li Xiaobai nodded. “Let’s say that you actually have someone visiting the prison; are you here to deliver the news? Have you been checking on me for a long time?”
“Indeed.” Blade wasn’t trying to conceal it. “Mo’s organization and confidentiality are much more mature than Ren’s. Moreover, because you are succession, the information about the heirs is basically top secret, and I didn’t know much about it until now. If you hadn’t run away from home a year ago, which forced Mo to use all its intelligence to investigate your whereabouts, perhaps I wouldn’t have been able to find anything.”
“Running away from home?” Li Xiaobai was taken aback for a moment and muttered, “Your wording is really gentle.”
“Your behavior can only make me think that way.” Blade glanced at him. “The only heir of the top killer organization, with his opulence and heavy security, there appears to be no reason to force you out. What? Was it to escape a spanking from your father?”
Li Xiaobai looked at him and smiled bitterly. “You could say that.”
Blade did not show any expression of belief or disbelief, instead staring at the horizon and thinking for a long time before quietly stating, “Okay, I want you. But you must prove your loyalty to me. After all, you have an awkward identity and a history of defection.”
Knowing that Blade already knew his identity, Li Xiaobai had fully given up on joining Blade… He never expected that he would agree like this! So he reacted for a long time before asking in a stupor, “How can I prove it?”
Blade took the cigarette from his lips and coldly stated, “Kill Ben.”
Li Xiaobai remained silent for a moment, as if these two words were more overwhelming than just when Blade said he would accept him…
After a long time, fury and blood welled up in his eyes.
Blade saw Li Xiaobai’s dark pupils get even more tainted, and he found this scene quite appealing!
His eyes are most beautiful when they are filled with killing intent—so beautiful that people are willing to die by his hands!
This young man was really born to be a killer.
“I won’t kill Ben.” Li Xiaobai said softly, “He tried to save me.”
“How did he save you?” Blade raised his eyebrows and inquired casually.
Li Xiaobai lowered his eyes and restrained his killing aura. “Maybe you have the ability to give me ten thousand yuan, but he can only give me one yuan. But ten thousand yuan is a drop in the bucket for you, and one yuan is all he has. I didn’t kill him not because he saved me, but because he wanted to save me.”
Blade gazed at his drooping eyelids and lowered his voice, whispering in a wistful tone, “Do you remember your first meal in this prison? At that time, you gave the only orange you had to four people. Vera asked you why, and your response revealed three attributes about you: being aware of the current circumstance, comprehending and repaying kindness, and respecting the vulnerable.”
To be honest, these characteristics are not appropriate for a killer, but I like them very much.
But now your mission is not to make me like you, but to prove to me that you can be a killer qualified to join the Ren! I’m not asking you to erase yourself, because that would not be you, but you are an adult. The biggest difference between adults and children is that they know how to restrain themselves.”
Blade raised Li Xiaobai’s chin and peered at him. “Now I want you to restrain some of your qualities, can you?”
“I refuse.”
Blade stayed in that position for a long time before the gathering bell rang, signaling the end of the release.
He let go of his hand and leaped down the platform indifferently, “It appears there is nothing else to say.”
The parting cold war has officially begun.
To Be Continued…
T/n: Miller doesn’t deserved any sh*t he went through, he may rest in peace…
